A Love Song for Rebels (Rivals Book 2)

by Piper Lawson

  I kiss her because I can’t not kiss this girl—this woman, the one who’s grown up under my gaze and when I wasn’t looking.

  “I’m going to tell my dad about the showcase,” she says, pulling back. “And send him an invitation.”

  “Good.” Relief washes over me. I didn’t realize just how twisted up I was about her secret until she said those words. “But first… come home with me,” I murmur against her lips.

  She lifts a brow. “A sleepover sounds fun.”

  “Wasn’t planning on sleeping.”

  I’ve never let myself believe I could have everything I wanted, but between her and my music, I’m so damned close.

  16

  I wake up to light streaming through the window.

  I’m in Tyler’s bed, wearing only his T-shirt.

  I inch toward the side of it, but a tattooed arm bands around me.

  “Come back,” the arm’s owner grunts.

  Before I can respond, Tyler tugs me back against his warm, hard body.

  Last night I went to see his show, and he was incredible. Then we came back to his apartment, where Tyler shut the door on Beck with barely a hello.

  I would have protested if I hadn’t wanted him so badly too.

  After the amount of sex we’ve had, that wanting should’ve worn off.

  It’s unreal that it hasn’t.

  “I have morning breath,” I warn as I turn in his arms.

  “Don’t care.”

  He pulls me against him, kissing me.

  He tugs the hem of my T-shirt up and off, and I run my hands over his beautiful body.

  “Again?” I tease lightly as I feel him harden between us.

  “Uh-huh.” His mouth drops to my breast, sucking marks into my skin, and I arch against him. “Not close to done.”

  My fingers thread into his hair, but I protest because it feels like the right thing to do and because I love how he responds. “But I’ll see you at Leo’s tonight. I’ll come home with you after.”

  “Too late.”

  I squirm against him. “I have Entertainment Management in ninety minutes.”

  “Don’t need it. You’re dating a rock star.”

  I slap a hand against his shoulder, and he chuckles, his mouth vibrating on my skin. “Your hands aren’t that good,” I try.

  “Really? You thought they were last night.” His fingers brush between my thighs where I’m already wet, and it’s game over.

  After reaching for a condom and rolling it on, he turns me on my side, slipping behind me and pressing between my legs.

  “Good,” I mumble. “I’m sick of your face too.”

  Tyler nips my neck in retaliation, and I hitch a breath.

  He presses inside me, one inch at a time. I try to keep quiet because Beck’s in the other room, but when Tyler’s fingers find my clit, I can’t hold back the moan.

  “Knew you liked my hands,” he murmurs in my ear. “What do you like best—my hands, my mouth, or my cock?”

  I arch my ass into him, grinding because I need more even though he’s already filling me everywhere. “I like your hands busy, your mouth quiet, and your cock in me.”

  “Good answer.”

  Then words are gone because he’s chasing me into a wicked rhythm that drags us both to our peak way too soon and not soon enough.

  After, I put on panties and the T-shirt so I can get up to use the bathroom. Tyler tugs on sleep pants, knotting them distractingly low around his hips, and follows me out.

  Beck nods at us from the kitchen with a grin. “You want a third? I’m down to party.”

  I laugh, and Tyler shoots him side-eye.

  It takes all of ten minutes to throw on my clothes and get ready to go.

  “Don’t walk home by yourself. Shower here, and we can go to school together,” Tyler offers.

  “I’m fine,” I insist. “The neighborhood’s not that bad, and I need to go to my room before class.”

  Beck holds out a bagel. “Parting gifts. Please come again.”

  I take it from him with a grin. “I’m sure I will.”

  With a last look at Tyler, who’s watching me like he might drag me back to his room if I linger too long, I head outside and walk home.

  The sunlight is amazing. Life is amazing.

  Each block I travel lifts my spirits more.

  As I’m finishing my bagel, my phone buzzes.

