A Beautiful Mess b-2

by Emily Mckee

  I gave her the lamest excuse ever saying, “It would just be cheaper for us to room together. You know what I mean?” I felt like a total fuck-up but she just shrugged her shoulders like it didn’t matter to her. It kind of hurt. No scratch that; it hurt like a motherfucker. It felt like I was getting stabbed in the heart and the person was twisting the knife inside me. But this is the way it should be because Ash doesn’t need a mess like me in her life.

  We have known each other since our freshman year of school but nothing would ever happen between us.

  Ash is fucking gorgeous but I’m a mess. Mess is kind of an understatement but it’s the closest thing I can think of. Anyway, Ash doesn’t need that in her life. She deserves someone who is … well, not me. I couldn’t bear to see Ash hurt because of me because I know with so much certainty that I would fuck it up. Besides, Ash is way out of my league.

  The girl is fucking incredible. She has these nice perky tits that are just begging to be sucked on. She has these plump, fuck-me lips and I want a taste. But I don’t think a taste would do it for me because once I got a taste of just how sweet she was I would probably never be the same.

  Not only does she have an incredibly amazing body but she’s fucking hilarious. She always has a witty comment and she’s always laughing about something. I swear, her laugh does me in. Every single time I hear it I feel alive. Her laugh is amazing but I especially love it when I can get her to laugh. She holds her stomach and she laughs so hard that her tits bounce up and down.

  Every single time she laughs like that I picture her riding my cock. I get hard just thinking about being in her tight, wet pussy, legs on either end of me and her hair falling over her shoulders but cold water instantly douses my hard on because while Ash has a fuck-me body I know she’s sweet and safe.

  Throughout the years I often wondered why she never dated anyone but then all of a sudden this year she met Derrick and BAM, they were in a relationship. I figured since she was in one I might as well start dating Christy.

  Christy and I had fucked every once in a while. I had met her at a party and she was all over me. Of course I was drunk and taking her home that night I attempted to fuck Ash out of my system. After that I guess you could say we were fuck buddies. Whenever I needed a release she was there; lying on her back, wet and ready. I didn’t care about getting her off. I just needed to fuck Ashlynn out of my head. But every time I looked at Christy my dick would start to get soft. Any girl for that matter really. So I would close my eyes and when I closed my eyes every single time I saw Ash. Before I knew it I would be pumping into Christy and coming. I always had to bite my lip because there were a few times when I almost roared Ashlynn’s name.

  I may be an asshole but I know calling another girl’s name out in bed is, well, you just don’t do it. I mean unless your cock and balls aren’t important to you. So I just picture the girl in my head while slamming into another girl and trying to block out the fake moans and whimpers because the only whimpers and moans I want to hear … are Ash’s.

  The second I found out Ash broke up with Derrick I quit seeing Christy. I just couldn’t take it anymore. I thought maybe since Ashlynn was happy I would be happy but her happiness was not because of me. It was with a guy she barely knew and I hated every second of it. They were always so touchy feely around me and every single time I wanted to beat the fuck out of him. It was bad enough I had to see him hold her hand or kiss her on the lips but I became enraged thinking about what they were doing behind closed doors, or when I wasn’t there.

  I also hated the little prick because when nobody else was looking he would give me these little winks or smiles. Almost as if he was baiting me and telling me that he was with Ashlynn and I wasn’t and probably never would be.

  I still held out a small amount of hope that maybe Ash could fix the huge ass problems in my life, but I knew it wouldn’t be easy. And plain and simple I honestly didn’t think I’m worth saving so I let her live her life.

  I sounded like a fucking stalker but she meant everything to me. I held out for the moments where I could make her laugh from a comment. I held out for the moments that I could hold her in my arms while she cried. I held out for the moments where I got to see her beautiful face and that smile she gave me. Sometimes I’d watch her when she smiled at other people and I swear to Christ the way she looked at me was different compared to everyone else. But I thought that just my mind was playing crazy tricks on me because Ash would never look in my direction. To her I was just her best friend’s annoying twin brother and nothing else.

