Northern Stars

by Glenn Grant

  Took out the power supply first, wiped the memory, plugged into a wall outlet and turned it on.

  The bootstrap greeting sounded a lot like Goo.

  “Okay,” she said, “it’s ready.”

  “Ready for what?”

  “Anything you want,” she said. By then he knew her, knew her rep, knew that the sweaty-smelling, disheveled, anorectic-looking waif in the filthy, oversized silk shirt (the rebels had affected natural fabrics the year she left home, and she always did after that, even later when the silk was cleaner, more upmarket, and black instead of white) had something. Two weeks ago he’d bought a company on the strength of that something, and the board Whitman had brought him the day after the sale, even without the software to run on it, had been enough to convince him he’d been right.

  He sat down to work, and hours later he was playing Go with an AI he’d taught to talk back, play games, and predict horse races and the stock market.

  He sat back, flicked the power switch and pulled the plug, and stared at her.

  “Congratulations,” she said.

  “What for?” he said; “you’re the genius.”

  “No, congratulations, you just murdered your first baby,” she said, and plugged it back in. “Want to try for two?”

  “Goo,” said the deck. “Dada.”

  It was her little joke. It was never a feature on the MannComp A-One they sold across every MannComp counter in the world.

  * * *

  But now she’s all grown up, she’s sitting in a log house near Rocky Mountain House, watching the late summer sunset from the big front windows, while the computer runs Machine Sex to its logical conclusion, orgasm.

  She had her first orgasm at nineteen. According to her false identity, she was twenty-three. Her lover was a delegate to MannComp’s annual sales convention; she picked him up after the speech she gave on the ethics of selling AIs to high school students in Thailand. Or whatever, she didn’t care. Kozyk used to write her speeches but she usually changed them to suit her mood. This night she’d been circumspect, only a few expletives, enough to amuse the younger sales representatives and reassure the older ones.

  The one she chose was smooth in his approach and she thought, well, we’ll see. They went up to the suite MannComp provided, all mod cons and king-size bed, and as she undressed she looked at him and thought, he’s ambitious, this boy, better not give him an inch.

  He surprised her in bed. Ambitious maybe, but he paid a lot of attention to detail.

  After he spread her across the universe in a way she had never felt before, he turned to her and said, “That was pretty good, eh, baby?” and smiled a smooth little grin. “Sure,” she said, “it was okay,” and was glad she hadn’t said more while she was out in the ozone.

  By then she thought she was over what Whitman had done to her. And after all, it had been simple enough, what he did. Back in that loft she had in Hull, upstairs of a shop, where she covered the windows with opaque Mylar and worked night and day in that twilight. That night as she worked he stood behind her, hands on her shoulders, massaging her into further tenseness.

  “Hey, Max, you know I don’t like it when people look over my shoulder when I’m working.”

  “Sorry, baby.” He moved away, and she felt her shoulders relax just to have his hands fall away.

  “Come on to bed,” he said. “You know you can pick that up whenever.”

  She had to admit he was being pleasant tonight. Maybe he too was tired of the constant scrapping, disguised as jokes, that wore at her nerves so much. All his efforts to make her stop working, slow her down so he could stay up. The sharp edges that couldn’t be disguised. Her bravado made her answer in the same vein, but in the mornings, when he was gone to Northern; she paced and muttered to herself, reworking the previous day until it was done with, enough that she could go on. And after all what was missing? She had no idea how to debug it.

  Tonight he’d even made some dinner, and touched her kindly. Should she be grateful? Maybe the conversations, such as they were, where she tried to work it out, had just made it worse—

  “Ah, shit,” she said, and pushed the board away. “You’re right, I’m too tired for this. Demain.” She was learning French in her spare time.

  He began with hugging her, and stroking the long line along her back, something he knew she liked, like a cat likes it, arches its back at the end of the stroke. He knew she got turned on by it. And she did. When they had sex at her house he was without the paraphernalia he preferred, but he seemed to manage, buoyed up by some mood she couldn’t share; nor could she share his release.

