Holt, Her Ruthless Billionaire

by Theodora Taylor

  We came together that night. This was the part I usually liked best, but there was something different this time. And I found out what it was as soon as he rolled away, leaving something wet and sticky between my thighs.

  “Holt, you forgot to put on a condom,” I whispered, horrified.

  There was no response. He’d passed out, on his back this time. As if the smelling salts of sex lost their effect the moment he came.

  Oh, mercy, what am I doing?

  It was my voice that asked the question in my head now. Not my mother’s, who had blared the first three weeks I was with Holt but eventually quieted as the summer wore on.

  I missed my mother’s nagging voice.

  Missed both my parents even more.

  But I must have matured in those last few months, because I didn’t dwell on my parents much. Just hugged myself when I fell asleep. Beside Holt, but still lonely in his bed. And as sleep overtook me, a line from that old Mamas and Papas song floated through my mind. The darkest hour is just before dawn…

  Except in that case, it wasn’t.

  That night, I fell asleep in darkness but woke to something far worse—the sound of a gurgling cough…

  And when I rolled over, I found Holt jerking like he was being electrocuted. His skin had taken on a blue cast, and though his eyes were wide open, he wasn’t saying a word.

  “Holt? Holt!?” I called, pulling and pushing with all my might on his shoulders until I turned him over.

  That should have done it because in those days, these situations were all too common for Holt. He was choking on his vomit and he needed me to turn him on his side or belly. But even after some watery vomit spewed from his mouth and his shuddering stopped, he still wasn’t responding to my voice. Even more frightening, Holt’s body had gone limp, and his skin stayed an unnatural blue.

  Though I had never before seen such a thing in real life, my heart stopped in instant recognition. Holt was overdosing. The love of my life was at death’s door…

  “Sylvie?”

  Holt’s voice yanks me out of the past, and I whip around to see him walking toward me on the bridge.

  He strides with such purpose that I’m immediately reminded of all the reasons why he should not be judged by the same standards as the boy who showed up white-knuckling a bottle of Grey Goose one week after his overdose, reeking of alcohol and insisting we had to be together.

  “Holt, I’m sorry…” I say. “I know you want to rush forward now that you know some of the truth, but—”

  He cuts me off. “When is Barron’s birthday?”

  I blink. I have never heard anyone other than my Jamaican relatives call Barron by his given name. Then the implications of what Holt is asking me start to surface…

  “When is his birthday?” he demands again.

  I stop, thinking hard about what to say next. But in the end, I am tired of running, tired of lying, and I let the truth drop from my mouth like I am finally dropping a heavy bag to the ground after a long, long journey. “May 17,” I answer quietly. “Barron’s birthday is on May 17.”

  Holt shouldn’t be surprised. Someone must have told him something or he would not have asked me this in the first place. But he jerks back as if I have punched him in the face.

  “What do you mean?” he demands, his voice cracking like a whip across the otherwise quiet evening. “What are you trying to say, Sylvie?”

  “Holt, I never wanted to hurt you,” I reply. Then I take a deep breath, prepared to finally admit the truth. “I—”

  He interrupts me. “You thought you could keep this from me?” His expression is a mixture of rage and deep hurt. “How long, Sylvie? How long did you plan to hide him?”

  My answer sticks in my throat. Because the truth is too terrible to say aloud.

  If not for his unexpected marriage proposal. Never. I would never have told him. Because of what is happening right now. Because of how he would respond. Not just respond, but retaliate.

  I had lived with that fear ever since Holt unexpectedly walked into my life back in August. I’d had nightmares, so many nightmares…and now they were all coming true on this beautiful moonlit Japanese bridge.

  I say nothing. I cannot bring myself to speak. But Holt seems to get all the answers he needs from the look on my face.

  “I will destroy you for this,” he informs me, his voice low and menacing.

  “Holt! Please, please try to understand—” I begin.

