Claiming Amelia

by Jessica Blake

  I preferred to be called Auggie. It bypassed all the normal nicknames for Elizabeth while at the same time irritating my socially conscious mother all to pieces. She said I’m ‘willful.’ I maintained I’m simply Auggie.

  My favorite thing in the world was Carlos, the Thoroughbred I rode for steeplechase. He flew over fences and felt like a part of me and wouldn’t let me come unseated. Perhaps one of his most precious assets was that he’d never be reproduced. His racing career was short and he was gelded immediately thereafter. It’s too bad they couldn’t do the same to some men I’d met.

  That’s especially true of Eric, the son of my father’s law partner. Eric and I had been expected to marry ever since we took our first riding lessons. Although he came from a decent family, Eric was clumsy, consistently odd in his behavior, and seemed out of place. He was handsome and had gotten the idea that’s all he had to be. He relied on his looks when other men relied on their integrity and character. Even when I graduated from the University of Kentucky with a masters in business, Eric was expected to be my intended — until I caught him.

  It was an early summer morning. The fireflies had gone to sleep and left the grasshoppers to leap among the grasses in the foggy mist. He must have forgotten we’d planned an early ride. I’d driven to his family stables and went in search of him when no one was about. I found him eventually, cradled asleep in the arms of Derek, the well-muscled farm hand who mucked stables and kept the fences in repair. They were lying in the straw of one of the empty stalls, unaware that I’d seen them. I crept out and left soundlessly, but strangely there were no tears on my cheeks. I can only remember feeling relief.

  I refused Eric’s proposal a month later. His face was red and he seemed uncharacteristically uncomfortable in front of my parents. Of course, I knew why. I took pity on him and decided not to out him. Instead, I refused his offer by saying I wanted a career over motherhood. I can remember Mother’s face. The shock and horror of my words threw her into total confusion. She’d been planning my wedding and all the associated parties since I was fifteen. I knew she’d already begun selecting a china pattern and linens, registering me with all the normal places. It was a huge deal for her, and my dad looked at me with desperation, knowing he would catch the brunt of my mother’s unhappiness.

  I left the room and rode Carlos until long after dark. We chose paths that were circular, giving us the freedom to romp at will without being concerned with what lay around the next corner. I longed for a time when there were no fences, no land ownership and the country was divided only by rivers, streams, and tree lines.

  By the time I went back to the house, Eric was gone and thankfully, hadn’t shown up again. It’s just as well. He was worthless. I wanted more from my life. I’d always known what I wanted and I would get it.

  Mother was beside herself and insisted I seek therapy. I let her believe it was my problem. In fact, it was rather intriguing to consider confiding in a perfect stranger. There was no one else I could talk to. Eric would be ruined. So, I agreed and Mother began to seek out the best. He would need to be one of us because no one else could understand, of course. Mother believed in the concept that once children were born, her job was complete. Their raising and correction was the duty of professionals, preferably with names that those in her set recommended. That served double duty. She was freed of responsibility and yet awarded acclaim for her concern.

  She found the therapist. His name was Jervis and my appointment was quickly scheduled. He owned a clinic in town and everyone in our set had probably seen him at one time or another. It occurred to me that he was more like a confessor for the old equine money; a buffoon who awarded tolerance in exchange for invitations to the right social functions. In the meantime, I enjoyed the freedom of belonging to no one, except myself.

  Perhaps I would tell this Dr. Jervis about a few other things while I was there. After all, Mother was paying perfectly good money. Maybe I’d tell him a few things that weren’t even true, since I knew he would be reporting back to Mother. That’s why she insisted she find the doctor. Poor Mother… lucky for her, she made up in beauty for what God cheated her in common sense.

  CHAPTER THREE

  Worth

  Jervis was obviously very proud of his building. It seemed to take precedence over even his healthy practice. Some men were like that. When they couldn’t get it to rise, they built one. Poor slob. He was missing the good stuff. At least he had good taste in his hired help. Some prime ass on four-inch stiletto hooves. This was going to be like shooting fish in a barrel.

