“I have never needed either.” He indicated the pulsing blade of the sword with his chin. “We use lightning. It is much more lethal to reshape it.”
“I didn’t have that advantage.” She stared hard at the sword and it wavered, but didn’t disappear. “Bloody thing annoys me when it doesn’t mind.”
He shook his head, laughter warming his eyes. “You are trying too hard. Picture it gone. It is not quite the same thing as using a spell. You always think first of spells.”
It was true, Natalya knew, but it was still aggravating. Vikirnoff had awakened her with kisses, made love to her several times and even provided blood for her. She found it amusing that he had gone hunting without her, not wanting her to feed from another man. Perhaps she felt the same way about his taking blood from a woman, but she wasn’t going to admit that to herself—or him.
She concentrated on the sword and thankfully it disappeared. She had a tendency to get violent with weapons if she happened to have a bad practice session. “You know, Mr. Smug, it might be good for you to practice a bit every now and then. I thought your skills with a sword were a little rusty. You rely too much on other things and when the melting vamp, which was disgusting by the way, took your toys away, all of you bad boys had a bit of difficult time. It was a good thing I was there to save you.”
“Yes, it was.”
Vikirnoff was standing just below the fallen tree trunk she was balancing on. Natalya leapt off and he caught her, just as she’d known he would. Happiness burst through her. Of course he would catch her, he was always there in her mind, loving her, wanting her, feeling it was such a miracle to have her. She wrapped her arms around his neck and her legs around his waist. “Yes, it was, and you remember that next time you get all He-Man on me.”
Natalya bent her head to his, her hair falling like silky rain on his skin. It was the most sensual thing in the world and she’d barely touched him. He felt a series of small butterfly licks over his pulse and immediately his blood began to pound in response.
“You always smell so good. Even in the heat of battle, you smell good,” she murmured, her body rubbing much like a cat’s along his. Her tongue did another flickering dance over his pulse and down his throat. Once her teeth scraped, featherlight, but her touch seemed to burn right through his shirt to brand his skin.
“Sometimes, Natalya, I do not think I can survive without touching you.” His hands cupped her rounded bottom, giving her support. At the same time he applied enough pressure to press the heat of her core tightly against his suddenly hard erection.
“I never imagined being this happy,” she confided, resting her head on his shoulder, her teeth tugging at his ear. “Even when I thought we might not make it through that battle, I looked at you fighting and you were breathtaking. I was proud that you were mine.”
Her tongue did a little foray over his pulse again and his erection thickened, jumped in response, his blood catching fire. “I do love you for yourself, Natalya, never doubt that. I may have a difficult time accepting you in a dangerous situation, but who you are is exactly what I want.”
Her soft laughter teased his senses, gave him another heady rush. A strange roaring started in his ears. Vikirnoff sank down onto the fallen log urging her to straddle him. She cuddled close, fitting snugly in his lap, just the way he loved. “I’m what you need. If it wasn’t for me, Vik, you’d be a bossy, snarling grump.” Her teeth tugged at his bottom lip. “Don’t get me wrong, it’s a little thrilling to have you get all masterful and try to be the dictator.” Her tongue fluttered along the seam of his lips, sent a flame burning through his body.
Her touch was so light, barely felt, yet it shook him, tightening every muscle until the blood rushed to his groin to center there, but more than that, he felt the shift in his heart that left his eyes burning with unshed tears. She tasted his skin, her tongue a delicate velvet rasp traversing along his collarbone. He had never thought that might be an erotic spot, but his entire body was strung as tight as bow.
“You have too many clothes on, Natalya.” His husky declaration was somewhere between a plea and a command. He discarded his own clothes when the material of his trousers became too painful to bear over his bulging erection. If he got any larger he was afraid he might split his skin open.
“Do I?” She nibbled her way down his chest, sounding slightly distracted. “If I take off my clothes, I won’t get to play anymore. You’ll get all serious on me.”