  “Don’t you dare tell me to understand!” he roars. “There is no understanding what you have done!”

  Oh, mercy…

  Holt is less than interested in hearing my explanations of why I kept Barron from him for ten years, but I keep trying. I must keep trying to make him understand. “Holt, calm down. Please listen to me…listen! I need you to—”

  “Do you really think I give a good goddamn what you need from me?” he asks on a coarse snarl. He eyes me up and down, and the blue gaze that had been so tender the night before is now filled with hot disgust. “After what you have done? Save it! Anything else you have to say can go through my lawyers.”

  And with that he turns and walks away.

  “Holt, please!” I call after him, desperate to explain myself, to make him see. “Holt!” I yell again.

  But the only answer I get is the sound of his heavy footsteps fading as he disappears around the first bend of the path.

  I watch him go. Nearly hyperventilating with the implications of everything he said. He’s going to hit me with a battery of fancy lawyers and take away my son...

  I haven’t cried since Lydia’s funeral when I held my sobbing mother under one arm while throwing white petals onto my sister’s casket with my free hand. All of that only a few weeks after losing Daddy. That was the last time I saw my mother cry. The fierceness drained out of her by the time the dirt was shoveled on top of my sister and unborn niece’s grave. A few days later, when I finally told Mommy I was pregnant by the boy I’d turned to when she kicked me out—her response was…less than expected.

  “Okay, daughter. Okay…I will return to Connecticut. Get on with my life. You…you stay here with your aunties and other family. They will be better for you than I can be.”

  In a way, she was right. Two funerals in less than two months—something died inside her. I understood. I know why she left me with the others. It was a way to distance herself from my possible death and protect me and my unborn child from her heartache. It wasn’t as if she knew what I had done to get that “charity check” for Daddy’s bills. And I would never tell her. But still…

  I was there for her, but she was unable to be there for me. In some ways, being left behind by my mother felt worse than my fear of getting pregnant and being put on that plane back to Jamaica by my parents like Lydia had. I had failed to be the perfect daughter, so in the end, my mother decided not to be anything at all to me.

  This baby is all I have left—that is what I remember thinking after my mother left me. I could not handle the idea of my child being claimed by that entitled boy who had run up on my house stupid drunk only one week after his overdose. Or worse, taken away by that boy’s horrible father…

  No, I didn’t tell Holt. And I might never have told him if not for this weekend.

  But now he knows. And like my mother, he reacted exactly as I thought he would. For a moment, I am overcome by all the emotions I’ve been trying to hold back since being all but physically forced onto that plane to Connecticut.

  I cover my face with both hands, shoulders hunched, and for many, many minutes all I can do is weep. For myself. For Barron. And for all I would lose because Holt Calson responded exactly as I thought he would when he discovered I’d been hiding his first-born son from him.

  I weep and weep and weep some more…until I hear voices in the distance, coming toward the bridge.

  Without thought, I run again. Back toward the main entrance, in the opposite direction of Holt.

  This is a nightmare. />
  This was standing in a bathroom after you just sent away the love of your life, and staring hard at the plus sign on a pregnancy test, knowing what his father would do if he ever found out.

  This was trying to look the boy up six months after the birth of your son, and finding his New York Herald wedding announcement at the top of the search page.

  This was getting on with your life only to have it completely disrupted because, as it turns out, the only child your son has ever befriended turns out to be his half-brother.

  So yes, I ran. I had to get Barron. I had to empty my account and get us a flight back to Jamaica. I had to…

  “Don’t you ever get tired of running, little rabbit? You’ve been running from the start of our relationship. It is as if running is your answer to everything. Is there a problem? Time to scurry!”

  Holt’s cold words slice through my fear and panic, all but grinding me to a halt…and shoving me back into my right mind.

  I can’t run, I realize. Barron is Holt’s son, the one I kept from him for ten years. And Holt is one of the richest people on Earth.

  I cannot run.

