Ten Year Crush

by Toshia Slade

  “Nothing. It was stupid.” I shake my head, not wanting to tell him.

  “Gabby, I want us to be open and honest. No secrets. And I need know what upset you.” He rubs his thumbs on my cheeks.

  I turn my head, not wanting to look at him. “When you reached for the condom, it made me think about how many women you’ve had here and done that to.”

  *Cam*

  My chest aches. I knew this would come up eventually. I blow out a frustrated breath, angry with myself. “I’m not going to lie to you. There are a lot from the past month or so. If I could take it back, I would, but I can’t. The biggest mistake of my life was pushing you away. And then, trying to fuck you out of my head.” I shake my head. I hate having to say all of this. I know it’s going to hurt her. I want a fresh start though. Honesty and laying everything out is the way to get that. “But, that’s exactly what it was. Not one of them meant a thing to me. And, I’m not proud of it, but with all of them, I was so drunk. I don’t know how I got hard at all.”

  A tear slips down her cheek and I kiss it away.

  I sit up and pull her with me. Leaning back on my heels, I pull her onto my lap. “What we just did...there are very few I’ve ever done that to. And never, ever have I gotten them off that way. They were just a quick easy fuck to try to get you off my mind. And it didn’t work. I only felt shittier at the end of the day.” I should let Josh beat the shit out of me for being so stupid. “When everything clicked and I really thought about shit, I’ve not been with one single person since. After that kiss, I knew you were it for me. I wasn’t going to risk it any more than I already had with more nameless women.”

  I place a kiss on her lips. “I’m sorry I was such an idiot. I promise I’ll spend the rest of my life making it up to you. Just don’t give up on me, on us. I’ve never in my life felt the way I do when I’m with you.”

  She wraps her arms around my neck. “Sorry I brought it up. We both made mistakes. I know you were hurt tonight with Brandon. I saw it in your eyes. Having you now, that’s really all that matters. I’ve spent ten years thinking I would never have you and you would never love me. Let’s forget about our past and move forward. I love you, Cam. Always have and always will.”

  How did I not realize how perfect this girl was for me? My heart expands and I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life. Right here in this moment. With my girl in my arms. My girl!

  “I love you too, baby. So much. Never doubt that. You’re stuck with me.” I kiss her nose, her eyes, each cheek, her chin, and then I softly brush my lips over hers. I could do this all night.

  She puts her hands on my back and pulls me in closer, running her tongue over my lips and I open to her. This time instead of the heated, out of control kiss, this is slow and passionate.

  I slowly lay her back and pull my lips from hers. My lips run kisses up her neck to her ear, nibbling before working my way back down. I pull back and look into her eyes. “I wanna make love to you, baby. Take my time and show you with my body what you mean to me.”

  She nods and runs her hands through my hair.

  I lean back, grabbing the condom off the side of the bed. I rip it open with my teeth and slowly roll it on, never breaking eye contact. My body is humming with nervous energy. I’ve never made love to someone. Never gone slow.

  Still holding myself in my hand, I run my cock up and down her pussy making sure she’s wet enough. I know she’s tight from having my fingers in her and I don’t want to hurt her or make her uncomfortable.

  She lets out a soft moan and it shoots straight through me.

  I move down to her entrance and slowly push in, going in a little, and then pulling out. Each blissful thrust takes me deeper into her until I am buried as far as I can go. “You’re so tight,” I breathe out in a whisper.

  “It feels so good, Cam. Nothing like I’ve ever felt before.” She reaches for me and I lean down.

  “Me neither. The best feeling ever.” I set a slow rhythm, kissing her with slow soft strokes of my tongue, rubbing my hands all over her body, wanting to touch every inch of her. Heaven. That’s the only way this feeling can be described. I don’t ever wanna come back out.

  I pull my mouth from hers and lean back wanting to look into her eyes. They’re the most beautiful shade of green I’ve ever seen and they’re shining. The tingling feeling starts in my spine and I know I’m close. I start to gently stroke her clit with my thumb. “I’m close, baby. Want you with me.”