His fingers bit into her waist. “I am getting very serious here. Feel how serious I am.” He grounded his body against hers, feeling the answering heat of her right through her clothes. The friction made him groan with need.
“I love it when you’re wild and crazy and can’t take me fast enough,” Natalya admitted, her fingernails scraping along his chest with a small bite. “But this is so perfect. Lazy and slow. Eating you up. I love this muscle right here.” Her tongue teased and flicked as she kissed her way over his chest.
“I would not mind eating you up,” he said. The sight of her, eyes going dark with hunger, the sensual look on her face, the slow torture of her hands and mouth were all going to kill him. He’d just had her two hours earlier and yet he was burning from the inside out, so hot, he feared he might go up in flames. She was so soft, so delicate, yet steel ran through her and that excited him nearly as much as her wandering mouth.
“The idea has possibilities.” She sat up, deliberately moved her hips restlessly, her mound in direct contact with his groin. Her fingers slipped the first button free and his breath caught in his throat.
Her blouse gaped open slowly, the unwrapping of a present. He moistened his lips with his tongue. She was driving him out of his skull. His body was pulsing, throbbing, his heart pounding blood through his body, gathering every sensation into one point in his body.
The blouse fell away to reveal her breasts rising and falling with each breath she drew into her lungs. “I ache for you.” She tunneled her fingers through his hair and drew his head to her breast, arching back when he latched on with a growl of pleasure, suckling strongly, his tongue and teeth tormenting her.
He opened his eyes to look into hers. The dark hunger in his gaze robbed her of breath and spread heat through her body. “Get rid of the pants the Carpathian way,” he commanded.
There was such a husky need in his voice everything feminine rose up to respond. She closed her eyes and wished herself out of the confines of her jeans. She wanted nothing but bare skin between them. His mouth was so hot she thought she might not survive the pleasure. “I’m not very good at this,” she said with a sigh when nothing happened. “How long did it take the others to get this?”
“You are great at this. Perfect. I distracted you.” He sounded unreasonably pleased.
“That must be it. I’m usually a very fast learner.”
Vikirnoff threw his head back and laughed. She sounded so peeved right in the middle of their lovemaking that he couldn’t help it. “You are so competitive.”
“I am not. I just ought to be able to do this, that’s all.” Her eyes glittered green-blue, at him. “It can’t be that hard. I picture it, right? That’s all I need to do.”
“Visualizing is not the same as thinking it. If you are thinking, ‘Make it go away’ it will not happen. You have to visualize the pants gone.” He massaged her bottom. “I can remove them for you.”
Her gaze narrowed and temper flitted across her face. “Don’t you dare. I’ll do it. I just gained a little weight and the stupid things are extra tight.”
His eyebrow shot up. “That’s the problem? Weight gain?” His hand shaped the soft curves. “Could be. Maybe a few pounds.”
She shoved at his chest. “You’re really asking for trouble now.”
His palm slid around to her belly. “I love this little hoop, but when you have our child growing in you, and you really gain weight, are you going to leave this in for me to play with?”
Natalya sobered completely at the th
ought of children. She swallowed hard, her gaze suddenly avoiding his. “You know that Xavier is always going to be a shadow in our lives. As long as he is alive, he will always be a threat to us and to any children we have.”
“I have no doubt that is true.” His hand slid a caress through her hair, more comfort than sexual.
“You don’t seem very disturbed by it.”
“Xavier is his own worst enemy. He has been trying to stamp out our species for centuries, yet he lives in isolation, in fear. I do not see the point of living such a life. We are free to live out lives the way we are intended. We have the ability to be happy and he does not. I do not fear Xavier. He fears us.”
Her teeth bit at her lower lip. Vikirnoff frowned. “What is it, ainaak sívamet jutta? Tell me. I will not take it from your mind if you do not wish to share it with me.”
