Black Out

by Lila Rose

  Waking every morning was a joy, because most times I forgot I would be able to see. When I opened my eyes and everything was in a clear, perfect-coloured picture, a warmth filled the pit of my stomach.

  What I loved the most, though, was just sitting in the living room with Blue, watching him while he watched TV, or talking with him and watching his expressions.

  However, most of all was when we were in bed together making love.

  Just that morning, I awoke with Blue under the sheets and between my legs. I had slept so soundly I hadn’t even felt him move my limbs around. But what I could feel happening down below made it that much more special to wake up to. Blue had two fingers inside me, gently driving me insane as he pushed and withdrew them while he sucked on my clit. I flipped the sheet back and looked down, and his heated, gorgeous eyes smiled up at me, crinkling at the corners. With one hard suck, I threw my head back and came hard on his fingers. After I caught my breath, I looked back down to Blue, who was still between my legs, grinning up at me.

  “I fuckin’ love how you come apart, baby. It’s a sight everyone should see, but no one else ever fuckin’ will. Best part is I get to keep it all for myself.”

  Laughter burst out of me. “You are crazy.”

  “Yeah, but I’m your kinda crazy.”

  “That you are,” I said. He climbed up so he hovered over me, and then he pushed his hardness against my mound. “Why, Blue, are you happy to see me?”

  “I think it’ll be more that you’re happy to see me.”

  Giggling, I said, “That I am, and I’ll show you how happy it makes me.” Slipping my hand between us, I gripped his erect cock and glided my hand up and down it.

  “Fuck,” he groaned and pumped more eagerly into my hand. Watching his face fill with lust as he looked between us and witnessed my hand jacking him off was glorious. Especially when he looked back up at me with soft eyes and a clenched jaw. The muscles of his arms as he held himself above me tightened, his stomach trembled and something I would never get tired of tracing and looking at was the V which pointed down to the part of him I was currently playing with.

  “Jesus, baby. You keep doing that and I’ll end up coming all over you.”

  “That’s the plan,” I whispered and blushed.

  “You wanna watch me come on you, sugar?”

  “Oh, yes.”

  “Christ, that’s fuckin’ hot, baby,” he moaned as he pumped faster into my hand. “Shit, Clary, I’m gonna shoot my load all over you.”

  Hell, I wanted that. I had never in my life seen a man come, never watched it fly out of a man’s cock, and I wanted it so much from Blue.

  “Ahh, you ready, baby?”

  “Yes,” I uttered.

  “Fuck, look down; here it comes.” As he thrust his cock into my hand, white fluid squirted out and onto my naked stomach. He kept thrusting, and more came out as he grunted with deep satisfaction. Once he slowed, I looked up at him and smiled. “Jesus Christ, woman. I fuckin’ love the look of awe on your face right now. Had you never seen a guy come before? From porn or anything?” he asked as he pried my hand away from his cock and chuckled.

  “No. Remember, your woman has only ever been with one other, and I’ve never thought about watching any porn. My friends back then weren’t into it. Which is why watching you was awesome. Can we do it again?”

  He snorted. “Yeah, give me a second.”

  “Sugar, what are you thinkin’ so hard about? Come on, get on out so we can head in.”

  I blushed. Those naughty thoughts shouldn’t have even crossed my mind while sitting out front of his mother’s house.

  “Now I want to know what you were thinking about to cause you to turn bright red, like your fuckin’ amazing hair,” Blue teased. He took hold of my hand. “You gonna tell me, baby?”

  “Um…no, now isn’t really the time.”

  “Clary, now is definitely the fuckin’ time.”

  I rolled my eyes at him and looked to our joined hands. I knew he wouldn’t let up so we could get into his mum’s house and get the frightful day out of the way, so I mumbled, “You. I was thinking of you and what we did this morning.”

  He placed a hand under my chin, tipping my head up and sideways so I was looking at him. His warm, lust-filled eyes stared back. “You really liked that, yeah?”

  “Yes,”

  “Good, ‘cause it’s gonna happen again and again. We’ll learn each other, test each other out to see what we like. Hell, we’ll even watch porn together and I can’t fuckin’ wait.”

  Grinning, I said, “Me neither.”

