Confessions of a Secret Dominatrix

by Mistress Marilyn

  Being polite does not mean you have to play with everyone, but if you want to turn someone down, do so gently remember there will be times you will be turned down, so think how you would like to be treated.

  Make no enemies

  Whether or not you are personally interested in swinging with someone, be polite. You never know, you may share many other interests or you may meet that person again, and they may introduce you to someone with whom you ARE compatible and do wish to share time.

  Personal hygiene

  Nothing turns a person off faster and more effectively than an unclean body or stale breath. Even if you shower and perfume yourself before you leave home, it is always a good idea to freshen up again when you arrive at your destination. Traveling more than a few miles will undo a lot of your personal grooming.

  Have respect for the feelings of others.

  Be aware, just like you, not everyone is comfortable in all situations. Keep your eyes

  open for signs that your partner, as well as others, is relaxed and enjoying themselves. If

  someone is not comfortable, try helping them over the rough spots. Remember, you were a beginner once yourself. Keep in mind that not all people feel the same about things.

  Avoid being pushy

  If you are interested in swinging with someone, let them know in a friendly way; if they are interested, they will respond positively. If they are not and say "No, thank you," do not ask WHY. No amount of sweet talk or coercion on your part, will change their mind and will probably work against you. Everyone has the right to say "NO" at all times, to anyone, without explanation. Never forget that. In addition, please do not come to our party expecting to get some action whatever happens, happens.

  Keep it Fun

  Do not allow yourself to become sexually involved with anybody that you are not interested in. There is no reason to involve yourself in a scene that you are not comfortable with. You are at the party, and in the swinging lifestyle to enjoy yourself, so only do what you want, when you want and with whom you want. NO DRAMA!

  How to say "NO"

  One of the basic tenets in swinging is the right of anyone to say "No" at any time. In the swinging world everyone accepts the premise that everyone has the right to say "No" to anyone at any time. Saying "NO" should be done with a simple "No thank you". Never try to give an explanation, because that is what usually causes the problems and the pain.

  Drugs and alcohol

  Most people in the swinging lifestyle do not use drugs, though many of us drink socially. At times, a few drinks are nice to help you "relax". Over indulging may hamper your physical abilities, as well as offend or turn other people off to you. If you have to over indulge in order to participate in swinging, you are involved in the wrong lifestyle.

  No drugs, with the exception of the new sex pills such as Viagra and Cialis, have any positive effect on your sexual performance. A drugged up person, will be quickly ejected by the party host.

  Safe Sex

  It is up to us all to protect ourselves as well as our partners. Condoms will be available in each play area. You are also welcome to bring your own protection.

  Cameras, Camera Phones, and Video Recorders

  Cameras are not allowed on premises. Photos and/or videos of any kind are NOT ALLOWED.

  Noise & Trash

  Please keep the noise levels down while outside, including the back porch. Please dispose of your trash, condoms and cigarette butts in specified containers.

  House

  Please remember this is our private home, and we expect you to respect the property at all times. PLEASE respect my neighbors. When you drive down my very quiet street, please drive slowly.

  Furniture

  We understand that sometimes situations get heated and in the moment. Should this happen, please grab a towel to put under you, especially if you tend to squirt during play, while on fabric furniture.

  Be Prepared!

  Bring a dish to share snacks and "finger foods" are probably the best choices. Remember to BYOB, if you so desire. We provide mixers: sodas, Sweet & Sour Mix, etc. Of course we also have ice, cups and even straws. We have limited supply of towels, washcloths, and toiletries but please bring your own. You can bring a sex toy if you wish.

  We received a lot of responses and replies for the party. The DJ we had, wanted to DJ the party for free, just to be able to attend. My friend came down to party and there were several couples who showed up that night, many more couples inquired. One couple was crazy; she controlled him like an animal, him on a leash, when they arrived. She liked me, but I wasn’t attracted to her at all. She asked me if I have ever met Mr. Hitachi. I responded with a no. So, she whips this plug in toy that is like a massager out of her bag. She asked me to spread my legs as she put the toy to my clit. I never felt anything like it before. Before too long, I was squirming on this buzzing thing, and loving it! Thanks to this crazy lady, with her man on a leash, I had several orgasms that night. Her husband, the servant was talking to my friend. It seemed he had an interest in her. Mrs. Control Freak told him to take her upstairs and have some fun. Then later, my same friend played with the DJ, so she had lots of fun that night. I was on my period, the night of our party, so I wasn’t going to even have sex with John. Of course, John being the show off he wanted me to suck his cock until he came while a couple watched us for a little bit. Even, with me being out of play commission that night, and John not playing by himself, it seemed everyone had a mind blowing time.

