The Goodbye Look

by Ross Macdonald

  She made an anguished monkey-face which wiped out her good looks. “I can’t be clear. This is a problem that won’t be solved by talking. There are too many people involved, and too many years of life.”

  “Who are the people involved?”

  “Ralph and I and the Chalmerses and the Truttwells—”

  “And Sonny?”

  “Yes. He’s in it.” The focus of her eyes shifted to something beyond my knowledge. “That’s why you mustn’t tell anyone what I told you.”

  “Why did you tell me?”

  “I thought you might be able to advise me, that we might become better friends than we have.”

  “Give it more time.”

  “That’s what I’m asking you for.”

  chapter 33

  Betty was waiting impatiently in the parking lot. Her gaze narrowed on the lower part of my face.

  “There’s lipstick on you. Wait.” She got a piece of tissue out of her bag and dabbed at me quite hard. “There. That looks better.”

  In her car, she spoke to me in a neutral voice: “Are you having an affair with Mrs. Smitheram?”

  “We’re friends.”

  She said in the same neutral tone: “No wonder I can’t trust anybody, or do anything for Nick.” She turned to me: “If you’re such a good friend of Mrs. Smitheram’s, why won’t she let me see Nick?”

  “Her husband is the doctor. She’s only a technician, she says.”

  “Why won’t her husband let him go?”

  “They’re holding Nick for his protection. Against what or who isn’t clear, but I agree he needs protection. It shouldn’t be handled entirely by his doctor, though. He needs legal counsel.”

  “If you’re trying to bring my father into this—” Her knuckles struck the wheel of her car in a sharp blow that must have hurt her.

  “He is in it, Betty. There’s not much use arguing about it. And you’re not really helping Nick by turning against your father.”

  “He’s the one who turned against us—against Nick and me.”

  “Maybe so. But we need his help.”

  “I don’t,” she said loudly and indecisively.

  “Anyway, I need yours. Will you drive me to his office?”

  “All right. But I’m not going in.”

  She took me to the parking lot behind her father’s building. A polished black Rolls was standing in one of the Reserved slots.

  “That’s the Chalmerses’ car,” Betty said. “I thought they’d had a falling-out with father.”

  “Maybe they’re falling back in. What time is it?”

  She looked at her wristwatch. “Four thirty-five. I’ll wait out here for you.”

  I was interested in the Rolls. I went and looked it over, admiring its deep leather upholstery and walnut trim. The whole car was immaculate, except for a yellow spillage on a plaid traveling rug in the back seat. It looked like a dried froth of vomit.

  I scraped some of it up with the edge of a plastic credit card. When I looked up a thin man in a dark suit and a chauffeur’s cap was coming toward me across the parking lot. It was the Chalmerses’ houseman, Emilio.

  “Get away from that car,” he said.

  “All right.”

  I slammed the rear door of the Rolls and stepped away from it. Emilio’s black eyes focused on the card in my hand. He made a grab for it. I pulled it out of his reach.

  “Give me that.”

  “The hell I will. Who’s been sick in the car, Emilio?”

  The question worried him. I asked it again. His anger evaporated suddenly. He turned away from me and climbed in behind the wheel of the Rolls, raising the automatic window on my side.

  “What was all that about?” Betty said as we walked away.

  “I’m not sure. What kind of a character is he?”

  “Emilio? He’s pretty dour.”

  “Is he honest?”

  “He must be. He’s been with the Chalmerses for over twenty years.”

  “What sort of life does he lead?”

  “A very quiet bachelor life, I believe. But I’m no great authority on Emilio. What’s that yellow stuff on the card?”

  “That’s a good question. Do you have an envelope?”

  “No. But I’ll get one.”

  She entered the building through the back door and came out right away with one of her father’s business envelopes. I put my findings in it, with her help, sealed and initialed it.

  “What laboratory does your father use?”

  “Barnard’s. It’s between here and the courthouse.”

