“I think so,” I said weakly.
Derreck shook his head. “No, I don’t think you do. Amelia, this life you yearn to understand and the woman you want to become will always be ruled by the needs of the people. You are last. Always. This will not fully make sense to you for some time, but it needs to sit in the back of your mind. You need to seek these words and remember why we are here. Elders are needed to keep the balance and maintain order. The queen must be stopped and you are our only hope.”
It was decided that Derreck would come visit the following weekend. That he would leave his self-imposed solitude to come to Brighton and help me work on my skills, as well as start taking me on trips to visit other areas. I truly had no interest in finding my supposed mate, but at this point I didn’t know how to argue about it either. His words kept repeating over in my head.
You will love, but you will love your people first. You will always be last.
I couldn’t argue with what he was saying, but my mind couldn’t truly grasp the magnitude of what I had just been handed. So many dots were connecting in my mind. My father’s odd behaviors. Why I could never even begin to control my own power. The fact that my mother had trusted me with this. She had chosen me for this.
What a mind job.
As soon as we got in the car, I plugged my phone in to charge, but I hadn’t actually turned it on. About mid-way through the drive, when I couldn’t even stand being inside my own head anymore, I realized it and powered the phone up. With a swipe across the screen, I was suddenly inundated with all the beeps and buzzes that meant I had messages from every angle. There were texts, missed calls, and voicemails. I was a little overwhelmed because I’d told both Micah and Bethany where I was going — sort of. They both knew I was heading out with Cole for the weekend.
I started with the text messages since they were the easiest to get through. A few benign ones from Bethany on Friday, telling me she hoped I had a great weekend with Cole and that she was thinking about poor Charlie and his shots. One from Micah that only said: Call me when you get this. Immediately.
Then, there was one from Aidan. My phone wasn’t showing me a preview and I couldn’t bring myself to touch his name on the screen. I closed my eyes and took a deep inhale. After I’d emptied my lungs, I pressed my index finger to the screen and watched his message appear under the last one I’d sent.
Leaving? What do you mean leaving? Please don’t leave me, Amelia. We need to talk first.
The broken pieces of my heart split and fractured yet again. I could have handled it better if he had told me he never wanted to see me again. I could have even taken being called a freak that he didn’t want to be associated with. I could not, however, take this. I saw his pleading eyes in the back of my mind. I heard his voice as if he stood in front of me saying the words, and the pain reverberated through me. I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the window, staring back out at the coast.
“It was Aidan, wasn’t it?” Cole’s quiet question broke the silence.
“Was it that obvious?” I responded with a groan.
“I know you don’t want to do this, Ame, but you’ve got to cut the poor guy loose. If for no other reason than he could really get hurt. I know you care about him, probably more than you should. I’ve seen how happy he makes you, but you know it’s for the best.”
I groaned yet again. “I know, Cole. My head knows all the reasons, my heart just isn’t interested in the conversation.” He grunted, as if to say he knew exactly what I meant, and we left it at that.
My phone let out another reminder beep, letting me know the unheard voicemails were still sitting there waiting for me. I put the phone to my ear and hit the button. Micah was suddenly screaming into it.
I shot up in the seat and in the process dropped the phone. Scrambling around, trying to dig between the seats, all I could say was, “No, no, no, no, no.”
Cole finally pulled over to the side of the road when I wouldn’t answer his third “What?” and grabbed me by the shoulders. “AMELIA — WHAT HAPPENED?” he bellowed.
I could only whimper Bethany’s name. “They took her, Cole. They took Bethany.” The roar he let out and the magic that came with it set Charlie howling.
“This has nothing to do with her. Dammit! She can’t handle this crap,” he yelled. I wanted to tell him she was stronger than he gave her credit for, but instead I sat mutely, trembling, apologies I couldn’t give her burning in the back of my throat.
Cole immediately sprang into action. He had Micah on speaker phone in less than ten seconds.
“Where in the hell have you two been?” Micah greeted.
“You’re on speaker. We were out of cell range trying to get some space and sort some things out. What happened? Where’s Bethany? Why weren’t you protecting her?” Cole was screaming at the phone and looked like he might shatter it in his hand. I slowly wrapped my hand around his wrist to get his attention and took the phone. He slammed himself back in the seat as Micah responded.
“Do not even go there with me. I’m not the one who ran off. And I couldn’t be expected to be with her every second. If I hadn’t kicked in her apartment door last night, we wouldn’t even know what happened since you both abandoned her!” I could hear the anger and the fear in Micah’s voice.
“Just explain, Micah. We don’t need to point fingers. We need to know what happened and what we can do,” I said, my voice surprisingly strong as I tried to take control of the situation, though my hand was shaking so badly I could hardly hold the phone myself.
My best friend. They took my best friend.
If I weren’t completely terrified, I would have laughed at the stereotypical nature of it all. How could I have possibly imagined that by leaving her alone, I would actually protect her?
“All I know right now is that she’s gone and the red-haired woman is Melinda, as I predicted. She left a note saying to stay near your phone, so I would appreciate it if you’d keep the damn thing charged and on.”