  “Hi, Dad,” I answer as I turn the corner, just able to catch a glimpse of the Vanier building a few blocks away. “I was actually just thinking about you. I need to send you something. It’s an invitation, actually.”

  “Well, you can tell me about it in person. I had some business in New York and thought we could meet. Surprise.”

  I pull up fast enough someone bumps me from behind. “No way. You’re… um… here now?”

  “Yeah. I have a couple things to do this morning. Figured we could hang out after your classes.”

  “Great.” My mind races, trying to piece together the truth and the lies. I press a hand to my suddenly damp forehead. “But let’s meet somewhere. With midterms and all, I’m dying to get off campus.”

  When I get to the front doors of Vanier, I spot someone who has no business being here.

  My stomach plummets as I pull up and my dad’s gaze meets mine.

  “What are you doing here?” I blurt.

  There’s no shock in his eyes.

  “I want to know the same thing.” Even as he tugs the baseball cap down on his head, he leaves the sunglasses off—which tells me he’s really pissed if he’s willing to risk being recognized.

  I swallow, staring past him. “How did you find me?”

  “An old industry contact thought he recognized you at his studio. Then he saw your name on a lineup for a showcase and sent it to me.”

  Fuck. “Dad, I—”

  “How long have you been planning this behind my back? And Haley’s?”

  I’ve heard my dad yell before, but this is different. His voice is low and precise and scary as fuck.

  “It wasn’t a plan. I auditioned in the spring,” I admit.

  His anger is a living thing, scorching the fall air between us. “I’ve asked you questions, Haley, too, about your classes, your residence—all of it. You lied to our faces.”

  Righteousness shoves out the guilt. “I told you I wanted to get more involved in music. I pitched you Vanier half a dozen times.”

  “I thought you were taking an interest. I thought you had priorities. Instead, my own daughter has been lying to me for months.”

  I drop my book bag on the pavement. Part of my brain insists I need to go to class, but I shove it aside. “You’re acting as if people never lie. Everyone does. You do.”

  “About what?”

  “You knew about me for a year and wouldn’t acknowledge me.”

  His tight jaw goes slack, but it’s the shock in his eyes I feel the most. I wasn’t planning to tell him I knew that, not ever, but now that it’s out, I can’t take it back.

  “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Dad’s voice is unusually rough.

  “I have a letter from my birth mom. She tried to contact me two years ago.”

  He exhales hard. “Annie, listen to me—you’re my kid, and everything I’ve done was for you.”

  I shove both hands through my hair. “I get that you were the biggest star on the planet and you left because of me. Because you had a kid to take care of. I know you’ve made sacrifices”—I swallow—“but I’m eighteen. You can stop now.”

  His eyes, the same glowing gold as mine, deepen. “You want to be a grown-up? To face the world on your own without help from the people who care about you? Then I can stop sending tuition money. I assume this is where it’s been going rather than Columbia.” He gestures to the building behind me. “I should’ve been suspicious when you asked me to send money for tuition and your other expenses together and that you’d take care of getting everything paid. But you’ve
always been a thoughtful kid and I trusted you. Hell, I was proud of you.”

  The blood drains from my face, guilt warring with devastation in my stomach.

  Normally, I embrace every emotion I’m feeling. Today, they feel like weakness, and I need strength.

  I know I’m in the wrong here, but he is too.

  The Vanier building isn’t only the backdrop of our argument. It’s the reason I risked everything I am, everything I have.

  I swallow down the emotions so I can find my voice. When I do, it’s stronger than I expected.

  “Do you have any idea how hard it is to get in here?”

  He shakes his head. “That’s not the point.”

  “Of course it’s not. The point is you think I’m not good enough for this life. You never felt that way about Tyler.”

  Dad holds up a hand, gaze narrowing. “This isn’t about Tyler. But it will be—”

  “You tell yourself you want to protect me,” I continue, raising my voice, “because when you were eighteen, you signed a deal with Wicked. You went on tour. You had me.”

  I’m losing ground in the battle with my emotions, and they’re threatening to spill over.

