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by Hugo Claus


  Splinters in distant boats

  It’s our century

  It remains our youth

  No better way to

  waste it

  than surrounded by fingers of grass,

  lightning bolts in snow-covered

  gardens

  Norm

  No other expectation—

  No assault

  No shadow of an offence

  The revulsion resounds

  up to the last

  desecrated song

  Imbalance as the norm

  Swimming or flying

  In nature

  with its splotches and rags

  Rehearsal

  I wish I was dead.

  Like forty-five per cent

  of Belgians

  I have no one

  “Because you never invested

  in love, sweetie”

  I begin

  Continue

  Sodium thiopental

  There, you’re almost unconscious

  Then pancuronium bromide

  Your lungs fail

  Then potassium chloride

  And your heart stops

  I’ll never remember all that

  Eris

  There is sorrow’s rubbish

  art’s obscene charter

  always somewhere always elsewhere.

  There is Eris who wanders

  on blood-stained feet

  searching the thirsty grass

  for the bodies of my friends.

  When you see her it’s too late.

  Die while you, like always,

  are saying your hellos.

  For Hugo by CEES NOOTEBOOM

  An Address Delivered Beside his Coffin at the Farewell Ceremony

  Bourla Theatre, Antwerp, 29 March 2008

  “Des chênes qu’on abat,” said Malraux on De Gaulle’s death. He was like an oak that has been felled. Suddenly there’s an opening in the forest, a place where light can penetrate and feed new growth. But first there’s a long period of nothing, a large hole, with weirdly shaped roots perhaps, raised up and clawing at the light, as if searching for life. We’re all familiar with such places. Walking through a dark forest, you suddenly come across a strip of clear, filtered light. You can still recall the shape of the enormous tree that stood there, you feel the forest’s phantom pain and your own — something that has always existed is gone. Many friends must have experienced it the same way. Hugo as one of the dead, that was new to us. We’d known him in so many guises and in so many settings, but dead, no, not that. It’s hard to get used to. We still find it difficult to believe. We hear his name constantly around us, in private conversations and broadcast on radio programs and TV talk shows. If there was a platonic listening post floating through space somewhere, it would be continually picking up those sounds, the U, the O, the AU. Hugo Claus. And if we think of all those voices together, making those sounds at the same time, we hear a deafening hurricane with the vowels and consonants of his name, a high-pitched whistling and a gale-force growl, something that takes your breath away, just as those who knew in advance of the day and the hour last week could not breathe on that day and at that hour.

  And now? It’s still confusing. That bright spot in the forest, the place where the tree that should have been allowed to stand forever has disap-peared, fills slowly with images — fleeting and clear, melancholy and cheerful. Hugo bowing awkwardly at his umpteenth premiere, Hugo with his voice from the old days reading “Even Now” in an auditorium deep in the provinces, Hugo impatient and restless in a museum in Basel or Venice, but you know that he sees more than you, Hugo asleep next to you in the cinema, Hugo lazing on the couch while on TV the one hundred riders of the Tour de France work themselves into a lather racing up the Tourmalet. Followed by that other Hugo, the Hugo of the last years, the last weeks. Fragile, alert. It was like he was walking on mirrors, and because of that it was partly as if we had to learn how to walk again as well. Because how do you walk in the presence of death? How do you obey the unspoken commandment to avoid sentimentality, the question that is not allowed to be spoken out loud, how do you act at a court you are visiting for the first time, where an invisible guest we haven’t met before joins us at the table, our friend’s new friend, with whom he has a prior engagement? Had someone written our roles without writing them down? And had they made it so that it was impossible for us to act because everything was uncompromisingly real in a way that the theatre can never be real? We didn’t have any lines, how did we know our lines? Ceremonies of farewell, that I see as a gift he has given me for the time I have left, the clink of glasses, quiet conversations about the world that will retain its validity for a little while yet, laughter and song, and through it all that one unmistakable voice, recognizable always and everywhere, with the accent nobody could pin down because it, like the words he spoke in it, was an emissary from such an individual universe that we, the others, could have an inkling of it, but no more than that. No one could come all too close, his work was both an entrance and a barrier, the almost endless mass of words with the equally endless number of ways of combining them in sonnets or novels, dialogues or quatrains, ghazals, film scripts and deliberately lame haikus, litanies and novellas that rose like a rampart around the inner core of his being, which for me lies concealed in his most beautiful line about himself: “a happy man surprised by doubt.”

  Over the last few days I re-read two of his novellas, The Last Bed and A Sleepwalk. The man who could be so light-hearted when playing, who could beam when, with a lethal clang from a distant position, he neutralized the metal ball you had positioned so dangerously in a game of pétanque, who could tell obscene stories about actresses with the verve of a Venetian courtier and laugh when revealing the trump he’d saved for the last trick, displays in The Last Bed a dark universe of victims and punishment, of fear, suppressed lust and bloody violence, of mankind’s abject pettiness and cruelty, a satanic vision that ends with destruction and death, in which, like Dante, the poet leads you around a layer of hell. Something else is happening in A Sleepwalk, a book like a prophesy, in which the writing gives you an insight into the landscape he saw before him in 2000, a horror of forgotten faces, former loves, a guessing game of words lost in each other. And once more he demonstrates his mastery, because showing the drama of broken tools requires brilliant and subtle control over words and sentences. Knowing that you are describing your own fate, you must dare to penetrate deep into the territory of your future misery and humiliation to write for yourself and others about the tragedy that awaits you. And so you say eclipses instead of ellipsis, you no longer know that the woman standing before you was once the woman you wanted above all else, you describe the battlefield and tell yourself that you will leave it before the last weapon has been knocked out of your hands, and then you live on for seven years like a king in his final days, say goodbye to your wife and friends and do what you had resolved to do, knowing that the small-minded want to drag you back to this earthly hell, claiming that enduring it will earn you heavenly paradise. You turned that eternal lie on its head as only you could.

