The Fictions of Bruno Schulz

by Bruno Schulz

  SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF THE HOURGLASS nights. We never saw the black-bearded gentleman again. He left before daybreak with his trunk and bundles, without taking leave of us. That was the last night of the dead season. From that summer night onwards seven long years of prosperity began for the shop. Sanatorium Under the Sign of the Hourglass The journey was long. The train, which ran only once a week on that forgotten branch line, carried no more than a few passengers. Never before had I seen such archaic coaches; withdrawn from other lines long before, they were spacious as living rooms, dark, and with many recesses. Corridors crossed the empty compartments at various angles; labyrinthine and cold, they exuded an air of strange and frightening neglect. I moved from coach to coach, looking for a comfortable cor- ner. Draughts were everywhere: cold currents of air shooting through the interiors, piercing the whole train from end to end. Here and there a few people sat on the floor, surrounded by their bundles, not daring to occupy the empty seats. Besides, those high, convex oilcloth- covered seats were cold as ice and sticky with age. At the deserted stations no passengers boarded the train. Without a whistle, without a groan, the train would slowly start again, as if lost in meditation. For a time I had the company of a man in a ragged railwayman's uniform — silent, engrossed in his thoughts. He pressed a handkerchief to his swollen, aching face. Later even he disappeared, having slipped out unobserved at some stop. He left behind him the mark of his body in the straw that lay on the floor, and a shabby black suitcase he had forgotten. Wading in straw and rubbish, I walked shakily from coach to coach. The open doors of the compartments were swinging in the draughts. There was not a single passenger left on the train. At last, I met a conductor, in the black uniform of that line. He was wrapping a thick scarf around his neck and collecting his things — a lantern, an official logbook. `We are nearly there, sir,' he said, looking at me with washed-out eyes. The train was coming slowly to a halt, without puffing, without 236 237

  SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIG OF THE HOURGLASS rattling, as if, together with the last breath of steam, life were slowly escaping from it. We stopped. Everything was empty and still, with no station buildings in sight. The conductor showed me the direction of the Sanatorium. Carrying my suitcase, I started walking along a white narrow road towards the dark trees of a park. With some curiosity, I looked at the landscape. The road along which I was walking led up to the brow of a gentle hill, from which a wide expanse of country could be seen. The day was uniformly grey, extinguished, without contrasts. And perhaps under the influence of that heavy and colourless aura, the great basin of the valley, in which a vast wooded landscape was arranged like theatrical scenery, seemed very dark. The rows of trees, one behind the other, every greyer and more distant, 238 SANA'T`ORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF TIIE HOURGLASS descended the gentle slopes to the left and right. The whole landscape, sombre and grave, seemed almost imperceptibly to float, to shift slightly like a sky full of billowing, stealthily moving clouds. The fluid strips and bands of forest seemed to rustle and grow with rustling like a tide that swells gradually toward the shore. The rising white road wound itself dramatically through the darkness of that woody terrain. I broke a twig from a roadside tree. The leaves were dark, almost black. It was a strangely charged blackness, deep and benevolent, like restful sleep. All the different shades of grey in the landscape derived from that one colour. It was the colour of a cloudy summer dusk in our part of the country, when the landscape has become saturated with water after a long period of rain and exudes a feeling of self- denial, a resigned and ultimate numbness that does not need the consolation of colour. It was completely dark among the trees of the parkland. I groped my way blindly on a carpet of soft needles. When the trees thinned, the planks of a footbridge resounded under my feet. Beyond it, against the blackness of the trees, loomed the grey walls of the many- windowed hotel that advertised itself as the Sanatorium. The double glass door of the entrance stood open. the little footbridge, with shaky handrails made of birch branches, led straight to it. In the hallway there was semidarkness and a solemn silence. I moved on tiptoe from door to door, trying to see the numbers on them. Rounding a corner, I at last met a chambermaid. She had run out of a room, as if having torn herself from someone's importuning arms, and was breathless and excited. She could hardly understand what I was saying. I had to repeat it. She was fidgeting helplessly. Had my telegram reached them? She spread her arms, her eyes moved sideways. She was only awaiting an opportunity to leap back behind the half-opened door, at which she kept squinting. `I have come a long way. I booked a room here by telegram,' I said with some impatience. `Whom shall I see about it?' She did not know. ` Perhaps you could wait in the restaurant,' she babbled. ` Everybody is asleep just now. When the doctor gets up, I shall announce you.' `They are asleep? But it is daytime, not night.' `I here everybody is asleep all the time. Didn't you know?' she said, looking at me with interest now. 'Besides, it is never night here,' she added coyly. 239

  SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF THE HOURGLASS SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF THE HOURGLASS She had obviously given up the idea of escape, for she was now picking fussily at the lace of her apron. I left her there and entered the half-lighted restaurant. There were some tables, and a large buffet ran the length of one wall. I was now feeling a little hungry and was pleased to see some pastries and a cake on the buffet. I placed my suitcase on one of the tables. They were all unoccupied. I clapped my hands. No response. I looked into the next room, which was larger and brighter. That room had a wide window or loggia overlooking the landscape I already knew, which, framed by the window, seemed like a constant reminder of mourning, suggestive of deep sorrow and resignation. On some of the tables stood the remains of recent meals, uncorked bottles, half-empty glasses. Here and there lay the tips, not yet picked up by the waiters. I returned to the buffet and looked at the pastries and cake. They looked most appetizing. I wondered whether I should help myself; I suddenly felt extremely greedy. There was a particular kind of apple flan that made my mouth water. I was about to lift a piece of it with a silver knife when I felt somebody behind me. The chambermaid had entered the room in her soft slippers and was touching my back lightly. `The doctor will see you now,' she said looking at her fingernails. She stood facing me and, conscious of the magnetism of her wrig- gling hips, did not turn away. She provoked me, increasing and decreasing the distance between our bodies as, having left the restaurant, we passed many numbered doors. The passage became ever darker. In almost complete darkness, she brushed against me fleetingly. `Here is the doctor's door,' she whispered. `Please go in.' Dr Gotard was standing in the middle of the room to receive me. He was a short, broad-shouldered man with a dark beard. ' We received your telegram yesterday,' he said. 'We sent our carriage to the station, but you must have arrived by another train. Unfortunately, the railway connections are not very good. Are you well?' 'Is my father alive?' I asked, staring anxiously into his calm face. `Yes, of course,' he answered, calmly meeting my questioning eyes.' That is, within the limits imposed by the situation,' he added, half closing his eyes. 'You know as well as I that from the point of view of your home, from the perspective of your own country, your father is dead. This cannot be entirely remedied. That death throws a certain shadow on his existence here.' `But does Father himself know it, does he guess?' I asked him in a whisper. He shook his head with deep conviction. `Don't worry,' he said in a low voice. 'None of our patients know it, or can guess. The whole secret of the operation,' he added, ready to demonstrate its mechanism on his fingers, 'is that we have put back the clock. I Jere we are always late by a certain interval of time of which we cannot define the length. The whole thing is a matter of simple relativity. Here your father's death, the death that has already struck him in your country, has not occurred yet.' 240 241

  SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF THE HOURGLASS SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF THE HOURGLASS `In that case,' I said, `my father must be on his deathbed or about to die.' `You don't understand me,' he said in a tone of tolerant impatience
. `Here we reactivate time past, with all its possibilities, therefore also including the possibility of a recovery.' He looked at me with a smile, stroking his beard. `But now you probably want to see your father. According to your request, we have reserved for you the other bed in your father's room. I shall take you there.' When we were out in the dark passage, Dr Gotard spoke in a whisper. I noticed that he was wearing felt slippers, like the chamber- maid. 'We allow our patients to sleep long hours to spare their vitality. Besides, there is nothing better to do.' At last, we stopped in front of one of the doors, and he put a finger to his lips. `Enter quietly. Your father is asleep. Settle down to sleep, too. This is the best thing for you to do. Goodbye for now.' `Goodbye,' I whispered, my heart beating fast. I pressed the handle, and the door opened, like unresisting lips that part in sleep. I went in. The room was almost empty, grey and bare. Under a small window, my father was lying on an ordinary wooden bed, covered by a pile of bedding, fast asleep. His breathing extracted layers of snoring from the depths of his breast. The whole room seemed to be lined with snores from floor to ceiling, and yet new layers were being added all the time. With deep emotion, I looked at Father's thin, emaciated face, now completely engrossed in the activity of snoring – a remote, trancelike face, which, having left its earthly aspect, was confessing its existence somewhere on a distant shore by solemnly telling its minutes. There was no second bed in the room. Piercingly cold air blew in through the window. The stove had not been lighted. They don't seem to care much for patients here, I thought. To expose such a sick man to such draughts! And no one seems to do any cleaning here, either. A thick layer of dust covered the floor and the bedside table, on which stood medicine bottles and a cup of cold coffee. Stacks of pastries in the restaurant, yet they give the patients black coffee instead of anything more nourishing! but perhaps this is a detail compared with the benefits of having the clock put back. I slowly undressed and climbed onto Father's bed. He did not wake up, but his snoring, having probably been pitched too high, fell an octave lower, forsaking its high declamatory tone. It became, as it were, more private, for his own use. I tucked Father in under his eiderdown, to protect him as much as possible from the draughts in the room. Soon I fell asleep by his side. 2 The room was in twilight when I woke up. Father was dressed and sitting at the table drinking tea, dunking sugar-coated biscuits in it. He was wearing a black suit of English cloth, which he had had made only the previous summer. His tie was rather loose. Seeing that I was awake, he said with a pleasant smile on his pale face, `I am extremely pleased that you have come, Joseph. It was a real surprise! I feel so lonely here. But I suppose one should not complain in my situation. I have been through worse things, and if one were to itemize them all – but never mind. Imagine, on my very first day here they served an excellent fillet of beef with mushrooms. It was a hell of a piece of meat, Joseph. I must warn you most 242 243

  SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF THE HOURGLASS SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF THE HOURGLASS emphatically — beware if they should ever serve you fillet of beef? I can still feel the fire in my stomach. And the diarrhoea — I could hardly cope with it. But I must tell you a piece of news,' he continued. `Don't laugh. I have rented premises for a shop here. Yes, I have. And I congratulate myself for having had that bright idea. I have been bored most terribly, I must say. You cannot imagine the boredom. And so I at least have a pleasant occupation. Don't imagine anything grand. Nothing of the kind. A much more modest place than our old store. It is a booth compared with the previous one. Back home I would be ashamed of such a stall, but here, where we have had to give up so many of our pretensions — don't you agree, Joseph?' He laughed bitterly. `And so one manages somehow to live.' The wrong word — I was embarrassed by Father's confusion when he realized that he had used it. `I see you are sleepy,' he continued after a while. `Go back to sleep, and then you can visit me in the shop if you want. I am going there now to see how things are. You cannot imagine how difficult it has been to get credit, how mistrustful they are here of old merchants, of merchants with a reputable past. Do you recall the optician's shop in the market square? Well, oui shop is right next door to it. There is still no sign over it, but you will find your way, I am sure. You can't miss it.' `Are you going out without a coat?' I asked anxiously. `They have forgotten to pack it. Imagine, I could not find it in my trunk. But I don't really need it. That mild climate, that sweet air — ' `Please take my coat, Father,' I insisted. `You must.' But Father was already putting on his hat. He waved to me and slipped out of the room. I did not feel sleepy any more. I felt rested and hungry. With pleasant anticipation I thought of the buffet. I dressed, wondering how many pastries to sample. I decided to start with the apple flan but did not forget the sponge cake with orange peel, which had caught my eye, too. I stood in front of the mirror to fix my tie, but the surface was like bottle glass: it secreted my reflection somewhere in its depth, and only an opaque blur was visible. I tried in vain to adjust the distance — approaching the mirror, then retreating from it — but no reflection would emerge from the silvery, fluid mist. I must ask for another looking glass, I thought, and left the room. The corridor was completely dark. In one corner a buy gas lamp flickered with a bluish flame, intensifying the impression of solemn silence. In that labyrinth of rooms, archways, and niches, I had diffi- culty remembering which door led to the restaurant. I'll go out, I thought with sudden decision. I'll eat in the town. There must be a good cafe somewhere. Beyond the gate, I plunged into the heavy, damp, sweet air of that peculiar climate. The greyness of the aura had become somewhat deeper now it seemed to me that I was seeing daylight through mourning crepe. I feasted my eyes on the velvety, succulent blackness of the darkest spots, on passages of dull greys and ashen, muted tones — that nocturne of a landscape. Waves of air fluttered softly around my face. They smelled of the sickly sweetness of stale rainwater. And again that perpetual rustle of black forests — dull chords disturbing space beyond the limits of audibility! I was in the backyard 244 245

  SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF THE HOURGLASS SANATORIUM UNDER THE SIGN OF THE HOURGLASS of the Sanatorium. I turned to look at the rear of the main building, which was shaped like a horseshoe around a courtyard. All the windows were shuttered in black. The Sanatorium was in deep sleep. I went out by a gate in an iron fence. Nearby stood a dog kennel of extraordinary size, empty. Again I was engulfed and embraced by the black trees. Then it became somewhat lighter, and I saw outlines of houses between the trees. A few more steps and I found myself in a large town square. What a strange, misleading resemblance it bore to the central square of our native city! How similar, in fact, are all the market squares in the world! Almost identical houses and shops! The sidewalks were nearly empty. the mournful semidarkness of an undefined time descended from a sky of an indeterminable greyness. I could easily read all the shop signs and posters, yet it would not have surprised me to learn that it was the middle of the night. Only some of the shops were open. Others, their iron shutters pulled halfway down, were being hurriedly closed. A heady, rich, and inebriating air seemed to obscure some parts of the view, to wash away like a wet sponge some of the houses, a street lamp, a section of signboard. At times it was difficult to keep one's eyes open, overcome as one was by a strange indolence or sleepiness. I began to look for the optician's shop that my father had mentioned. He had spoken of it as of some- thing I knew, and he seemed to assume that I was familiar with local conditions. Didn't he remember that I had just come here for the first time? No doubt his mind was confused. Yet what could one expect of Father, who was only half real, who lived a relative and conditional life, circumscribed by so many limitations! I cannot deny that much goodwill was needed to believe in his kind of existence. What he experienced was a pitiful substitute for life, depending on the indul- gence of others, on a consensus omnium from which he drew his faint strength. It was clear that only by the solidarity of forbearance, by a communal averting of eyes from the obvious and shocking short- comings of his condition, could
this pitiful semblance of life maintain itself, for however short a moment, within the tissue of reality. The slightest doubt could undermine it, the faintest breeze of scepticism destroy it. Could Dr Gotard's Sanatorium provide for Father this hothouse atmosphere of friendly indulgence and guard him from the cold winds of sober analysis? It was astonishing that in this insecure and questionable state of affairs, Father was capable of behaving so admirably. I was glad when I saw a shop window full of cakes and pastries. My appetite revived. I opened the glass door, with the inscription `Ices' on it and entered the dark interior. It smelled of coffee and vanilla. From the depths of the shop a girl appeared, her face misted over by dusk, and took my order. At last, after waiting so long, I could eat my fill of excellent doughnuts, which I dipped in my coffee. Surrounded by the dancing arabesques of dusk, I devoured pastries one after another, feeling darkness creep under my eyelids and stealthily fill me with its warm pulsations, its thousand delicate touches. In the end, only the window shone, like a grey reel-Ingle, in the otherwise complete darkness. I knocked with my spoon on the tabletop, but in vain; no one appeared to take money for my refresh- ment. I left a silver coin on the table and walked out into the street. In the bookshop next door, the light was still on. The shop assistants were busy sorting books. I asked for my father's shop. `It is next door to ours, ' one of them explained. A helpful boy even went with me to the door, to show me the way. Father's shop had a glass pane in the door, the display window was not ready and was covered with a grey paper. On entering, I was astonished to see that the shop was full of customers. My father was standing behind the counter and adding a long row of figures on an invoice, repeatedly licking his pencil. The man for whom the invoice was being prepared was leaning over the counter and moving his index finger down the column of figures, counting softly. The rest of the customers looked on in silence. My father gave me a look from over his spectacles and, marking his place on the invoice, said, `There is a letter for you. It is on the desk among all the papers.' He went back to his sums. Meanwhile, the shop assistants were taking pieces of cloth bought by the customers, wrapping them in paper, and tying them with string. The shelves were only half filled with cloth; some of them were still empty. `Why don't you sit down, Father?' I asked softly, going behind the counter. `You don't take enough care of yourself; although you are very sick. ' Father lifted his hand, as if wanting to reject my pleas, and did not stop counting. He looked very pale. It was obvious that only the 246 247