  Jervis showed me his office, a testament to himself. Asshole. Did he really think anyone gave a shit? People cared about nothing but themselves, and as soon as they handed you a check, they owned you. All he’d done was frame his stupidity.

  “This,” Jervis pushed open a heavy door that swung easily on specially-fitted hinges, “is the waiting room for your patients.”

  I walked around Jervis and surveyed the small room. “Could use a bit of updating,” I commented and saw him flinch.

  “Well, we had designers in, but I admit, it was maybe five years ago. You’re free to personalize as you wish, of course.” Jervis’ voice proved he felt stung. I knew he wanted the entire building to reflect his sense of taste, but I’d never been one to take another man’s preferences as my own.

  I moved to the next door that, logically, led to my inner office and consultation room. It was a larger version of the waiting room, and I had to restrain myself from wiping my hand off on my thigh. “Thank you, Dr. Jervis, this will do quite nicely. I’ll just update a few things and will have it done this week. I’ll begin seeing patients next week.”

  “Wonderful, my boy, wonderful. I’ll begin referring all the new patients to your capable hands.” Jervis sounded relieved and excited at the same time. He was, in essence, increasing his patient load at my expense.

  “Dr. Jervis,” I said as I closed the door behind me.

  “Yes, my boy?” Jervis’ hand was petting his beard, his pathetic attempt at a Freudian impression.

  “Perhaps you could refrain from calling me ‘boy?’ My name is Dr. LaViere, and as a matter of fact, I believe in terms of education, I outrank you but we won’t quibble.”

  Jervis stopped, his back to me and I knew he was bristling. I saw him force his shoulders to relax and knew he’d opted for diplomacy and increased revenue over pride. He really was pathetic. He nodded and left, moving out into the lobby and across to his own offices. The door shut firmly, but not angrily behind him. He recognized that his days as top dog were numbered. Soon, he would be nothing more than a name in front of the building, and maybe not even that.

  ***

  I phoned Jeremy. “You son-of-a-bitch, how are you?” I poked the moment he answered.

  “Jackass,” he muttered in a mocking voice. Jeremy didn’t waste time on the formalities any more than I did. Maybe that’s why we got along so well.

  “This is a professional call, I’ll have you know.” I used my business voice.

  “Indeed? What’s up?” He was curious. Of all of us, I was the black sheep and had always worn the designation with pride.

  “Opening a practice. Partnering with Jervis. You know his building?”

  Jeremy scoffed. “The outside isn’t too bad but the interior looks like a crypt.”

  “Exactly. Stop by this afternoon and take some measurements, will you? Want it done by Friday. I’ll leave the details to you. Is that a problem?”

  “Your only problem will be sobering up by Monday,” he mocked me.

  “Send Jervis the bill,” I added, knowing this would just deflate Jervis that much more. He would, of course, go to Father in complaint. And, of course, my father would write out a check and console the condescending son-of-a-bitch. Father might think he’d finally rid himself of a problem, but he was wrong… so, so wrong.

  ***

  I wheeled my Porsche into the parking lot at eight o’clock sharp Monday morning.
Jervis wouldn’t be in for another hour and I knew it would throw him for me to arrive first. I knew he’d want to cook up some sort of self-obliging ceremony… transferring the keys to the kingdom, in a manner of speaking.

  Jeremy had come through. It was like walking into a different century. As a matter of fact, it was exactly like walking into the next century. Gone were the dark fabrics and cherry paneling. I entered a world of glass, silver, crystal, pale grays and gray-blues. This was far more my style, not the somnolent heaviness of traditional old Kentucky.

  I stored my case in the lower drawer of the immense glass desk and opened my laptop. Jervis’ staff had been kind enough to set me up with passwords, templates for patient records and a list of my victims for the day.

  Jeremy had thoughtfully installed a small kitchenette in a secreted closet with mirrored doors. I slid it open and snapped on the Keurig. There was a tap at the door and I turned to behold my new secretary, Patsy. I ran into her at the Paddock Club Wednesday night. Her skirt was minuscule, and she had legs like a two-year-old at Keeneland. I hired her on the spot.