  I handed her the envelope. “I want this tested for chloral hydrate and Nembutal. They’re fairly simple tests, I believe, and they can be done right now if you tell them your father says it’s urgent. And tell them to take good care of the sample, will you?”

  “Yes sir.”

  “Will you bring me the results? I’ll probably still be in your father’s office. You can wear a disguise or something.”

  She refused to smile. But she trotted dutifully away on the errand. I could feel new adrenalin in my own veins, making me feel stronger and more aggressive. If my hunch was good, the froth of vomit in the envelope could break the case.

  I went into Truttwell’s building and started along the corridor to the waiting room at the front. I was stopped at an open door by Trutttwell’s voice:

  “Archer? I’d just about given up on you.”

  He drew me into his law library, which was completely lined with shelves of reference books. A young man in an Ivy League suit was working over a film projector. A screen had already been set up at the far end of the room.

  Truttwell surveyed me with not very sympathetic eyes “Where have you been?”

  I told him, and dropped the subject. “I gather you bought Mrs. Swain’s home movies.”

  “No money changed hands,” he said with satisfaction. “I persuaded Mrs. Swain it was her duty to serve the truth. Also I let her keep the Florentine box, which was her mother’s. In return she gave me some film. Unfortunately, the reel I’m about to show you is nearly twenty-six years old and in rather poor condition. It broke as I was running it through just now.” He turned to the young man at the projector. “How are you doing, Eddie?”

  “I’m splicing it. It should be ready in a minute.”

  Truttwell said to me: “Do me a favor, Archer. Irene Chalmers is in the waiting room.”

  “Is she back in the fold?”

  “She will be,” he said with a glint of teeth. “At the moment she’s here rather against her will. Just go and make sure she doesn’t run away.”

  “What are you planning to spring on her?”

  “You’ll see.”

  “That her maiden name was really Rita Shepherd?”

  Truttwell’s satisfied look fell apart. A kind of rivalry had been growing between us, perhaps rising from the fact that Betty had trusted me.

  “How long have you known that?” he said in a prosecutor’s voice.

  “About five seconds. I’ve suspected it since last night.” It wouldn’t have been a good idea to tell him that the idea had come to me in a dream about my grandmother.

  As I moved along the corridor, the dream came back into my mind and blunted my aggression. Mrs. Shepherd merged with the memories of my grandmother long since buried in Martinez. The passion with which Mrs. Shepherd had guarded her daughter’s secret gave it some value.

  Irene Chalmers lifted her face to me as I entered the waiting room. She didn’t seem to know me right away. The switchboard girl spoke to me in a whisper, like someone speaking in the presence of illness or mental retardation:

  “I didn’t think you were going to make it. Mr. Truttwell is in the library. He said to send you right in.”

  “I’ve just been talking to him.”

  I see.

  I sat next to Irene Chalmers. She turned and looked at me with slow recognition, almost like a woman coming awake from a dream. As if the dream had been frightening, her moo
d was apologetic and subdued:

  “I’m sorry, my mind’s been wandering. You’re Mr. Archer. But I thought you weren’t with us any more.”

  “I’m still on the case, Mrs. Chalmers. By the way, I’ve recovered your husband’s letters.”

  She said without much interest: “Do you have them with you?”

  “Just a few of them. I’ll return them through Mr. Truttwell.”

  “But he isn’t our lawyer any longer.”

  “I’m sure you can trust him to give you the letters, anyway.”

  “I don’t know.” She looked around the little room with a kind of primitive suspicion. “We all used to be the best of friends. But we aren’t any more.”

  “On account of Nick and Betty?”

  “I guess that was the last straw,” she said. “But we had our real trouble some time ago, over money. It always seems to be over money, doesn’t it? Sometimes I almost wish I was poor again.”

  “You say you had trouble over money?”

  “Yes, when Larry and I set up the Smitheram Foundation. John Truttwell refused to draw the papers for us. He said we were being taken by Dr. Smitheram, setting him up in a free clinic. But Larry wanted to do it, and I thought it was a nice idea myself. I don’t know where we’d be without Dr. Smitheram.”