  There have been numerous times where I had wanted to tell Ash how I felt about her or show her. I’d wanted to throw her up against the wall and just devour her mouth. Say, “fuck the world,” and go for it, but she didn’t need someone flipping it upside down, sideways, front to back, and every which way in between.

  Although now that I mention that it would be nice if we were naked up against the wall or in the backseat of a car fucking each other’s brains out. But this is Ash and I wouldn’t want to fuck her. I would want to take my time with her and have her moan and writhe in enjoyment and come undone beneath me. Over and over again.

  I don’t know what it was but ever since we got on the plane to come and surprise Iz for her birthday something was just sticking out about Ashlynn and I couldn’t take it much longer. The second I put my bag in the overhead compartment she made little grunting noises of distaste and disgust. She didn’t talk to me the entire flight to Vegas because she just put her head phones in her ears and listened to music while reading a book. Since I had no form of entertainment I just slept and dreamt about Ash.

  Once we all checked into our rooms and dropped off our bags we went to go surprise Iz for her birthday. She was so excited when she opened the door and after the initial shock she let us all in. We hung out for a little bit and then Maddox sent Isabelle, Sarah, Jade, Patrick, and Ash to the spa for the day to get facials and a bunch of girly shit done to them.

  Not one of them needed it, especially Ash. She was a lot like Iz in that she rarely wore make-up and when she did it was mascara. Ash is a beautiful girl but I always wondered what it would be like seeing her waking up in the morning in my arms.

  After the girls left Maddox, Gabe, Derrick, and I went down to the casinos to do some gambling. None of us were really that good but we had fun drinking a few beers and bullshitting about nothing important. Maddox wouldn’t shut up about how happy he was with Iz. Gabe couldn’t shut up about how he couldn’t wait to marry Sarah. Meanwhile I wanted to punch both of them in their fucking faces because they just kept rambling.

  I was happy they were both happy but they just kept talking and talking and talking. So I just picked up my beer bottle and started chugging when Maddox said, “So Derrick what’s going on with you?”

  I wasn’t really interested in hearing what that fuck had to say so I tried to mentally block it out but then he said, “Oh, I’m dating someone.”

  I started choking on my beer and when I calmed down I looked over at the asshole.

  He was going on and on about how amazing the person was and how he saw a future with them.

  I instantly saw red and started yelling at him. “ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? YOU JUST BROKE UP WITH ASH! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE?”

  I slammed my beer bottle on the table and was getting up to knock the bastard out when Maddox stepped behind me and said, “Calm down, Jason.”

  Somehow I managed to get him off of me and turned my anger on him. “ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW! WHY WAS THAT ASSHOLE EVEN INVITED?”

  That’s when Gabe stood up and grabbed my arm. “Can I see you for a minute?”

  I let out the breath I was holding and said, “Yeah sure.”

  Gabe and I walked into the corner and I was just about to apologize when Gabe said, “Look Jason, I invited Derrick because I really like him. We are all here to celebrate Iz’s birthday and Sarah and my upcoming nuptials. We ARE NOT h
ere for you to become all macho and start stupid arguments. You hear me?”

  I looked away because if I didn’t I would have punched Gabe in the face and then I would have to deal with Sarah. And if I thought Jade was scary when she was angry I can only imagine what Sarah’s like. I looked back at Gabe and staring at him I pointed in the direction of Maddox and Derrick and said, “Fine but if I hear that asshole motherfucker talk about his girl one more time while we’re here I will fuck his shit up. I’m not kidding Gabe.”

  And for the life of me Gabe laughed and said, “Alright killer, let’s go back.”

  Like what the fuck is his problem. I was surprised I was the only one getting pissed at Derrick mentioning the girl he was seeing while Ash was our friend.

  I decided to get ready in Sarah and Gabe’s room because I didn’t know if Ash was still mad at me so I just wanted to give Ash her space. When we went to dinner I tried to sit as far away from her as possible but of course the only other available seat at the table was the one right across from her.

