Spiral of Bliss: The Complete Boxed Set

by Nina Lane

  “Best decision I’ve made in a long time,” he said.

  Pleasure unfurled in my veins. I was still holding the coin clenched in my left fist.

  Emboldened by his words, I reached out and settled my other hand on his forearm. Awareness shivered through my blood at the sensation of his hair-roughened skin, the hard muscles taut with restrained energy. I ran my hand tentatively up to where the bird’s wing hugged his upper arm before disappearing beneath the sleeve of his T-shirt. I wondered how far it went, if tattoos also decorated the slopes of his shoulder and chest.

  I loved that he wore a bird’s wing, that he’d made freedom a permanent part of him. I traced the feathers with the tip of my finger. A flame licked at me, flaring upward from my core and into my blood. I wanted to slide my hand beneath his sleeve and over his smooth, muscled shoulder.

  I didn’t have the courage to do that. Once upon a time, I had. Not anymore. Instead I swept my hand back down to his forearm. Before I reached his wrist, he put his hand over mine. It was a quick, decisive movement, like a hawk landing on its perch. My pulse stuttered, a combination of heat and shock rolling through me as I realized he was about to make another decision.

  And I would agree with whatever it was.

  He slid his fingers against my hand, gently caressing the spaces between my fingers. Live electrical wires sparked through me. I’d never before known how tender those little hollows were.

  He traced the backs of my fingers. His hands were callused. I could feel the hard ridges on his forefinger and thumb. A burn spread low in my belly. I gripped the coin tighter in my other fist. He leaned in, closer, and when his lips brushed mine, fireworks exploded in my blood in complete disproportion to the gentle pressure of his kiss.

  My whole body sighed with pleasure. His lips were warm, slightly chapped, and he tasted like salt and maleness. Oh, how long had it been since I’d kissed a man like him—a man who reminded me of the excitement of risks and the reckless, heady feeling of plunging headlong into the unknown.

  He put his hand against my cheek, his fingers sliding into my hair. I parted my lips to taste the heat of him. Our tongues touched. A bolt of lust shot to my center. My lower body tightened. I pressed my thighs together.

  Oh, god.

  So good. Hot and gentle at the same time. He shifted his lips to my cheek, his stubble abrading my skin. Beneath the table, he settled his other hand on my thigh. The warmth of his palm burned through the material of my trousers.

  I shifted closer, letting my body lean into his as he stroked his hand upward, his fingers dipping between my thighs and higher… higher…

  I groaned, aching to part my legs and let him touch me. I had a sudden, blatantly explicit image of him sliding his hand into my pants and finding the satin thong I wore under my business suit. Then twisting his fingers around the thin strap and down into my—

  I broke away from him with a gasp, my chest burning. I stared into his darkened eyes as our breath filled the space between us. My lips felt reddened, my cheek scraped from his whiskers.

  I tore my gaze from his and grabbed my drink. My mind spun. Desire and caution rocketed through me like crazed fireflies.

  I could leave with him. I could leave with him right this second, and let him take me somewhere, anywhere. I could let him strip off my clothes, touch and kiss me all over, make me writhe against his hard, powerful body…

  I downed a swallow of scotch, but the alcohol did nothing to quench my raging fire. His hand, warm and possessive, settled on the back of my neck. He brushed his lips against my ear.

  Behind him, the bar patrons moved almost in slow-motion, their images blurred. A group of men pushed through the front door, letting in a sudden burst of chatter that sliced through my haze of lust.

  I went still. My vision sharpened and focused. A chill crept into my blood. Five men in their mid-thirties, wearing khakis and ties, one with a rumpled suit jacket and glasses…

  They crowded up to the bar and called out their orders. I stared at them, my heart plummeting. They weren’t SciTech executives, but they might as well have been.

  The man beside me had stilled too. I felt him watching me, as if he sensed the frost that had descended over my desire. The reminder of who I was pushed back into my head.

