The Black Dagger Brotherhood Novels 1-4

by J. R. Ward

  “Please, John, we’re…I’m worried about you.”

  At one time, three months ago, he would have loved to have heard those words from her. From anybody. But no more. He didn’t want her concern. He wanted her to get out of his way.

  When he shook his head, she took a deep breath. “All right. I’m going to leave more food in the office, okay? Please…eat.”

  He inclined his head once, and when she lifted her hand as if to reach out, he stepped away. Without another word, she turned around and walked back across the blue mats.

  When the door shut behind her, John jogged back to the far side of the gym and crouched to start running. As he took off once again, he lifted his blade high, rank hatred powering his arms and legs.

  Mr. X flipped into action at high noon, walking into the garage of the house he recharged in, getting into the don’t-notice-me minivan that disguised him among Caldwell’s human traffic.

  He had no interest in his assignment, but you acted when the master called in a command and you were the Fore-lesser. It was either that or you got canned, something Mr. X had been through once before and not enjoyed: Having the Omega slap a pink slip on you was about as much fun as eating a barbed-wire salad.

  The fact that Mr. X was back on the flipping planet and in this role once again was still a shocker to him. But it seemed as if the master had grown tired of his revolving door of Fore-lessers and wanted to make one stick. As Mr. X had evidently been the best of the lot in the last fifty or sixty years, he’d been called into service for another round.

  Reissued out of hell.

  And so he was going to work today. As he pushed the key into the ignition and the Town & Country’s anemic engine coughed over, he was utterly uninspired, no longer the leader he’d first been. But it was hard to get motivated in this kind of lose/lose situation. The Omega was going to get pissed off again and take it out on his number one. It was inevitable.

  In bright noonday sun, Mr. X headed out of the fresh and perky subdivision, passing by Monopoly houses that had been built in the late 1990s. The things all shared a common architect, the gene pool of features locking the homes into cheap variations on duck-and-bunny adorable. Lot of front porches with insubstantial molding. Lot of plastic shutters. Lot of seasonal decorations, this time themed out on Easter.

  Perfect hiding place for a lesser: a bramble of frazzled soccer moms and hassled midmanagement daddies.

  Mr. X took Lily Lane out to Route 22, pausing at the STOP sign to the big road. Using a GPS tracker, he got a ballpark location on the place in the woods that the Omega had asked him to pay a visit to. Travel time to destination was twelve minutes and that was good. The master was all impatient, eager to see if his plan with that Trojan human had worked, all jonesing to know if the Brotherhood had taken their little pal back.

  Mr. X thought about the guy, sure that the two of them had met before. But even as he wondered about the where and when of it, none of that mattered today. And it hadn’t mattered when Mr. X had been working the tough bastard over, either.

  Jesus, that had been a hard SOB. Not one word about the Brotherhood had passed the man’s lips, no matter what was done to him. Mr. X had been impressed. Guy like that would have been quite an asset if they could have turned him.

  Or maybe that had already happened. Maybe that human was one of them now.

  A little later, Mr. X parked the Town & Country on Route 22’s shoulder and hoofed it into the woods. Snow had fallen last night in some freak March storm, and it padded the pine boughs, like the trees had geared up to play football with each other. Kind of pretty, actually. If you were into the nature shit.

  The farther he went through the forest, the less he needed the tracker because he could feel the master’s essence, sure as if the Omega was up ahead. Maybe the human hadn’t gotten picked up by the Brothers—

  Well, what do you know.

  As Mr. X emerged into a clearing, he saw a scorched circle on the ground. The heat that had flared there had been great enough to melt the snow and mud-up the ground for a time and the now refrozen earth showed the contours of the burst. All around, remnants of the Omega’s presence lingered, like the stink of summer garbage long after the trash had been picked up.

  He breathed in through his nose. Yup, there was something human in the mix, too.

  Holy shit, they’d killed the guy. The Brotherhood had exterminated that human. Interesting. Except…why hadn’t the Omega known the man was dead? Maybe there hadn’t been enough in him to have him get called home to the master?

