Blue Moon

by Laurell K. Hamilton

Chapter 24

  24

  The greeting ceremony that had been interrupted last night was back on for tonight. One thing about the monsters: You have to observe the rules. The rules said we needed a greeting ceremony, well, by golly, we'd have one. Vengeful vampires, or crooked cops, or hell freezing over, if there was a rite to be performed, or a ceremony to be had, you went ahead with it. The vampires were worse about being cultured while they tore your throat out, but the werewolves weren't far behind.

  Me, I'd have ordered takeout and said, "Hell with it; let's try to solve the mystery. " But I wasn't in charge. Even crispy-crittering over twenty vamps last night didn't make me top dog or top anything else, though Verne's invitation had been very, very polite. Colin wasn't the only one who was scared of me now.

  Executing almost all of Colin's vamps meant that Verne's pack was in charge now. They had the personnel to keep Colin from making more vamps. Apparently, if there was no tie between vampires and wereanimals in an area, then whoever had the strength could rule over the others. Until last night, Colin had kept the wolves in line; now the shoe was on the other foot, and from the look in Verne's eyes, the shoe was going to pinch.

  It was one of those hot August nights that is utterly still. The world sits in the close, hot darkness as if holding its breath, waiting for a cool breeze that never comes.

  But there was movement under the trees. No wind, but movement. People crept among the trees. No, not people, werewolves. Everyone was still in human form, but you wouldn't have mistaken them for human. They eased through the trees like gliding shadows, moving through the scattered underbrush almost soundlessly. If there had been even the smallest breeze to stir the trees, they would have been soundless. But a brush of twig, a crunch of leaf, a rustle of green leaves, and you heard them. On a night like tonight, even the small sounds carried.

  A twig snapped off to my left, and I jumped. Jamil touched my arm, and I jumped again.

  "Damn, babe, you're jumpy tonight. "

  "Don't call me babe. "

  His smile flashed in the darkness. "Sorry. "

  I rubbed my hands along my arms.

  "You can't be cold," he said.

  "I'm not. " It wasn't cold that was trailing up and dawn my skin like insects marching.

  "What's wrong?" Jason asked.

  I stopped in the dark woods, knee-deep in some tall, leggy weed. I shook my head, searching the darkness. Yeah, there were several dozen werewolves slinking around, but it wasn't the shapeshifters themselves that were freaking me out. It was . . . it was like hearing voices in a distant room. I couldn't understand what they were saying, but I could hear them -¨C hear them in my head. I knew what it was; it was the munin. The munin in the lupanar. The munin called to me, whispered across my skin. They were eager for me to come, waiting for me. Shit.

  Zane stared out into the dark. He was standing close enough that I heard him draw a breath and knew he was scenting the wind. They were all turned out into the night, even Nathaniel. He seemed more confident than I'd ever seen him, more comfortable in his own skin, no pun intended. Our little ceremony this afternoon had meant something to all three of the leopards. I still wasn't sure what, exactly, it meant to me.

  They were all wearing old jeans, T-shirts, things you wouldn't mind shapeshifting in, because one night closer to the full moon, accidents happened. No, not accidents. I would get to watch some of them lose their human shapes tonight. I realized that I really didn't want to see it. Not really.

  Asher and Damian were not here. They had gone to spy or negotiate with Colin and his remaining vamps. I'd thought this was a really bad idea, but Asher had assured me that it was expected. That he as Jean-Claude's second would carry the message that I, we, had spared Colin and his second in command, Barnaby. We had allowed his human servant to walk from the circle. We had been generous, and we didn't have to be. By their laws, Colin had overstepped his bounds. He was the lesser vampire, and we could have taken everything from him.

  Of course, the truth was that Colin and Barnaby had escaped. The only person we allowed to escape was Colin's human servant. But Asher assured me that he could lie to Colin and that the Master of this City would never realize it was a lie.

  There was a tightness in my gut at the thought of Damian and Asher out there alone with Colin and company. The vamps had rules for everything, but they had a tendency to bend the rules until they were just this side of breaking. Close enough to get Asher and Damian hurt. But Asher had been so confident, and tonight I was playing lupa. One monster at a time, I guess.

  Another thing that was making me nervous was no guns. Knives were okay, they substituted for claws, but no guns. Marcus had been the same way. No Ulfric worth his salt would let you bring a gun into their inner sanctum. I understood it, but I didn't have to like it. After what I'd done for Verne last night, I thought the request for no guns was downright rude.

  Richard had informed me that my killing of Colin's vamps inside the lupanar would be our gift, the gift that the visiting Ulfric and lupa gave to the resident pack.