  “Now, let’s go see my family.” He gestured with his chin to the house again, and I turned to look and spotted a lovely looking older woman dressed in a spring, flowery dress, smiling from the front porch.

  I jumped when I heard Blue’s door slam. He was around to my side seconds later and opening my door. With his hand outstretched to me, I paused for a moment.

  Really, what I wanted to do was crawl in the backseat and pretend I wasn’t there.

  It was a big step for me, though I’d had many big steps over a short amount of time. Never in the five years I was blind had I thought I’d be able to see again, never had I thought I’d meet the man who was made just for me and never had I thought I would be living with that man and meeting his family.

  I was a little overwhelmed.

  “Sugar, come on. It’s gonna be okay.”

  Looking up at my man, I believed him. His warm eyes told me to trust him, and I did. So I smiled, took his hand and climbed out of the car.

  After he shut my door and locked it, he removed his hand from mine, and I think I whimpered. He quickly placed his arm around my waist so he could steer me up the front path to his waiting mother.

  “Hey, Mum,” Blue said, smiling big as we stood just below the porch. “This is Clarinda James. She’s really nervous and thinks you’re gonna hate her.”

  “Blue,” I snapped and slapped him in the stomach.

  Mrs Skies laughed loudly and then said, “Oh, honey, there is no way I could hate you. In fact, I already love you for making my boy here so happy.”

  Blushing, I uttered, “Um, thank you.”

  “Are they here? Is she pretty?” we heard yelled from the house.

  Blue laughed and explained, “That’ll be my brother Jason. Sometimes he doesn’t have a filter.”

  “I guess he takes after his older brother then.” I smirked.

  Mrs Skies giggled. “She knows you well, Blue,” she said as a younger version of Blue came running out onto the front porch to stand behind his mum.

  His smile was gorgeous and infectious. I couldn’t help but smile back and give him a little finger wave.

  “Adele, they’re here, and she’s real pretty!” he yelled back into the house. When he turned back to us, he added, “You’re too pretty for my brother.”

  “Hey, kid,” Blue mock-growled.

  “What? It’s the truth.” He grinned. “Come on in and meet Adele. She’s really funny and swears a lot.” Jason ended up reaching around his mum and out to me. Taking my hand in his, he pulled me toward the front door.

  I glanced over my shoulder to smile and shrug at Blue. He beamed, and then stepped up to his mum to place his arm around her shoulders and lead her in after us. “Oh, and you’ll get to meet Memphis. He was Blue’s friend, but he’s Mum’s boyfriend now.” He paused to lean in and whisper while walking me down the long hallway. “At first, I thought he was Blue’s boyfriend, but Blue told me he wasn’t gay, and now you’re here, so I guess he was telling the truth.” Laughter bubbled up and out of me as I heard a deep groan behind us. I just knew I was going to love Jason.

  The day was perfect. Jason had been right about Adele; she was very funny, teasing Blue a lot and telling me some stories about his past. The best one yet was when he’d come home one night for a visit, only to walk back out the door with some mates, and then come back again totally drunk, where he proceeded to pro
pose to Adele. When she knocked back the offer, she swore he was going to cry. That was when Blue yelled, “I had something in my fuckin’ eye!” We all burst out laughing as Blue sat there grumbling, though he didn’t look too upset at all.

  Memphis was quiet. I wasn’t too sure of him…until I saw the looks he sent Blue’s mum. He totally adored her. So if Blue and his family liked him, I guessed I could warm to the guy, as well.

  After lunch, I was surprised when Blue suggested a walk. We ended up walking to an ice cream shop, where Blue and Jason then tried to outdo each other to see who could eat their ice cream first. Again, we all finished in a fit of laughter when they both got brain freeze.

  As we were leaving, Mrs Skies pulled me aside to say goodbye. I could hear Blue and Jason talking quietly in the hall while I stood in the living room.

  She asked me to sit next to her on the couch, and when I did, she took my hand in both of hers. “I loved today, Clary.” She smiled, using the nickname Blue and my friends called me. “I especially loved today, because I got to see my boy shine. I have never seen him so relaxed, so content in life and I have to say you brought him that. So I wanted to pull you aside to say thank you. Thank you for taking care of my son, and thank you for loving him. He deserves so much, and I believe he will find all the happiness in life with you by his side.”