  I tried to not look in her direction because Christ, my dick was already swelling up just catching a glimpse at what she was wearing. She had on this tight red dress that dipped in the front and showed off her perky tits. I couldn’t help licking my lips because I wondered just how sweet they would taste in my mouth. I mean I am a guy after all and Ashlynn was WOW!

  She must have caught me staring because the next thing I knew she was wrapping her arms in front of her and I looked up and saw the most adorable scowl on her face. I tried to get out of it by winking at her but HOLY SHIT because Ashlynn blushed. I mean her cheeks turned a shade of red. I didn’t think she could help it because her scowl started to turn into a smile but then she shook her head and the scowl appeared back on her face.

  The asshole Derrick was sitting next to her and he leaned over and whispered something in her ear. I wondered what it was because she looked back at me and then turned to Derrick and shook her head.

  The rest of dinner I tried not to jump over the table. Not only did I want to rip Ashlynn’s dress off her body but I wanted to wipe the smile off Derrick’s face. It was just pissing me off how he would giggle with her and poke her side. Meanwhile this afternoon he was bragging about his new girl.

  People tried to get me to join in on their conversations but I just wasn’t in the mood. I knew that once we got to the club I would be able to really drink and enjoy myself, so I would just have to deal with the mess I was in until then.

  Once we paid for dinner we headed off to the club, Chateau Nightclub & Gardens, this hot server escorted us to our tables. Maddox had a table reserved for us so after singing, “Happy Birthday” to Iz and toasting to Sarah and Gabe we started the long night ahead of us.

  I thought the server would leave once she got all of our drinks but she walked up to me and sat down on my lap. “I’m Samantha, so just let me know if I can get you anything else tonight.” Oh I so knew what this means.

  Looking in Ashlynn’s direction I planned to rub it in her face but that asshole, Derrick pulled her out onto the dance floor. I almost lost my shit right there but then I felt Samantha’s hand going into my pocket and when I looked down I saw she was putting her phone number there. I looked at her and she was looking back at me. With that she winked and then turned to the rest of the group and said, “I’ll be back with your drinks.”

  I couldn’t help it but I turned around to watch her ass shake as she left our table but then I saw red. A beautiful girl wearing red. She was swaying her hips and her head was hanging back while she was laughing and having a good time.

  I had decided to just drink my beer and watch her for a little while. Maybe a little liquid courage would help me out but then I saw some cocksucker walk up behind her and grab her by the hips.

  While one of my hands strangled the neck of the beer bottle the other was clenching into a fist. I wanted to beat his fucking ass but she seemed fine with it so I let it go. They started grinding into one another and danced for a couple of seconds and then something happened.

  He had turned her around and was trying to kiss her but I saw her hands on his chest trying to push him away. I was immediately out of my seat walking towards them. It felt like I couldn’t get there fast enough. I was pushing people out of the way to get to Ashlynn. He kept trying to kiss her but she managed to push him away and said, “I’m not interested.” The second she turned her back he grabbed her by the wrist and I fucking lost it. Within seconds I got him to let go of Ashlynn and I punched that guy right in his nose.

  He immediately fell to the floor and I yelled, “KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF MY GIRL YOU MOTHERFUCKER!” The club was so loud that nobody else noticed except for Ashlynn, myself and that bastard. After he got up and left I looked over in the direction of Ashlynn and saw her chest was rising and falling really fast and her eyes were bulged out staring at me.

  I walked over to her and instantly wrapped her in my arms. I couldn’t help but smell her and holy shit, she reminded me of the summer time and then I started thinking about her in a bathing suit, her in a bra and panties and then her in nothing. I knew she could probably feel my throbbing dick against her stomach but she didn’t even flinch. I pulled away from her and looked in her eyes and said, “Are you ok?”

  She just nodded her head and said, “Thanks.” And what she did next completely stunned the shit out of me.