  “Just because you fucked up your life at eighteen doesn’t mean I will.” Tears burn down my face as I spin, grabbing my book bag and lunging for the doors. I pull up for a moment at the figure I see just outside them, looking between us with shock.

  Rae.

  I stalk past her, making my way through the halls. I skip the elevator to take the stairs two at a time. On my floor, I pass Elle’s open door, where she’s grabbing her books for class.

  “Aren’t you going to Entertainment Management?” she asks.

  “No.” I unlock my door and shove myself inside.

  Footsteps sound behind me, but I don’t look up. I grab the photo of me and my dad off my dresser and chuck it under my bed.

  I drop onto my bed and press the heels of my hands to my eyes.

  “Whoa. What happened?” Elle’s voice is concerned.

  I blink to see her and Rae hovering in the doorway. “Don’t worry about it. You guys have class.”

  They exchange a look. “Fuck it. It was a boring topic lecture anyway,” Rae says.

  A grateful breath trembles out of my lips as she takes a seat in her chair, Elle dropping onto my bed.

  So, I tell them both everything, starting with my dad and how I auditioned and that I kept who I was a secret.

  When I finish, Elle doesn’t look pissed, she looks perplexed. “So, why’d you hide it?”

  Rae answers for me. “Because in high school, people knew who she was, and they either hated her or wanted something from her.”

  “And you thought that’d follow you here,” Elle interprets.

  I nod.

  “There’s a problem with your logic,” she replies. “High school’s full of assholes.”

  My lips twitch despite my heavy heart.

  Rae asks, “Why was he so sure he should’ve known you were here?”

  “I don’t know. He’s never so much as mentioned Vanier in a conversation.” But Rae’s comment has me remembering something my dad said.

  “This isn’t about Tyler. But it will be.”

  He sounded angry, and not only with me.

  But when Tyler left a year and a half ago, Dad didn’t give any indication they were still in touch. And this fall, Tyler would have told me.

  Right?

  “So, are we still going to Leo’s tonight?” Elle prompts.

  I suck in a breath, making a decision. “Yeah, we’re going to Leo’s.”

  My phone’s on silent for most of the day, through my classes and guitar lesson. I leave it off while I’m messing with part of the song Annie and I are doing for the showcase.

  When I unlock it back at home after grabbing a quick bite and showering to change for Leo’s, I pull up in the middle of the living room.

  The voicemail button shows a new message, and my phone shows three missed calls from the same number.

  I hit play on the voicemail, my abs clenching even before Jax’s voice barks from the speaker.

  “Why is my daughter at Vanier, Tyler? And don’t bother telling me you didn’t notice. You sat at my table last week and acted like nothing was wrong.”

  Jax left me this voicemail this afternoon, which means…

  Annie.

  I try her number but don’t get an answer.

  So, I grab my coat and head for Leo’s as quick as I can, turning over Jax’s call on the way.

  I get that he’s pissed, but I’m pissed too. He didn’t tell me she was struggling last year. He made me believe she was better off without me.

  Jax might be my mentor, but I will always have Annie’s back. Whatever she told him or didn’t, that’s their business, just like what’s between her and me is ours.

  I get to Leo’s and use the back door to get inside. The place is already filling up, and as the act on stage finishes to applause, I crane my neck to look around the bar.

  Impatience clashes with worry in my stomach until I spot her through the crowd. I press between bodies to reach her.

  “Annie. Wait.” I catch up to her near the stage doors. She’s wearing dark jeans and a tank top, her hair down in waves around her head, but even in the darkness, I can tell her eyes are puffy.

  I reach for her arms, but she steps back, her eyes filling with accusation. “My dad showed up today. He was pissed because he thought you should’ve told him I was at Vanier. Since you guys are so tight.”

  “Six,” I say, careful. “I didn’t tell him anything.”

  “So, you were in touch. How often? Once a week? Only on holidays?”

  My hands fist at my sides. “I don’t know… Every couple months?”