  The Omega wasn’t going to like this report. He was allergic to failure: it made him itchy. And itchy led to bad things for Fore-lessers.

  Mr. X knelt down to the withered earth and envied the human. Lucky bastard. When a lesser bit it, what waited for him on the other side was an endless liquid misery, a horror bath that was every Christian’s vision of hell times a thousand: After slayers were killed, they returned to the veins of the Omega’s body, circling and recircling in an evil swill of other dead lessers, becoming the very blood the master put in you when you were inducted into the Society. And for these reconstituting slayers, there was no end to the burning cold or the driving starvation or the crushing pressure because you remained conscious. For eternity.

  Mr. X shuddered. An atheist in life, he hadn’t thought of death as anything other than a dirt nap. Now, as a lesser, he knew exactly what was waiting for him when the master lost patience and “fired” him again.

  And yet there was hope. Mr. X had found a little loophole, assuming the pieces fell together right.

  By a stroke of luck, he might have found a way out of the Omega’s world.

  Chapter Eight

  Butch took three long, trippy days to wake up and he resurfaced from his coma in the manner of a buoy, popping out of the depths of nothingness and wobbling on top of reality’s lake of sights and sounds. Eventually, he put things together enough to understand that he was looking at a white wall in front of him and hearing a soft beeping in the background.

  Hospital room. Right. And the ties on his arms and legs were now gone.

  Just for kicks and giggles, he rolled over onto his back and pushed his head and shoulders off the bed. He kept himself upright because he liked the sensation of the room going around. It distracted him from his Whitman’s Sampler of aches and pains.

  Man, he’d had bizarre, wonderful dreams. Marissa at his bedside caring for him. Stroking his arm, his hair, his face. Whispering to him to stay with her. That voice of hers had been what kept him in his body, what kept him back from the white light that any idiot who’d seen Poltergeist knew was the afterlife. For her, he’d somehow hung on, and going by the steady, strong beat of his heart, he knew he was going to make it.

  Except, of course, the dreams had all been a gyp. She wasn’t here and now he was stuck in this bag of skin of his until the next badass thing took him down.

  Goddamn it, just his rotten luck to have kept breathing.

  He looked up at the IV pole. Eyeballed the catheter bag. Then glanced over at what appeared to be a bathroom. Shower. Oh, God, he’d give his left nut for a shower.

  As he shifted his legs around, he was aware that what he was about to do was probably a very bad call. But he told himself, as he hung up the catheter bag next to his IV meds, that at least the room spins had mostly stopped.

  A couple of deep breaths and he grabbed the IV pole to use as a cane.

  Feet hit the cold floor. Weight eased onto his legs.

  Knees buckled without hesitation.

  As he fell back on the bed, he knew he wasn’t going to make it to the bathroom. With no hope of hot water, he turned his head and eyed the shower with naked lust—

  Butch inhaled like he’d been cracked on the back of the head.

  Marissa lay sleeping on the floor in the corner of the room, curled up on her side. Her head rested on a pillow and a beautiful gown of pale blue chiffon spilled over her legs. Her hair, that incredi
ble waterfall of pale blond, that medieval romance novel rush of waves, was all around her.

  Holy shit. She had been with him. She had truly saved him.

  His body had newfound strength as he stood and lurched across the linoleum. He wanted to kneel down but knew he’d probably get stuck on the floor, so he settled for standing over her.

  Why was she here? Last thing he knew, she didn’t want to have anything to do with him. Hell, she’d refused to see him back in September when he’d come to her hoping for…everything.

  “Marissa?” His voice was shot to shit and he cleared his throat. “Marissa, wake up.”

  Her lashes flicked open and she snapped upright. Her eyes, those pale blue, sea-glass-colored eyes, shot to his. “You’re going to fall!”