The tenderness in his voice was nearly her undoing. She swallowed the lump threatening to choke her and rubbed at her burning eyes. “Razvan. Do you think he’s really dead? I’ve always been so accurate, and I thought I’d killed him, but when I replay the battle over in my head, I’m not so certain. You saw Maxim, and even Gregori regenerated his hand, or Mikhail did it for him, but the point is, there were so many unbelievable things. What if I didn’t kill Razvan? What if he’s still alive? The threat to us would be so much more. He’ll never forgive what I did.”
Vikirnoff drew her closer to him, stroking caresses down her hair, his heart beating in time with hers. “If Razvan is dead, Natalya, he will not only forgive you, but he will thank you. If he still lives, it is not really Razvan. His soul is long gone and only the shell of his body remains.”
“I’ve gone over it a million times in my mind.” Anxiety mixed with sorrow filled her eyes. “I swear my every intention was to kill him. I knew what he was doing the moment I looked at your face and I wasn’t going to allow him to hurt you.”
“I am sorry you had to be the one.”
“No, it had to be me. I wouldn’t have wanted anyone else to take his life. I love him. I’ll always love him and I’ll mourn the brother I lost forever. It was my job. Had I been the one to turn on the people I love, to become that evil a creature, I would hope my brother would love me enough to destroy me.”
Vikirnoff framed her face between his hands and kissed her gently, tenderly. “That is the way a true Dragonseeker would think. Rhiannon would be so proud of you. I know Dominic must be.”
“Have you heard how Dominic and Manolito are?”
“Both are in the ground healing. It will take some time for Dominic. Manolito’s wounds were very serious, but Dominic remained on the barrier burning while he aided you in unraveling the safeguards. The burns were very severe. Gregori feared there would be scars and Carpathians rarely scar.”
“How awful. I could feel his pain occasionally, but he shielded me for the most part. I couldn’t help him at all, even though I knew he was suffering.”
“Carpathian males protect our women, Natalya. It is who we are.”
She rubbed his arm lightly, back and forth. “I know I’m difficult.”
“We will work out the kinks. All relationships have them.”
She pulled back enough to look into his eyes. “We won’t be working anything out if you mean I’ll be tucked away in a corner when trouble comes.”
“I can only wish.” He kissed her nose. “I was proud of you during Gabrielle’s conversion. You really helped her get through it. Hopefully, when her sister arrives and she awakens, she will be happy.”
“I think she will. Her main concern seemed to be for Gary and what the Carpathian males will expect of her now. If she loves Gary, I can’t imagine anyone objecting to her being with him.”
Vikirnoff remained silent, his hands sliding up and down her bare skin just to feel how soft she was.
Natalya shivered under his touch, leaning closer so that the tips of her breasts pushed against his chest. “I don’t suppose your Mikhail can find a way to destroy the book?”
“Even if he cannot, it will be safe in his care. He has no wish to open it, let alone use it, so I believe, until he figures out a way to get rid of it, we will not have to worry.”
“I’m glad I don’t have the responsibility of it. He was amazing. Have you ever seen that before?”
Vikirnoff shook his head. “There were rumors, legends of the Dubrinsky and Daratrazanoff alliance, that there was some weapon that could be unleashed, but I am uncertain just what happened. I am just grateful that it did happen.”
“Me, too. And did I say thank you for getting rid of that knife? I couldn’t stand to know it was still in the world and might find its way back to Xavier.”
He caught her hips and lifted her off of him, setting her to one side. Natalya gave a small cry of joy. “Hey! I’m getting the jeans off.”
“Yes, you are.” He flicked his hand toward her and the offending material vanished. “We will practice removing your clothes hour after hour, but for now, I cannot wait any longer.” He moved up behind her, bending her forward, bracing her palms on the log. His hand slid between her legs, stroking and caressing, fingers dipping deep.
Her entire body shuddered and she pushed back against him. “So impatient,” she teased. “But then, so am I.”
He thrust into her, a long deep stroke, welding them together, hearing her soft cry of pleasure and feeling fire streak through his body. It would take several lifetimes to ever sate him. It would take even more before he could fully believe the miracle he had been given. “You are ainaak sívamet jutta. Forever to my heart connected.”