  I’d once been a girl who took risks and met challenges without fear, but that girl had been gone for more years than I cared to remember.

  I was Professor March. Even when I didn’t want to be, I still was.

  I swallowed hard. My fingernails dug into my palm. The coin was still clenched in my damp fist.

  I held out my hand. My breathing grew shallow. Slowly I uncurled my fingers. We both looked at the coin, the silver flashing in the overhead light.

  Heads.

  Disappointment stabbed me. I dropped the coin into his hand. It was a facsimile coin, vaguely medieval-looking. When I lifted my gaze to his face again, he was watching me with a shuttered expression, as if he knew that this time, fate had made the decision.

  He shoved the coin into his pocket and stood. For an instant, he seemed to hesitate. My heart stirred again. Then he turned and walked away.

  The noise of the bar filled my ears. Frustration rose in my chest. A blinking neon light flashed garishly through the window. As the world crashed back in, my regret became so bitter I could taste it.

  Several people sat at the computers in the cramped synoptic lab of the Meteorology department at King’s University. The smell of bad coffee and the sound of fingers clicking on keyboards filled the air.

  I rubbed the back of my neck, twisting to ease the tension in my shoulders. My muscles were still tight, both with lingering anger over yesterday’s meeting with SciTech and—I could now admit in the harsh light of day—sexual frustration at having thwarted that hot encounter with a stranger.

  Intellectually, I knew I’d done the right thing by putting a stop to it. But my body didn’t give a shit about intellect. It was just remembering how damn good that kiss had felt. Sparks and electricity. The smoldering burn of lust. The world slipping away, everything fading into the pressure of his mouth and the touch of his hand on my—

  “This is pathetic.” My grad student Derek made a noise of irritation.

  I forced myself back to the present and focused on the NEXRAD screen. Derek hit the refresh button on the radial velocity loop for the third time. His face darkened with a frown.

  “This department really needs upgraded equipment,” he muttered.

  “We’re working on it,” I said. “The board of trustees has yet to approve our budget proposal.”

  I leaned over to start up the mesonet page as we watched the storm encroaching on northeast Oklahoma. Three of my other grad students had left two nights ago to chase developing storms, which had the potential to grow into tornadic supercells. When they returned, I would tell all my students together about the disaster of the Spiral Project funding.

  The phone beside the computer rang. I pressed the talk button to connect it to the speaker. “Colton?”

  “Yeah.” His voice crackled over the line. “We’re on I-540 heading toward Fayetteville. Whaddya got?”

  “We’re looking at the mesonet observations,” I said. “There’s a convergence in Muskogee, moving east at five knots.”

  “Initiation?”

  “At 19Z.”

  “Based on the shear profile, the storm splitting should happen half an hour later,” Derek told him. “Right-mover dominant not long after that.”

  “Okay. Hold on.” There was a pause. “We’re switching directions now. Be in touch.”

  I disconnected the line and sat next to Derek. We spent the next hour watching the evolution of the storm on the OKC NEXRAD. Colton and the team got in front of the developing supercell and called again to report a massive wall cloud.

  A few seconds later, my
cell phone buzzed with a text from Colton. Below the words holy shit was a picture of a huge black-and-gray mass extending from the base of the cumulonimbus cloud.

  I nudged Derek and showed him the picture. He breathed out a curse. I knew how he felt because I felt it too—envy, excitement, and fear that my students were possibly in the path of a forming tornado.

  I tried to ignore the envy part. Envy meant wanting something you didn’t have, and I’d long ago stopped wanting to be in a storm.

  Never mind that one had brewed inside me just last night as I sat beside a man who made my skin tingle with his touch. A man with corded forearms and long, powerful legs, sandpaper stubble that branded my skin like—

  Stop. Thinking. About. Him.

  I shook my head to dislodge the memories. I was Professor Kelsey March again, which meant I had no business wondering where that sizzling, anonymous encounter would have gone if I hadn’t come to my senses.

