Comfortable Distance

by Kenna White

  “She’s a rugged old boat. I couldn’t imagine someone could hit it hard enough to do much damage just backing out of a slip. But Jim wanted me to look anyway.”

  “Is there any damage inside?”

  “It doesn’t look like it.” Jamie brushed off her hands. “So, what brings you out here? Everything all right with you?”

  “Everything is fine.” Dana said confidently. Just knowing she had come to a decision about Shannon was enough to put a smile on her face. “Can I help with something?” The wind had picked up, rocking the boat in the slip.

  “I think I need to take up the slack in the lines so the stern doesn’t rub on the dock. What have you got Ringlet doing this morning? Did you get any cartoons finished?” Jamie asked as she retied the lines.

  “I started one, but I couldn’t get into it. You know how it is. Sometimes you need a little fresh air to clear the cobwebs so I thought I’d come see what you were up to.”

  “How are things with Shannon?” Jamie said, looking over at Dana as she pulled another half hitch.

  “Better,” Dana said. “As a matter of fact, I’m meeting her this evening. We’re going to have a talk.”

  “About what?”

  “Is it okay if we don’t talk about Shannon?” she asked. Dana had made her decision. She didn’t need to talk about it. For now, she just wanted to visit with a friend.

  “Sure. Whatever you say.”

  Just as Dana was about to give in and tell Jamie what had happened after she left last night, the dark clouds opened up and it began to sprinkle.

  “We better get below,” Jamie said, scanning the skies. “I don’t like the looks of those clouds.” She took Dana’s hand and helped her onboard. Dana climbed down into the cabin as a clap of thunder rumbled across the heavens. Jamie followed, closing the hatch behind her.

  “I think we got in just in time,” Dana said, looking out the porthole at the sudden downpour.

  “I think you’re right,” Jamie peered through Dana’s porthole as she wiped the rain from her glasses.“Let’s see if I’ve got anything to drink while we wait it out.” She opened the refrigerator. “How would you like yours? Straight up or on the rocks?”

  “It depends on what it is,” she said, sitting down on the bench next to the tiny galley.

  Jamie pulled out two bottles of spring water and read the label.

  “Aquafine. Two thousand and nine. A very good year.”

  “How about right out of the bottle?”

  “Good choice,” Jamie said, releasing the cap and handing one to Dana. “I’m sorry I don’t have anything to eat. I cleaned out the pantry after our trip to Hartstene. I was going to restock with fresh canned goods but I haven’t gotten around to it yet.”

  “That’s okay. I don’t need anything.”

  “What time is it, anyway?” She looked down at her bare wrist.

  “Eleven fifteen,” Dana reported. “I see you forgot your watch again.”

  “I was running some experiments in the lab and didn’t want to get it wet.”

  “Uh-huh,” Dana snickered.

  “Okay, I forgot to put it on this morning. What is it about a simple wristwatch that I don’t seem to be able to remember?”

  “I think that’s the answer. It’s too simple. It doesn’t require deep analytical thought so you forget it. You’re busy with other more important details.” Dana took a drink, her eyes falling on Jamie’s thighs, her muscles visible through her slacks.

  “Is that a polite way of saying I’m absentminded?” Jamie sat down next to Dana and leaned back on the bench.

  “No, not necessarily.”

  “Well, I am. Ask me to give the scientific name of every intertidal species in Budd Bay and I’m your girl. Ask me where I left my coffee mug,I won’t have a clue.”Jamie groaned disgustedly and took another drink.

  “Maybe your coffee mug isn’t important.” Dana patted her leg reassuringly. “I think you’re extremely intelligent, watch or no watch.”

  Jamie looked over at her and smiled.

  “Thank you. I take that as a high compliment.” Her eyes met Dana’s. “And I think you’re an extremely talented woman. I’ve never met anyone with so much insight and sensitivity.”

  “Don’t tease me, Jamie,” Dana said, looking away.

  Jamie turned Dana’s face back to hers. “I’m telling you the God’s honest truth. You are very special. Never ever belittle yourself.You’re smart.You’re sensitive.You’re funny.And most of all, you’re a beautiful woman.” With that, Jamie leaned over and kissed her on the cheek. “And I don’t mind if you tell Shannon I said so.”

