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by Hugo Claus


  Can read with her lips something her sweetheart has written.

  And before the poets, wasted winter apples

  Scorned as too scrawny by the pickers,

  Finally fall in November,

  They want the neighbours to understand that fall

  For posterity. In dairy words, ripening to mush like a pear.

  Embittered, they keep listening for the crumpling

  Of the newspaper that persists in misspelling their names,

  Filling in their crossword puzzles

  With anecdotes, anxiety and stumbling love.

  But too late, too deaf, the poets realise

  That what was dark and dull in their poems

  Will not grow lighter through wear, with time,

  But keeps on rotting. As unfathomable as ever:

  Their homes, their words, the equator, the azure.

  The sullen darkness remains as common as money

  And as fleeting as death.

  “But what about you? Yes, you! Didn’t you also worship

  The scission, the seething, instead of the monument?

  Searching for an epitaph in every motet?

  Wringing an emblem out of every injury?

  Didn’t you see your dented ego in every cappuccino?

  —“It’s true. Upright yet, I dream of the literal.

  Sure. Until the end, those embarrassments, radishes,

  Paradises, roses, embellishments, tired comparisons. Up

  To this sheet of paper, these corpses of letters.”

  Adieu the poets write their whole lives long

  And greying like lavender in November

  They hang around, gangrene and gags and riddles,

  Pathetically begging for mercy,

  Like me for the wear on these eyes and ears

  That loved you, that love you.

  Ten Ways of Looking at P.B. Shelley

  1

  His body washed up on the beach

  and lay there while the gold drained away

  behind the mountains.

  In his yellow trousers, in his white silk socks,

  in Keats’s poems in his inside pocket,

  the only moving things were worms.

  O wild west wind,

  breath of autumn’s being.

  2

  His face had been eaten away

  by the creatures of the sea.

  His spirit, which had eyes,

  lips and nostrils,

  saw the dreaming earth

  and licked her,

  breathing in the smells that destroy

  and preserve at once.

  3

  All skin and bones, spastic.

  (In pantomimes he always

  played the witch.)

  A shrill voice. A magpie’s eyes.

  Girls at his knee.

  And him just squawking

  about angels of rain,

  angels of lightning

  that would come down tonight

  on the blue planet.

  4

  He hated minced pork,

  saints, devotion, the King.

  But most of all he hated

  one man and one woman

  and their monogamous embrace.

  Black rain, fiery hail

  beat down on the fluttering locks

  of the maenad wig

  he’d put on.

  5

  There were many thorns, many bushes

  into which he fell and bled.

  But he always carried arsenic,

  because who knows

  if you will want to survive

  the beauty of inflections?

  Who knows if you wouldn’t rather

  sink with no farewells

  into the seaweed, untamed?

  6

  He once set fire to Mr. Laker,

  the family butler. In Italy

  he danced by the flames of a forest fire.

  Later, in the shadow, grey

  cold, after hours like icicles,

  he whispered, “Hear, O hear,

  the boughs of heaven and ocean,

  tangled in each other.”

  7

  He ran screeching from his room,

  he had seen, O, the fat women of Sussex

  with eyes where the nipples should be.

  Whereas usually in his wintry bed,

  he saw a naked babe

  rising from a purple sea.

  O, lift me as a wave,

  a leaf, a cloud.

  8

  For breakfast and lunch he ate bonbons.

  Constipated from the laudanum.

  Kidneys and bladder damaged.

  His accents and rhythms

  blow over the frozen earth.

  Echoes of gods and blackbirds

  and blasphemies.

  9

  He refused to wear woollen socks.

  Butter made him gag.

  Into Harriet, Mary, Clare and the rest,

  he inserted a wine-soaked sponge

  to prevent pregnancy.

  On the edge of many circles

  he wanted to banish himself.

  He sank in his grand gestures,

  the refusals.

  10

  When his fragments died,

  he was interred as an ode and a pamphlet.

  The Courier wrote: The infidel has drowned;

  now he knows if there is a god or no.

  He bounced the bawd of euphony

  on his knee.

  His heathenism, a remedy

  when winter comes

  on the west wind.

  Lumumba

  You gave the wet nurse a shock when you were born

  by not crying,

  a sign of a good conscience.

  You studied at Louvain, a pale bastion.

  They taught you L’Union fait la force.

