The Girl.

  Tara just nodded still in shock and Ella said, “I can only imagine what you think of me, because believe me I feel lower than one can be”.

  “Guess three brother’s love you?” Ella still wiped tears and Tara said, “It’s actually sad and shocking, I never thought scary Sebastian?” Seth yes I seen it coming”.

  Now Ella told Tara the dark secret she kept hidden for a few years,

  I suspected Saul was messing around on me and he was that soon, after the start of almost our first time together, which did not go to well?

  Tara just listened to Ella, It hurt of course, he just seem to get annoyed over me being uncomfortable, and it ended fast.

  Tara giving a sad expression listened to Ella that continued,

  I was devastated and perhaps vulnerable I figured he did not want me, because he did not even try with any compassion.

  Within that year I hung with Seth most, just friends only and Sebastian was unexpected to me. It was during another one of Sebastian’s break ups. It happen one afternoon, by the lake where me and Sebastian went fishing and he sure caught my heart actually, not fish.

  One magical moment in time, I hold inside my heart and fond memory.

  Sebastian showed much warm sensual passion with patience to make the pain bearable. It was splendid, Sebastian is normally coldhearted and on the outside appears scary of course, but at that moment was completely different and was very affectionate, giggling through tears rolling Ella remarked, “He was very good at making a woman feel pleasure”. Tara’s eyes are huge as she listened Ella continued.

  Always fought with Mandy and they seem to be apart more than together and he was somewhat vulnerable.

  It happen only once between us, because he worked things out with who his heart does hold, it is not me.

  Tara wiping heavy tears now asked, “Ella which brother does your heart truly hold? “I cannot answer that question truthfully, I know it sounds crazy, but it’s true, I love brothers”. Ella wiping tears thanked Tara for their close friendship then told her it has been killing her to tell someone her dark secret.

  Ella and Tara’s talk of secrets end.

  Afterwards, Ella was in her bedroom room and sat on the bed flashing back to a memory.

  She and Sebastian were standing in the park, as the sun was going down. He had his hands tucked into his baggy blue jean pockets and seem rather nervous, he said, “Look Ella girl, I feel real bad what happen between us a month ago, it was wrong.”

  Tears filled Ella’s eyes and he added, “Aw, I am not saying I regret what happen, because I don’t it was great between us”.

  Standing in tears looking at him and he said, “Please I feel bad enough, but you know I am with Mandy and I am sorry, because I’m not a player that sleeps around that never was me”.

  Ella remained silent and he said, “There’s only been three girls I have been with and not once cheated or would, I’m not that type, don’t thrill me to be a loser”. Ella would not talk and Sebastian put his fingers through his long curly locks saying, “Heck say something”, and was pacing around the tree where they stood, he added; “I never saw what happen with us coming or thought it either”.

  Remaining silent with him looking at her saying, “Aw Ella please, just forgive me and yes it happen, but I am so sorry, honestly, let’s move on please girl!”

  Finally, she replied, “Well in life sometimes guess it’s not that simple, we make mistakes and pay for them to”.

  “Huh, What?” With his hands on top of his head.

  “I think that I’m pregnant Sebastian!”

  Instantly, Sebastian now put his hands to his face and broke down crying for the first time ever in his life.

  “I have only slept with Saul once, just recently, I’m already three weeks late and he wore

  protection, I am to blame too finding out your brother slept with an old flame”.

  He leaned against a big tree trembling and she said, “I do not know what to do now, thought maybe together we can somehow come up with a plan”. “Aw, I always was safe, but like I told you, never thought this could happen, heck we were fishing”.

  “Well it did happen Sebastian this child’s yours!”

  Crying heavily, as Ella did too they embraced tightly over this mixed up situation.

  A child conceived and involved in this tangled web.

  Ella now stopped thinking back onto that memory, as she drifted off one final time. Eighteen- year- old Sebastian comes walking into the hospital room holding a big stuffed white kitten with a big balloon, which read, “It’s a girl”.

  Quietly set the big kitten and balloon down onto the nightstand, noticed Ella in the bed and appear to be asleep.

  Turning away from the dresser, Sebastian saw the baby in the bassinet.