  In fact... I take a deep shuddering breath. Now is the time for me to finally do what I had never dared do to Holt before. Fight.

  Fight back. Because the thing is, Holt may have changed a lot over the years, but so have I.

  I haven’t been a nothing girl for a long time. And I will never again let another person put me on a plane I don’t want to get on.

  With shaking hands, I drag out my phone and call the one person who knows everything—including the identity of Barron’s father.

  Proving how much she has changed over the years, Prin picks up immediately. “Sylvie? Sylvie, what’s wrong?” she asks worriedly.

  Her response makes me want to break down crying all over again. But I don’t. I have to be strong. For Barron, I have to be strong. So instead of crying, I answer her in a voice that is no longer soft and tentative.

  “Prin, listen…I need your help.”

  Stamford

  Chapter Forty-One

  HOLT

  When I return to the house in Greenwich just a few hours after my confrontation with Sylvie, Ender is gone along with any sign he and his duplicitous mother ever lived there.

  Mika, who has no idea I am Ender’s biological father, figured I wouldn’t care that she let Ender’s “Aunt Prin” onto the estate, or allowed Ender to leave the premises with her. After all, Ender’s mom texted Mika to explain that she’d forgotten her best friend would be swinging by later that night to pick him up, for a promised trip to Six Flags Hurricane Harbor. And she’d told Mika to allow Prin to bring her car around to the guest house—ostensibly to help Ender pack his overnight bag.

  I am not surprised by this move at all. Sylvie has always excelled at running. But if she thinks I will let her get away this time, she has another thing coming.

  Within an hour of my arrival, Allie and I have an elite team of former hackers who now make a living as “security consultants” assigned to Sylvie’s case. And just a few hours after that, I am told they’re in. Bank accounts, credit cards, email—even Sylvie’s Waze app. She won’t be able to so much as withdraw money for coffee without me knowing about it, much less buy a plane ticket out of the country. This time there will be no place on Earth the little rabbit can run.

  Less than a week later, I arrive at the New York offices of Meier, Swath, & Crane, the law firm our family has used for personal matters since my first-born aunt married a Cal-Mart executive who was handpicked by my grandfather.

  “You have a strong case,” Gil Meier III, the son of the man who originally signed the Calson’s account, tells me when we meet privately in his office. “But are you sure you want to sue for full custody?”

  This is third time he’s asked me some variation of this question during the course of our initial meeting. I get the feeling he is used to most fathers trying to figure out how to pay the mothers of their illegitimate children to go away without a fuss.

  But in my case, I want to destroy Sylvie. Take everything from her, like she took everything from me.

  “Yes, I’m sure,” I answer. “I won’t settle for anything less than full custody.”

  Gil’s shoulders slump as if he hoped I would give him a different answer. “In that case, perhaps we should consider the proposal Ms. Pinnock’s lawyer sent over…”

  My head jerks back. “She’s already lawyered up?” I ask.

  Gil replies with a somewhat consternated nod. “Not only that, but a rather…sassy legal intern hand delivered a proposal for arbitration to my assistant this morning. If it had not been for one of the security guards recognizing her as the daughter of some rapper from a reality show he used to watch and assuming she was one of my clients, she would never have made it to this floor. But turns out she’s an intern for the lawyer who is representing the mother of your…ah…child. The lawyer is licensed in New York, with special privileges to work in Connecticut. But I have never heard of her, and according to my initial research, she doesn’t have much custody experience or experience with sighted clients for that matter. You see…”

  “Her name is Amber something or other, and she’s blind,” I finish, scrubbing a hand over my face.

  “Yes, Amber Reynolds,” Gil confirms with a surprised nod. “Do you know her?”

