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by Fern Michaels

  “I might.”

  “That’s good enough for me, Dolly. It’s what it is, okay?”

  “Okay. Two cups of black rum tea coming up.”

  “You look like a movie star. It’s so perfect, Ariel. It was a wise choice. The gardenia bouquet will finish it off to perfection. I can’t say I’m real crazy about your headpiece, though.”

  “Me, either. I was looking for something . . . you know, kind of special, and this is the best I could come up with. It’s too . . . too poufy. What’s that noise?”

  “What noise?” Dolly asked.

  “It sounds like someone’s crying.” Both women stopped, their eyes going to the bottom of the bed ruffle. Dolly dropped to her knees. “It’s Snookie, I think she’s ready to have her pups or something else is wrong. I don’t know much about dogs having puppies.”

  “I don’t, either,” Ariel wailed. “Quick, see if Frankie is here. What time is it?”

  “Five minutes of four,” Dolly called over her shoulder.

  “Stall. If you see Lex, send him here, please.”

  “Ariel, it’s bad luck for the groom to see the bride before the wedding. Okay, okay, I’m going.”

  “I took a shower with the groom this morning. Go! Go!”

  On her knees, Ariel tried to cradle the shepherd’s head. She crooned softly to the dog, stroking her heaving stomach. “It’s going to be okay, girl. Easy, easy. Soon you’re going to be a mother and you’ll forget the pain. That’s what they tell mothers about to give birth. I’m just repeating what I heard. I was never a mother, Snookie, so I don’t know if it’s true or not. Everything is going to be all right. I promise. Everything has to be all right. We’re getting you . . . fixed when this is over. Shhh, maybe some music. Music lulls the soul.” Ariel scrambled on her hands and knees over to the stereo unit and flicked the switch. She pushed another button and Frank Sinatra’s mellow voice filled the room. “Frank’s good,” Ariel muttered as she scrambled back to the panting dog. She watched as hundreds of little pearls scattered across the floor. She then noticed the rip in the hem of the gown where her heel caught in it. A tear down the side made her wince. She caught sight of her reflection in the floor-length mirror. Her headpiece was askew, one shoulder of the gown halfway down her arm. “So who cares?” she muttered.

  Frankie burst into the room, her medical bag in hand. She was dressed in an electric blue, ankle-length dress. Lex, directly behind her in a dove gray tuxedo, rushed to Ariel. “What happened?”

  “I don’t know. Things always happen in threes, you know that. First Dolly came back, that was good, then Pete showed up and we think they like each other. That’s good, too. And now Snookie, just as we’re about to get married. Is she okay, Frankie? Is something wrong? Her nose is warm and she’s breathing so hard. Why’s her nose warm?”

  “Your nose would be warm, too, if you were getting ready to give birth. Get me some clean towels. And some warm water.”

  “I’ll get it,” Ariel said as she got to her feet. A loud, wrenching tear sounded in the room. “Oh, shit!” She yanked at the headpiece and threw it on the bed. “There’s nothing in the bathroom to hold water. Lex, will you go downstairs and get a bowl?”

  “Ariel, take it easy. Frankie’s here. Listen, I hate to mention this, but the padre has three more weddings today. He’s got ten minutes and then he has to leave. What do you want me to do?”

  “Tell him to come up here and marry us. I’m not leaving Snookie.”

  “A girl after my own heart. I’ll be right back.”

  “What’s the hot water for?”

  “Nothing. I just wanted you out of the way. Okay, here comes the first one. We had a little trouble with this guy, he wanted to come paws first. We got that all straightened out. Here comes number two.”

  “Oh, my God, they’re so little, so beautiful, so gorgeous. I feel like a mother.”

  “You ready, Ariel? The padre is here.”

  Ariel looked up from her position on the floor. She motioned for Lex to stoop down. “Go ahead, Father,” she said.

  Puppy number seven made his entrance when the padre said, “I now pronounce you man and wife.” Lex whistled, Ariel and Dolly clapped their hands.

  Puppy number eight arrived as the groom kissed the bride.

  Snookie barked ten minutes later when number nine made his entrance.