  Just as his body swayed backward and he toppled off his heels, she leaped to her feet and caught him. In spite of her willowy body, she took all of his weight easily, reminding him that she was no human woman and was likely stronger than he was. As she helped him back onto the bed and pulled the sheets over him, the fact that he was weak as a child and she was treating him like one out of necessity bit into his pride.

  “Why are you here?” he asked, his tone as sharp as his embarrassment.

  When her eyes didn’t meet his, he knew she also was uncomfortable with their situation. “Vishous told me you were hurt.”

  Ah, so V had guilted her into this Florence Nightingale routine. That bastard knew Butch was a simpering idiot for her and that the sound of her voice would do exactly what it did and bring him around. But it was a helluva position for her to be in, a reluctant rope to the proverbial lifeboat.

  Butch grunted as he rearranged himself. And also from the knock his pride was taking.

  “How do you feel?” she said.

  “Better.” Comparatively. Then again, he could have been dragged under a bus and still been miles ahead of what the lesser had done to him. “So you don’t have to stay.”

  Her hand drifted off the sheet and she took a slow breath, her breasts rising under the expensive bodice of her gown. As she wrapped her arms around herself, her body became an elegant s-curve.

  He looked away, ashamed because part of him wanted to take advantage of her pity and keep her with him. “Marissa, you can go now, you know.”

  “Actually, I can’t.”

  He frowned and glanced back at her. “Why not.”

  She paled, but then lifted her chin. “You’re under—”

  There was a hiss and an alien walked into the room, the figure dressed in a yellow suit and a breathing mask. The face behind the molded plastic was female, but the features indistinct.

  Butch looked back at Marissa with horror. “Why the fuck aren’t you wearing one of those getups?” He had no idea what kind of infection he had, but if it was bad enough that the medical staff was pulling a Silkwood, he had to imagine he was deadly.

  Marissa cringed, making him feel like a total thug. “I…I’m just not.”

  “Sire?” the nurse interrupted gently. “I’d like to take a blood sample if you don’t mind?”

  He kicked out a forearm while still glaring at Marissa. “You were supposed to be wearing one of those when you came in, weren’t you? Weren’t you?”

  “Yes.”

  “Goddamn it,” he snapped. “Why didn’t you—”

  As the nurse nailed him a good one in the crook of his elbow, Butch’s strength ran out of him like she’d popped the balloon of his energy with that needle of hers.

  Dizziness slammed into him and his head fell back against the pillow. But he was still pissed off. “You should have one of those on.”

  Marissa didn’t respond, just paced around.

  In the silence, he glanced over at the little vial that was plugged into his vein. As the nurse swapped it for an empty one, he couldn’t help noticing that his blood seemed darker than usual. Much darker.

  “Good God…what the hell’s coming out of me?”

  “It’s better than it was. Much so.” The nurse smiled through the mask.

  “Then what color was it before,” he muttered, thinking the shit looked like brown sludge.

  When the nurse was done, she shoved a thermometer under his tongue and checked the machines behind the bed. “I’ll bring you some food.”

  “Has she eaten,” he mumbled.

  “Keep your mouth closed.” There was a beeping noise and the nurse took the plastic-covered stick from his lips. “Much better. Now, is there anything you’d like?”

  He thought of Marissa risking her life because of guilt. “Yeah, I want her to get out of here.”

  Marissa heard the words and stopped walking around. Easing back against the wall, she glanced down at herself and was surprised to find that her gown still fit her the same. She felt half her usual size. Small. Insubstantial.

  As the nurse left, Butch’s hazel eyes burned. “How long do you have to stay?”

  “Until Havers tells me I can go.”

  “Are you sick?”

  She shook her head.

  “What are they treating me for?”

  “Your injuries from the car accident. Which were extensive.”

  “Car accident?” He looked confused, then nodded at the IV as if he wanted to change the subject. “What’s in there?”

  She linked her arms over her chest and recited the antibiotics, the nutrients, the pain meds, and the anticoagulants he was on. “And Vishous comes in to help as well.”