  “Technically, yes,” I answer, cursing inwardly. I had been betting Sylvie would not be able to find a lawyer she could afford as fast as I could push a custody hearing through. But it hadn’t even crossed my mind that Sylvie would connect with Luca’s ex-wife. I imagine Amber jumped at the chance to represent Sylvie. How does the old saying go? The enemy of my enemy is my friend. I’m sure it also applies to the enemy of an enemy’s best friend.

  “What does she want?” I ask.

  “Well, nothing yet. The document I received is a simple offer to present each of the proposed custody agreements to a neutral arbitrator, rather than taking it through the public courts. Ms. Reynold’s choice of delivery person aside, it is a very reasonable suggestion. Ms. Pinnock agrees to sign an NDA so this matter doesn’t make it into the press. And in exchange, you agree to private arbitration. The arbitrator’s decision will still be binding, but the case and any subsequent settlements will remain private. Which might be the best strategy of all since your board vote is still coming up in three more weeks…”

  Gil goes on to list several additional reasons for why I should accept Sylvie’s proposal, but Sylvie has surprised me by going on the offensive, and I do not like to be surprised. In the end, I tell him I need a day to think about it.

  However, there is another surprise waiting for me when I get home from work to find Lucynka fretting with a letter in her hands.

  “This has come for you, and I know I am supposed to open and vet your mail, but…Wes has been so upset about his friend’s sudden going and I am thinking maybe this letter be related to personal matter best left between you and Sylvie.”

  I raise an eyebrow as I take the letter from her, and not just because Lucynka seems to have guessed more about the nature of my relationship with Sylvie than she previously let on. The envelope is slightly heavier than I was expecting, and though I can see no imprint, there seems to be something other than paper inside of it. The front is addressed to me in Sylvie’s straight up and down handwriting, while what must be her new apartment address in Stamford is written in much smaller print in the top left corner.

  Lucynka lets out a relieved hum as if she is glad to have the letter out of her hands. “Mr. Wes is asking to take dinner in his room again tonight. Would you like eat here or have dinner in your office?”

  “My office,” I answer as I walk away. I guess my son and I are coping with Sylvie and Ender’s departures in different ways. Me by throwing myself into more work, and Wes by staying in his room and playing videogames until Mika tells him it’s time to go to bed.

  But it’s been a week of just Mika, the psychol
ogy grad student Sylvie chose as her replacement, and there haven’t been any Wes incidents in my daily briefings. So I guess he’s dealing.

  Sylvie was right about him needing a nanny with a psychology background, a small voice says inside my head.

  A voice I ignore as I use Grandpa Hank’s gold-plated letter opener to split the top of the hand-addressed envelope. Inside, I find a handwritten letter, and as I suspected, there is something nestled inside the letter. A cerulean blue device. One I barely recognize at first…until I do.

  It’s my iPod shuffle from ten years ago. Now ancient by technology standards, with some cosmetic damage around the edges, but it’s the same one I used to pass back and forth with Sylvie.

  Confused, I read the note she folded around it.

  Holt—

  I wish things could have been different. This belongs to you now.

  Love,

  Sylvie

  I re-read the letter several times, frowning at it like it is written in code. Her wish throws me off. As does her “love” sign-off. But there are none of Sylvie’s usual markers in it. No sorrowful-but-vague apology for what she’s done. Just the return of an item I didn’t even remember was in her possession.

  It pisses me off. And for a dark moment, I think about pulling a Wes. Throwing the little blue rectangle to the ground and stomping it with my foot.

  But instead, I start searching my drawers for something I haven’t owned in a while. However, as it turns out, I’m a little too ruthless when it comes to discarding old tech, especially because I always tend to have the very latest devices.

  “Do you own a set of non-Bluetooth or firewire headphones?” I have to ask Lucynka when she arrives with my meal.

  Less than fifteen minutes later, instead of eating the prosciutto-wrapped chicken, I plug my housekeeper’s freshly cleaned earbuds into the blue iPod Shuffle and push play. Even though I am pretty certain what I will find. One of my old playlists. Probably one I won’t even remember making—