  “She’s telling us that’s it. Mother of nine!” Frankie grinned. “Now, we need a bed for mother and children. Something warm and, Ariel, turn down the air conditioning. It’s too cold in here for the pups.”

  “Oh, Lex, look how she’s cleaning them. She loves them. Isn’t it wonderful?”

  Thirty minutes later, Snookie was settled with her offspring. When Ariel was satisfied that the shepherd was indeed asleep, she turned to Lex. “I’m sorry. I wanted today to be so special.”

  “You don’t think this was special? Hell, this is something we’ll never forget. Hey, I brought you something.” Shuffling his feet, his hands shaking, he handed over a circlet of flowers. “They were for your head, but when the pups started to come, I forgot. You got married without it. It’s like the one I made for you a long time ago.”

  She was crying openly as she hugged this wonderful man she’d had the good sense to marry a second time.

  “Okay, everybody out!” Frankie ordered. “I’m in the mood for some dancing.”

  Her gown tattered and torn, the wreath of flowers on her head, Ariel took her husband’s arm and descended the stairs, every inch a woman in love.

  “Ooohh, look at Dolly. She looks great and I think Pete thinks she looks great, too. I showed her the house, Lex. Don’t be mad.”

  “I know you showed her, and no, I’m not mad. It’s going to work out for all of us. I love you, Mrs. Sanders.”

  “And I love you, Mr. Sanders.”

  “When do I get to take off your garter?”

  “Anytime you’re ready, Mr. Sanders.”

  “I’m ready, Mrs. Sanders.”

  DON’T MISS FERN MICHAELS’S NEW PAPERBACK!

  For generations, the Windsors have lived on the family’s

  estate in Crestwood, South Carolina, as intertwined with

  local life as sweet tea and pecan pie. Now, on the anniver-

  sary of her daughterEmily’s death, Sarabess Windsor be-

  lieves she may be the last one to carry the family

  name—unless she can find her second daughter, Trinity,

  who disappeared fifteen years ago.

  Trinity grew up as Trinity Henderson, adopted by the

  Windsor foreman and his wife. She ran away at fifteen

  and hasn’t been seen in Crestwood since. But the town has

  never forgotten her . . . especially not handsome lawyer

  Jake Forrest.

  Trinity swore never to return to Crestwood. But some ties—

  to a place, to a past, to the people we once were and dreams

  we once had—can never be fully broken. And as family

  secrets are revealed, and desires old and new come to light,

  Trinity may discover the one thing she never expected to

  find in Crestwood: a place to call home at last.

  Turn the page for a special preview of

  UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL by Fern Michaels,

  a Zebra paperback on sale

  in April 2009!

  Prologue

  The hour was late, the middle of the night to be precise, and the silence was so total it was ominous. The woman standing at the window stared out at the dark night. Here and there she could see tiny pinpricks of light, but she had no idea what they were. She could also see her reflection in the dark window as well as the entire room behind her.

  The woman closed her eyes and wondered if she would ever sleep again. How long could a person go without sleeping? She should know the answer. Why didn’t she know? When she opened her eyes she could see the reflection of a woman standing in the middle of the open doorway.
She was still as a statue.

  The woman knew that the figure in the open doorway wasn’t going to speak until she was spoken to. Strange how she knew that and yet didn’t know how long a person could go without sleep. “Did you do as I asked?”

  The woman waited for a response. None came. “Grace, I’m speaking to you. Did you do what I asked you to do?”

  Five seconds passed, then five more seconds before Grace said, “Yes.”

  The woman at the window turned. She peered at Grace, and said, “You sound unsure. You can’t lie to me, Grace. I gave you enough money to put your four boys through Ivy League colleges. When you told me your husband had medical problems I gave you enough money to buy a small lake house so you could both retire. With the additional money you demanded, you can both live quite comfortably for the rest of your lives. Now, I am going to ask you again. Did you do what I asked you to do?”

  The woman turned back to the window. She stiffened when she heard the single word, “Yes.”