  Trying to refocus, I watched the radar and mesonet. Colton called again after another half hour to report that the storm had weakened and dissipated.

  “You all okay?” I asked.

  “Yeah. We got some hail damage, but the equipment is fine. We’re heading back to Tulsa now. I’ll send you the reports soon.”

  “You’re staying overnight, right?”

  “Luke wants to drive back after we get something to eat.”

  “No. You find a motel, okay? Drive back tomorrow morning after you’ve all slept. Use my credit card. Tell Luke that’s an order.”

  “Can we use your credit card for a steak dinner?”

  “Go ahead. Just don’t get hammered.”

  “No, ma’am. See you in a day or two.”

  “Be careful.”

  After Derek and I speculated about the reasons for the storm’s dissipation, I grabbed my blazer and turned to leave the lab. I almost bumped into a tall, broad-shouldered man who was standing right behind us.

  “Shouldn’t your grad students be here working?” Stan Baxter asked.

  “I told them they could go.”

  “You shouldn’t be using departmental resources to chase tornados,” he said. “We’re overextended with our equipment as it is.”

  “Derek and I were just helping them track it. We’re done now.”

  Stan glanced behind me to the radar screen. He was an older guy, hefty and gray-haired, who’d been a full professor in the Meteorology department for the past thirty years and had been appointed the departmental chairperson last September. He’d always been respectful toward me, but lately he’d been on my case over my failure with the Spiral Project and my conduct as a professor up for tenure.

  “How is your tenure review package coming along?” Stan asked me.

  Irritation pricked my spine. He knew I was behind schedule in compiling a binder of my academic distinctions to present to the university board. And now I had to admit to the board that SciTech had pulled my Spiral Project funding.

  I pushed past Stan and walked out of the lab, not wanting to have this conversation in front of a graduate student. Stan fell into step beside me in the corridor.

  “You know, Kelsey, I’d suggest you write up a statement of commitment to present to the review board and chancellor,” he said.

  “What do you mean, statement of commitment?”

  “Commitment to teaching a full course load,” Stan said. “I was looking at your teaching schedule for the past few years, and you’ve managed to avoid teaching classes in favor of your personal research projects. That’s not a fulfillment of the workload clause in your contract.”

  “I haven’t avoided anything,” I said, trying not to sound defensive. “I’ve been working on the Spiral Project for three years. The scope of the project required a massive amount of data collection that—”

  “Look.” Stan held up his hands to stop me. “I get that the Spiral Project was your baby. But you’re up for tenure, Kelsey. If I were you, I’d consider it a blessing in disguise that SciTech killed your funding. Now you can focus on fulfilling your contractual duties and proving your commitment to this university.”

  My shoulders tensed. I didn’t like his implication that I was slacking. But he knew I couldn’t cause any waves or risk tenure. Hell, he was one of the professors who had to approve my application.

  All of my colleagues in the Meteorology department had to agree that I deserved tenure before the university board and the chancellor made the final decision. If my colleagues or the chancellor voted no, my career at King’s was over.

  “Now you suddenly think I’m not committed to King’s?” I asked. “After seven years?”

  “You haven’t even taught your intro courses for two years,” Stan pointed out. “You’ve been too busy with the Spiral Project. Now that it’s clear you haven’t been able to prove you can better predict tornados, you need to kill your project and focus on King’s agenda rather than your own.”

  “I’m not giving up on the Spiral Project, Stan.” No fucking way.

  He frowned. “Not even if it puts your tenure at risk?”

  “I wasn’t aware I had to choose between tenure and the project.”

  “You need to decide if you want to remain a strong asset to this department,” Stan said, “or if you want to run around chasing tornados.”

  Maybe I should flip a coin and let fate decide.

  Heat rose up my neck. Memories of my stranger filled me—how he’d tasted like salt, the pressure of his hand, the way his thigh pressed against mine…

  I shook off the thoughts and straightened my shoulders.