I felt a nudging on my shoulder and Charlie was there with my phone in his mouth. Giving him a scratch behind the ears, I took it and wiped the slobber off on my jeans. “I’ve got it here, Micah. I had more voicemails than yours, let me listen to them. Just a sec.”
The fear inside me was almost paralyzing, but she — my dark power — raged inside me as well. She was pissed. I was pissed. How dare these people hurt Bethany? One of the few people I loved. I stabbed at the voicemail button again and skipped past Micah’s message. Left only an hour ago was one from Bethany herself. I listened to it, trying to hold back a scream of my own, and then replayed it on speaker for the boys.
“Um…hi, Ame, it’s me. I…uh…I have to tell you some things. First, these people kidnapped me from the parking lot after work last night and they…um…told me to tell you that (sniffle) if you don’t come to them (sniffle) they, will…oh, honey, they say they’re gonna kill me. What the hell is going on, Amelia? Who are these people?”
Then she screamed. Not in pain, but someone clearly did something to her.
“Goddamnit. That was unnecessary and that was MY HAIR. Amelia, this red-haired witch just singed my hair with a damn lightning bolt that came from her hand. She isn’t messing around.”
I couldn’t help the tiny satisfied smile that played at my lips. Only Bethany would toughen up over her hair being damaged.
“They know you aren’t home yet, but they said you had to meet them at midnight tonight in the woods behind our apartment. Way back. They said to go where you went before.”
The phone made a bunch of garbled noises and then Melinda came on the line as Bethany shouted in the background. I would recognize her voice anywhere.
“I told you, sugar, I will do what I have to in order to get your attention. You shouldn’t have played with me. Your little human is fine right now, she’s actually quite the feisty one. But, she won’t stay this spirited for long if you don’t do what I’ve asked. Come to the woods and come alone. We�
��ll know if you don’t. Go until you see the tree marked with a slash and then head south. We’ll find you.”
Cole was the first to speak, his voice hardened steel. “Be at the gym in a half an hour. We’ll be there. We don’t have long before midnight and we need a plan.”
“Fine.” Micah disconnected.
I started to speak and Cole merely held up his hand. I closed my mouth and sat back. Charlie whimpered in the back as both of our magic raged inside and around us in the car. Cole finally picked his phone back up and explained the situation to Uncle Derreck. He was jumping in the car as soon as possible and would meet us later. He had been off the grid for so long, he didn’t want to expose himself to anyone else so he wouldn’t meet us at the gym.
My thoughts were racing. I wanted to break things. I wanted to cry. I wanted to call Aidan and hide in his arms. I wanted to rewind my life and not even choose to come to Brighton, effectively stopping all of this from happening — or at least keeping the humans I loved out of it. But, instead, I sat back and opened myself up to the severely pissed off dark power flowing through my veins, letting it penetrate every cell and fill me with frenzied anger instead of fear. If this chick wanted to pick a fight, she came to the right place. At this point, neither of us truly knew what I was capable of.
Chapter 20
The gym was dark and Micah was already sitting in Cole’s office when we arrived. All three of us were on full tilt and Charlie was just as agitated by the magical overload. He paced back and forth in the hallway, emitting a short growl every few steps, his ears pricked. Cole motioned to Micah and we went out into the training area. It felt good to be in an open space again after all that time in the car. I looked haggard in old ripped jeans and a sweatshirt with my hair in a knot on top of my head. Cole and I had both been so worked up, we hadn’t even talked about what we would or wouldn’t discuss with Micah. I let him take the lead in the conversation.
None of us sat down as we came to the center of the room and stared at each other. The only sounds were Charlie’s nails clicking on the cement on the outer edge of the training room as he continued to pace.
“Micah, I’m sorry we weren’t here and you couldn’t find us.” Cole’s apology caught both Micah and me by surprise.
Micah’s eyes widened just a fraction before he nodded. “I know. And I shouldn’t have blamed you. But, what are we going to do? We clearly cannot allow Amelia to go meet them alone. You know she’s who they want.” He ran a hand back through his hair and I could see his pained expression. We were all worried about what Bethany was going through.
I harrumphed a little, “Well, normally I’d be offended by that, but I don’t particularly want to go out there alone. I just don’t see a way around it.”
Both men turned and started yelling at me at the same time. It took a supreme amount of control not to lay them both out on the mats and leave them pinned there. I was sure I could do it, especially right now. So, instead, I put some power behind my voice and yelled, “JUST STOP IT!”
They both shut up and took a step back. Before they could come at me again, I started talking.
“Let’s get real, guys. These people want me. Not you. Me. And they have Bethany. I can defend myself. She can’t. I can defend both of us. This isn’t a choice and you both know it. On top of that, you both care about her, just like I do.” I sent Cole a look that said “You know you do so just shut it” and he looked back at me a little sheepishly.
“Micah, you and I can open our connection so that I can keep you both updated on what’s happening. Even where they take me, if they do. You’ll come for me, right? If it comes down to it, you’ll find me?” Those last words came out far more quietly and with less strength than I had hoped.