  “I’m almost there.” She arches off the bed, panting harder. The noise from the party is drowned out in my mind. All I can hear are the collective gasps and urgent breaths between us. Her warm pussy tightens around me, gripping me, and tingles shoot down my spine. Knowing what she needs to get there, I pick up my pace a little.

  “Oh, Cam. I love you. Love you so much,” she says right before she throws her head back, squeezing me tight, and shatters in my arms.

  I pick up the pace a little more, chasing my own orgasm. “I love you too, Thumper.” It’s not long before I’m following her. Throwing my head back, I push in as far as I can go and my whole body locks, electricity buzzes through every part of me.

  I fall forward, bracing myself on my hands. My arms shake so bad that I pull out and land to the side, afraid of falling on her. We both lay there trying to catch out breaths.

  “I never knew it could be that good,” Gabby whispers.

  “Me neither.” I lean over and kiss her on the lips. “Let me get cleaned up and then we’ll curl up and go to sleep. I didn’t sleep worth shit last night.” Excitement buzzes. I’m finally going to sleep with Gabby in my arms. My girl curled up against my side.

  “I didn’t either.”

  Back in bed, I curl up beside her, pulling her back into my front. “Night, Thumper.”

  “Night, Cam.”

  I can’t believe I’m finally here. I kiss the back of her head, close my eyes, and that night I get the best night’s sleep I’ve had in a really long time.

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  *Gabby*

  I’m hot. Way too hot and sweaty. I go to kick the blanket off and can’t move my legs. Panic seizes my chest and my eyes fly open. Everything from the night before comes crashing back around me and I relax. I’m with Cam, in his bed. I bite back a squeal.

  “Mornin’.” Cam’s voice in the morning is even deeper and huskier than usual.

  I try to roll over, but yet again, I can’t move. Cam has his leg thrown over mine, holding me firmly to the bed. One of his arms is tucked under my head, wrapping around my neck and holding one of my breasts in his hand. The other is wrapped tightly around my midriff, holding me against his chest. He releases his hold so I can roll over.

  I’m met with bright blue eyes and a panty-melting smile, showing his dimple.

  “Good morning.” I lean forward and kiss his dimple.

  “Sleep good?” He leans up and brushes his lips on mine.

  He tries to deepen the kiss and I pull back. “Morning breath. I need to brush my teeth.” I go to climb out of bed and his arms wrap around me, pulling me back to his chest.

  He lets out a joyous laugh and my heart melts at the love and happiness shining in his eyes. “I don’t care. I finally have you in my bed and get to wake up to your beautiful face. Now give me a kiss.”

  How can I say no to that? I lean down and press my lips to his.

  “Mmm, now that’s a way to wake up.” He moves one hand down to my bottom and pulls me tighter against him. He nibbles at the corners of my mouth, and then runs his tongue gently over my lips, begging for entrance. I open up to him and he angles his head, deepening the kiss.

  A rush of heat runs through my body and moisture gathers between my legs. I moan and tangle my hands in his hair. Swinging my leg over his hips, I sit up and straddle him, never breaking the kiss. My hot wet center is met with his rock hard arousal. I rock my hips, wanting to ease the ache that the kiss ignited between my legs.

  “God, y
ou’re so wet,” he groans and squeezes my ass.

  “Mmhmm.” Suddenly I can’t get enough. My hands and mouth are everywhere. I want to touch and taste every inch of his body. I’ve waited what seems like a lifetime for this and I want to soak up every experience and every inch of him. I run my hands all over his shoulders, arms, and chest, while biting licking and kissing his jaw and neck, working my way down. Feeling the ripples of his abs has me purring like a kitten and my mouth watering for more.

  I slide down his body continuing my exploration with my mouth. I reach his nipple and flick my tongue against it, eliciting a groan from him. I take my time and finally get to explore the tattoo on his ribs. Once I reach that happy little trail of dark hair leading to what I really want, I look up at him, running my finger up and down it. “This has always turned me on. I’ve always wondered what it led to.” I lean back down and place tiny kisses all the way down.