  Therefore, walked over looking down, instantly smiling, as his cold heart completely melted at that moment looking down at his daughter.

  The tiny baby girl was cooing and he said, “Wow, you’re really mine huh?” The baby made cooing sounds and many.

  Looking down at his child Sebastian added. “Aw, things did not turn out the way their supposed to little girl, but one thing for certain your mine and I will not let you down being your daddy!” Wiping a few tears, he said, “I’m very sorry baby girl, seems my brother may, because that’s just who Saul is, I still can’t believe he missed your birth, but sure glad I was right there watching you enter the world”.

  Sebastian looking down onto his daughter, wiped more tears and said, “God you are perfect and I am sure he’ll miss many things, but I am your daddy and won’t miss a thing”. Reaching down touching her tiny fingers, “I am here always”, said Sebastian in tears rolling. Playing with the small baby’s fingers Sebastian added, “I’ll watch your first step, I promise, to the day you walk down that wedding aisle I will always be right behind your back”. “Ashley Destiny Wiley”, knowing I am daddy”.

  Sebastian bent down to his first-born child and very easily, reached picking his daughter up gently into his arms, as many tears rolled down his face looking at the baby and softly kissed her forehead saying, “My girl, daddy loves you”. Ella wiped tears and was not sleeping she heard every word.

  Ella now stopped thinking back, lay across her bed sobbing heavily, and held her pillow tightly. Sebastian had been right, as he was there to witness his daughter’s first step among many promises that he has kept and will to his dying grave.

  Since, the day that Sebastian’s child was conceived he immediately started giving Ella money every week faithfully and told her.

  Never let a sole know where it come from, just go buy the baby needs.

  In all this time too, he has never missed a week on giving Ella money nor ever would. In Addition, it was not just pocket change either as it was more like a monthly car payment once a week. Sebastian was truly a fine eighteen-year-old father.

  Ella had not told anyone how she keeps a wallet full and definitely would not, as she once mentioned, her parents send funds for their grandchild and that was the end of it. Later that evening, the Wiley family was standing in the back yard watching the kids play. In the new, big clubhouse, Shane sat on a lawn chair still battling a headache from crying kids. Sitting next to him Paul Gene kept asking, “Sure you feel okay boy”.

  Put a wet paper towel back up to his face mumbled, “Just great paw, kiddy land is even better”. Brenda saw Shane and just waved her hand at him.

  Little Samantha was pushing her baby stroller into the clubhouse and Ashley cried getting mad at her.

  Saul and Seth had to break up the kiddy scuffle, the kids were crying and screaming along with Uncle Shane yelling, “Tara little darling I need aspirin fast, because munchkin world is kill in me”.

  Everyone laughed including the kids that stopped in their tracks giggling at Uncle Shane. With the wet paper towel covered over his face, whaling, “Aw maw, Tara please help me I’m sick”.

  Brenda giggled saying, “Oh boy are you sick in the head”.


  Arms folded, Sebastian stood snarling and said, “Paybacks, better your head than mine”.

  Then saw his daughter sitting outside of the clubhouse pouting and went grabbing the little children’s lawn chair fast going over to Ashley, knelt down to her saying, “Aw hey little princess why don’t you put this inside your new home”.

  Excitedly with eyes big said, “Oh my thank you uncle Sebastian”.

  Smiling replied, “Make it like a real home with furniture, pretty cool huh” as she smiled much bigger he winked patting the top of her head. Sitting on the porch swing Ella had sudden tears fill her eyes at Sebastian coming to Ashley’s aid then she looked at Seth and felt nauseated.

  The kids played inside the clubhouse happily, as the Wiley boys stood smiling proud, except Shane that sat with a rag over his face asking, “Hey where’s that aspirin?”

  A few days later, since the new clubhouse went up, many things been added to the inside, as Sebastian had gone and bought a children’s table and chair set.

  Including a top of the line play stroller for Ashley’s dolls.

  The two little granddaughters were surprised and thrilled as they even ate their first peanut butter and jelly sandwich on the new table in their cool pad.

  With their dolls sitting right next to them in each of their own strollers, as Ashley did not have one until now.