  “He’s done a lot for you, has he?”

  “You know he has. He saved Nick from—you know what. I think John Truttwell is jealous of Dr. Smitheram. Anyway, he isn’t our friend any more. I only came here this afternoon because he threatened me.”

  I wanted to ask her what she meant, but the girl at the switchboard was listening openly. I said to the girl:

  “Go and ask Mr. Truttwell if he’s ready for us, please.”

  Unwillingly, she went. I turned back to Mrs. Chalmers.

  “What did he threaten you with?”

  She didn’t respond defensively. She was acting as if a numbing blow had knocked all discretion out of her:

  “It was Nick again. Truttwell went to San Diego today and dug up some new dirt. I don’t think I should tell you what it was.”

  “Did it have to do with Nick’s birth?”

  “He told you, then.”

  “No, but I read some of your husband’s letters. Apparently he was overseas when Nick was conceived. Is that true, Mrs. Chalmers?”

  She looked at me in confusion and then with hard disdain. “You have no right to ask me that. You’re trying to strip me naked, aren’t you?”

  Even in her anger there was an ambiguous erotic underplay, which seemed to ask for my complicity. I offered her a smile which felt strange from inside.

  The switchboard girl came back and said that Mr. Truttwell was waiting for us. We found him alone in the library, standing behind the projector.

  Irene Chalmers reacted to the machine as if it was a complex weapon pointed at her. Her fearful gaze moved from Truttwell to me, standing between her and the door. I closed the door. Her face and body froze.

  “You didn’t say anything about movies,” she complained to Truttwell. “You said you wanted to review the case with me.”

  He answered smoothly, very much in command of the situation. “This film is a part of the case. It was taken at a swimming party in San Marino in the summer of 1943. Eldon Swain, who gave the party, shot most of it himself. The bit at the end, where he appears, was taken by Mrs. Swain.”

  “Have you talked to Mrs. Swain?”

  “Somewhat. Frankly, I’m much more interested in your reaction.” He tapped the back of an armchair near the projector. “Come and sit down and be comfortable, Irene.”

  She remained stubbornly unmoving. Truttwell approached her smiling and took her arm. She moved slowly and heavily like a statue thawing reluctantly into flesh.

  He settled her in the armchair, leaning over her from behind, withdrawing his hands lingeringly from her upper arms.

  “Turn off the lights, will you, Archer?”

  I flicked the switch and sat down beside Irene Chalmers. The projector whirred. Its quiet shotgun blast of light filled the screen with images. A large rectangular pool with a diving board and a slide reflected a blue old-fashioned sky.

  A young blonde girl with a mature figure and an immature face climbed onto the diving board. She waved at the camera, bounced excessively, and did a comic dive with her legs apart and kicking like a frog’s. She came up with a mouthful of water and spurted it at the camera. Jean Trask, young.

  Irene Chalmers, née Rita Shepherd, was next on the diving board. She walked to the end of it gravely, as if the eye of the camera was judging her. The black rubber helmet in which her hair was hidden made her look oddly archaic.

  She stood for quite a while with the camera on her, not once returning its stare. Then she bounced and did a swan dive, cutting the water without much splash. It wasn’t until she disappeared from sight that I realized how beautiful she had been.

  The camera caught her coming up, and she smiled and turned onto her back directly under it. Jean came up behind and ducked her, shouting or laughing, splashing water at the camera with her hands.

  A third young person, a boy of eighteen or so whom I didn’t immediately recognize, climbed up onto the board. Slowly, he walked to the forward end, with many backward looks, as if there were pirates behind him. There was one. Jean rushed him and shoved him into the water, laughing or shouting. He came up floundering, his eyes closed. A woman wearing a wide-brimmed hat held out a padded hook to him at the end of a long pole. She used it to tow him to the shallow end. He stood there, in water up to his waist, with his narrow back turned to the camera. His rescuer took off her floppy hat and bowed toward unseen spectators.