  Chapter 7

  The Ad was Put Up

  Seeing Trixi for the first time, was a complete shock. We lived in the middle of nowhere, at the bottom of two mountains on over 70 acres. It was a very narrow, one lane dead end road, that only 5 houses were on. One day, our family and I were lounging in the living room and out of the corner of my eye, I spotted her. Or was it a him? It looked like a nun. With my face pressed to the living room window, I watched it come down the road. Dressed in a real nun outfit, with a bright neon pink wig, in

  pig tails, make-up, rosy pink cheeks, the whole works. What the hell was it? That was the first time I laid eyes on what I know now, as a her. Over time I got to know our neighbor Trixi, bumping into her at my friend's house, which also was my neighbor. Trixi was a very interesting person who has lived a very colorful and full life to say the least. Trixi was fun to be around, so eventually I even let him/her meet my boys. She was very street smart and would always give me the run down on how to stay safe. Trixi spent over 30 years in prison for drugs and prostitution, but getting to know her more, I learned that it didn't define her as a person. I could and still do trust Trixi. John liked Trixi and wanted to be friends with her. Trixi helped to put the idea of me being a dominatrix into Johns head. Go figure, being a former prostitute, she knew how to make money on the side. She would mention to John how many people that would pay her, just to spank or humiliate them with no sex involved. Trixi had a few cabins on the hill and in casual conversation to John, mentioned he could rent one for sessions. And, as the sex addict that John still was, he took the idea and ran with it. The light went on in his head. John had to satisfy his demanding sexual needs, at all cost. So, once again, an ad went up. He tried to play it off and tell me he just wanted to see how many responses we would get. The ad was written to see how many people would want or seek Dominatrix services. John made it seem like a joke, but I know deep down, this shit made his dick hard, just thinking about it. In the next few pages, you will find the ad that was posted and some of the responses, that we received from men seeking my services, Please understand, for privacy reasons, my clients were given nicknames to ensure their identity is safe and keep them from shame that might come from being exposed in this book. Here is the ad, which was supposed to be a joke that John put up.

  Seeking New Slaves. Are you a bad boy that needs to be punished? Do I need to bend you over my knee for a hard spanking? Do you need to be humiliated? I am currently accepting a select group of new slave
boys to add to my collection. Lay yourself at my feet, my sweet, yet sad submissive, as you will find none who can compare to me. You can come to my playroom. Contact me for my wish list. All new slaves must be able to fulfill at least one thing off my wish list, per session. I am very different than what you’re used to in a positive way.

  With over 4,000 emails back from this ad, this was blowing my mind. How could this many men, in just a small area be so interested in this? I had no idea it was so popular! So many men were interested in being dominated and relinquishing control. I knew that John loved being in control, but he would only submit to me on rare occasions. John gave me courage, telling me I can do this. That I would be great and I could make lots of money. He spent his next two weeks off, answering emails and correspondence between what men thought was me. I could see his sex addiction starting to come out, big time. He barely left the computer and his pupils were dilated, like he was a crack head waiting for another hit. Every time he received another email, he got his fix. He was glued to the computer. He never got to any of the real things we had planned for his two weeks off to get done. It’s almost like, he had a plan, but just didn't let me in on it. I called my cousin Kelley and had to be secretive about it, not telling her the whole truth, because John was smothering me. John didn’t want anyone to know the truth about the reality of him basically pimping me out, to satisfy some mommy complex that some grown man had. Before I knew what was going on, he had 10 sessions set for one day’ scheduled for me as “Mistress Marilyn”. What the fuck? This was my first time ever doing anything like this in my life. I was so nervous and scared, because I had never even thought about myself as a dominatrix. Was this shit even legal? But somehow in a two week break from his job, I became one. John took pictures of me, told me how to pose in the pictures, did the emails back and forth, booked the sessions, told me what to do during the session, and he took me shopping for the toys needed for the job and told me he was going to be my bodyguard during the sessions. He controlled it all, just the way he had to have it. John was a type A personality and he demanded and usually got control of a situation. The dungeon was all set up for business.

  John got to work, setting up all the toys I would use during my sessions. He was so excited about everything that came with me being a Dominatrix. The money, the fantasies, the endless possibilities. The dungeon was a 12’x12’ room with a small loft which I didn't use. When you walked into the dungeon you could smell a hint of mildew. So, air fresheners were used, to make it smell better. I used lavender, because that is a natural relaxer and I love it. The dungeon had an interesting and intricate mosaic tile floor. Three large windows were in the cabin, and if it wasn’t too cold I would open them and let the all nature sounds in. There was no air conditioner in the cabin. One of my slaves didn’t like that so he bought an air conditioning unit to put in the window. I never played music, because that takes away from the session and the communication between us. Hanging on the walls, were everything I would need during my sessions. Gags, dog collar and leash, blind folds, hand cuffs, real shackles, nipple clamps, scarfs and on the other wall a thick leather belt, a rubber paddle with RX punched out so it will show up as a red mark. The thick all wooden paddle, with lots of holes to make it hurt more, a medium flogger, and my long favorite leather whip. The other wall had some of my outfits hanging up and a built in shelf I put silk fabric on them and used them for props, toys, costumes.