  Up on his cross the God of the Albinos

  said his love knows no bounds

  not even in the distant technicolor tropics.

  Four-eyed thief and dreamer. Your name became

  an insult in Belgian soccer stadiums.

  You didn’t want to be the son of your forefathers,

  not the Eldest, and not the Founder,

  they never forgave you that.

  The tribes sold you to Mobutu

  for a telephone connection,

  a license plate, a bank account.

  The middlemen stepped in the mud

  on your nameless cadaver.

  The God of the Albinos has sat down

  on your dead body as if on a toilet.

  Italo Calvino

  On the boat to America, after a late breakfast,

  he would sit on the side of the swimming pool

  and flirt. A different woman every day,

  a journalist, a photo model, a housewife.

  We, the other four writers, thought it grotesque.

  We were just jealous.

  He had the eyelashes of a girl,

  the centuries-old scowl of Italian scepticism.

  He looked after his complexion, his fingernails, his shoes.

  For weeks we crossed the New Continent.

  Days in the hot car, with the five of us.

  He generally wanted to be behind the wheel, he drove too fast,

  swerving too much because he was short-sighted

  and too vain to wear his glasses.

  He didn’t want to drive in the desert.

  Holding forth on structure and concept,

  on ultimate finiteness from the back seat

  until he fell asleep mumbling dipping rhymes.

  It is thirty years ago.

  We wrote poetry back then without punctuation.

  He had lived in the mountains with the partisans,

  that makes you mistrust spontaneity.

  He found the framework in most phonemes,

  praising the skeleton in words and in women.

  “Italo, for
God’s sake put on your glasses!”

  “Vivere non basta, caro.”

  The tumour had already nestled in under his elegant cranium.

  Brother

  “It’s hard,” he said, “bloody hard.

  And unfair too. I’m finally losing weight.”

  Autumn outside, a corn field stretching to the end of the road,

  the words slip out, the end of the road.

  He doesn’t say another word.

  A plastic tube snakes down his throat.

  He hiccups for hours. Can’t swallow.

  Movement still in his right hand,

  which carries the left like a fat lily.

  The hand gives me a thumbs-up,

  sending signals until his final collapse.

  His skin has gone white, childlike.

  He squeezes my frightened hand.

  I still search for a similarity — ours,

  her restlessness,

  his impatience (no time for time),

  the mistrust and gullibility of both—

  and land in our first past,

  the one with a world like a meadow with frogs,

  like a ditch with eels,

  and later, bets and dares, table tennis,

  house rules, the 52 cards,

  the three dice

  and constant unbridled hunger.

  (I grow old instead of you.

  I eat pheasant and smell the woods.)

  His housing is restricted now.

  The machine breathes for him,

  sucking up the phlegm.

  A rattle from his diaphragm

  and then his last movement, a sluggish wink.

  The migration of a soul. A disposition. A portion cut off.

  His body still shrinking

  and then suddenly in the face that was dead,

  a frown and a cramp

  and then a gaping look of fury,

  unbearably lucid, the anger and terror

  of a tyrant. What does he see? Me, a man

  turning away in cowardly surprise at his tears?

  Then morning comes and they undo the straps.

  And he is forever

  from Cruel Happiness [1999]

  What to Speak About

  What to speak about tonight? Speaking

  in a country we recognise, tolerate,

  seldom forget.

  This country with its slapstick genesis,

  its clammy climate, its filthy stories

  about the old days,

  its inhabitants, grasping until they finally collapse

  between the cauliflowers.

  They keep on multiplying

  in a paradise of their own invention,

  craving happiness, trembling, mush in their mouths.

  Like in nature,

  where our runts of hills are depilated,

  our fields scorched, our air poisoned,

  yet the unsuspecting cows keep grazing.

  Speaking about this country’s writing,

  publications full of question marks

  on patient paper

  continually shocked by its history

  and fleeing into deceptive shorthand.

  Speaking about the heavy drapes

  people draw around themselves.

  But we hear them still, the stinking

  primates who corner each other in rooms.

  Like in nature,

  where the hibiscus gives off no scent,

  leaving that to the innocent cows who sink

  into the drenched earth.

  Speaking in this country of gleaming grass,

  in which man,

  that immoderate worm, that dreaming carcass,

  lingers among the cadavers which, dead as they may be,

  remain obedient to our memories.

  Like our nature which expects a single, solitary

  miracle that will eventually, finally

  illuminate what one was,

  not just this shabby spectacle

  thrown together by time.