  The first time I saw you, you were young and I was even younger, the last time you were old, but the youth you had been still shone through the old master, his smile and mischief were still intact. Today, sad and celebrating, I say goodbye to those two men and all the other men in between. Dear friend, fare well. I only ask one thing: make sure to haunt us.

  Translator’s Acknowledgments

  The selection and translation of these poems was an enjoyable but daunting task and I am very grateful for the generous help provided by a number of people who have built up their knowledge of Claus and his poetry over years, if not decades, of specialization and study. I owe a particular debt of gratitude to Georges Wildemeersch and Dirk van de Geest for making space in their busy schedules and would also like to thank Victor Schiferli and Patrick Peeters for their time and advice, Tom van de Voorde for his encouragement and
for reading a draft of the translation and comparing it to the original, and P.C. Evans and Rokus Hofstede for help with particular poems.

  I selected the poems from the almost 1,500 pages of Claus’s two-volume collected poems and tried to choose representative works from all periods of his extremely diverse poetic oeuvre, not limiting myself to his most famous poems, but also including examples of his latter work, poems from the erotic series Morning, You (first published as loose pink cards in a purple velvet box) and Knittelvers from Almanac.

  While researching the work, I read, browsed and consulted quite a lot of secondary literature, most importantly books and essays by Paul Claes, Dirk de Geest and Georges Wildemeersch and articles and essays by J.M. Coetzee, Bart Eeckhout, Frank Lekens, Kristel Markoen and Patrick Peeters. I also referred to many existing translations, specifically French translations by Marnix Vincent and Maddy Buysse, Franco Paris’s Italian translation, Maria Csollány’s German, and English translations by J.M. Coetzee, John Irons, Peter Brown & Peter Nijmeijer, and Paul Claes, Christine D’haen, Theo Hermans & Yann Lovelock. My fellow translators’ interpretations and solutions often helped me to discover new depths in the original poems and find new possibilities for my own translations. Similarities between my translations and the existing English translations are inevitable, not just because the best translation of a word or phrase is sometimes the most obvious one, but also because Claus sometimes refers back to English sources in direct and indirect quotes.

  David Colmer

  Amsterdam, Septembert 2013

  Table of Contents

  from Registration [1948] For the Poet Antonin Artaud

  from Without Due Process [1950] I

  III

  from The Joyous and Unforeseen Week [1950] 1

  4

  from Bounds [1955] Home

  from A House Between Night and Morning [1953] Exercises

  Gistel By Bruges

  A Rendezvous

  I Write You Down

  Behind Bars

  An Angry Man

  Caligula

  from Tancredo Infrasonic [1952] Las Hurdes

  West Flanders

  Bye

  from The Oostakker Poems [1955] Bitter tastes

  The Singer

  The Mother

  A Father

  A Virgin

  A Woman

  The Catchword: House

  from A Painted Rider [1961] N.Y

  Chicago

  Travelling

  Uxmal

  She

  The Sphinx Speaks

  The Panama Canal

  Message to the Population [1962] ~ ~ ~

  from Peripheral Poems to L’Inferno , Canto XIII [1962] 1

  from An Eye for an Eye [1963] 1 Him

  2 Her

  4 Him

  5 Her

  9 Her

  22 Him

  from The Sign of the Hamster [1963] ~ ~ ~

  from Lord Wildboar [1970] Lord Wildboar

  His Prayers

  from Hearsay [1970] Anthropology

  In Flanders Fields

  Memorial Statue in West Flanders

  A Bed In Bruges

  The Farmers

  The Rubens Room in the Antwerp Museum of Fine Arts

  1965

  Home

  In Memory of Ferdi

  Female Friend

  Early December

  Diary Pages

  from Morning, You [1971] ~ ~ ~

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  from Figurative [1973] Five Polaroids of Jesus Christ

  Ulysses

  A Kind of Goodbye

  Introibo

  Hecate Speaks

  from Almanac [1982] 1

  5

  12

  20

  22

  24

  31

  74

  100

  110

  from Shards Montale’s “Little Testament”

  from Alibi [1985] Halloween

  Even Now I

  II

  III

  IV

  V

  VI

  VII

  VIII

  IX

  X

  XI

  XII

  XIII

  XIV

  XV

  XVI

  XVII

  XVIII

  XIX

  XX

  XXI

  XXII

  XXIII

  XXIV

  XXV

  XXVI

  XXVII

  XXVIII

  Envoi

  from Sonnets [1986] I

  III

  XIII

  XIV

  from The Traces [1993] The Traces

  Poet

  Ten Ways of Looking at P.B. Shelley

  Lumumba

  Italo Calvino

  Brother

  from Cruel Happiness [1999] What to Speak About

  Interview

  from In Case of Emergency [2004] Horizon

  Our Century

  Norm

  Rehearsal

  Eris

  For Hugo by CEES NOOTEBOOM

  Translator’s Acknowledgments

 

 

 


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