  “Jesus.” He ends on a moan when I run the tip of my tongue from base to tip.

  “You want me to stop?” I take him in my hand and slowly start to work my hand up and down his shaft, before looking up to him for an answer.

  “No. Yes. Unh!” A moan rumbles in his chest.

  I slip my mouth around the head and swirl my tongue. Then, pull back, “You sure?” I slide him back in, working him to the back of my throat a little further than before.

  Having him like this, at my mercy and so worked up, makes me feel sexy and powerful. I’ve never been a fan of giving oral, but with Cam, I could do it every day, just for the rush of power, the pleasure I give him.

  His head jerks up off the pillow. “No! God, don’t stop.”

  I start to bob my head up and down and he falls back down on the pillow. Switching between fast and slow, keeping my hand and mouth at the same speed, I reach down with my other hand and gently massage his balls.

  Cam’s body tightens under me and I know he’s close, so I pick up the pace and stay at a steady fast rhythm. He fists his hands in my hair and starts pumping his hips to match the movements of my head.

  “Fuck!” His back arches and he explodes.

  I moan as his warm salty taste hits my tongue. I swallow and slow my pace, drawing everything he has to give out of him. Sliding him out of my mouth, I sit up, licking my lips. I’ve never felt so powerful and sexy in my life. Giving Cam that kind of pleasure is definitely on my list of top favorite things to do.

  Chest heaving and breath still coming out in pants, Cam reaches for me, dragging me up his body. I’m still dripping and the ache has only intensified. He flips me over and is on top of me before I can even blink.

  “That was—” He shakes his head. “Amazing.” His lips crash down on mine and he rubs himself against me, where I need him most. He grabs my right thigh and hooks my leg around him, thrusting his hips and his tongue in the same motion.

  I break the contact with his lips and thrash my head on the pillow. Each move forward hits my tight bundle of nerves, setting my body on fire. He starts to harden again and I fist my hands in his hair, looking him in the eyes. “I need you.”

  He leans over to his nightstand to get a condom and I place my hand on his chest and shake my head. “I’m on the pill. I want to feel you. All of you.”

  “Are you sure?”

  “I’m sure. I’ve never been with anyone without one. I want that with you.”

  “Me neither.” His lips are back on me and his hands are on my breasts. Squeezing and kneading them, flicking his thumb over my tight peaks.

  Releasing one, he moves his hand down our bodies and takes himself in his hand, guiding his erection to my entrance. Not taking it slow this time, he thrusts hard and slams into me.

  “Yes!” I reach around and grab his back, digging my nails in.

  “Ahh! You want it fast?” He starts pounding into me.

  “Oh god. Yes. Yes. Yes!” I start moving my hips to match his, wanting so bad to relieve the achy need that’s built up.

  “Feels.” Cam slams into me. “Good.” My head bounces off the headboard from the force of his thrust. “Without. Condom.” He pants.

  He grinds his pelvis into mine, pulling a moan from deep in my chest. I wrap my legs around his back, locking my ankles together. “Faster, Cam. Harder.” I wrap my hands in his hair and pull his mouth down to mine, biting his lip, and then soothing it with a swipe of my tongue.

  My body starts to shake from the power of my building release and I know I’m close. He leans back and picks up his pace, slamming into me as far as he can go, and then grinding his pelvis into mine, before pulling out and repeating the motion all over again. My head falls back, eyes slam shut, and I scream, calling out his name. Endorphins take over my body and I feel as though I’m floating in the air. Cam picks up his pace, and then his motions become choppy and I know he’s at his snapping point, ready to explode. He falls forward, buries his head in my neck, and I wrap my arms around him.

  He bites my neck and thrusts into me a few more times before moaning out his release.

  We lay there panting, trying to slow our hearts, and breathing. I run my fingers through his hair and up and down his back. I can’t believe I’m finally here. Never in my life have I felt so loved, happy, and complete. A tear slips down my cheek and I quickly wipe it away.

  “Hey, why are you crying? Did I hurt you? I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have been so rough.” He pulls out of me, sits up, and runs his hand through his hair.