  The gift was usually a freshly killed animal, jewelry for the lupa, or something mystical. Death, jewelry, or magic; it sounded like Valentine's Day.

  I'd put jeans on to protect my legs from the underbrush, even though it was hot enough for my knees to sweat. The only one of us wearing shorts was Jason. If his legs were getting scratched up, he didn't seem to mind. He was also the only one not wearing a shirt of some kind. I'd put on a royal blue tank top so at least the top of me would be cool. It did leave the knives sort of visible, though.

  The big knife down my spine was still invisible unless you looked really hard at my back. The tank top was thin material, and you could see the sheath, though not in the dark. I had my usual wrist sheaths and silver blades on my forearms. They were very visible against my skin. I had a new knife in my pocket. It was a four-inch switchblade with a safety lock. Didn't want to sit down and stab myself. This is one of those blades that comes straight out. Yes, it is illegal. It had been a gift from a friend who didn't sweat legalities much. So why have a four-incher that is illegal to carry in most states? Because at six inches, it wasn't comfortable to sit down with it in my pocket. So nice to have friends that know your size.

  I was also wearing a silver crucifix. I didn't plan on meeting any bad vamps tonight, but I didn't trust Colin not to try something. If he knew enough about the greeting ceremony to know I wouldn't be allowed a gun, now is when he would jump me.

  There were soft grey shadows under the trees. The moon and stars were bright somewhere overhead. But where we stood, the trees were a solid darkness between us and the sky. I felt almost claustrophobic standing there in the dark.

  "I don't smell anything but other lukoi," Jason said.

  Everybody agreed. Nothing but us shapeshifters tonight. No one but me seemed to be able to feel that whispering echo. I was the only necromancer in the bunch, so the spirits of the dead liked me better.

  "We need to be at the meeting place before the ceremony goes any further," Jamil said.

  I looked at him. "You mean they've started the ceremony already?"

  "The call has been given," Jason said.

  He said it like callshould have been in capital letters. "What do you mean the call has been given?"

  "They've sacrificed an animal and smeared blood on the tree, sort of what you did last night," Jason said.

  I rubbed my arms. "I wonder if that's why I'm sensing the munin. "

  "When we smear blood on the rock throne, our spirit symbol, it doesn't make the munin come," Jason said.

  I shook my head. "I've been in your lupanar, Jason; this one is different. Their magic is different from yours. "

  I felt something creeping through the trees. A roil of energy that made my heart skip a beat, and then beat faster, as if I'd been running. "Jesus, what was that?"

  "She's feeling the call," Jason said.
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  "That's impossible," Jamil said. "She isn't lukoi. " He stabbed a finger at Cherry, Zane, and Nathaniel. "They don't feel it. They're shapeshifters, and they don't feel the call to the lupanar. "

  Cherry looked at us, then shook her head. "He's right. I feel something like a vague buzz through the woods, but it's nothing big. "

  Nathaniel and Zane agreed with her.

  My skin rushed across my body like it was going to try to crawl away under its own power. It was creepy as hell. "What is happening to me?"

  "She is feeling the call," Jason said.

  "That is not possible," Jamil said.

  "You keep saying that about her, Jamil, and you keep being wrong," Jason said.

  A low, growling snarl trickled from Jamil's mouth.

  "Stop it, both of you," I said. I looked behind me farther into the trees until there was nothing but a wall of darkness shot by faint moonlight. Jason was right. I could feel the magic. It was ritual magic, and it was death magic. Lycanthropes' power comes from life. They are the most alive preternatural creatures I've ever been around, more like fairies than humans, sometimes. But this lupanar ran on death as well as life; it called to me twice. Once through Richard's marks; second through my necromancy. I wished Richard were here.

  He'd gone to have dinner with his family. Shang-Da had gone with him at my insistence. Sheriff Wilkes had to know we weren't leaving town by now. It wasn't just the local vampires we had to worry about. Richard had called on the telephone, saying they were running late, to start without him. His mother just hadn't understood why he couldn't stay longer. All of the Zeeman men were so pussy whipped -¨C ah, henpecked, sorry.

  I started through the trees, and they followed me. I climbed on top of a fallen log. You never step directly over a log. You never know if there's a snake on the other side. Step on the log, then over. Tonight it wasn't snakes I was worried about. I moved slowly, picking my way through the trees. My night vision is excellent for a human, and I could have gone faster. I wanted to go faster. I wanted to fling myself through the trees and run. I didn't, but it was force of will alone that kept me walking.

