Alphas for the Holidays

by Mandy M. Roth

  He raised his head, his jaw clenched as he slammed into me again, letting out a low groan.

  Gods... he groaned. This is making me fucking crazy...

  Images flickered behind his eyes. Some of them were intense enough to make me flinch. On my knees in front of him, his fingers clenched in my hair, my body... gods. He had things in me, my wrists cuffed behind my back... then the image broke, shifting... and I was tied to his bed, his hands holding me down, his mind and his tongue, his cock and fingers learning things about me that made my skin blush where he held me. He started off coaxing me, seducing me... then he started making demands, forcing me with his body and hands. He pushed on me harder, looking for limits. Looking for where I would say no.

  Right then, he didn’t hit very many, and I felt that pain on him worsen.

  I remembered that he was built different.

  He was built like a seer, not a human.

  Seers had an extra part. He called it a hirik, which meant “thorn” in the language where he was from. It looked like a thorn too, a hard, curved thorn out of the soft end of his cock, that was supposed to fit like a puzzle piece in an equal but opposite part of me.

  He wanted to use that on me. He wanted to use it so fucking badly.

  Just thinking about it made him have to fight not to come.

  That pain in me worsened, grew unbearable...

  I’m a virgin, he blurted.

  I looked up at him, stared at him, at his body and face silhouetted by stars.

  He must have felt my disbelief.

  He’d just been showing me images of him tying me to his bed, blindfolded, my legs locked apart. Fucking me from behind while he––

  I don’t mean that, he sent, clenching his jaw. He was still breathing harder, exuding frustration so intensely I was gripping his arms in both of my hands, unable to loosen my hold. Embarrassment swam over him, even as his fingers tightened on me more. I mean I’ve never been with another seer. I’ve never had sex with a seer, Miri... a female seer. Only humans.

  I blinked up at him, lost somehow in the conflicted emotions I felt coming off him.

  I was practically a kid when I came here, Miri... to this dimension. You’re the first female seer I’ve met here...

  He seemed at a loss, not sure what else to say.

  Miri? He prodded me lightly with his mind, even as he remained inside me, pulling on me. You asked why. You asked why I didn’t sleep with you before I left...

  I closed my eyes, pulling him against me as much as I could in that space.

  For a long moment, I could only lay there, turning over what he’d said.

  I massaged the back of his neck, curling my fingers into his black hair.

  Everything I’d been feeling over those days... all of it, the assumptions I’d made. The stories I’d spun in my mind about where he was. Why he’d left. What he’d been doing.

  Why he didn’t want me anymore.

  Miri? Black sent. He caressed my face, still lying on me, still exuding heat although I felt him trying to control it again. Miri, he murmured. ... I should have told you. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you before I left. I didn’t want to lay that on you, I guess... not after everything you’d been through. I didn’t know how you’d...

  He hesitated, embarrassment pluming off him again.

  ... I didn’t know how you’d feel about it, Miri.

  That harder feeling in my chest began to lift, cracking like a fissure in clay.

  Curling my fingers tighter into his hair, I pulled him down to me.

  We could try it here, I sent softly. Do you want to try it here, Black?

  I pulled on him as I said it, tugging on him gently, teasingly, like he had me.

  Pain coiled out of him, hitting me hard in the abdomen, right before his eyes closed. Here, in this other place, his eyes were an even lighter gold, pale stars that seemed to reach through me as he studied my face. When he opened them again I found myself kissing him, caressing his light skin with my fingers, even as I wished it was his real body under my hands.

  Yes, he said, answering me finally, his voice gruff as his fingers wrapped around my hip. Yes, Miri... so badly I’m ready to beg you for it...

  That time, it was me who closed my eyes.

  “JEEZ, SOMEONE DIDN’T sleep much.” Nick smiled at me, shaking his head as he handed me what had to be a Bloody Mary from the thick tomato juice and the sprigs of celery sticking out of the tall glass. “A little hair of the dog, doc?” he teased.

  Two of his nieces ran by, screeching, as two of his nephews ran after them, wielding toy guns with foam darts that they pelted at their retreating backs. The Christmas tree was in shambles in the living room to my right, colored paper ripped to pieces by the kids and then by the dog and two cats, toys pretty much everywhere underfoot.

  I’d kept my promise though. I’d dragged myself out of bed at six a.m. and got here right before the kids came tumbling down the stairs at six-thirty.

  I smiled back at Nick and saw him double-take me.

  I saw a question in his eyes, but before he could voice it, Angel walked up, slinging her arm around Nick’s shoulder and grinning at me openly. Her eyes took me in with a puzzled once-over, then she broke out in an open laugh.

  “Jeez, Miri,” she said, grinning wider when I flinched. “You don’t have much of a poker face. You look positively post-coital. Does that mean you finally made up with Black? Or is there some other reason?”

  I felt my face flush hot.

  Taking a sip of the Bloody Mary, I rolled my eyes, shrugging.

  Miri laughed louder. “What did he do? Call you last night? Grovel for a few hours then talk you into a little phone sex to seal the deal?’

  I bit my lip, a little unnerved by her accuracy.

