Daddy To Be: A Billionaire's Baby Romance
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But then, Michael could order a paternity test taken once the baby was born, and we would quickly know the truth of things. I didn't know how my lying could affect the situation, but I was worried that could make a judge rule I wasn't allowed to ever see the kid again, regardless of what I wanted.
That thought made me cry. I hated thinking I might never get to see the little boy or little girl grow up.
I wondered if I could have an abortion and tell Michael it wasn't my fault, that I had miscarried. Maybe then I could tell him I no longer wanted to go through with this, that the trauma from the first miscarriage made me never want to try again.
The thing is, I knew if I did that, Michael would stand by me every step of the way. He was a good guy. I didn't think I could handle his kindness, his protectiveness, not when I was lying to him. I would have to tell him the truth, that I had purposefully had the abortion, and then who knew what legal consequences there would be. There were so many situations that hadn't been covered in the contract, now that I really thought about it.
Like, what if I fall in love with Michael over the course of nine months?
I hated to even think about it, hated to allow myself to realize those feelings, but I couldn't deny them. The more time I spent with Michael, the more I liked him. The more I thought I could maybe love him, some day.
I swallowed hard, pulling my blanket more tightly around my shoulders and staring at the wall.
The other problem was, I didn't think I could really have an abortion. As confusing as my feelings were, the one thing I really knew for sure was that I wanted this baby. I was excited to be pregnant. I was already thinking up baby names and imagining what the child would look like. Would it have my eyes? Michael's charming smile and tanned skin? Would it be a boy or a girl?
I couldn't walk past a baby on the street without thinking maybe that kid would one day know my kid. I couldn't get over those itty-bitty shoes and those pacifiers and those cute bonnets and bibs and all the other baby things. I was ready to be a mom, more than I had ever thought I might be.
My last resort was to lie to Michael. To tell him I had miscarried. But I didn't think he would buy that. Or I could flee the country, but I couldn't ask my whole family to move with me, and I couldn't imagine going through this without them. Especially not as a single mother. And even if I could, I knew it would eventually catch up with me. That there would be those same nagging legal repercussions.
I needed to talk to Michael, but I wasn't sure what to say.
Michael came by again on Monday evening. I knew it was him from the way he held the buzzer for a second too long, impatiently waiting for me to answer the door.
I hauled myself up out of bed, wishing that Erica were there to diffuse the situation. But she was already at work. Like I should have been.
I sighed, glad at least that the nausea seemed to have abated for the time being. I pulled open the door and took a step back, letting Michael enter.
“Hey,” Michael said, looking guarded. He clearly hadn't expected me to let him in so easily, and whatever it was he had planned to say, I could practically see it dying on his lips.
“Hey,” I sighed, running a hand back through my hair. I shut the door behind him. “Do you want a glass of water or anything? Erica probably has some wine.”
“I'm fine,” Michael said. “Are you?”
“I'm fine,” I said, but I could tell from the way his expression changed to one of concern that I was very obviously not fine. I shook my head and led him over to the couch, sitting on one end of it while he sat on the other, leaving a careful space between us.
“Paige, I want to know what's going on,” Michael said, sounding weary.
“I'm not sure I can do this,” I blurted out. I risked a quick glance over at him, but his face remained impassive. It was up to me, then. I took a deep breath. “When it was all written out on paper, it seemed so much easier. But now that everything is happening, it's just so much more difficult. This is a human life that we're talking about. Three human lives: yours, mine, and the baby's. I don't think it's as easy as we thought it was going to be.”
“I understand,” Michael said, surprising me. He shook his head. “To be honest, I've been having second thoughts as well. Things I wish had been written into the contract that weren't. I guess I didn't think through all the implications of this.”
“What kinds of things?” I asked curiously and a little concerned.
“Well, I wish there were some way to make it so that you didn't just clam up on me,” Michael said. “That's first and foremost. I don't want you to feel like you can't talk to me if you have a problem, especially when it's something that obviously has been bothering you this much. Erica told me tonight, when I went to The Shift, that you haven't left the apartment since Friday.”
“My morning sickness has started,” I said defensively. But when he looked even more concerned, I sighed. “That's not the only reason I haven't left, though.”
“What's wrong?” Michael asked, his voice impossibly gentle.
“I'm already getting attached to the baby, and I haven't even been pregnant for a month,” I said. “I don't know if it's the hormones or what. But it's like, as soon as my morning sickness started, I realized this baby was really growing inside of me. And that got me thinking about it as a boy or a girl, imagining what its life is going to be like. I can't stop thinking about it as an eventual person, and I hate to say it, but I love him or her already.”
Michael was quiet, just staring down at his hands, and for a moment, I expected him to remind me of the contract. To point out it was his baby, that he would be the one raising it. But I should have known better than to think like that. Instead, he nodded. “I'm not surprised.”
I stared at him, trying to think of what I could say in response to that. But I couldn't think of anything short of asking whether he would let me keep it. Only, of course, he would let me keep it. We had known that this could possibly be a problem, and that was why I'd had the stipulation written into the contract. I got to keep the first-born child but would provide him with the second baby.