  Afterward, she lay beside him, tense and dissatisfied in the big bed, not admitting it, or she’d have to admit she didn’t know what would help. He seemed to be okay, stretched, relaxed and smiling.

  “Had a big day,” he said.

  “Yeah?”

  “Big deal went through.”

  “Yeah?”

  “Yeah, I sold the company.”

  “You what?” Reflexively moving herself so that none of her body touched his.

  “Northern. I put it to Bronfmann. Megabucks.”

  “Are you joking?” but she saw he was not. “You didn’t, I didn’t.… Northern’s our company.”

  “My company. I started it.”

  “I made it big for you.”

  “Oh, and I paid you well for every bit of that.”

  She got up. He was smiling a little, trying on the little-boy grin. No, baby, she thought, not tonight.

  “Well,” she said, “I know for sure that this is my bed. Get out of it.”

  “Now, I knew you might take this badly. But it really was the best thing. The R&D costs were killing us. Bronfmann can eat them for breakfast.”

  R&D costs meant her. “Maybe. Your clothes are here.” She tossed them on the bed, went into the other room.

  As well as sex, she hadn’t figured out betrayal yet either; on the street, she thought, people fucked you over openly, not in secret.

  This, even as she said it to herself, she recognised as romantic and certainly not based on experience. She was street-wise in every way but one: Max had been her first lover.

  She unfolded the new board. It had taken her some time to figure out how to make it expand like that, to fit the program it was going to run. This idea of shaping the hardware to the software had been with her since she made the biochip, and thus made it possible and much more interesting than the other way around. But making the hardware to fit her new idea had involved a great deal of study and technique, and so far she had had limited success.

  This reminded her again of sex, and, she supposed, relationships, although it seemed to her that before sex everything had been on surfaces, very easy. Now she had sex, she had had Max, and now she had no way to realize the results of any of that. Especially now, when Northern had just vanished into Bronfmann’s computer empire, putting her in the position again of having to prove herself. What had Max used to make Bronfmann take the bait? She knew very clearly: Angel, the Northern Angel, would now become the MannComp Angel. The rest of the bait would have been the AI; she was making more of it every day, but couldn’t yet bring it together. Could it be done at all? Bronfmann had paid high for an affirmative answer.

  Certainly this time the bioware was working together. She began to smile a little to herself, almost unaware of it, as she saw how she could interconnect the loops to make a solid net to support the program’s full and growing weight. Because, of course, it would have to learn as it went along—that was basic.

  Angel as metaphor; she had to laugh at herself when she woke from programming hours later, Max still sleeping in her bed, ignoring her eviction notice. He’ll have to get up to piss anyway, she thought; that’s when I’ll get him out. She went herself to the bathroom in the half-dawn light, stretching her cramped back muscles and thinking remotely, well, I got some satisfaction out of last night after all: the beginnings of the idea that might break this impass
e. While it’s still inside my head, this one is mine. How can I keep it that way?

  New fiscal controls, she thought grimly. New contracts, now that Northern doesn’t exist any more. Max can’t have this, whatever it turns into, for my dowry to MannComp.

  When she put on her white silks—leather jacket underneath, against the skin as street fashion would have it—she hardly knew herself what she would do. The little board went into her bag with the boxes of pills the pharmaceutical tailor had made for her. If there was nothing there to suit, she’d buy something new. In the end, she left Max sleeping in her bed; so what? she thought as she reached the highway. The first ride she hitched took her to Toronto, not without a little tariff, but she no longer gave a damn about any of that.

  By then the drugs in her system had lifted her out of a body that could be betrayed, and she didn’t return to it for two weeks, two weeks of floating in a soup of disjointed noise, and always the program running, unfolding, running again, unfolding inside her relentless mind. She kept it running to drown anything she might remember about trust or the dream of happiness.