  Brenda told Sebastian that was very nice of him to do for his nieces, as he told his maw that they are his blood and why can’t he spoil them too.

  Happily, Brenda kissed him saying, “Oh Sebastian, you’re a fine young man!”

  One Sunday afternoon in the clubhouse.

  Sebastian had joined his daughter Ashley for a tea party, as he could not fit onto the children’s chair.

  Therefore, he sat right on the floor in front of the table, as Ashley kept giggling pretending to pour him tea and he smiled.

  They both sat playing tea party for a while as he looked at his wristwatch, rose his light eyebrows and said, “Ashley girl how about we turn this party into a real one”.

  Excitedly, shook her head up and down, swinging her long curly ponytails.

  Standing up quickly and took hold of her tiny hand, as she followed daddy over to the house. Where he went inside and prepared them a variety to eat, Sebastian smiles, as Ashley watched standing by the counter, he said, “We are going to have a lunch buffet princess”.

  He opened up a can of spaghetti,-rings, made two kinds of sandwiches, peanut butter, and jelly along with salami cutting them into squares.

  Ashley went pulling a kitchen chair up and stood up onto it, he said, “Aw be careful princess”. “Oh I be good, I want to help”, holding the mustard jar.

  “Okay, because if that chair hurts you, I’d have to toss it to the trash”, and she giggles saying, “I bigger me won’t fall”, loading tons of mustard onto the bread with some falling onto the floor. “Yep sure are bigger huh”, as he chuckles looking at a mess now.

  After cleaning up the mess of lunch they made, Sebastian and his daughter sat in the new clubhouse feasting on their buffet.

  When lunch was over and they were full, little Ashley grabbed two baby dolls up then reaching one to Sebastian and she said, “It’s their turn they hungry, we has to feed um”.

  Sebastian’s blue eyes become large and took the doll holding it, said,

  “Aw you want me to play dolls huh”, her bluest eyes became huge saying, “Yep”. Giggling reached him a toy bottle and said, “Uncle Sebastian’s you has to rock the baby”.

  Looking around saying, “Aw, that’s what we forgot to add in the clubhouse", and she asked, “What more?” Putting her tiny hands up. “Curtains definitely”, as he held the baby doll into his arms rocking her with Ashley giggling. Watching him pretending to feed the doll, Ashley has a pouting face and he asked, “What, am I doing it wrong?”

  Pointing at the doll, she said, “Poor Bonnie is much tired, crying, you sing her to sleep”. Putting his hands up said, “Woe hold up now”, and Ashley started crying.

  “Do not cry princess I will sing”, suddenly Ashley stopped, saying, “Sing!”

  Raising his pale eyebrows high replied, “Sing what?” Looking at the doll, then mumbles, “Unbelievable”.

  Rubbing her eyes, said, “Rock a babies”, and he nodded saying, “Oh yeah, think I know that one”.

  Ashley was smiling big when he started singing to the doll and she started yawning, as he sung to the doll rocking it, little Ashley scooted up real close to him, and lay her head down onto his chest.

  Now set the doll down, put his daughter into his arms tightly, and sang rock a baby to her and never knew he had an audience, as Ella was peeking into the window with the biggest smile watching Sebastian sing to their daughter.

  Within a few minutes three-year-old Ashley fell fast asleep.

  Ashley was snug in daddy’s arms, and he carried her into the house then went putting her down on the bed, where she napped.

  Sebastian stood by the doorway smiling happily, quietly saying, “That was the best luncheon date I ever had!” A few minutes later, Sebastian walked through the yard heading to the clubhouse to clean up and entering found Ella kneeling down cleaning up. “Hey”.

  “Hi great daddy”. Lowering his head remarked,” Aw you saw”.

  “Sure did you have a good voice”, giggling. “Ha-ha”.

  “No really you do”, holding a doll out added, “Want to give an encore”, laughing, he grabbed hold of Ella tickling her saying, “Very funny”.

  Laughing, “Oh sing to me Sebastian”.

  “Stop Ella please”.

  “Only if you sing to me”.