  “Patsy,” I acknowledged her and noted that she had dressed suitably. One might think she was a plant by my father were it not for the fact that he would have chosen some thick-ankled old maid who wore buttoned up blouses and knee-length suits. “I take it you noticed your desk just outside the waiting room?”

  “Yes, Worth, that is, Dr. LaViere.” She giggled just enough to sound like a flirt and spun on her spiky heels to survey her new throne.

  “Oh, Patsy,” I called after her. She turned, her legs parting slightly as she stood. I loved that. “Lunch.”

  “Of course,” she answered. “Galt House or the Hilton?”

  “You choose,” I offered, making sure the corner of my mouth lifted just right.

  It did. She giggled again and disappeared.

  CHAPTER FOUR

  Worth

  The yellow light on my desk blinked, signaling there was a patient waiting for me. I opened the door to the waiting room and discovered a woman seated there. When I motioned her in, a waft of her perfume enveloped me as she passed. I was instantly hard.

  “Mrs. Marcum?” I inquired and she nodded, smiling slyly. I resisted the urge to thrust out my hips as she looked me up and down, more down than up. “Won’t you have a seat? Wherever makes you comfortable.” I indicated the seating arrangement Jeremy had cunningly assembled. The furnishings were ultra-modern, and depending on the preference of the patients, they could sit upright or recline completely. Even if they chose to sit, the seating was low and a less inhibited woman could choose to let her knees open a bit to sit more comfortably. He had thought of everything and knew me so well. Amazing for a man who didn’t care for women, I mused.

  “You’re the new one.” Her voice was husky and low, the kind you dreamed of hearing over the telephone.

  “Dr. LaViere,” I introduced myself and sat down with my tablet to take notes.

  “Do you have another name?” she prompted, her green eyes reflecting the glow from the lamp.

  “Not yet,” I countered and smiled. “We’ll see how much progress you make.” My response was filled with innuendo and I knew she was already formulating her plan.

  “How long do I get?” she purred and ran a hand through her hair.

  “Our visit is forty minutes long, Mrs. Marcum.”

  “Call me Stephanie.”

  “Very well, Stephanie. I see by the forms you completed that you’re here to talk about some issues you’re having in your marriage?”

  “Yes.” She bit her lower lip, looking down at her pink tipped fingers. I didn’t have to be a mind reader to know she was trying to decide how much to tell me without making herself look undesirable. She wanted to roast her husband but come out looking untouched.

  I shifted in my seat, pulling one leg back and extending the other, which caused my knees to open so she could clearly see I was aroused. Her eyes flared as they met mine again and a pink tongue moistened her lips. I chuckled internally. Yeah, I had it. “So, how long have you been married?” I began the conversation and sat back to gather facts.

  Her face fell somewhat as she remembered her purpose in coming. “Howard and I were married seven years ago,” she began. “We met at Churchill in the Stevens’ box seats. He’s considerably older than I am, you should know.”

  “How much older?”

  “Ten years,” she answered and then her mouth twisted. “Okay, five, but as you might have noticed, I age well,” she added, hope bright in her eyes.

  I flipped to her personal information and saw she was almost forty. She was right. She had aged well, but then, most likely, there were a few wealthier plastic surgeons who could account for that. I looked at her bosom just long enough to make a guess and she smiled coyly, “Yes, I see you do.” She was satisfied that her game was working and this made her happy. I hoped Howard had deep pockets because this smoky number would be showing up for the long haul. I moved my knee open incrementally and she blushed with pleasure. I could even see the slightest glaze of perspiration above her upper lip as she licked them again and swallowed. The movement was not lost on me.

  “Why don’t you tell me how I can help you?” I invited, the double entendre making her draw in her breath.

  She chuckled in her husky voice. The sound was well practiced, I could tell. It was clear as to why Howard might be having some problems with her.

  “Howard has some issues…” she began. “He isn’t able to, well, shall we say… please me in bed any longer?” She emphasized her need more for my benefit than for her own.

