Dark Moon Wolf

by Sarah E Stevens

  Table of Contents

  Excerpt

  Dark Moon Wolf

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  A word about the author…

  Thank you for purchasing this publication of The Wild Rose Press, Inc.

  Heart in my mouth, I rushed into his room

  only to stop dead in my tracks when I saw something furry wiggling in the faint light slanting through the window. What the hell?

  I crept toward Carson’s crib, mind frozen and adrenaline flooding through my body to deal with this unknown threat. Was a rat attacking my baby? Did a feral cat find a way into the house? A weapon—I needed a weapon, but my wild glance around the room revealed only baby paraphernalia. Every muscle in my body tense, I held my breath and stepped quietly, so I didn’t frighten the strange animal into violence. Small whining noises, snuffles, and the scratch of scrabbling claws came from the crib.

  I peered down over the crib rail and, at that moment, the clouds moved so moonlight clearly illuminated the creature in my son’s crib. A wolf, unmistakably a wolf pup, with grayish-silver fur standing fuzzily askew, black nose questing in the air, tawny eyes framed by perfect black eyeliner. When the pup saw me, he gave a happy little wriggle and whined more loudly.

  The wolf pup’s gaze met mine and, in an instantaneous rush, I knew him and I understood somehow this was Carson. This wolf was Carson.

  Dark Moon Wolf

  by

  Sarah E. Stevens

  Calling the Moon Series

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales, is entirely coincidental.

  Dark Moon Wolf

  COPYRIGHT © 2017 by Sarah E. Stevens

  All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission of the author or The Wild Rose Press, Inc. except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles or reviews.

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  Cover Art by Debbie Taylor

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  Publishing History

  First Black Rose Edition, 2017

  Print ISBN 978-1-5092-1256-9

  Digital ISBN 978-1-5092-1257-6

  Calling the Moon Series

  Published in the United States of America

  Dedication

  For Gary, Abby, Tyler, and Zack.

  Our lovely, geeky family is the rock of my life,

  and I would fight off crazed werewolves

  for each one of you.

  Chapter One

  I couldn’t identify the noise on the baby monitor. Alarm rang through my befuddled, sleep-deprived state and I felt one of those heart-stopping parental attacks, all too common in the last four months of single motherhood. Maybe Carson was dying of SIDS or stuck in the very-carefully-checked-for-safety crib bars or his toes were gangrenous from a loose bit of string in his footie pajamas.

  Heart in my mouth, I rushed into his room only to stop dead in my tracks when I saw something furry wiggling in the faint light slanting through the window. What the hell?

  I crept toward Carson’s crib, mind frozen and adrenaline flooding through my body to deal with this unknown threat. Was a rat attacking my baby? Did a feral cat find a way into the house? A weapon—I needed a weapon, but my wild glance around the room revealed only baby paraphernalia. Every muscle in my body tense, I held my breath and stepped quietly, so I didn’t frighten the strange animal into violence. Small whining noises, snuffles, and the scratch of scrabbling claws came from the crib.

  I peered down over the crib rail and, at that moment, the clouds moved so moonlight clearly illuminated the creature in my son’s crib. A wolf, unmistakably a wolf pup, with grayish-silver fur standing fuzzily askew, black nose questing in the air, tawny eyes framed by perfect black eyeliner. When the pup saw me, he gave a happy little wriggle and whined more loudly.

  The wolf pup’s gaze met mine and, in an instantaneous rush, I knew him and I understood somehow this was Carson. This wolf was Carson. Here was my Carson, here was a wolf pup, here was my baby, and he started to whine more desperately and paw at the crib slats. Everything else shut off—the questioning, the panic—in the face of my baby’s need.

  So I picked him up. He snuggled against me happily, nuzzling me with his wet nose, breathing in my scent, licking absently at the sleeve of my nightgown. My mind froze in panic, but my body functioned on autopilot. I walked around the room, bouncing him gently, singing a bit of a lullaby, just as usual. And, just as usual, his eyes grew heavier and his body soon felt lax with sleep. When he was well and truly out, I carefully laid him back in his crib and tiptoed from the room.