  Jamie opened her water bottle and poured a small puddle of water on the table. The sway of the boat threatened to spill the water onto the floor. She quickly placed her finger at the lip of the table, guiding the water to run along the edge.

  “What are you doing?” Dana said, grabbing for a paper towel.

  “It’s a demonstration,” Jamie said, sliding her finger along, keeping just ahead of the flow of water. “One of the principles of physics is that substances flow along the path of least resistance. That dribble of water would love to run off the table and onto the floor. To be free to make that choice. But it can’t. It can’t overcome my resistance. It’s forced to stay on the table and run along my finger. I’m in control.” Jamie lifted her finger.The water immediately ran off the table. “It’s still taking the path of least resistance, but now it has the power to go in a new direction.”

  “Are you saying you think I have been taking the path of least resistance?”

  “I don’t know. Have you?”

  Like another clap of thunder, the sudden memory of what Shannon did last night sent a shudder through Dana and made her tremble.

  “Are you all right?” Jamie looked concerned.

  “Yes, I’m fine.” Dana took a deep breath and looked out the porthole at the rain. “Just wonderful,” she whispered under her breath. Slowly and without warning, tears began to stream down her face. She couldn’t help it. She broke down and sobbed. Without a word, Jamie wrapped her arms around Dana and held her as she cried. Through her sobs she could feel Jamie’s lips kissing her temple, soothing and reassuring her. It was the most secure she had felt in months.

  “Oh, Jamie. How did I lose control of my life?” she said through her tears.

  “You haven’t, Dana. All you have to do is realize it.”

  Dana couldn’t speak as she cried even harder, her body shaking within Jamie’s embrace.

  “Shh,” Jamie cooed, stroking her hair. “I’m here. Dr. Hughes is right here.”

  Dana wanted to scream Where were you last night when Shannon forced her hand inside of me? But that wasn’t Jamie’s responsibility. It was Dana’s and Dana’s alone. She continued to cry.

  “I should never have put you in the middle of this,” she finally managed. “I’m sorry.”

  “Dana, no.” Jamie hugged her tighter.

  “This is my problem. Not yours.”

  “It’s mine, too,” she whispered, turning Dana’s face up to hers. “Believe me, it’s mine, too.” With that, Jamie kissed her more tenderly and more passionately than Dana ever expected.

  Dana closed her eyes and accepted the kiss. It was exactly what she needed at that moment. Someone who cared and cared deeply. It was more than a kiss. It was an emotional security blanket so real and so soft it blocked out the pain and the anger that had driven her to tears. She threw her arms around Jamie’s neck and pressed herself against her, desperate for more. The feel of Jamie’s tongue in her mouth sent a tingle through Dana all the way to that spot Shannon had so callously invaded. Dana eagerly devoured Jamie’s mouth. Jamie leaned her back on the bench as the kiss became more urgent, both of them moaning and moving against each other. Jamie pressed her knee between Dana’s thighs, holding it against her crotch. Her hand brushed over Dana’s breast. The wonderfulness of it ignited a flame in both of them. Dana wanted more and Jamie seemed to se
nse it. She unbuttoned Dana’s shirt and cupped her hand over her breast, massaging her nipple between her thumb and finger. Dana could feel a fire smoldering from within, a fire she hadn’t felt in months.

  Dana pulled Jamie’s shirt over her head then released her bra. Touching her erect nipples brought on a guttural moan as Jamie nuzzled against Dana.

  “Make love to me,” Dana whispered.

  Somewhere between kisses, Dana felt her slacks slide down over her hips, followed by her panties. Jamie released Dana’s bra and dropped it on the floor.

  “You are gorgeous,” Jamie said, running her hand over her body. Dana could feel herself melting like butter beneath Jamie’s touch. Dana closed her eyes as Jamie took one of her nipples in her mouth.

  “Oh, Jamie. That feels so good,” she gasped, holding Jamie’s head to her chest.

  Dana had never felt anything like the electric thrill when Jamie’s fingers entered her wetness.

  “Yes,” she sighed, clamping her hand over Jamie’s as she plunged deeper.