  Fingering the pendant I wore around my neck, I shrugged. “Maybe.”

  “So he is your boyfriend, isn’t he, doc?” she said.

  I looked up, tensing a little.

  “Come on,” she urged. “Say it. ‘He’s my boyfriend. I’m actually the girlfriend of that crazy fucker, Quentin Black’...”

  “Angel!” Nick’s mom said, giving us a disapproving look as she walked by, herding kids.

  But Angel only grinned at me.

  “Well?” she said. “Are you going to ‘fess up, doc? Or not?”

  Her tone, while still teasing on the surface, sounded different that time. Rather that just giving me a hard time, or trying to embarrass me like before, she wanted a real answer. The slight edge to her words was subtle, but I heard it.

  Glancing at Nick, I saw the scowl on his face, the anger flashing in his dark eyes right before he turned that scowl on Angel, telling her with his eyes to shut up.

  Angel looked only at me though.

  Her expression, while a lot more sympathetic than Nick’s, held a lot more knowing, too.

  For a few seconds... a bare few seconds... it struck me to be annoyed that she brought this up in front of Nick, versus dragging me to one side like she normally would have done. Then it occurred to me, as those seconds passed, that Angel had done that very deliberately too. Not just for me. She’d done it for Nick. She wanted Nick to hear this, probably as much as she wanted me to admit it aloud.

  “Yes,” I said, sighing in defeat. My fingers still clutched the blackfish pendant. “Yes, the crazy bastard is my boyfriend.” I gave Angel a harder stare, but quirked my lips in a smile. “And thanks for that. Especially since I know I’ll never hear the end of it now...”

  When I glanced at Nick, I saw zero amusement.

  Truthfully, the look in his eyes bordered on murderous.

  Angel pretended not to notice. Grinning wider, she swiped my Bloody Mary out of my hand, downing a long swig before she handed the glass back to me with a wink. Slinging her arm back around Nick’s neck and shoulder, she shook him a little, maybe to snap him out of the full-on glare he still aimed in my general direction.

  “Aww,” she said, smiling between the two of us. �
��Look, Nicky... here it is, all Christmas and everything, and doc here finally admitted she’s in love.”

  Feeling my fingers clench tighter on the pendant around my neck, I frowned, not answering.

  When I glanced at Nick that time, he’d noticeably paled.

  I wondered if that more horrified look on his face came from Nick, my friend with the slight crush on me... or just Nick my friend, the one who’d liked Black for murder not that long ago, and who’d been convinced Black was a cold-blooded psychopath. Whatever Nick’s deal might be with me, I knew he didn’t trust Black.

  I also knew he was wrong about Black. In the important respects at least.

  Looking down at the pendant around my neck, it hit me that it didn’t matter, in any case.

  Well, it didn’t matter to me.

  I already knew the answer.

  To Angel’s question, at least.

  The End

  About Black Supper

  Quentin Black and Miri Fox finally get a chance to consummate their relationship after being separated for months while Black was held captive in Paris. Little does Miri know, being new to the whole “seer” thing, this means a few weeks of being lost in a sex-induced haze, barely able to function like a normal person, or really relate to anyone apart from Black himself.

  NOTE: Takes place right after BLACK ON BLACK (Quentin Black Mystery #3)

  ‘Black Supper’

  Bonus Story!

  HE’D ONLY BEEN back a week.

  Well, we’d only been back a week technically, since we’d flown back together, but it still felt more like Nick and Angel and I brought him back, not that we traveled back as a unit.

  So much had changed in just that short week.

  I’d more or less lost track of time since those first few minutes when we’d finally been alone, starting with the hallway of his penthouse apartment on California Street. We hadn’t even made it to the shower, much less the bed.

  I’m honestly not sure how long it took us to get to either.

  The seer thing with sex––whatever the hell was happening between us right now––it pretty much wiped everything else out. It erased inhibitions. It erased time. Boundaries. Relevant details outside the two of us. Awareness of appropriate behavior in front of other people.

  Black said this wasn’t normal for seers, either.

  He hadn’t really explained what he meant by that yet, not in a way that made sense to me. I definitely got the sense he was implying more than simply saying he had intense feelings for me. There was a personal element to this too, of course.

  But there was something else there, as well.

  Something that really did feel borderline physiological.

  Well, maybe physiological wasn’t the right word, but it definitely felt organic.

  Or maybe organic wasn’t the right word either––the more scientific areas of my mind weren’t functioning well enough to be sure about anything.

  After seven days of more or less zero interaction with the outside world, or with anyone but Black himself, I wasn’t ready to classify this thing. I wasn’t ready to even pretend it mattered to me that much truthfully. I was aware enough to know it probably should matter to me, but at that point in time, I didn’t really care. The how of it all struck me as irrelevant.

  Especially since I was pretty sure there was nothing I could do to change it, even if I wanted to. And I didn’t want to. Not at all.

  All I know is, we definitely weren’t fit for public consumption that night he decided he wanted to go out to dinner.

  He got a craving for pasta.