  Tears pooled in my eyes. I didn’t know what to say, because she was wrong. It was the other way around; Blue had been the one to bring happiness and love into my life.

  Though, to give her what she wanted, I said, “I wouldn’t have it any other way. He means the world to me, and I am grateful every day to have found him.”

  “You ready, baby?” Blue asked from the doorway.

  Had he heard what I just said?

  From his soft eyes, small, sensual smile and the fast rise and fall of his chest, I could say he had and he liked what he heard.

  On the way home, he showed me exactly how he liked what I said to his mum. He pulled his truck to the side of the road, and before I knew what was going on, he undid both our seatbelts, pushed his seat back as far it would go, and then I was in his lap, straddling his waist.

  “Best fuckin’ day of my life,” he growled and cupped my face in his hands. “Shit, no, I take that back. Best day was when I saw you, then when I spoke to you, and then when you told me you wanted to suck my cock for the first time and then…when you told me you loved me. So this day is up there with all of them. Hell, I know we’ll have a lot more, but what you said to my mum, what you shared was fuckin’ beautiful. I knew she’d been worried about me, and I knew if she saw me with you she would settle, and she did, but she didn’t settle totally until you shared those words with her. I saw it, in her body and face. You made her day, and in return, you made mine.” His grin was wicked. “So now, I’m gonna make it one of your best days.”

  Smiling, I shook my head. “Too late, babe; it already is. I love your family, Blue.”

  “And they love you. Still, I’m having you here right now to show you what you mean to me, to show you how much I love you.”

  I squirmed on his lap, rubbing my centre over his erection. “Well, you better get started.”

  He chuckled. “Gladly.”

  Sitting at the bar alone, havin’ a refreshing beer while I waited for Clary to finish her hair appointment, my thoughts drifted to the talk I had with Talon the day before, when we were in the garage fixin’ up some shit-heap of a car.

  “How’s things going with your woman?” he’d asked.

  He didn’t miss the smile on my face from just the mention of her. “Yeah, good, brother. Never thought I’d find a woman to breathe easy with, but I have, and there ain’t no way I’m giving that up.”

  “Did you tell her about the court case?”

  I sighed. “Hell, yes. I ain’t hiding anything again. I told her the day it happened, two motherfuckin’ days ago. When she found out her sister and Henry both got ten years for kidnapping and attempted murder, she sat there stunned for a moment, and then shrugged and said, ‘Okay.’ Not sure if she’s really taken that in.”

  “I was talkin’ to Zara last night. She has, my man. Zara had asked her about it yesterday at their pow-wow, and she said Clary didn’t really care, because that part of her life was over and she wasn’t willing to deal with it again, not now she has a new happy life…with her man.” He smirked.

  I chuckled and said, “Good to fuckin’ know.”

  He laughed. “No worries.” He leaned over the engine again, tightening up some bolts. “Spoke with Memphis last night, too.”

  “How’s he handling it all?” I asked.

  “Yeah, damn good.”

  “Told you he’d be right for the prez job there.”

  “All right, arsehole, you can be right sometimes. How you dealin’ with him and your ma?”

  “Still freaks me the fuck out, but he’s been good for her. Actually, I was thinkin’ of taking Clary there again. Mum loved her.”

  “I can see why; she’s good for you.”

  Grinning, I said, “Yeah, I know.”

  We went back to work for a few moments, and then Talon shocked the shit outta me and asked, “When you puttin’ a ring on her finger, so all fellas know she’s yours?”

  Nearly chokin’ on my own saliva, I said, “Ah, soon, I guess.” Because I was damn sick of men checking her out, and then checking out her ring finger to see if she was taken.

  “Brother, I’ve fuckin’ seen the way the single brothers around here keep an eye on her. They’re waitin’ for you to stuff up.”

  “Won’t fuckin’ happen,” I growled.

  Talon chuckled. “Dude, I’m bloody joking. All the brothers know you’d slit their throats if they tried anything.”

  “Yeah, thanks, dick, for gettin’ me worked up.”