  When she came home two weeks later, on a hot day in summer with the Ottawa Valley humidity unbearable and her body tired, sore and bruised, and very dirty, she stepped out of her filthy silks in a room messy with Whitman’s continued inhabitation; furious, she popped a system cleanser and unfolded the board on her desk. When he came back in she was there, naked, angry, working.

  * * *

  A naked woman working at a computer. What good were cover-ups? Watching Max after she took the new AI up to Kozyk, she was only triumphant because she’d done something Max could never do, however much he might be able to sell her out. Watching them fit it to the bioboard, the strange unfolding machine she had made to fit the ideas only she could have, she began to be afraid. The system cleanser she’d taken made the clarity inescapable. Over the next few months, as she kept adding clever loops and twists, she watched their glee and she looked at what telephone numbers were in the top ten on their modem memories and she began to realise that it was not only business and science that would pay high for a truly thinking machine.

  She knew that ten years before there had been Pentagon programmers working to model predatory behaviour in AIs using Prolog and its like. That was old hat. None of them, however, knew what they needed to know to write for her bioware yet. No one but Angel could do that. So, by the end of her nineteenth year, that made Angel one of the most sought-after, endangered ex-anorectics on the block.

  She went to conferences and talked about the ethics of selling AIs to teenagers in Nepal. Or something. And took a smooth salesman to bed, and thought all the time about when they were going to make their approach. It would be Whitman again, not Kozyk, she thought; Ted wouldn’t get his hands dirty, while Max was born with grime under his nails.

  She thought also about metaphors. How, even in the new street slang which she could speak as easily as her native tongue, being screwed, knocked, fucked over, jossed, dragged all meant the same thing: hurt to the core. And this was what people sought out, what they spent their time seeking in pick-up joints, to the beat of bad old headbanger bands, that nostalgia shit. Now, as well as the biochip, Max, the AI breakthrough, and all the tailored drugs she could eat, she’d had orgasm too.

  Well, she supposed it passed the time.

  What interested her intellectually about orgasm was not the lovely illusion of transcendence it brought, but the absolute binary predictability of it. When you learn what to do to the nerve endings, and they are in a receptive state, the program runs like kismet. Warm boot. She’d known a hacker once who’d altered his bootstrap messages to read “Warm pussy.” She knew where most hackers were at; they played with their computers more than they played with themselves. She was the same, otherwise why would it have taken a pretty-boy salesman in a three-piece to show her the simple answer? All the others, just like trying to use an old MS-DOS disc to boot up one of her Mann lapboards with crystal RO/RAM.

  * * *

  Angel forgets she’s only twenty. Genius is uneven. There’s no substitute for time, that relentless shaper of understanding. Etc. Etc. Angel paces with the knowledge that everything is a phrase, even this. Life is hard and then you die, and so on. And so, on.

  * * *

  One day it occurred to her that she could simply run away.

  This should have seemed elementary but to Angel it was a revelation. She spent her life fatalistically; her only successful escape had been from the people she loved. Her lovely, crazy grandfather; her generous and slightly avaricious aunt; and her beloved imbecile brother: they were buried deep in a carefully forgotten past. But she kept coming back to Whitman, to Kozyk and Bronfmann, as if she liked them.

  As if, like a shocked dog in a learned helplessness experiment, she could not believe that the cage had a door, and the door was open.

  She went out the door. For old times’ sake, it was the bus she chose; the steamy chill of an air-conditioned Greyhound hadn’t changed at all. Bottles—pop and beer—rolling under the seats and the stench of chemicals filling the air whenever someone sneaked down to smoke a cigarette or a reef in the toilet. Did anyone ever use it to piss in? She liked the triple seat near the back, but the combined smells forced her to the front, behind the driver, where she was joined, across the country, by an endless succession of old women, immaculate in their Fortrels, who started conversations and shared peppermints and gum.

  She didn’t get stoned once.