  “Thank you, Grace. I’ll be leaving in a few hours. Thanks to you, I’ll be able to leave with a lighter heart. I don’t ever want to see you again. I don’t want our paths to cross again. It will be best if you never return to this state again. When you leave you will follow all my instructions to the letter. Do we understand each other, Grace?”

  “Yes, ma’am, we understand each other.”

  The woman watched Grace Finnegan’s reflection in the window as she left the room, closing the door behind her. Long ago she had committed Grace’s face to memory; not that she had any intention of remembering her in the days to come. There was no need to say good-bye. After all, they weren’t friends. Business associates, if you will. She banished the picture of Grace Finnegan from her mind as she continued to stare out at the tiny dots of light. Soon the sun would rise, and she’d walk away from this place and never look back.

  One

  It was a beautiful summer day, but the agitated woman pacing and kneading her hands barely noticed. Warm, golden sunshine flooded the sunroom where she was pacing, doing its best to warm the trembling woman. As hard as she tried, she couldn’t avoid the gallery of pictures that lined one wall. She knew she shouldn’t have come here this morning, of all days. Yet she’d carried her coffee cup in with the intention of sitting on one of the rattan chairs. Not to think. Never to think. She knew it was impossible, but she’d come anyway. The sunroom had been Emily’s favorite room in the whole house.

  Once this room had held a life-size giraffe, easels, paints, brushes, a blackboard and pastel chalks, a television, a pink polka-dotted sleeping bag with the name EMILY embroidered across the front in huge, white silky letters. An oversize toy box, also with the name EMILY stenciled on it, was stuffed with animals and assorted toys. Deep, comfortable furniture suitable for a sickly little girl had been covered in all the colors of the rainbow, just waiting for her to sit or lie down with her storybooks.

  Once, a long time ago, a hundred years ago, a lifetime ago, this had been Emily’s favorite room. Before she had become bedridden.

  Tears puddled up in Sarabess Windsor’s eyes. Why had she come in here? She looked around for her coffee cup. She reached for it and sipped the cold brew. Okay, she’d had some coffee. Now it was time to leave. But could she walk out of this room today? Of course she could. She had to.

  Sarabess looked at herself in the mirror that hung on the back of the door leading into a small lavatory. She’d taken exceptional pains with her dress. She was wearing her grandmother’s pearls, her mother’s pearl earrings, and a mint-green linen dress that so far was unwrinkled. If she sat down, it would wrinkle. She wanted to look put together when Rifkin Forrest arrived, and part of that put-together look did not include tears. Every silky gray hair was in place. Her makeup was flawless; her unshed tears hadn’t destroyed her mascara. Just because she was sixty didn’t mean she had to look sixty. The last time he’d been to the house, Rif had told her she didn’t look a day over fifty. Rif always said kind things. Rif said kind things because he’d loved her forever.

  Sarabess turned around at the door, seeing the sunroom as it was. Other than the gallery of pictures, all traces of Emily were gone. Now the room held rattan furniture covered with a bright-colored fabric. Dozens of green plants and young trees could be seen through the wall-to-wall windows. Overhead, two paddle fans whirred softly. A wet bar sat in one corner. She was the only one who ever came into this room. Once a year on this date she unlocked the door, walked into the room, and allowed herself ten minutes to grieve. Most times she cried for the rest of the day. For weeks afterward she wasn’t herself. Still, she put herself through it because she didn’t want to forget. As if a mother could ever forget the death of her child.

  Sarabess closed and locked the door. Maybe she would never go into the room again. Maybe she should think about moving away. But she did not see how she could. Emily was buried here in the family mausoleum. She could never leave her firstborn. Why did she even think it was a possibility? Then there was Mitzi Granger lurking on the fringe of her life. Even Rif couldn’t do anything about squirrelly Mitzi. Something had to be done about Mitzi.

  The Windsors had lived on Windsor Hill in Crest-wood, South Carolina, for hundreds of years. She was the last of the Windsors, though only by marriage. Then again, maybe she wasn’t the last of the Windsors. She would have to wait for time to give her an answer.