  As I closed the door behind me, careful not to make the slightest noise, the pent-up adrenaline left my body and I started to shake, my muscles weak and watery, my head whirling. I slid down the wall, hugged my knees to my chest, and focused on not hyperventilating. I pressed my forehead to my hands, feeling my palms break out in a cold sweat. After a while, I stood up gingerly, opened the door to Carson’s room, and looked in.

  No, I wasn’t insane. A wolf lay in Carson’s crib. Carson was a wolf. Carson was a… I glanced up at the moon, framed perfectly in the window, and silently closed the door again.

  I walked down the hall to the bathroom, poured myself a glass of water, and stared at my reflection in the mirror. Yes, still me. I picked up my glasses from the bathroom counter and the room snapped into clearer focus. My eyes stared back at me from within the green frames, looking about as shocked as I felt.

  “Maybe…” I thought and went back to Carson’s room with my glasses on. A sneak peek, however, showed me nothing had changed. I could just see the sleeping pup a bit more clearly from the door.

  “Okay, Julie,” I said aloud in the hallway. “You haven’t gone crazy. Unless talking to yourself makes you crazy. But everything else seems pretty normal. You’re not sick, no fever. You’re not dreaming. So Carson is…Carson is…” I raised my hand to rub my forehead, closed my eyes for a moment, lowered my hand, and said it. “Carson is a Werewolf.”

  The words echoed in my head and I suddenly burst out laughing, the kind of laughter that has a sharp, maniacal edge—the kind of laughter that, if I didn’t keep it in check, might yet convince me I was crazy. I couldn’t control myself, though, and after several minutes I sat on the floor, gasping for breath, tears streaming down my face, unsure whether I still laughed or had moved on to crying.

  A Werewolf. Carson. Me, Julie Hall, librarian, single mother of a Werewolf. Was it possible? An hour ago, I would have said no. As much as I loved the idea of the fantastical, as much as I devoured books about magic, Dragons, Were-creatures, Vampires, the Fae, as much as I s
pent time wishing such things were true and I’d glimpse a Brownie or a Phouka creeping about the town, I now realized deep down, really deep down, I thought all such things were the stuff of make-believe. But it seemed I was wrong. At least about Werewolves, because clearly a wolf slept in the crib. The moment after Carson was born, my entire being flushed with pride and exhaustion, our bodies still connected by his umbilical cord, my doctor placed Carson into my arms. My baby looked right up at me with those huge blue-brown newborn eyes, alert, wide awake though silent, and in that instant, I felt a surge of insight and love, as if I’d known him all my life and had been waiting for this moment of revelation. Just now, when his eyes met mine in the crib, I felt the same thing. I had no doubt this was my Carson. Every atom of my being told me so.

  Occam’s razor: Carson was a Werewolf.

  My God. Was this real? I checked on Carson one more time. No change, just a small gray wolf curled in his crib.

  I went into the kitchen and put on the teapot. A few minutes later, I filled my favorite blue mug with a generous dollop of honey, a chamomile teabag, and hot water. My hands icy despite the warm June night, I warmed them against the mug as I sat and thought.

  I knew nothing about Werewolves. That is, nothing about real Werewolves. Some part of me gibbered at the thought of making a distinction between fictional Werewolves and real Werewolves, but I told that part to hush while I thought about this logically. The gibbering part screeched again at the thought of logic and Werewolves, then fell silent, perhaps in exhaustion.