  “Aw that’s it girl”, swept her up over his shoulder saying, “I’ll spank you”. “Oh please do”, they laugh.

  Chapter 8. The next evening, Brenda and Paul Gene had gone out to dinner and just to share a Sunday evening away from the hustle and bustle.

  Everyone else was doing his or her own thing and that definitely included Saul. That was out and up to his old tricks again after making another promise to Ella, which he never keeps.

  Ella had been doing laundry and as she comes from the back room off the kitchen when Sebastian comes in all smiles.

  She could not help but notice and said, “Hey Sebastian?”

  Heading to the sink and washing his hands, “Hey Ella”, he replied washing his very dirty and greasy hands he added, “I didn’t think anyone was home?”

  Giving a sad expression, she replied, “Others have a life not me”, as she hung her head holding the laundry basket.

  Not noticing Ella’s disappointing looks, as he was washing up still with his back towards her. Sebastian was beaming and said, “My little brother is going to be thrilled surprised too”. “Yeah why?”

  “I just finished his bike project, a running motorcycle it sure is”.

  “Wow Sebastian, cool”, when suddenly grabbed her hand, she shook her head saying, “What are you doing?”

  “Gonna take you for a test drive”.

  Eyes large she said, “Oh no, I cannot”, shaking her head.

  “It will be all right Ella, trust me”, as she now gave a small smile.

  Sebastian gripped her hand tighter and said, “Come with me Ella, please”. “Oh Sebastian I do not know someone will catch us and think the worst”, he snarled saying, “Let them confront me about it, dare them”, as she giggled and said, “You’re different then the whole family”, as he wiggled his eyebrows smirking and said, “Huh that’s what you like”.

  Pushing him to his broad chest, she said, “Hush Sebastian!” Blowing her kisses and she puts her hand by her face giggling said, “What’s wrong with you?”

  “Why it’s true”, and started pulling Ella and as she was being drug kept saying, “Oh god stop”. “Aw really want me to?”

  “What’s gotten into you, have you gone plum nuts”, said Ella stunned.

  Sebastian actually pulled her across the kitchen and right to t
he door, she said, “Oh Sebastian stop, have you lost your mind”, and he would not.

  Ella was blushing, as he wiggled his eyebrows again and she said, “Would you stop this nonsense!”

  “Come with me pretty baby”, as she gasped saying, “Do not say that”. “Why not you are”.

  “Ah, because that’s what you called me when I got pregnant with Ashley”.

  Nodding he replied, “Yeah, I remember, think I moaned out pretty baby a few times”. “You did a lot, now stop please”. Tara comes walking through and the handholding suddenly dropped and Sebastian said, “Hey Tara, would you watch the kids a bit?” Smiled getting some juice and replied, “Sure guys have fun”.

  At that moment, Sebastian literally pulled Ella out the back door, as Tara could not help to giggle and knew a dark secret.

  Outside, Ella stood right by the motorcycle in hesitation and said, “I don’t know about this may not be wise Sebastian”.

  Snatched her up, into his bulky arms astounding her sat her right down onto the back seat. Smirking, got on quickly saying, “Nah, we are fine girl it’s just a ride, unless you end up riding on my stick”, she smacked his shoulder saying, “Sebastian stop!”

  Sebastian started the motorcycle, she put her arms around his waist very tight, and he took off fast.

  They went for a ride far out into the country, she was giggling and he actually placed his one hand onto her leg, as they drove away into the sunset.

  Noticing a park, Sebastian pulled over stopping the motorcycle and lifts Ella off, he snatched hold of her hand walking towards the park.

  There were swings and motioning his head said, “Come on”, pulling her.

  Ella sat on the swing, Sebastian pushed her, as she giggles and he said, “Aw having fun girl?” Laughing, she replied, “Yes, push higher”.

  “What, to the stars?”

  “Yes, Sebastian” swung the swing high and even runs under it, as she was laughing. He sat on a swing going high and she was smiling when her smiles turned to a frown, as Sebastian leans far back on the swing.

  With her eyes huge, Ella said, “You are going to fall”, when he did and she jumped off the swing, knelt down by him on the grass and said, “You fell”.