  “You didn’t do anything wrong. In fact, that’s the best sex I’ve ever had.”

  “Then why were you crying?” He raises a brow and his blue eyes look sorrowful.

  “Happy tears. I’m just really happy.”

  He reaches for me and pulls me into his lap, kissing my temple. “Me too, Thumper. So damn happy.”

  “I’m never going to live that down, am I?” I act like I hate it, but I’ve always loved that he called me that. It’s the most embarrassing moment of my life, but I love that I have a special name, just with him.

  “Not a chance. He chuckles, and then plants a wet kiss on my lips. “Come on, let’s get cleaned up, and then get some food. I need food if you’re going to keep using my body like that.” He pushes me off of him, winks, and jumps up off the bed.

  I love playful Cam.

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  *Cam*

  We get cleaned up in the shower, only to get dirty again by taking Gabby against the wall. Hottest sex of my life, her legs wrapped around me, pounding into her while water beats down over us. God, I can’t keep my hands off her. I’ve never felt like this before. Didn’t know sex could be that good. Yeah I got off, but never felt this happy or content, like everything is right in the world.

  We head into the kitchen to find something to eat. I don’t make it three steps in, see the mess, turn around, and walk back out. “Let’s go get something. We can go to the new IHOP.”

  “Mmm, pancakes. Let’s go.” She licks her lips and I hold in a groan.

  Grabbing her hand, I pull her out of the house. We both need food and I want to take her out. If I don’t get her away from my bed, we’ll end up back there, and not leaving. A rush of excitement fills me. I can’t wait to take her on a date. A real date. Not just breakfast.

  Leading her up to my truck, I grab Gabby’s waist and hoist her up, placing her in the passenger seat. The lift I had put on it makes it too high for her to step up on her own, not that I would let my girl try to climb it anyway. I pull myself up to place a soft kiss on her lips before hopping down and closing the door. I climb in on my side, start the engine, and pull out of the driveway. Reaching across the console to grab her hand, I pull it into my lap, playing with her fingers. I feel the desire to touch her at all times.

  Gabby turns the radio on and Hunter Hayes’ “Wanted” is playing. I start singing to her and mean every word. I want to make Gabby feel wanted, want her to see how beautiful and special she is to me. There’s a lot to make up for, but everyone has to start somewhere an
d she’s giving me the chance. I won’t blow this. The end of the song comes and I lift her hand to place a kiss on her wrist. She gives me a small smile, and then looks out the window. I release her hand and turn the radio down.

  “What’s wrong?” I wrap her hand back up in mine, not wanting to let her go.

  “Just thinking.” She shrugs.

  “About what?” What could she be thinking about that has her so down? Is it Brandon? It can’t be after the night and morning we spent together. She wouldn’t do that, would she? My heart sinks to my stomach and my chest burns. She still hasn’t answered, so I ask again. “You gotta talk to me. What are you thinking about?” I give her hand a reassuring squeeze. No matter what, I want her to talk to me.

  “What happens now?” She looks over at me and she’s biting her lip like she’s unsure of herself.

  I take a deep breath and let it out, relieved, but wanting to kick my own ass all over again. I did this to her, made her doubt. “We go out on dates. We spend nights wrapped up in each other. You let me love you.” Pulling into the parking lot, I find an empty spot and park the truck. “I know you don’t have a lot of faith. I understand that. But believe me when I tell you, you’re it for me. I want to spoil the shit out of you. I want to make sure you know every day how beautiful you are. So, let me. Please.”

  She crawls over the console and into my lap. “I feel like I’m going to wake up any minute and this won’t be real.” She hides her face in my neck. “Or that you’re going to realize you really don’t want me. I can’t go through that again, Cam. I just can’t.”

  I should put out an ad for someone to kick my ass. Never did I stop and think of what all of this did to her. I only had to sit back and watch for a couple of months, yet she did it for years. I have so much to make up for.

  “Never. I’m here. Now and forever. One day you’ll see that. I know I have to prove it to you. Please, don’t push me away though. Be patient, I’ve never done this before.”