  As the mistress of Windsor Hill walked down the hallway toward the heavy beveled-glass front door, she realized she’d left her coffee cup in the sunroom. Well, it would have to stay there for another year. Or, until she felt brave enough to unlock the door and enter the room that was simply too full of memories. At the end of the hallway, she opened the door and walked out onto the verandah. She looked around as though seeing it for the very first time. She was surprised to see that the gardener had hung the giant ferns, cleaned the wicker furniture, laid down new fiber rugs, and arranged the clay pots of colorful petunias and geraniums. Even the six paddle fans had been cleaned and waxed.

  How was it possible she hadn’t noticed? Because she was so wrapped up in herself, that was why. She tried to remember the last time she’d sat out here with a glass of lemonade. When she couldn’t come up with any answer, she started to pace the long verandah, which wrapped around the entire house. Where was Rifkin? She looked down at her diamond-studded watch. He was ten minutes late. Rif was never late. Never. She wondered if his lateness was an omen of things to come.

  For the first time since getting up, she was aware of the golden June day as she stared out at the Windsor grounds. Once the endless fields had produced cotton and tobacco. Now, they produced watermelons, pumpkins, and tomatoes that were shipped coast to coast. The acres of pecan trees went on as far as the eye could see. The pecans, too, were shipped all over the country. On the lowest plateau of the hill, cows grazed, hence the Windsor Dairy. Horses trotted in their paddock. There was a time when she’d been an accomplished horsewoman. Once there had been a pony named Beauty and a little red cart that carried Emily around the yard. Just like Emily, they were gone, too.

  Sarabess heard the powerful engine then. She looked down at her watch once more. Twenty-three minutes late. What would be Rif’s excuse this fine Monday morning? Did it even matter? He was here now.

  When the Mercedes stopped in front of the steps leading to the verandah, Sarabess waved a greeting before she rang the little bell on one of the tables next to a wicker chair—Martha’s signal that she should serve coffee on the verandah. Sarabess walked back to the top of the steps to wait for Rif’s light kiss on her cheek. She smiled when she realized there was to be no explanation as to why he was late. Rif hated to make explanations. It was the lawyer in him. She motioned to one of the chairs and sat down across from the attorney.

  He was tall and tanned from the golf course. His hair was gun-metal gray. His eyes were sharp and summer blue and crinkled at the corners when he smiled. She loved it when he smiled at her. An intimate smi
le, she thought. Because he was semiretired, Rif felt no need for a three-piece suit on his days off. He was dressed in creased khakis and a bright yellow T-shirt. His only concession to his profession was the briefcase he was never without. He dropped it next to his chair before sitting down. His voice was deep and pleasant when he said, “You’re looking particularly fine this morning, Sarabess.”

  “Why thank you, counselor. You look rather fit yourself this fine morning. Are you playing golf today?”

  “Unless you have something important you need taken care of. You sounded . . . urgent when you called.”

  “It’s time, Rif.”

  The attorney didn’t bother to pretend he didn’t know what she was talking about. He knew his old friend was waiting for him to say something, but he opted for silence. Sarabess raised an eyebrow in question. Instead, he reached for the cup of coffee the old housekeeper poured for him. He sipped appreciatively.

  Sarabess set her own cup on the table. “I want you to hire someone to find her. It’s time. And it’s also time to do something about Mitzi. I . . . I want her taken care of once and for all. Do we understand each other, Rifkin?”

  Rifkin. Using his full name meant Sarabess was serious.

  Rifkin watched as a tiny brown bird flew into one of the ferns. He knew the little bird was preparing her nest. “Let it be, Sarabess. You need to stop obsessing about . . . about Mitzi. There’s nothing I can do legally, and we both know it.”

  Sarabess leaned forward. “How can you say that to me?”

  “I can say it because I’m your friend. Mitzi aside, you should have called me fifteen years ago to ask me to find her. I warned you this would happen. Now, it’s too late.”

  Sarabess stood up. “It’s never too late. You hounded me daily for years to do what I’m asking you to do now, and suddenly you’re telling me it’s too late! I don’t believe that. If you won’t do it, I’ll find someone who will. Mitzi may have me on a short leash financially, but I am not without influence in this town. As you well know, Rifkin.”