  He wanted us to go to this particular place in North Beach, the Italian part of San Francisco, where they made a seafood pasta thing he really wanted. He wanted to show me the restaurant, too... introduce me to the chef, who was one of his old military buddies. I’d noticed as we talked over those seven days that he wanted me to meet just about every friend of his he’d ever had. He mentioned a P.I. buddy of his who lived in New York. An oceanographer friend on the big island of Hawaii. Another friend, he’d met doing government work in Iraq. Yet another did some kind of archeological work and lived in New Mexico.

  We were naked when he brought up the pasta thing. His stomach had just growled.

  It seemed like a good idea.

  Hell, it seemed like a brilliant idea... but looking back on it, it was probably brilliant in that way that people high on psilocybin mushrooms think it would be brilliant to go to the circus or drive to Las Vegas at two in the morning.

  We were cold sober, so we couldn’t blame drugs, or even alcohol.

  We’d barely remembered to eat for those past seven days, much less drink anything besides water. We only thought of food when one of us got hungry enough to complain about it, and then Black called someone to bring food to his door.

  But he really wanted to go out this time.

  Getting dressed to leave his penthouse apartment was humorous enough. We each asked the other to check our appearance a dozen times at least, even though we stood right next to one another in the bathroom while he shaved and washed his face and I made a somewhat ridiculous attempt to put on make-up and brush my hair.

  Clothes were challenging. We hadn’t been wearing those much either.

  Black answered the door stark naked at least once.

  Not for shock effect or even to yank my chain but because it didn’t occur to him he was naked until he’d already opened the door. His poor administrative assistant, a fifties-ish woman named Lizbeth who’d worked for him for years, shrieked as he opened the door. Then she turned her face away, her free hand clamped over her eyes while she handed a bag of food to him as it if were a dirty diaper.

  I thought it was funny as hell.

  He was concerned at first, mostly that she’d seen him naked and might have noticed something strange about him there... then he seemed to blow it off.

  I suspected he let it go because he trusted Lizbeth.

  The car came for us promptly at seven o’clock.

  We were more or less ready an hour before that, even though we took over an hour to pull ourselves together. Of course, we didn’t hear the phone when the driver called up. By then we were lying on the couch half-naked again and kissing. Also, I don’t think either of us had our phones. I had no idea where our phones were, to be honest. They’d probably run out of charge days earlier, in either case.

  Eventually the driver came upstairs and knocked on his door.

  By then, Black was hungry again. So was I.

  After another five or ten minutes of us double- and triple-checking one another’s appearance all over again, we eventually made it downstairs, the driver shooting us wary looks pretty much the entire time we descended in the elevator. I knew we were acting pretty weird, but I honestly couldn’t tell if we should be concerned about that fact or not.

  When we finally reached the curb in front of Black’s building, I found myself scanning the street, suddenly conscious of us being outdoors and visible. I saw a dark-windowed van parked across from Black’s building. I barely paused to stare at it before Black ushered me towards the limousine at the curb and through the open door the driver held for us... but I knew the van was probably the police, keeping an eye on Black’s building.

  Truthfully, it was probably Nick.

  Nick might even be in that van. He might be watching us right now.

  Frowning a bit, I shoved the thought from my mind before Black felt it. Black already hit Nick once, primarily for that drunken kiss between me and Nick while Black had been out of town. Black had been more or less coherent when he did that, too.

  I was afraid to know what he’d do now, given the state both of us were in.

  A repeat of their testosterone-on-overdrive thing definitely wasn’t advisable. The last thing either of us needed was Black getting arrested for assaulting a homicide detective, whether that homicide detective was conducting quasi-illegal surveillance on us or not.

  I knew Nick wa
s worried about me.

  But I couldn’t think about that right then either.

  Once I was curled up on the leather seat in the back of the limousine, I forgot about Nick.

  Black had his hand up my dress before I’d managed to rearrange it from sitting down, and then we were kissing again. In seconds I was lost in that pulling, heated space we fell into pretty much anytime we were touching one another for more than a few minutes.

  When I came out of it next, the car had already pulled up to a curb.

  Before I could really focus my eyes, I saw Black lunge for the handle of the door even as it started to open right by my head, which now rested on the flat part of the seat. He barked out a command, not in English, and I burst out in an involuntary laugh, right before I looked back and saw the driver’s eyes widen through the crack of the partly open door.

  I was still laughing when Black realized his mistake and switched to English.

  “Give us a minute. A minute. We’ll let ourselves out...” His voice sounded pained.

  Before the driver could answer, Black had already slammed the door closed.

  He looked down at me, his gold irises looking unreal and flame-like again.

  “You ready for this, doc?” he said.

  I laughed, tugging his black hair. “You’re asking me?”

  He smiled, even as another jolt of that heat and pain went through me, that time definitely coming from him. “Yes.” His eyes flickered between mine. “I should warn you, Miri. I’ll probably try to fuck you in there. Unless they serve us really quickly...”

  I laughed again. “Do you want to spend the night in jail?”

  “Not particularly.”

  I thought about that for a minute too. “We could get the food to go?” I said.

  I admit, it was a strangely disappointing thought. Maybe just from all the build-up about going out, leaving our cave, if only for a short time.