  Speaking about time, which, so they say,

  will remain like a brand and a palimpsest?

  We lived in an age of using

  and being useful.

  What defence can we offer for that?

  Which festive feathers in our caps?

  Which song in the cellar? Maybe.

  Say it. Maybe.

  A few scratches on slate

  to mark the silhouette of your lover.

  Fingerprints in clay for her hips.

  Phonemes of delight that sometimes resounded

  as she, when she, cried out for you like a cat.

  Speaking about her presence

  wakens the violet hour of twilight.

  Like in nature,

  the merciless, glassy azure

  of our planet seen from Apollo.

  And even if your party hat begins

  to weigh heavily from speech alone

  and the lifeline on your palm

  begins to fester,

  still, nonetheless, in spite of this

  honour the flowering

  of the shades that inhabit us,

  the shades that beg for comfort.

  And stroke her shoulder blade.

  Like a hunchback’s hump.

  Still craving a cruel kind of happiness.

  Interview

  There’s a knocking on my door

  and, yes, it’s the young poet

  — I recognise his teeth—

  who once sang the glory of my alliteration

  and — oh, familiarity! — has gnawed

  at my ankles in the papers ever since.

  I bid him enter.

  He says he lives from readings

  and interviews for magazines.

  His wife has been depressive since her teens.

  I help him out of his coat.

  I pour him a shot of jenever.

  His letting me have it in the paper, he says,

  was hard, a bitter cup, and not his intent.

  It was forced on him by the editor of the cultural supplement.

  Our talk would be, broadly speaking,

  not too long, about love without stains,

  and politics, without naming any names.

  I pour him another drink.

  “Between you and me,” he says, “I find you at odds

  with the new,

  not recognising the spirit of the age and

  venerating dead masters far too much.

  Where in your work is the exhilaration of technology?

  Because if technology is our divinity and our destiny

  shouldn’t we join together to reflect

  on the laws of the Internet?”

  Another jenever. With a beer chaser.

  “And excuse me for saying so but

  you’re sometimes very hermetic.”

  Hermetic? Me? In my old age,

  with my laughter tamed,

  and my thunder all in vain?

  Who sits here quivering,

  copying the existing

  all the same.

  “And your rhyming patterns are so obvious,

  so childishly obvious.

  Rhyme doesn’t do a thing for me.

  And apropos of that, what’s actually

  the underlying concept in your flossofy?

  You don’t leave me any the wiser.”

  I think of an earlier life.

  The rams’ heads clashed.

  The rabbits all had names.

  The turkeys gobbled for grain.

  I shouldered my air rifle to shoot

  the guinea fowl in their granny’s aprons.

  I think of faraway countries.

  The spectral moon rat that stays alive

  because of its stench.

  The lamp-eyed lemurs.

  The orang pendek that steals children

  and loves human liver.

  I think of the dead masters.

/>   Byron who kept and numbered

  locks of his own hair. His manuscripts.

  Lots of crossing out. Lots of second thoughts

  but he always left the rhymes intact.

  Ezra Pound in the cinema screaming

  with laughter at idiotic comedies.

  His Ezivursity.

  How he kept silent for years and years

  then said, “I did it all wrong.”

  Stevie Smith who thought that everything

  could swim in a wonderful wisdom.

  “Stepping stones,” I say.

  “Pardon?” he says.

  “Stepping stones the poem can follow.

  Gezelle and Minne

  have led the way.”

  And I help him into his coat.

  And I lead him to the door.

  Outside I point up at the moon.

  He keeps staring at my finger.

  from In Case of Emergency [2004]

  Horizon

  The horizon is the language, the language I am

  expected to share

  with the mutilated child,

  the youth who’s become a soldier,

  so proud of his boots,

  the greybeard with his ripped bowels

  in his arms.

  It rains phosphorus and sirens.

  The voices of my country,

  mostly in the television.

  Murderous families.

  A criminal chorus.

  And the blood-slurping gods all around.

  Our Century

  (for Pierre Alechinsky)

  In my youth: smudges, curls

  gouges

  After my youth: coloured shadows

  rusted, scorched

  something like a past

  written down, photocopied, enlarged

  primary colours

  — the reeds disobedient—

  soot

  hay

  prickly or smothered in asphalt

  Since my youth: salt and wind

 

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