  The rhythmic swaying of the boat acted to heighten Dana’s ecstasy as Jamie’s fingers moved in and out of her. Jamie began to methodically kiss down Dana’s body, her tongue moving tantalizingly closer to Dana’s valley. Jamie knelt on the floor and cradled Dana’s hips in her arms, painting kisses up the inside of her thighs. Dana gasped and writhed in her arms, impatiently waiting for Jamie’s mouth to take her in.

  “Take me, Jamie. Let me feel your hot mouth on me,” Dana said, grimacing with anticipation.

  Jamie’s tongue parted Dana’s folds and entered her just as a crack of thunder and a flash of lightning split the air. Dana grabbed the back of the bench, digging her nails into the cushion. Dana had never been a screamer during sex, but she couldn’t hold back. She felt an orgasm growing in her so profound and so intense that she couldn’t imagine surviving it. She pressed her hips down against Jamie’s mouth and held her breath, waiting for it to consume her. Sweat rolled down her face and she began to pant. She finally screamed out as her orgasm exploded through her. Jamie held on, delivering shock after shock. Every muscle in Dana’s body clenched. Just when she thought she could endure no more, Jamie plunged her fingers deep inside and held them there, pressing an aftershock up through Dana’s body.

  “Oh, yes,” she gasped, breathlessly stiffening as the last waves washed through her. Jamie lay down next to her, stroking her face as she regained her breath. “Oh, Jamie. You were right. Age definitely has its benefits,” she said, smiling contentedly. Dana was exhausted, but she had never felt so satisfied.

  Jamie pulled a blanket over them, holding Dana against her as they listened to the raindrops on the cabin. “I love the sound of the rain,” Jamie said, folding her arm over Dana. “And I love sailboats.” Dana kissed Jamie’s arm. “Can we stay here all day?”

  “I’d love to, sweetheart, but I have to be back at the lab soon.” Jamie said, kissing the back of Dana’s neck. “I already miss you though.”

  “Do you really have to go?”

  “Regrettably, yes, I do. Can I call you this evening?”

  “You better. Oh, wait. I almost forgot. I’m meeting Shannon at seven. I’m not sure how long that will take.”

  “How about tomorrow morning? Say ten o’clock. I should have my lab techs occupied by then.”

  “I’ll look forward to it,” Dana said then began to laugh wickedly.

  “What?”

  “Boy, am I going to have fun with Ringlet. No telling what I’ll have her doing. She is definitely in for a treat.”

  “You wouldn’t?”

  “Oh, yes, I would.” Dana wiggled against Jamie. “It’s about time I let Ringlet have a little sex. She deserves it.”

  “She most certainly does.” She kissed Dana softly then slid off the bench and began to dress. Dana rolled onto her side and watched, grinning seductively.

  “You look good in your wet suit but you look even better out of it.”

  Jamie blushed as she hooked her bra.

  “Are you flirting with me?”

  “Uh-huh.” Dana let her eyes drift down and up Jamie’s body.

  “I wish I didn’t have to go,” she said, kissing her softly, her hand lingering on Dana’s cheek. “I wish I could take you with me but I’d never get anything done.”

  It was still raining as Dana headed back to town. She busied herself with the rest of her day as she waited anxiously for her meeting with Shannon. Dana arrived at the bench at precisely seven o’clock. To her amazement, Shannon was late. Fifteen minutes late. Something she almost never was. Dana wondered if it was intentional to show her displeasure and to remain in control.

  “Hello, babe,” Shannon said. She leaned down to kiss her but Dana turned her face, accepting the kiss on the cheek. “What’s the deal? Why are we meeting here?”

  “Sit down, honey,” Dana said, patting the bench next to her. “We need to talk.”

  “I don’t need to sit down,” Shannon grumbled and went to the railing. When she finally turned around she had a stern look on her face. “What do you need to talk about?”

  Dana came to the railing, trying to ease into it gently. She didn’t want to hurt Shannon’s feelings but she knew this wasn’t going to be a happy conversation.

  “Shannon, I made a phone call today. I called Morgan, my landlord.”

  “I know who she is.”

  “I told her I’d like to extend my lease on the houseboat for another three months, maybe more.” Dana let that soak in for a moment before continuing. “I told her I may want a long-term lease. I like living on the houseboat.”