  Ashlynn picked up my right hand, the one I used to punch that motherfucker and without taking her eyes off me she kissed my hand. The second her lips touched my hand I completely lost it. I grabbed Ash by the hips and pushed her up against the wall in the corner of the club and without thinking I kissed her. I couldn’t hold it in any longer. I needed to kiss her. I had waited so long to feel her lips up against mine. To feel her tongue dance with mine. To feel her body pressed up against mine.

  And my god, was the wait worth it.

  Her lips were plump and soft and tasted like vanilla. They tasted just how I imagined Ash would taste. Sweet and sexy all in one. Her body was made to fit up against mine. It started to get me thinking about how I would feel inside of her sweet little pussy.

  If was at all possible my dick got harder and I started to grind up against her. At that point I thought she was going to push me away but Ash grabbed me by my shoulders and ground into me as well. I started to lick my way down her neck and felt the vibrations of her moans against my lips. She started to kiss along my jaw and then whispered, “Jason,” in my ear and my heart instantly dropped. I pushed away from her because as much as I wanted to I couldn’t screw up with Ash like that.

  The look in her eyes nearly destroyed me because for a second I thought she was going to cry but then her face turned cold and before I knew it she was slapping me hard against the face and yelling, “FUCK YOU JASON!” at me.

  I tried to grab her arm to apologize and explain to her why I couldn’t do this but Jade walked up to me and said, “I think you’ve messed up enough. Don’t you think Jason?” She didn’t give me time to say anything because she was in the process of running after Ashlynn.

  Chapter 2

  Ashlynn

  Jason was acting pretty weird all day. He seemed like he was nervous on the plane ride over so I just listened to music and read my book. I thought maybe he was nervous about being on a plane because his knee kept bouncing up and down and he either had his lower lip in his mouth nibbling on it or he was biting his nails. The first was extremely sexual so I was glad when he started biting his fingernails, because I dried up within a millisecond.

  I decided to give him his space but then he went and got ready in Sarah and Gabe’s room for Isabelle’s birthday dinner. As soon as he walked out of the door with his suit my stomach began to rumble and my heart beat quickened.

  I started to think about whether I had done anything wrong but in all honesty I had not really talked to him that much lately. When we first started as freshmen Jason was always coming over to hang out with Jade and I. We were eit
her studying and doing homework together or we were going out to the frat parties and getting really drunk and lying around in bed the following day because we were suffering deathly hangovers.

  But three years later I was finally deciding to get over my super huge crush on Jason Williams. Jade had always rooted for us because she said that we were perfect together. She said we evened one another out and as much as I hoped that would happen it hadn’t yet and I don’t think it ever would.

  When he left my room without looking back to go change in another room I was hurt but decided to take a deep breath and move on.

  Going to the restaurant I decided to sit down and I saw Jason look at me with wide eyes. I patted the seat next to me and bobbed my head towards him but he shook his head. I’m not going to lie, because it really hurt but it was fine with me because the only other seat available was the one directly across from me. Even better.

  Even though I was pissed because he was acting weird all day he was still the only man that got my heart to skip a beat and beat twice as fast all at the same time. He gave me butterflies and goose bumps. He made me nervous and I wanted to crawl out of my skin even while he made me feel so comfortable in my own skin and being myself.

  Derrick walked in right after Jason so he sat next to me during dinner. I was relieved that I had Derrick by my side. He would be able to calm me down and get my mind off of Jason.

  Feeling Derrick lean into me he whispered in my ear, “Wipe that frown off your face, Ash.”

  I turned to Derrick and attempted to smile but I couldn’t. I was hurt by the way Jason was acting and I didn’t understand what I had done wrong. I went back to looking down at my plate and playing with my food.

  I could feel eyes on me so looking in Jason’s direction I saw that he was staring at me. I thought when I looked into his eyes they were going to be filled with anger and rage, but they weren’t. His pupils were dilated and I could see that he was breathing a little bit harder than normal. His eyes were on mine and then I noticed that he took in the rest of my appearance and stopped on my breasts.