The fear was sneaking in again, but I wouldn’t have it. This was for Bethany. I stood up straight and sent a ripple of electricity running through me once again. As I had calmed down, I pushed the darkness back into its corner, making promises that she would get her chance. When I lifted my eyes to Cole’s, and then to Micah’s, I saw what I needed to see. Cold determination.
We decided we would meet back at my apartment to finalize the plan. Micah said he had some potential reinforcements he might tap into, so he went his way and Cole and I went ours. Once we were in the confines of the car, I turned to him.
“What if I can’t stop her, Cole? When I lose it, she takes over, and I can’t always stop her.” I had taken to referring to my power source as her own being, at least to Uncle Derreck and Cole, who understood what she actually was. “If they’ve hurt B, I won’t be able to stop her. I won’t want to.”
Cole turned to me and placed his hand over mine, reassurance and strength filling the void my fear had left when I forced it out. “You can’t, Amelia. You can’t let them know who you are — what you are. They can think you’re an Elder, that’s fine. But we don’t even understand what being a Keeper means for you. If they figure that out, you’ll never get out and you have to. It’s not a choice, Amelia.”
Looking into my brother’s eyes, I saw no fear, only confidence. He was faking it, I could feel his warring emotions, but I appreciated the attempt. “Okay, Cole. You’re right. I can do this.”
Internally, I stared down the pulsing orb of dark light inside me and told her the same thing. She’s more important. You have to do this. We have to do this. The quiet hum of satisfaction was all I felt. At least we were on the same page this time.
When we got to the apartment, I asked Cole to wait outside for a little bit. “I’ll make it very obvious if there’s a problem,” I told him with a smile. “I just need some time in there alone to get my head right.”
He argued for a brief minute and then just shooed me out of the car, muttering something about his boneheaded little sister that would drive him to drink. Melinda and her crew knew I’d be there tonight, so it was a long-shot that anyone would be waiting to ambush me. As I walked into the entryway of the building, my thoughts were focused on Bethany. If that wench had done anything more than singe Bethany’s hair, I was going to kill her myself. I’d never killed anything bigger than a spider, but for Bethany, I would.
My mind wasn’t focused and she reacted first, letting out a relieved sigh that filled my lungs and expanded through every inch of me. He was the last person I had expected to see. It took a moment to register Aidan sitting on the steps, just as he had been the night of the first attack. This time though, he didn’t look strong and determined. He looked as tired and beat-down as I felt.
At my gasp, he looked up and his eyes brightened. “You’re here. Thank God, Amelia, I’ve been waiting for hours.”
He stood up and closed the distance between us in a heartbeat. Before I could do anything, he had me in his arms, pressing his lips to my hair, forehead, cheek, and eventually, my mouth. I should have stopped him, but instead I tucked my head under his chin and gave myself that one last embrace. I put every ounce of the love I had for Aidan into that hug and when he pulled away slightly, I pushed the same emotion into a last kiss. Tears I hadn’t allowed since I found out about Bethany welled in my eyes and I stepped back away from him.
Aidan looked at me confused. “What’s happening, Amelia? I know I don’t completely understand what’s happening, but I’m not scared of you. In fact—”
“Aidan, just stop,” I interrupted, shaking my head. “I’m sorry, but we can’t do this. I can’t do this. You have to go. You just have to go and never see me again.” I tried to push past him and up to my door when I felt his hand on my arm and his rage in the air.
“What?” It was one word but it came out with deadly force. “That’s it? After all of this, that’s all I get? After that kiss? You’re just going to walk away and think I’m going to let you?”
It took every shred of my willpower to look up into his steeled gray eyes and lie through my teeth. “I wanted to kiss you goodbye. This was fun, Aidan, but it’s not anymore, and I’m over it. It was good while it lasted, but you don�
�t mean as much as I thought you did. This is just a complication I don’t need right now.”
He winced away from me and the pain he exuded stabbed me directly in the heart. I have no idea how I managed to maintain his stare until he finally dropped my arm like it was bag of overflowing trash and back away from me, shaking his head slowly back and forth. As Aidan continued to back away from me, still not speaking, I quietly said, “Goodbye, Aidan,” and turned away.
As I shut the door to my apartment, I slid down the wall and wept noiseless tears. She was pounding on me from the inside as I ached, feeling beaten from the outside. It took all my remaining willpower to shove her down and stop the spillway from opening. The throbbing had already grown to a dull roar building in every artery and vein, but now wasn’t the time.
I thought he would leave, but within seconds, Aidan was pounding on the door, screaming, “Amelia, open the door. Damn it, Amelia. I’m not leaving! I know you don’t mean it! I know there’s more to this. There has to be.”
He pounded and pounded. It had to be five full minutes he pounded on the door, yelling my name. Then, it was silent. I kept swallowing down the cries I wanted to release. I had wrapped myself in a ball on the floor to keep from running to him. I thought he was gone when I heard his soft words.
“Amelia, this isn’t over. I won’t let it be. You changed everything. I love you.” I don’t know if he knew I could hear his hoarse whisper or not, but his words unraveled me. I dove for the door, but before I could wrench it open, I heard Cole. “What the hell are you doing here, Montgomery? Didn’t my sister break it off with you?”
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