  Chapter 8

  Payton

  Payton was a young man who responded to the ad, seeking my services and John through email. Here you will find the conversations. Please also, pay close attention to my wish list, as it was a list that was furnished to any future client that responded to the ad. Some of the correspondence, will either reference the list or items on the list. He responded to the ad with this.

  From: Payton

  Hey! I saw your ad and I have been wanting to be a slave for sometime now. I'm 27, tall, fit and attractive. I am always in control of my life; the dominant one; even at work I lead a team of individuals. I need to be told what to do and how to do it for a change; a submission. My pics are attached. Let me know if you're interested in making me your slave. Thanks!

  On Mon, Mar 19, 2012 at 9:28 PM, Mistress Marilyn/ John wrote:

  I require one thing from the list below plus a donation of $150/session.

  THINGS I LIKE YOU TO GET ME:

  Black thigh highs (with the rubbery tops)

  Batteries (AAA and AA)

  Candles/incense

  Dildos & kinky toys

  Whips & floggers

  Shoes, heels, boots (size 8)

  Sexy clothing/costumes (Large)

  Spa certificates

  Professional massage (I like it REALLY HARD!)

  Tandem bike

  Gift certificates

  Payton wrote: Well.. I can certainly make that happen. So what are the details and when are you available? how many other people do you think will watch me be humiliated?

  On Mon, Mar 19, 2012 at 9:34 PM, Mistress Marilyn/ John wrote:

  Where would you like to meet?

  On Mon, Mar 19, 2012 at 9:37 PM, Payton wrote:

  Where is most convenient for you? I could travel to you. I expect to be punished and humiliated for being bad... How will you humiliate me?

  From: Payton

  To: Mistress Marilyn/John

  Sent: Monday, March 19, 2012 10:00 PM

  Subject: Re: slave

  I am also available tonight.

  On Mon, Mar 19, 2012 at 10:14 PM, Mistress Marilyn/ John wrote:

  I'm not available until Thursday night around 8pm at my place. How do you want your mistress to humiliate you? I would definitely need to collar you and lead you around by my leash while you are on all 4's.

  From: Payton

  To: Mistress Marilyn/ John

  Sent: Monday, March 19, 2012 10:23 PM

  Subject: Re: slave

  Okay, Thursday could work for me... I should be collared and lead around. Would other people be there to witness my humiliation? You can make me do anything you want; I will relinquish all control to you and obey all of your commands. I should definitely be spanked into submission at some point for refusing something very kinky. I can even tied up and forced against my will to perform sex acts. I have never done anything like this... I have been wanting to give this control to someone such as yourself. Do you have any other thoughts on how I will be treated?

  On Mon, Mar 19, 2012 at 10:59 PM, Mistress Marilyn/ John wrote:

  Thursday sounds good!I might have another slave there as well--he's very obedient.Your ass might hurt a little bit when you leave.I will tie you up, but you are my slave and I will decide how I receive pleasure. I have thoughts, but I am saving them for Thursday.

  From: Payton

  To: Mistress Marilyn/ John

  Sent: Monday, March 19, 2012 11:00 PM

  Subject: Re: slave

  Very interesting.. I am also straight.. but as I said, I will obey your commands. Also, do you have a pic you are willing to share?

  On Mon, Mar 19, 2012 at 11:01 PM, Mistress Marilyn/John wrote:

  Here you go!

  From: Payton

  To Mistress Marilyn/ John

  Sent: Monday, March 19, 2012 11:03 PM

  Subject: Re: slave

  You are sexy. I love your outfit! Is that what you will be commanding me in?

  On Mon, Mar 19, 2012 at 11:05 PM, Mistress Marilyn/John wrote:

  You'll have to wait and see.

  From: Payton

  To Mistress Marilyn/ John

  Sent: Monday, March 19, 2012 11:06 PM

  Subject: Re: slave

  I see.. the anticipation. Is there a number I can contact you at?

  On Mon, Mar 19, 2012 at 11:07 PM, Mistress Marilyn/ John wrote:

  000-000-0000

  From: Payton

  To: Mistress Marilyn/ John

  Sent: Monday, March 19, 2012 11:09 PM

  Subject: Re: sla
ve

  Okay great... is there anything I need to do to prepare for this?

  On Mon, Mar 19, 2012 at 11:49 PM, Mistress Marilyn/ John wrote:

  I need your phone number as well slave.

  It was at 8:00 in the evening, when Payton was supposed to be punished for the first time. He was

  running late, so therefore he was already being a bad boy. My time was just as valuable as his. I made

  sure my light blonde hair that was in a high pony tail and my straight bangs looked smooth. I had my poker face on and my makeup looked great. He finally knocks on the door! I slowly opened the door in my black silk robe and boots. I told him to come inside. Payton was so fine! Way hotter in person. All I could whisper to myself was “Wow”.

  I did what John told me to do. While Payton put his gift and donation down, I looked over our rule agreement, just to make sure it was signed. The rule agreement was to ensure my safety and the safety of my clients, that if I inflicted any bodily harm, that it was consensual. The rules were the same for everyone, just had to sign their first time.