  The country unrolled strangely: sex shop in Winnipeg, bank machine in Regina, and hours of programming alternating with polite responses to the old women, until eventually she arrived, creased and exhausted, in Rocky Mountain House.

  Rocky Mountain House: a comfortable model of a small town, from which no self-respecting hacker should originate. But these days, the world a net of wire and wireless, it doesn’t matter where you are, as long as you have the information people want. Luckily for Angel’s secret past, however, this was not a place she would be expected to live—or to go—or to come from.

  An atavism she hadn’t controlled had brought her this far. A rented car took her the rest of the way to the ranch. She thought only to look around, but when she found the tenants packing for a month’s holiday, she couldn’t resist the opportunity. She carried her leather satchel into their crocheted, frilled guest room—it had been her room fifteen years before—with a remote kind of satisfaction.

  That night, she slept like the dead—except for some dreams. But there was nothing she could do about them.

  * * *

  Lightning and thunder. I should stop now, she thought, wary of power surges through the new board which she was charging as she worked. She saved her file, unplugged the power, stood, stretched, and walked to the window to look at the mountains.

  The storm illuminated the closer slopes erratically, the rain hid the distances. She felt some heaviness lift. The cool wind through the window refreshed her. She heard the program stop, and turned off the machine. Sliding out the backup capsule, she smiled her angry smile unconsciously. When I get back to the Ottawa Valley, she thought, where weather never comes from the west like it’s supposed to, I’ll make those fuckers eat this.

  Out in the corrals where the tenants kept their rodeo horses, there was animal noise, and she turned off the light to go and look out the side window. A young man was leaning his weight against the reins-length pull of a rearing, terrified horse. Angel watched as flashes of lightning strobed the hackneyed scene. This was where she came from. She remembered her father in the same struggle. And her mother at this window with her, both of them watching the man. Her mother’s anger she never understood until now. Her father’s abandonment of all that was in the house, including her brother, Brian, inert and restless in his oversized crib.

  Angel walked back through the house, furnished now in the kitschy western style of every trailer and bungalow in this countryside. She was lucky to stay, invited on a gener
ous impulse, while all but their son were away. She felt vaguely guilty at her implicit criticism.

  Angel invited the young rancher into the house only because this is what her mother and her grandmother would have done. Even Angel’s great-grandmother, whose father kept the stopping house, which meant she kept the travellers fed, even her spirit infused in Angel the unwilling act. She watched him almost sullenly as he left his rain gear in the wide porch.

  He was big, sitting in the big farm kitchen. His hair was wet, and he swore almost as much as she did. He told her how he had put a trailer on the north forty, and lived there now, instead of in the little room where she’d been invited to sleep. He told her about the stock he’d accumulated riding the rodeo. They drank Glenfiddich. She told him her father had been a rodeo cowboy. He told her about his university degree in agriculture. She told him she’d never been to university. They drank more whiskey and he told her he couldn’t drink that other rot gut any more since he tasted real Scotch. He invited her to see his computer. She went with him across the yard and through the trees in the rain, her bag over her shoulder, board hidden in it, and he showed her his computer. It turned out to be the first machine she designed for Northern—archaic now, compared with the one she’d just invented.

  Fair is fair, she thought drunkenly, and she pulled out her board and unfolded it.

  “You showed me yours, I’ll show you mine,” she said.

  He liked the board. He was amazed that she had made it. They finished the Scotch.

  “I like you,” she said. “Let me show you something. You can be the first.” And she ran Machine Sex for him.

  * * *

  He was the first to see it: before Whitman and Kozyk who bought it to sell to people who already have had and done everything; before David and Jonathan, the Hardware Twins in MannComp’s Gulf Islands shop, who made the touchpad devices necessary to run it properly; before a world market hungry for the kind of glossy degradation Machine Sex could give them brought it in droves from a hastily-created—MannComp-subsidiary—numbered company. She ran it for him with just the automouse on her board, and a description of what it would do when the hardware was upgraded to fit.