  It wasn't just the death I was picking up on. It was that warm rising energy that was pure lycanthrope. I knew I could sense some of this with Richard holding my hand. We'd done it before on a full moon, but never with me alone. Never just me moving through the darkness trying to breathe past the beating of my heart and the rush of someone else's power.

  I whispered, "Richard, what have you done to me?" Maybe it was his name, maybe it was just thinking of him, but I suddenly felt him sitting in the car. I had a moment of seeing Daniel driving. I could smell Daniel's aftershave. I could feel the warm tightness of Richard's chest. I pulled away and was left staggering. If I hadn't had a tree to hug, I'd have fallen to my knees. If that moment of sharing hit Richard as hard as it hit me, I was glad he wasn't driving.

  "Anita, are you all right?" Jason touched my shoulder. And power flowed between us in a hot, skin-creeping rush. I turned to him and it felt like I was moving in slow motion. I couldn't breathe past the power and the sensations that filled my mind. Images, flashes, like watching a room through strobe light. A bed, white sheets, the smell of sex so fresh it was hot and musky. My hands resting on a smooth chest. A man's chest. That warm, rolling power that was pure lycanthrope, pure beast, filled my body, like the man underneath me. Sharp, pleasant, exciting. The power spilled out my fingertips, pulling claws from my hands like knives unsheathing. The beast pushed at the smooth skin of my body, tried to slip out and overwhelm me. But I held it, tightened my body around it, and let only my hands turn monstrous. Claws sliced that smooth chest. Blood, hot and fresh enough to taste on our tongues.

  Jason stared up at me from the bed, still pinned by my body, our body, and he screamed. He'd wanted this. Chosen it. And still he screamed. I felt his flesh give under claws. Those hands struck again and again, until the white sheets were spongy with blood and he lay motionless underneath us. If he survived, he would be one of us. I remembered not caring if he lived or if he died, not really. It was the sex, the pain, the joy of it all that mattered.

  When I could feel my body again, Jason and I were kneeling in the leaves. His hands were still on my arms. Someone was screaming, and it was me. Jason stared at me with a face almost blank with horror. He'd shared the ride, but it wasn't his memory.

  It wasn't Richard's memory, or mine. It was Raina's. She was dead but not forgotten. She was why I feared the munin. I was a necromancer with ties to the wolves. The munin liked me. Raina's munin liked me best of all.

  "What's wrong?" Cherry said. She touched me, and it opened something inside of me again. It welcomed Raina back with a rush that left me screaming. But I fought it this time. Fought it because I did not want to see Cherry the way Raina would see her. Jason wouldn't care. Cherry would care. I would care.

  There was a rush of sensations: skin damp with sweat, hands with long, polished nails on my breasts, those grey eyes staring up at me, mouth open, slack, shoulder-length yellow hair against a pillow. Raina on top again.

  I screamed and pulled away from them both. The images died as if a plug had been pulled. I scrambled through the leaves on all fours, eyes shut tight. I ended sitting, hugging my knees to my chest, face buried against my legs. I squeezed my eyes so tight that I began seeing white snakes against my eyelids.

  I heard someone move through the crunching leaves. I felt them hovering over me.

  "Don't touch me," I said. It was almost another scream.

  I heard whoever it was kneel in the dry leaves before Jamil's voice came. "I won't touch you. Are you still getting the memories?"

  He didn't ask if I was seeing the memories. I found the phrasing strange. I shook my head without looking up.

  "Then it's over, Anita. Once the munin leave, they're gone until called again. "

  "I didn't call her. " I raised my face slowly and opened my eyes. The summer night seemed blacker somehow.

  "It was Raina again?" he made it a question.

  "Yes. "

  He knelt as close as he could get without touching me. "You shared the memories with Jason and with Cherry. "

  I wasn't sure if it was a question or a statement, but I answered it: "Yeah. "

  "It was a full visual," Jason said. He was sitting with his bare back against a tree.

  Cherry had her hands pressed to her face. She spoke, face hidden. "I cut my hair after that night, after what she did to me. One night with her was the price for not having to do one of their porno movies. " She jerked her hands away from her face, crying. "God, I can smell Raina's scent. " She rubbed her hands against her jeans, over and over, as if she'd touched something bad and was trying to wipe it away.

  "What the fuck was that?" I asked. "I've channeled Raina before, but it wasn't like that. I've got glimpses of memories, but not a full-blown movie. Nothing like that, ever. "

  "Have you been trying to learn to control the munin?" Jamil asked.