“As you are to mine.”
Appendix 1
Carpathian Healing Chants
To rightly understand Carpathian healing chants, background is required in several areas:
The Carpathian view on healing
The “Lesser Healing Chant” of the Carpathians
The “Great Healing Chant” of the Carpathians
Carpathian chanting technique
1. The Carpathian view on healing
The Carpathians are a nomadic people whose geographical origins can be traced back to at least as far as the Southern Ural Mountains (near the steppes of modern day Kazakhstan), on the border between Europe and Asia. (For this reason, modern-day linguists call their language, “proto-Uralic,” without knowing that this is the language of the Carpathians.) Unlike most nomadic peoples, the wandering of the Carpathians was not due to the need to find new grazing lands as the seasons and climate shifted, or the search for better trade. Instead, the Carpathians’ movements were driven by a great purpose: to find a land that would have the right earth, a soil with the kind of richness that would greatly enhance their rejuvenative powers.
Over the centuries, they migrated westward (some six thousand years ago), until they at last found their perfect homeland—their “susu”—in the Carpathian Mountains, whose long arc cradled the lush plains of the kingdom of Hungary. (The kingdom of Hungary flourished for over a millennium—making Hungarian the dominant language of the Carpathian Basin—until the kingdom’s lands were split among several countries after World War I: Austria, Czechoslovakia, Romania, Yugoslavia, Austria, and modern Hungary.)
Other peoples from the Southern Urals (who shared the Carpathian language, but were not Carpathians) migrated in different directions. Some ended up in Finland, which accounts for why the modern Hungarian and Finnish languages are among the contemporary descendents of the ancient Carpathian language. Even though they are tied forever to their chosen Carpathian homeland, the wandering of the Carpathians continues, as they search the world for the answers that will enable them to bear and raise their offspring without difficulty.
Because of their geographical origins, the Carpathian views on healing share much with the larger Eurasian shamanistic tradition. Probably the closest modern representative of that tradition is based in Tuva (and is referred to as “Tuvinian Shamanism”)—see the map above.
The Eurasian shamanistic
tradition—from the Carpathians to the Siberian shamans—held that illness originated in the human soul, and only later manifested as various physical conditions. Therefore, shamanistic healing, while not neglecting the body, focused on the soul and its healing. The most profound illnesses were understood to be caused by “soul departure,” where all or some part of the sick person’s soul has wandered away from the body (into the nether realms), or has been captured or possessed by an evil spirit, or both.
The Carpathians belong to this greater Eurasian shamanistic tradition and shared its viewpoints. While the Carpathians themselves did not succumb to illness, Carpathian healers understood that the most profound wounds were also accompanied by a similar “soul departure.”
Upon reaching the diagnosis of “soul departure,” the healer-shaman is then be required to make a spiritual journey into the nether worlds, to recover the soul. The shaman may have to overcome tremendous challenges along the way, particularly: fighting the demon or vampire who has possessed his friend’s soul.
“Soul departure” doesn’t require a person to be unconscious (although that certainly can be the case as well). It was understood that a person could still appear to be conscious, even talk and interact with others, and yet be missing a part of their soul. The experienced healer or shaman would instantly see the problem nonetheless, in subtle signs that others might miss: the person’s attention wandering every now and then, a lessening in their enthusiasm about life, chronic depression, a diminishment in the brightness of their “aura,” and the like.
2. The Lesser Healing Chant of the Carpathians
Kepä Sarna Pus (The “Lesser Healing Chant”) is used for wounds that are merely physical in nature. The Carpathian healer leaves his body and enters the wounded Carpathian’s body to heal great mortal wounds from the inside out using pure energy. He proclaims, “I offer freely, my life for your life,” as he gives his blood to the injured Carpathian. Because the Carpathians are of the earth and bound to the soil, they are healed by the soil of their homeland. Their saliva is also often used for its rejuvenative powers.
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