I just didn't think I could do that now, either. But I wasn't sure how to tell him that.
“Move in with me,” Michael said suddenly.
“What?” I asked, totally shocked by his words. I didn't know what to say in response because no matter how many times I'd thought through this conversation over the past few days, I hadn't expected that. Why would he want me to move in with him? Did he think he could show me what a great dad he would be, and I would change my mind?
Or was this all about hooking up with me? That didn't seem like the best way to ensure that he was getting laid, though.
Maybe he suspected I was considering terminating the pregnancy, and he wanted to keep an eye on me? I frowned, trying to come up with any other plausible reason, but I couldn't.
Then, Michael spoke. “You can't keep living here,” he said, gesturing around at the apartment we were currently sitting in. He shook his head. “Sorry, I'm not trying to insult you, but while this may have been all right for you to live in while it was just you, this isn't going to cut it for the mother of my child. I've paid you the first half of the money, so I assume you just haven't had a chance to find a place yet. Move in with me. You can figure it all out from there.”
I frowned at him, still trying to process. “The contract,” I began.
“The contract doesn't have anything to do with it,” Michael said. His voice gentled even further. “I have two guest bedrooms in that place. There's no reason for them to go unused. It would mean that Rosa could take care of you. Cook for you, make sure you're all right. She's got a couple kids herself, so I'm sure she has some advice she could share. You know, mother-to-mother.”
I continued to stare at him. “Michael, I'm not sure how I feel about that idea,” I finally said bluntly. “Moving in with you, wouldn't that be a big step? Even if I'm in a guest room.”
Michael f
rowned. “I don't see why it would be a problem.”
I sighed. “I don't think I can do it,” I told him.
“Why not?”
“Because I can't have a normal relationship with you,” I finally said bitterly. “You realize what it sounds like, you asking me to move in with you. Don't you?”
“I'm not asking you to have a normal relationship with me,” Michael said, sounding perplexed. “You'd be staying in a guest room. You're pregnant. What we're doing isn't anywhere near normal.”
I had to grin at that. “Yeah,” I sighed. I looked down at my hands for a moment.
But Michael reached over, putting a finger under my chin and tilting it up so that he could look at me. His expression was serious, as he stared deep into my eyes. I could tell there was more that he wanted to say. And I knew there was more I should say to him.
Like how this wasn't all about the morning sickness or my newfound realization I couldn't give up the baby. Like how this wasn't all about the fact I was living in a crummy studio apartment that was never meant for two people to share. Like how this wasn't all about the contract and its limitations.
Like how I was pretty sure I had developed feelings for him, feelings that I wasn't sure what to do with. Like how I was afraid moving in together would just make it harder to keep from hooking up with him, but how I was sure that refraining from hooking up with him was the only way I was going to keep my sanity for the rest of this pregnancy.
Like how long nine months seemed and how much could change in that amount of time.
I remembered how Paige had warned me about this, right from the start. She had told me that nine months would seem like a long time. She had warned me against developing feelings. But here I was.
I swallowed hard, but when Michael leaned in to kiss me, I didn't stop him.
Chapter Thirty-Three
Michael
I felt Paige’s hesitation when I first kissed her. But whatever she had been thinking and feeling slipped away. She was kissing me back more fiercely than I had honestly expected her to. I mirrored her passion with my own. I wanted her to know who was in control.
Her honesty had been a major turn on for me. I loved that she wanted and needed me to know the truth. She wasn’t holding back any of her true feelings anymore. I never liked playing games. I was told I was always too serious, but I think I just wanted to know what was really going on. Especially when it came to girls.
I moved my mouth down her jawline and down her neck. I stopped just above her perfect tits and worked my way back up her neck, finding her mouth one more time. Her soft, full lips pressed into mine and there was a tingle in my dick as it hardened in response to touching her. A jolt of electricity ran through my entire body. I wanted her so fucking bad.
I grabbed her waist and pulled her into me more, pressing my erection against her leg, and she starts to grind on it. A small moan escaped her lips. Our mouths were pressed together still. I ran my hands up and down her sides, feeling her body, searching and exploring it. I ran my hands down the small of her back, onto her ass and squeezed.
Another moan. “Mmm.”
I slowly started to remove her clothes. I grabbed the hem of her shirt, and she put her arms up. I pulled the shirt over her head and tossed it onto the floor. Then I grabbed her pants, using my fingers, I pulled them down and left them in a pile on the floor.
“You’re so fucking beautiful,” I said and began to unhook her bra. She let it slide off her arms onto the floor. I grabbed her thong, hooking the side with my finger and yanked it down. It was off her in a matter of seconds, and she was now fully naked.
“Get on the bed,” I said to her.
Without uttering a word, she got onto the bed.
“Lay back.” I started to remove my clothes, taking off my shirt and my pants. She laid back on the bed, and she spread her legs instantly. My cock twitched at how she knew exactly what to do without me having to ask her.
I got in between her legs and started to kiss her thigh from the knee up. Stopping right next to her pussy. Her breathing hitched, and I moved slowly to the other leg and kissed back down her other thigh to the knee. Then I moved back into the middle, and she wiggled her hips. I brought my mouth down to her perfect pussy and started to flick my tongue across her clit.