  “That’s crazy. Why do you need a long-term lease? You’re wasting your money. If you want a vacation home, we’ll find something.”

  “I plan on living here year round, Shannon. I’m not talking about a vacation home. The houseboat is perfect for one.”

  “What do you mean, perfect for one? You’ve got another week and your three months are up. I can’t wait for you to move back home and put this craziness behind you. I missed you, baby,” she said, wrapping her arms around her but Dana pushed her back and moved away.

  “I’ve decided to live on my own.”

  “You’ve decided what?” Shannon demanded. “How can you say that? That isn’t what the deal was at all. It was three months. That’s it. Then you were coming home. I didn’t like it, but I agreed to it. Dana, this is nuts. I’m supposed to rearrange my life all over again just because you can’t make up your mind?”

  “Shannon, I have made up my mind. When I moved out, I told you we had some problems. I wasn’t happy and I couldn’t move back until I had a chance to think things through. I’m sorry it has taken me so long but I now know what’s best for me. I’m not moving back to Lacey with you.”

  “What?” Shannon said loudly, loud enough a couple well down the boardwalk turned to look. “What do you mean you aren’t moving back to Lacey?”

  “Shannon, I’m not what you need. You deserve someone special, someone who can appreciate what you have to offer. And that just isn’t me.”

  “Does this have anything to do with last night? Are you breaking up with me because of that?” She leaned back against the railing and crossed her arms.

  “No, not entirely. But, yes. It had a factor in it. I’d be lying if I said it didn’t.” Dana took a deep breath and continued. “I loved you, Shannon. And I thought you loved me. But what you did last night hurt me, both physically and emotionally. The girl of my dreams would never force herself on me like that.”

  “So you asked me here to dump me?” she said angrily, as if it came out of the blue. “One minute I’ve got a girlfriend. The next I don’t.”

  “What you and I want in a girlfriend are two completely different things. I’m only sorry it took me so long to realize it.”

  Shannon suddenly narrowed her eyes and glared at Dana. “It’s that professor, isn’t it? She’s responsible for this. Isn’t she?”

  “No, she isn’t. Jamie h
as nothing to do with this. I moved out three months ago, Shannon. Surely you must have considered this might happen. We haven’t been happy for a long time.”

  “Are you telling me you never talked to her about us, about you and me?”

  “I won’t lie to you. Yes, I have talked to her. But this is my decision. Mine and mine alone. Jamie never told me what to do. I merely talked with her as a friend. I told her I was confused about what I wanted in my life. She listened and gave me support to make decisions for myself.”

  “Yeah, right. I told you she was a sexually frustrated, middle-aged dyke. You can’t tell me she doesn’t have an interest in what you do. She can’t wait for you to dump me so she can move in on my girl. I can’t believe you didn’t see her ulterior motives.”

  “Jamie never ever tried to influence me on what I should do. I know I have to make a change. It’s time for me to make my own decisions. Good or bad, right or wrong. For my own sanity and my own happiness, I need to start over. And you deserve that, too. Can’t we do this amicably?”

  “I don’t know, Dana. How should I react when my girl tells me it’s over? Should I laugh and said, hey, that’s great. Or should I just nod and walk away with my tail between my legs? You tell me. I knew I should have insisted on meeting somewhere else. I hate this damn marina crap.” She groaned and turned away. “I love you, Dana,” she said quietly. “Have you forgotten that?”

  “No, I haven’t forgotten.” Dana went to stand next to her. “I haven’t forgotten, honestly, I haven’t. And I love you, too. I’m just not in love with you. I deserve to be in love. So do you, honey. So do you.”

  Shannon stood staring out at a passing boat. Her face had lost all expression. Dana couldn’t help but feel sorry for her.

  “I wish you happiness, Shannon. I really truly do. It just can’t be with me.” Dana squeezed Shannon’s arm, turned, and headed up the boardwalk.

  “Dana?” Shannon called. “Would your decision have been different if you hadn’t met Jamie Hughes?”

  Dana thought a moment and then turned around.

  “Yes, it might have been. But you wouldn’t have wanted that girl. She wasn’t being honest with herself.” Dana pulled her jacket closed and continued up the boardwalk.