  “Are you saying your husband is impotent?” I asked, keeping my tone professional.

  “Flat as a punctured inner tube,” she popped back coarsely and for a moment, I felt sorry for the son-of-a-bitch.

  “Mrs. Marcum, you do realize there are many new medications available for these issues and that your husband should seek the guidance of his personal physician or a qualified urologist, don’t you?”

  She seemed disappointed that I wasn’t snapping at her bait. She tried another course. “Let’s just say you can’t fill up on a cocktail frank when you have an appetite for a bratwurst,” she offered. This turned my stomach a bit. I readily saw why Howard was having issues. I hated these kinds of bitches. They used emasculation to get what they wanted.

  “Do you love your husband?” I asked her pointedly.

  She took a few moments to consider this. “I’m used to him. He’s broken in, if you understand what I mean.”

  “So you’re saying you’d like to remain married to him?” I framed it simply.

  “Yes.”

  “Have you considered taking a lover?” At this, her eyes opened slightly, a sign of arousal. She looked pointedly at me and frowned to see my erection had disappeared. I knew she was wondering where she’d lost me.

  “Why… why…” she stuttered to answer.

  “Have you?” I detested weakness. I didn’t give a shit whether she was screwing around. I just didn’t want her wasting my time by not being up front about it.

  “Well…” she began, her fingers twisting together.

  “You have, then?” I didn’t even wait for her confirmation but made notes on my tablet. This seemed to concern her, even alarm her.

  “What are you writing?” she demanded, sitting upright.

  “Just making notes, Mrs. Marcum. It’s quite normal,” I answered matter-of-factly. I knew she was discomfited. She wasn’t sure whether to defend herself or release her claws into me. I didn’t give her a chance to decide. “Mrs. Marcum, we’re going to end the session for today. I believe we should schedule a session for me to see Mr. Marcum next time, alone. Then, we’ll follow that with one for you both. This is really a couple’s counseling situation as there is nothing to be accomplished without Mr. Marcum’s input and cooperation. Good day,” I finished and stood, signaling an end to the conversation.

  Her carefully molded face turned so
ur, and I glimpsed the hell old man Marcum must see every morning over his breakfast table. It was no wonder he had performance issues.

  I found myself looking forward to lunch as I opened the door for Stephanie Marcum to make her exit. I noticed as she passed that her perfume no longer had any effect on me. In fact, quite the opposite. Interesting.

  CHAPTER FIVE

  Worth

  I was beginning to feel more like a babysitter than a psychologist. Throughout my education and while interning, patients had generally fallen into a few categories: they were poor, their life was shitty or they were trying to overcome an addiction to their escapism drug of choice.

  These patients, however, were completely normal, albeit eccentric, and they manufactured paltry neurosis based on boredom and the chic adornment of “being in therapy.” These were the spoiled wealthy — the least contributive to the socialization of the country. They created pretend lives with self-imposed drama as a means to avoid slitting their liposuctioned necks. It sickened me. It was the world I was born into. These were my people.

  My next patient arrived and the blinking yellow light on my desk was beginning to give me a Pavlovian response of nausea. I opened the door and found a young woman of moderate height and build, mahogany-colored hair that hung like a shiny curtain to her waist and a peaches and cream complexion with a few subtle freckles on the tip of her nose. She stood with the grace of an athlete and said abruptly, “You’re not Jervis.”

  “I’m not?” I challenged her with a mocking smile.

  “Mother would have never chosen someone like you. He’s old and I suspect has a beard. A fuddy-duddy who would be bowled over by her beauty and ready to tell her anything she wanted to hear.”

  “I suppose I should take that as flattery?” I asked.

  “Take it however you like, but you’re not Jervis,” she muttered as she pushed past me into my consultation room. “So, where is the tactical seat?” She stood with her jean-clad legs spread in a defiant stance, and I was so overwhelmed with her self-assured, sardonic view of the world, I felt my heart actually beginning to race. She was like a two-year-old Thoroughbred. Slender and long-legged, her mane of hair emanating youthful good health. She was also restless, untrusting, and ready to bolt at any moment.