  "Just to get rid of it, them, whatever. "

  Jamil moved closer to me, studying my face as if looking for something. "If you were lukoi, I'd tell you, you can't just turn the munin off. If you have the power to call them, then you must learn to control them, not just shut them out. Because you can't shut them out. They'll seek a way into you, through you. "

  "How do you know so much?" I asked.

  "I knew a werewolf who could call the munin. She hated it. She tried to shut them out. It didn't work. "

  "Just because it didn't work for your friend doesn't mean I can't do it. " I could feel his breath warm against my face. "Back off, Jamil. "

  He scooted back, but he was still closer than I wanted him to be. He sat back in the leaves. "She went crazy, Anita. The pack had to execute her. " His eyes went past me into the darkness. I turned to see what he was looking at. Two figures stood in the darkness. One was a woman with long, pale hair and a long, white
dress like something out of a 1950s horror movie. If you were playing the victim. But she stood very straight, very certain, as if she were anchored to the ground like a tree. There was something almost frightfully confident about her.

  The man with her was tall, slender, and tanned dark enough that he looked brown in the dark. His hair was short and a paler brown than his skin. If the woman seemed calm, he seemed nervous. He gave off energy in a roiling bath that breathed along my skin and made the night seem hotter.

  "Are you well?" the woman asked.

  "She shared the munin with two of us," Jamil said.

  "By accident, I take it," the woman said. She sounded faintly amused.

  I was not amused. I got to my feet, a little unsteady, but standing. "Who are you?"

  "My name is Marianne. I am the vargamor for this clan. "

  I remembered Verne and Colin talking about a varga-something last night. "Verne mentioned you last night. Colin said he'd left you at home to keep you safe. "

  "A good witch is hard to find," she said, smiling.

  I looked at her. "You don't feel Wiccan. "

  Again, I knew she smiled at me. Her peaceful condescension grated on my nerves. "A psychic then, if you prefer the term. "

  "I'd never heard the term vargamor before last night," I said.

  "It's rare," she said. "Most packs don't have one anymore. Considered too old-fashioned. "

  "You aren't lukoi," I said.

  Her head cocked to one side, and the smile was gone, as if I'd finally done something worthwhile. "Are you so sure?"

  I tried to get a sense of what had made me so sure she was human, or at least not lukoi. She had her own energy. She was psychic enough for me to notice. We'd have recognized each other without any introductions. We might not have known the exact flavor of each other's abilities, but we'd have recognized a kindred or rival spirit. Whatever power moved her, it wasn't lycanthropy.

  "Yeah, I'm sure you're not lukoi," I said.

  "Why?" she asked.

  "You don't taste like a shapeshifter. "

  She laughed then, and it was a rich, musical sound that managed to be wholesome and earthy all at the same time. "I like your choice of senses. Most humans would have said I didn't feel right. Feel is such an imprecise word, don't you think?"

  I shrugged. "Maybe. "

  "This is Roland. He is my bodyguard for this night. We poor humans must be watched over for fear that some overzealous shapeshifter might lose control and harm us. "

  "Somehow I don't think you are that easy a prey, Marianne. "

  She laughed again. "Why, thank you, child. "

  Her calling me child made me add about ten years to her age. She didn't look it. It was dark, but she still didn't look it.

  "Come, Anita. We will escort you to the lupanar. " She held out her hand to me like I was supposed to take it and be led like a child.

  I looked to Jamil. I hoped somebody knew what was going on, because I was lost.

  "It's all right, Anita. The vargamor is neutral. She never fights or takes sides in challenges. That's how she can be human and run with the pack. "

  "Are we involved in a challenge or a fight that I don't know about?" I asked.

  "No," Jamil said, but he sounded uncertain.

  Marianne interpreted for me without being asked. "Introducing two outside dominants to a pack can lead to fighting. Having someone as powerful as Richard is raising the hackles on our younger wolves. Having him sleeping with our pack's only two dominant females makes it worse. "

  "You mean we may get into a pissing contest," I said.

  "A colorful phrase, but accurate enough," she said.

  "Okay, now what?" I asked.

  "Now, Roland and I escort you all to the lupanar. The rest of you may go ahead. You know the way, Jamil. "

  "I don't think so," I said.

  "No to what?" Marianne asked.

  "Do I look like Little Red Riding Hood?" I said. "I'm not taking a stroll in the woods with two strangers. One of them a werewolf and the other a . . . I don't know what you are yet, Marianne. But I don't want to be alone with the two of you. "

  "Very well," she said. "Some or all may stay. I was thinking that you might like privacy to speak with another human tied to the lukoi. Perhaps I was wrong. "

  "Tomorrow in the light of day, we can talk. Tonight, let's just take it easy. "

  "As you like," she said. Again, she held out her hand to me. "Come. Let us talk as we all troop to the lupanar as one big, happy family. "

  "You're making fun of me now," I said. "That won't put you on my A-list. "

  "I make fun of everyone a little," she said. "I mean no harm by it. " She waggled her hand at me. "Come, child, the moon is passing above us. Time wastes away. "

  I walked towards her with my five bodyguards at my back. I didn't take her hand, though.