  She thought of the Brother and his disarming diamond eyes and the tattoos at his temple…and his obvious dislike of her. He was the only one who came into the room without protective clothing on and he dropped by twice a day, at the beginning and the end of night.

  “V’s been here to visit?”

  “He lays his hand above your belly. It eases you.” The first time that warrior had stripped the sheets from Butch’s body and pulled up the hospital johnny, she’d been speechless both at the intimate sight and the Brother’s authority. But then she’d grown mute for another reason. Butch’s belly wound had been frightening—and then Vishous had scared her, too. He’d taken off the glove she’d always seen him wear, revealing a glowing hand that was tattooed front to back.

  She’d been terrified about what would happen next, but Vishous just hovered that palm of his about three inches over Butch’s belly. Even in the coma, Butch had sighed raggedly in relief.

  Afterward, Vishous had rearranged the hospital johnny and the bedsheets and turned to her. He’d told her to close her eyes, and though she was scared of him, she did. Almost immediately a profound peace had come over her, as if she were bathed in white, calming light. He did that to her each time before he left, and she knew he was protecting her. Although she couldn’t think of why, given that he clearly despised her.

  She refocused on Butch and thought about his wounds. “You weren’t in a car accident, were you?”

  He closed his eyes. “I’m very tired.”

  As he shut her out, she sat on the bare floor and clasped her arms around her knees. Havers had wanted to bring things in like a cot or a comfortable chair, but she’d been concerned that if Butch’s vitals crashed again, the medical staff wouldn’t be able to get the necessary equipment to the bedside fast enough. Her brother hadn’t disagreed.

  After God only knew how many days of this, her back was stiff and her eyelids were like sandpaper, but she hadn’t felt tired when she’d been fighting to keep Butch alive. Hell, she hadn’t even noticed the passage of time, had always been surprised when food was brought in or the nurses or Havers came. Or Vishous arrived.

  So far, she wasn’t sick. Well, she had felt ill before Vishous stopped by for the first time. But ever since he’d started doing whatever he did with that hand of his, she’d been fine.

  Marissa glanced up to the hospital bed. She was still curious why Vishous had called her to this room. Surely that warrior’s hand was doing more good than she was.

  As the machines beeped softly and
the air blower came on up in the ceiling, her eyes drifted down the length of Butch’s still body. A flush hit her face as she thought of what was underneath the covers.

  She knew what every inch of him looked like now.

  His skin was smooth over all his muscle and he was tattooed on the small of his back with black ink—a series of lines grouped in fours with each bundle carrying a slash that ran at an angle. Twenty-five of them, if she added correctly, some having faded, as if made years ago. She wondered what they commemorated.

  As for the front of him, the dusting of dark hair across his pectorals had been a surprise, as she hadn’t known humans weren’t bare-skinned as her kind were. He didn’t have a lot of hair on his chest, though, and it narrowed quickly, becoming a thin line under his belly button.

  And then…She was ashamed of herself, but she’d looked at his male sex. The hair at the juncture of his legs was dark and very dense, and from the midst, he had a thick stalk of flesh almost as wide as her wrist. What was below was a heavy, potent sack.

  He was the first male she’d ever seen naked and the nudes from Art History just weren’t the same as the real thing. He was beautifully made. Fascinating.

  She let her head fall back and stared at the ceiling. How unattractive was it that she’d invaded his privacy? And how unattractive that her body stirred just remembering?

  God, how much longer now before she could get out of here?

  She absently fingered the fine fabric of her gown and tilted her head so she could look at the fall of pale blue chiffon. The lovely creation by Narciso Rodriguez should have been utterly comfortable, but her corset, which she wore always as was proper, was really starting to bug the hell out of her. The thing was, though, she wanted to look nice for Butch, even though he wouldn’t care and not because he was ill. He just wasn’t attracted to her anymore. Didn’t want her around, either.

  Still, she would continue to dress well when fresh clothes were brought in.

  Pity that what she wore here had to go into the incinerator. What a shame to burn all those dresses.