  The woman was Mrs. Swain, but Swain’s camera failed to linger on her. It shifted to the spectators, a handsome older couple who were sitting together on a shaded swing. In spite of the shadow falling across him, I recognized Samuel Rawlinson and guessed that the woman beside him was Estelle Chalmers. The camera moved again before I had a chance to study her thin, passionate face.

  Rita and Jean went down the slide, singly and together. They raced the length of the pool, with Jean coming out ahead. She splashed the hydrophobic boy still standing as if rooted in waist-deep water. Then she splashed Rita.

  I caught a fuzzy background glimpse of Randy Shepherd, red-headed and red-bearded in gardener’s dungarees, looking over a hedge at his daughter taking her place in the sun. I glanced sideways at Irene Chalmers’s face, which was fitfully lit by the flickering inexact colors reflected from the screen. She looked as if she were dying under the soft bombardment of the past.

  When my eyes returned to the screen, Eldon Swain was on the diving board. He was a man of middle size with a large handsome head. He bounced and did a swan dive. The camera met him coming up and followed him back onto the diving board. He performed flips, front and back.

  Next came a double dive with Jean on his shoulders, and finally a double dive with Rita. As if controlled by a documentary interest, the camera followed the pair as Rita stood spraddled on the diving board, and Eldon Swain inserted his head between her legs and lifted her. Tottering slightly, he carried her out to the end of the board and stood for a long moment with his head projecting from between her thighs like the head of a giant smiling baby being born again.

  The two fell off the board together and stayed underwater for what seemed a long time. The eye of the camera looked for them but caught only sparkling surfaces netted with light and underlaid by colored shadows dissolving in the water.

  chapter 34

  After the reel ended, none of us spoke for a while. I turned on the lights. Irene Chalmers stirred and roused herself. I could sense her fear, so powerful it seemed to make her drowsy.

  She said in an effort to throw it off: “I was pretty in those days, wasn’t I?”

  “More than pretty,” Truttwell said. “The word is beautiful.”

  “A lot of good it ever did me.” Her voice and language were changing, as if she was
falling back on her earlier self. “Where did you get this movie—from Mrs. Swain?”

  “Yes. She gave me others.”

  “She would. She’s always hated me.”

  “Because you took up with her husband?” I said.

  “She hated me long before that. It was almost as if she knew it was going to happen. Or maybe she made it happen, I don’t know. She sat around and watched Eldon, waiting for him to jump. If you do that to a man, sooner or later he’s going to jump.”

  “What made you jump?” I said.

  “We won’t talk about me.” She looked at me and then at Truttwell and then at nothing. “I’m taking the fifth.”

  Truttwell moved closer to her, gentle and suave as a lover. “Don’t be foolish, Irene. You’re among friends here.”

  “I bet.”

  “It’s true,” he said. “I went to enormous trouble, and so did Mr. Archer, to get hold of this evidence, get it out of the hands of potential enemies. In my hands it can’t be used against you. I think I can guarantee it never will be.”

  She sat up straight, meeting him eye to eye. “What is this? Blackmail?”

  Truttwell smiled. “You’re getting me confused with Dr. Smitheram, I’m afraid. I don’t want anything from you at all, Irene. I do think we should have a free and frank discussion.”

  She looked in my direction. “What about him?”

  “Mr. Archer knows this case better than I do. I rely completely on his discretion.”

  Truttwell’s praise made me uneasy: I wasn’t prepared to say the same things about him.

  “I don’t trust his discretion,” the woman said. “Why should I? I hardly know him.”

  “You know me, Irene. As your attorney—”

  “So you’re our lawyer again?”

  “I never ceased to be, really. It must be clear to you by now that you need my help, and Mr. Archer’s help. Everything we’ve learned about the past is strictly in confidence among the three of us.”

  “That is,” she said, “if I go along. What if I don’t?”

  “I’m ethically bound to keep your secrets.”

  “But they’d slip out anyway, is that the idea?”