  I was close enough to see the condescending smile clearly now. Anita Blake, the famous vampire hunter, afraid of some backcountry wisewoman.

  I smiled. "I'm cautious by nature and paranoid by profession. You've offered me your hand twice now within just a few minutes. You don't strike me as someone who does anything without a reason. What gives?"

  She put her hands on her hips and tsked at me. "Is she always this difficult?"

  "Worse," Jason said.

  I frowned at him. Even if he couldn't see it in the dark, it made me feel better.

  "All I want, child, is to touch your hand and get a sense of how powerful you are before we let you inside the boundaries of our lupanar again. After what you did last night, some of our pack fear you within the boundaries of our lupanar. They seem to think you will steal our power. "

  "I can tap into it," I said, "but I can't steal it. "

  "But the munin already reach out to you. I felt you call your munin. It traveled through the power we have called tonight in the lupanar. It disturbed it like plucking on a thread of a spider's web. We came to see what we had caught, and if it were too big to eat, we would cut it loose and not take it home. "

  "The spider metaphor worked for maybe two sentences, then you lost me," I said.

  "The lupanar is our place of power, Anita. I need to get a sense of what you are before you enter it this night. " The laughter was gone from her voice. She was suddenly very serious. "It is not just our protection I am thinking of, child. It is yours. Think, child, what would happen to you if the munin within our circle rode you one after another? I need to make sure you can control at least that well. "

  Just hearing her say it made my stomach tight with fear. "Okay. " I held out my hand to her like we were going to shake hands, but I gave her my left hand. If she didn't like it, she could refuse it.

  "Offering the left hand is an insult," she said.

  "Take it or leave it, vargamor. We don't have all night. "

  "That is more true than you know, little one. " She put her hand out as if to touch mine but stopped with her hand just above mine. She spread her hand above my skin. I mirrored her. She was trying to get a sense of my aura. Two could play at that game.

  When I raised my hands up in front of my body, she mirrored me. We stood facing each other, hands spread wide, not quite touching. She was tall, five-foot-seven or five-foot-eight. I didn't think there were high heels under that long dress.

  Her aura was warm against my skin. It had a weight to it, as if I could have wrapped her aura in my hands like dough. I'd never met anyone with such weight to their aura. It confirmed my first sense of her. Solid.

  She pushed forward suddenly, wrapping her fingers around my hand. She forced my aura back in upon itself like a knife thrust. It made me gasp, but again, I knew what was happening. I pushed back and felt her waver.

  She smiled, but it wasn't condescending now. It was almost as if she were pleased.

  The hair at the back of my neck tried to crawl down my spine.

  "Powerfu
l," she said. "Strong. "

  I spoke around a tightness in my throat. "You, too. "

  "Thank you," she said.

  I felt her power, her magic, move over me, through me, like a rush of wind. She pulled away so abruptly it staggered both of us.

  We were left standing a foot away from each other, breathing hard like we'd been running. My heart thudded in my throat like a trapped thing. And I could taste her pulse on the back of my tongue. No, I could hear it. I could hear it like a small ticking clock. But it wasn't her pulse. I smelled Richard's aftershave like a cloud that I had walked through. When the marks were working through Richard, it was often scent that let me know what was happening. I didn't know what had caused them to act up. Maybe the power of the other lycanthropes or the closeness of the full moon. Who knew? But something had opened me to him. I was channeling more than the sweet smell of his body.

  "What is that sound?" I asked.

  "Describe it," Marianne said.

  "Like a clicking, soft, almost mechanical. "

  "I've got an artificial valve in my heart," she said.

  "It can't be that. "

  "Why not? When I lean forward to the mirror to apply eyeliner, I can hear it through my open mouth, echoing against the mirror. "

  "But I can't hear it," I said.

  "But you are," she said.

  I shook my head. I was losing the sense of her. She was pulling away from me, putting up shields. I didn't blame her, because, for just a second I could feel her heart beating, limping along. The sound hadn't made me sorry for her or empathetic. The sound excited me. I felt it pull things deep inside my body. It was almost sexual. She'd be slow, an easy kill. I looked at this tall, confident woman, and for a split second all I saw was food.

  Fuck.