  “While I was crying over you, you were talking to my dad as if nothing was wrong.” Annie shakes her head, expression full of disbelief.

  “It wasn’t like that.”

  “Like what? Like you chose him over me? Because that’s how it feels.”

  My gut twists, hard. She can’t possibly see it like that. “I’m sorry for hurting you. I can’t ever tell you how sorry. But I realized something this fall—we’re not over.” I step closer, and she angles her chin up to hold my gaze. I thread my fingers into her hair, cupping her neck in my hand. “We’re a song. You and me. What happened before was the first verse, and there’s so much more.”

  Her fingers wrap around my wrist, but she doesn’t try to move away. “Don’t you ever wonder if maybe we’re meant to be alone?” Her voice is stilted, and every muscle in me strains against the urge to crush her against me. “The liars, the rebels, the dreamers. Up there on the stage, in the spotlight, we bleed to make other people feel. But in order to bleed, we have to be broken.”

  It takes a moment for me to catch up to her words. “No. I don’t think that.” I jerk my chin toward the door. “Let’s get out of here. Come back to my place. Or yours, I don’t care. We’ll talk.”

  Annie sucks in a breath. “I don’t need to talk, Tyler.”

  The firmness of her voice hits me squarely in the chest. “I’ve wasted months—years—pretending I don’t care about you,” I insist. “I’m not doing it again.”

  Annie’s eyes shine as she steps out of my hold, brushing her thumb across my palm before she drops my hand and moves closer.

  “I care about you too. But my dad was right about one thing—it’s easy to be shortsighted. This showcase is my first real chance. And it’s your second, which matters even more.”

  “What are you saying?” The words feel hollow.

  “That maybe we should take some room to breathe while we get through the showcase and focus on our dreams.”

  The clawing feeling in my chest wants to argue with her that we can do both, but the look on her face stops me.

  It’s not a goodbye, but it fucking feels like it. Anything but her coming home with me tonight is suddenly insufficient.

  When A
nnie turns to head for the stage doors, my heart goes with her.

  17

  “Have you talked to your dad?” Elle whispers from her spot next to me in the last row of pews.

  I shake my head. “And the deposit that usually comes to my account isn’t there.”

  Elle takes the Bible in the pew in front of her, fingering the pages. “That sucks.”

  We’re at the funeral of a man I don’t know—a banker, apparently, who loved fly fishing. No one seems particularly torn up he’s gone except for a woman we passed on the way in who said she was his granddaughter. I gave her the entire stash of tissues from my bag, and the guilt I felt for being here was washed out by the gratitude on her face.

  It’s been nearly a week since my dad showed up in New York and I told Tyler I needed space.

  Since then, we’ve rehearsed together three times at school, separately between that. I haven’t been to his place, and he hasn’t come to my room. He doesn’t try to pressure me when we’re together.

  I’m grateful. I know deep down I can’t blame Tyler for having a relationship with my dad, but I can’t go there right now—not with the showcase looming. It’s the biggest chance for both of us to grab what we’ve wanted for so long.

  “It’s fine,” I tell my friend. “I’ll get loans, and a job. I just wish everyone didn’t suddenly know who I am and whisper in the halls. I thought Rae and I were getting along, but I don’t know who else would’ve spread the word.”

  Elle huffs out a breath. “I asked him to take down the video.”

  I blink. “What video?”

  The service concludes, and I grab Elle’s sleeve, tug her after me down the row and out the door into the gray day.

  My friend pulls up her phone, and I see an entry on Beck’s vlog captioned: “Jax Jamieson’s daughter crushing it,” accompanied by a video of me performing at Leo’s.

  “Are you kidding me?”

  I hit his contact on my phone.

  “What’s up, Manatee?” Beck drawls.

  “You put me on your vlog?!”

  I can hear the confusion in his voice. “Come on. People spotted your pop at Vanier this week. It’s public knowledge now. Besides, I’m proud of you.”