  But he had been right. I’d been thinkin’ more and more about puttin’ a ring on my old lady’s finger. That time was certainly comin’ soon.

  “Yo, another beer,” I called to the bartender. He sent me a chin lift as my phone started to ring in my pocket. I pulled it free with a smile on my face, thinkin’ it would be my woman.

  I was so fuckin’ wrong.

  The number was private, so I answered with, “Yeah?”

  “Blue,” a deep voice drew out my name.

  “Who’s this?” I asked with an annoyed tone.

  “I’m hurt you don’t remember my voice,” he said with a smile, “especially after you beat the shit out of me.” My body jacked up straight. “Oh, well, I guess you’ll remember me when I tell you I have your idiot brother.”

  Fuck!

  “Motley,” I barked.

  “Oh, Blue, I’m touched. You do remember me.”

  “What the fuck are you doin’ with my brother?”

  He chuckled. “I’ve learned so many things these past weeks, my brother.”

  “I’m no brother of yours. Tell me what you want, and if you harm my brother, you will fuckin’ pay with your life.”

  “Now isn’t the time for threats, Blue. Not when I have the upper-hand.”

  “What. Do. You. Fuckin’. Want?” I banged my fist on the table. Hell, if he’d laid a finger on Jason, I would make his death slow and painful.

  “I have a brother on the inside, and he was talking to another friend of yours. Henry.”

  Motherfucking Christ.

  “I want your woman in exchange for your brother.”

  Closing my eyes, I slumped in my seat.

  My woman or my brother.

  Jesus.

  “No,” I uttered.

  A gun fired in the background, and I heard Jason scream my name.

  “Wait, you fuckin’ wait, you motherfucker!” I yelled into the phone as I strode from the bar. “I goddamn meant no to both of them. You can have me instead.”

  He laughed. “Well, it was lucky my friend missed his shot and your brother is still breathing. However, I don’t want you. I can make a hell of a lot of money off yo
ur woman, and while I’m at it, I’d have some fun along the way.”

  “I have more money than she does. If you want money, I’ll fuckin’ sign it all over to you, and then you can do with me what you want, if I witness my brother walkin’ free from you.”

  “You’re not really my type…but, I do love a bit of payback. You have a deal, Blue. Come set your brother free and sign over your money.”

  “You’ll leave Clary out of this?”

  He laughed. “Pinkie swear, brother.”

  Fuck.

  He was lying. I had to get eyes on my woman and now.

  “Where do I go?”

  He said an address in Caroline Springs, and then added, “But I wouldn’t go and tell anyone. We’ll be moving as soon as you hit here. And if you plan anything to happen before you get here, expect your brother to be dead.”

  “I need to confirm it is him you have.”

  The phone was shuffled around, and then my heart convulsed when I heard, “Blue?” Christ, Jesus Christ he sounds scared. “Don’t you come, Blue. You stay safe and keep Clary out of this. I’m fine, Blue. I’m a man. I can take this.”

  Oh, fuck.

  Hell no. No, no, no.

  “Jason, stay strong for me, little brother.”

  “Blue—”

  “No, buddy. I know you’re a man, but you need to be a man who will take care of Mum. You stay strong. You hear me? I’ll be there soon.”

  “Okay, Blue. I can do that for you.”

  Shit, shit, shit.

  He was lying, as well.

  “Jason,” I growled.

  “Bye, Blue. I love you.”

  “Jason, don’t—” The line went dead. The fuckin’ line went dead and my heart went there with it.

  FUCK.

  My hand itched to hit somethin’, to throw my goddamn phone down, but I did nothing, because I had shit to do.

  Pressing a button, I put the phone to my ear once again.

  “Speak,” Talon barked.

  “Motley has my brother. I’m going to him now, hopefully before Jason does something stupid. He wants money. He asked to swap Clary for Jason. Henry told him she had money. I told him no, that I had more money. He agreed to take me, so I can sign it all over to him and he can have his payback from when I beat the fuck outta him. I need eyes on Clary right now. I don’t trust the fucker. Ring Memphis; he’ll need to be there for Mum.” I paused for a second. “Brother, if I don’t…you know what to do. Take care of them all.”