  The fact remained: I knew nothing about werewolves. Obviously, that old bit about the full moon held true. I hoped that meant I wouldn’t have to worry about Carson turning into a wolf at any old time, just once a month or so. But what else did I need to know? Would silver hurt him? Would he have uncontrollable rages and run through the woods like a wild animal? Would he be violent? Would he have any extraordinary abilities? Vulnerabilities? Were there medical ramifications? I thought back to his doctor’s appointments so far, all of which had gone quite smoothly. Now that his Were-self had manifested, could he continue to get vaccinations? I stopped the cascade of questions running through my mind, aware I degenerated into the trivial as a way to avoid the central question.

  Why was he a Werewolf? How had he become a Werewolf?

  In all the tales I’d read, people became Werewolves after being bitten by another Werewolf. Carson was only four months old and I could vouch for the fact he had never been bitten. Not by a Werewolf, not by a wolf, not by a dog, heck, not even by a mosquito. I had absolutely no idea how this had happened.

  But I knew someone who must. He must know something. If he didn’t…

  My tea sat there, cooling and neglected, as I stared out the kitchen window. My fingers absently traced the scratches on the old oak table I’d never refinished. Outside, clouds scudded past the setting moon, patches of stars visible where the sky was both clear and unobscured by trees. The inside of my kitchen was eerily superimposed on the outside world, reflected cheerily in the clear window panes: yellow walls, kitchen table, me sitting motionless in my old blue-striped nightgown, my grandmother’s collection of ceramic chickens on a shelf behind me. It didn’t look like the house of a Werewolf. The night grew darker, then lighter as the sun crept up. In the back of my mind, I was aware this was probably the longest stretch of time Carson had ever slept in a night. Perhaps once a month, when the moon was full, I would actually get a decent night’s sleep.

  Finally, quite suddenly, I stood up, walked to the phone, and dialed.

  I shook again, this time from nerves instead of shock, and I didn’t even register the message until the friendly automated voice repeated.

  We’re sorry. The number you have reached is out of service. Please hang up and try again.

  We’re sorry. The number you have reached is out of service. Please hang up and try again.

  The grating beep-beep-beep-beep-beep sounded in my ear until I hung up. I dialed again. I opened my address book, pulled out a rather dog-eared business card, and dialed one last time, with the same results.

  Shit.

  I sank back in my chair, cradled my head in my hands, and yanked at my curls before pushing them behind my ears.

  Shit! That bastard!

  “How dare he change his phone number.” I smacked the table for emphasis as my anger grew.

  Okay, on one hand, I knew Mac probably had a good reason for changing his cell phone number. Lots of people changed their numbers when they moved—even though Mac never bothered to get a local Oregon number during the nine months he lived here in Jacksonville. But still, my rational side said it had nothing to do with me. On the other hand, the irrational bit inside me felt personally affronted I had no way to contact him now. I mean, yes, sure, he didn’t even know about Carson. But I had always intended to tell him. Sometime. Soon. Yes, sometime soon, I planned to tell Mac he was a father. After I summoned the courage to explain why I hadn’t told him in the first place. After I figured out for myself why I hadn’t told him right away, why I let it escalate like this. For some reason, it never crossed my mind I wouldn’t be able to find him when I was ready.

  My relationship with Mac had been confusing, to say the least. We shared six months of some great times, a few screaming fights, and a lot of hurt feelings on my part. And three weeks after I ended it, I found myself pregnant.

  Roger MacGregor. The first time I saw him, he’d been intently scouring the library shelves, pulling out book after book only to leaf through and discard them on the table. I noted him, of course, because we mostly saw regulars at the Jacksonville library. And few of our patrons rifled urgently through non-fiction books, except for the handful of high school kids who didn’t plagiarize entire papers off Wikipedia. I re-shelved the books, making little sense of his mishmash of botanical guides, Native American histories, and tomes on eighteenth century migration.

  The next time I saw Mac, he sat at a table in The Black Sheep with a pint of stout in front of him, appearing about as morose as I’d ever seen a person look. When I caught sight of him, I stopped short, causing my best friend Sheila to bump into me. I flushed, puzzled by my own reaction. He continued to stare into his beer with his brows drawn and my pulse pounded as we drew near. As Sheila and I passed him on the way to our table, I’d been unable to resist leaning over to say, “Hey, Happy McJoy-Joy, surely things can’t be so bad.” He raised his head to give me a sharp look, which turned quizzical as I gave him a wink.