She writhed, and I began to lick her. I moved my tongue up and down and then in circles. It didn’t take long before she was moaning loudly and grinding her pussy into my face. I loved the taste of her. It was amazing, and I couldn’t get enough.
“Mmm. That feels so good.” She moaned and placed one of her hands on my head.
I felt her fingers run through my hair as I started to lick her faster, stopping to suck on her every now and then. She was beginning to grind harder, and I could tell she was enjoying herself. I took my middle finger and slid it inside of her wet pussy. I moved it in and out of her while I licked her pussy. Her other hand went to my head, and she gripped it tight in both hands. She started grinding harder, and I slid a second finger into her. I started to make the “come here” motion, and in a matter of seconds her body was tense, and her pussy was even wetter. She was moaning my name, and her body was trembling. I sat up as she came down from her climax.
“Did you cum for me?” I asked her and positioned myself between her legs.
She bit her lip, nodded her head and moaned, and I held my cock up to her pussy. I rubbed it gently along her clit causing her to body to jerk. Then I pressed it into her tight hole and thrust inside of her.
“Oh fuck,” she moaned as I started to fuck her.
Her pussy felt so wet, so tight. It was wrapped around my cock, squeezing it. I started to slide my cock in and out of her. It felt so good. I paused and moved her legs to my shoulders. My cock was instantly deeper inside of her.
“Oh, shit.” I closed my eyes and started thrusting harder into her. I placed both of her legs on my left shoulder, and with her legs being closed, her pussy gripped my cock tighter, and I sucked air in through my teeth. The pleasure increasing.
“You’re so fucking deep inside of me,” she said.
“Yeah, I am,” I said back to her and started fucking her harder and faster.
I watched her slide her hands up her sides and grab onto her breasts. She began playing with them, and it turned me on. She was comfortable enough with herself to touch her body while I fucked her. She wasn’t trying to cover herself up, and she was just trying to make herself feel good. Her confidence was such a turn on.
She twisted and pulled on her nipples. And I couldn’t help the powerful feeling that came over me when I looked down and watched her do that.
She was so fucking sexy. Lost in her own world of pleasure while I shoved my cock in and out of her pussy. I felt her starting to get wetter, her muscles tensed up beneath me.
“Don’t fucking stop. I’m so close,” she said.
I gripped her ankles with my hand and started to fuck her faster. I wanted to make her cum again. I wanted to watch the pleasure spread across her face.
“Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Don’t stop. Don’t stop. Harder.” She was yelling and moaning, and I was so focused on how sexy her voice was that I almost lost my pace, but I got back into the rhythm just in time for her eyes to close tightly and her body to start trembling. She was cumming for me again. She had her hands on her head like the pleasure was too much for her.
I loved watching orgasms rip through her body and cause her to melt beneath me. I watched as she came down from her climax, and I slowed my pace.
“I want you to ride me,” I said to her and pulled my cock out. It was almost torturous to do that. To remove my cock from her warm, wet, tight pussy. I wanted to cum so fucking bad. I wanted to fill her pussy with my hot cum and feel the incredible release that came with it.
I got onto my back on the bed, and she rolled over and climbed on top of me. She straddled me, slowly lowering herself down, and then she grabbed my cock with her hand and held it up,
so it slid right into her pussy.
“Oh fuck,” I moaned and placed my hands on her hips.
She started to rock her hips back and forth, grinding her pussy down on me, and I used my grip around her hips to help her move. To help her ride me a little harder. Then she paused, wiggled herself down onto me more so that my cock wouldn’t pop out, she placed her hands on my chest and started to roll her body up and down. The way she moved it was so fucking sexy. Like she wasn’t just riding my cock. She was dancing on it, rolling her body and grinding her pussy.
Her moans increased the more she moved her pussy on my cock. She sat up straight, sending my cock deeper inside of her. I felt like I was going to rip through her.
“Holy shit,” she moaned and moved her hips in circles. My cock moved around inside of her pussy, and it was the most intense feeling ever.
I slide my hands up her sexy stomach and grabbed onto her tits. I gave them a good squeeze, and she moaned. I started to play with her nipples and noticed she started to rock her hips harder on me. She was getting close to cumming again. I couldn’t believe it.
“Fuck that feels so good,” I told her.
She looked down at me and nodded. She was too focused to speak. It turned me on even more because I knew it was my cock that was making her speechless.
She rode me harder and faster. It felt so good. Her pussy sliding around my cock.
I grabbed her hips, picked her up some and bent my knees. I held her there and began to fuck her hole hard and fast. She ran her hands through her hair, tossed her head back, and moaned louder and louder.
“Oh my God! Your cock feels so fucking good. Yes, oh fuck me!” She was yelling, and I didn’t care who heard us. In fact, the thought that someone might hear us added to the hotness. I wanted to fuck her silly. I wanted to make her pussy sore.
I put her down when my arms got tired and pulled her into me so that I could continue to slide my cock in and out of her. I was fucking her so hard you could hear our skin making contact. It was loud and hot, and it only made her moans grow louder.