  “That sounds like a threat,” I told Stan.

  “It’s a warning. For the past six months, the university review board has approved every stage of your application for tenure. The final decision is in four weeks. If it goes your way, you’ll be guaranteed a permanent position at King’s. If it doesn’t…”

  His voice trailed off.

  You’re fired.

  And I had no hope of getting the Spiral Project off the ground again if I were fired from King’s University and lost all association to an institution.

  Shit. I had to play by the rules, much as I hated them.

  “Okay,” I finally agreed. “I’ll write a statement of commitment.”

  “Good.” Stan nodded with satisfaction. “The Spiral Project can’t be your focus, Kelsey. In fact, I’d suggest you find another project that actually has some conclusive data to support it. You don’t want to get a reputation as a fraud. No agency will want to fund your proposals then, tenure or not.”

  I forced myself to walk away before I said something that would come back to bite me on the ass.

  CHAPTER TWO

  ARCHER

  THE CLOSER I GOT TO MIRROR Lake near the Minnesota border, the worse I felt. My hands sweated inside my leather gloves. My stomach was a ball of nerves. My brain fought a constant battle with my urge to turn the Harley around and fly in the opposite direction.

  Back to a bar where I’d found a cool, blonde woman with hot blue eyes. A woman who’d made me forget the dry, empty desert, the smell of gasoline and asphalt, the sun burning a hole in the sky. A woman who had made me forget that my entire life could fit into a beat-up cardboard box.

  I clenched my hands on the grips and kept going. She’d made me forget… until this morning when it had all crashed back in. Four days ago, I’d packed my stuff and left the garage and gas station where I’d worked for the past few months. My parents, recently divorced after thirty years of marriage, had sold the California house where I grew up and moved away.

  Though my family had always been fractured, now it was broken for good. The only piece still intact was my brother Dean, his wife, and their baby Nicholas.

  I’d never met Nicholas. Hadn’t seen Dean or Liv in over a year. I didn’t think they’d even want to se
e me. And yet here I was, driving over fifteen hundred miles north to Mirror Lake.

  I didn’t really want to visit my brother. What for? To dredge up all the crap between us? To prove everything he thought of me was true? But turning tail now like a coward would be worse than enduring this sick feeling.

  At least, that was what I’d been telling myself. Time to man up, do the right thing, mend fences. Ignore the realization that I really just had nowhere else to go.

  I turned off the interstate. My brother aside, I did want to see Liv again. I’d been an ass to her once, but I’d always known she was decent. Nice. Smart. And she’d pulled herself out of what had seemed like a crappy life before she met Dean.

  Liv was the kind of woman Sarah might have been, if Sarah’s life had taken a different path. Maybe even if Sarah hadn’t met me.

  A knot pulled at my chest. I drove away from the off-ramp and went left toward the sign pointing me to downtown Mirror Lake.

  The lake itself stretched beneath a circle of mountains, the water reflecting the surrounding trees and the clouds overhead. The main street wove along the lake path and was lined with little shops, boutiques, and restaurants that looked like a movie set for a romantic comedy.

  After asking for directions at a gas station, I drove through a couple of residential neighborhoods to the hallowed halls of King’s University. I parked in a lot and walked across the quad. I stopped again to ask directions to the history department and was pointed toward an impressive, columned brick building.

  My heart pounded harder as I climbed the worn stone steps inside to the fifth floor. Too late, I thought I should’ve checked into the hostel to take a shower and change clothes. But if I left the university now, I’d never come back.

  Voices rose in the hushed air. I caught snippets of conversation about course schedules, requirements, a paper about colonization, and a discussion about a war I’d never heard of.

  I scanned the nameplates outside the office doors. Dr. Frances Hunter, Professor, American Studies. Dr. Michael London, Assistant Professor, European History. Dr. Amy Delafield, Associate Professor, Ancient Greek and Roman History.