  “Jules?” Sheila raised an eyebrow at my sauciness and the only answer I had was a shrug. I didn’t know why he’d attracted my eye, actually, because Mac wasn’t my usual type: average height, slight build, hair as dark and curly as mine. Usually, I went for taller men and—having struggled with my own curls all my life—I didn’t like the look on other people, either. But when he lifted his head to look at me, I saw blue eyes ringed with greenish gray and, somehow, I was lost from that minute on.

  For the rest of the evening, as I chatted and laughed with Sheila and flirted mildly with the bartender, I was very conscious of Mac, still sitting at his table, nursing a couple of beers, and not looking terribly morose any longer. In fact, he mostly looked at me—something he didn’t even try to disguise. Typically, when Sheila and I were together, she gathered the lion’s share of the male attention, what with her long blonde hair and her flair for the dramatic. Mac didn’t seem to notice, though. The intensity of his gaze raised the hairs on the back of my neck. When Sheila and I left the pub, we passed his table again. I kept my gaze down, a bit embarrassed, but then I couldn’t help myself and looked up at the last minute. He watched me and I nearly missed a step. As I faltered somewhere between a blush and a smile, he rose, pressed a card into my hand, and said, simply, “Call me.”

  I think I was more surprised than anyone when I actually called him the next day.

  And now? Well, if Mac didn’t know anything about Carson being a Werewolf, then I was really lost.


  I definitely needed to talk to him. But how?

  The baby monitor screeched and I jumped to my feet, moving down the hall instinctually and relieved to hear Carson’s normal cries.

  When I opened the door, Carson lay in the crib, beating the air with his hands and feet, head turned to look for me. Upon seeing me, he screwed up his face and his cries redoubled in strength. He wore his little blue-and-green stripped pajamas, just like at bedtime. I wondered what happened to his clothes when he changed. Shouldn’t they have ripped to shreds or something, like in the movies? This Werewolf business disobeyed the laws of nature in more ways than one.

  “Shhhh, sweetie, Mama’s here,” I crooned and lifted him. His little body felt utterly familiar and my knot of anxiety loosened. He continued to cry, then stopped in anticipation as I sat in the rocking chair to feed him.

  I looked him over inch by inch. My baby seemed perfectly normal. No fur, nothing to indicate the momentous events of the past night. In fact, if I hadn’t checked so many times, I might have thought I imagined it all. I held his little feet in my hands, felt his perfect toes wiggle, and wondered how this Werewolf stuff worked. And how I might be able to get in contact with Mac.

  When my baby was full, I tucked him into his little bouncy chair and put him in the bathroom so I could take a shower. Carson sat there in good spirits, kicking at the toys and sucking on his pacifier. I often wished anything in the world would make me quite as happy as a pacifier made Carson. Sometimes Carson managed to pull it out of his mouth and stare at it, as if memorizing every feature of the fantastic thing. Of course, when that happened, he more often than not dropped the paci and screamed bloody murder until I picked it up for him.

  Thankfully, he didn’t drop the paci during my shower, so I could actually relax under the hot water. After an almost sleepless night, I needed the shower to clear my head. And, I feared, I’d need a large amount of coffee as well.

  Once clean, I faced the real post-baby challenge: finding something decent to wear that didn’t look too frumpy and fit me. I wasn’t too worried about losing the last ten pounds of baby-weight right away, but I was definitely ready to get back into my some of my clothes. With a sigh, I grabbed a pair of formerly-baggy jeans and one of my favorite shirts, purple with tiny black and white flowers. The shirt fit slightly tight across my chest now, but not indecent, I decided. In fact, perhaps that was one good feature of this post-baby body, I thought, studying myself in the mirror.