The Spy Game

by Georgina Harding

  THE SPY GAME

  GEORGINA HARDING is the author of the novel The Solitude of Thomas Cave and two works of non-fiction: Tranquebar: A Season in South India and In Another Europe. She lives in London and the Stour Valley.

  BY THE SAME AUTHOR

  Tranquebar: A Season in South India

  In Another Europe

  The Solitude of Thomas Cave

  THE SPY GAME

  GEORGINA HARDING

  First published in Great Britain 2009

  Copyright © Georgina Harding

  This electronic edition published 2009 by Bloomsbury Publishing Plc

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  For Nellie,

  and for Kay

  Contents

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  A NOTE ON THE TYPE

  1

  Fog that morning, a freezing fog; the flagstones dark and slippery outside the door. I shall always associate my mother with fog. Once she went up to London in one of the last peasoupers, I cannot have been more than six then, and came back on the train late. She drove home and came in beneath the bright overhead light in the hall and talked about it, and when she took off her silk headscarf I thought that I saw a remnant of the fog shaken off it, a dull spray that fell away off the gleam of the silk. I saw it like a horror.

  It was there, I told her. The smog. She had brought it home.

  My mother looked in the hall mirror as if to check, smiled a dazzling smile into the glass and shaped up her hair where it had been flattened by the scarf.

  'All gone now.'

  The smog in London had a greenish-yellowish colour because of the poison it contained, that made you cough if you did not wear a mask and made fragile people die. The smog was famous so you remembered when people talked about it.

  The fog at home was plain grey country fog, dead leaves and cow smell in it and the hollow sound of milking in the farm across the road. No poison there but numbness, a numbness that you knew from other, forgotten days, that seeped into grass and wood and stone and skin, and made them all the same, until feeling was gone along with the sight of the village and the valley and the hills, as if these no longer existed and there was only this one numb place and no other to be known.

  And yet the hills were there, even if I could not see them. I knew that they were there; and close, not remote at all. The road rose steeply out where the houses ended, up round bends and through close woods to the ridge and the high open land beyond it. Up there on the fog-covered hills there would be ice, on the surfaces of the roads that had been wet yesterday with all the week's rain, hidden ribbons of ice on the slopes, on the bends where water had run down in black streams on the asphalt. There was a skin of ice on the dips in the stone path. Later I would go out in my boots and smash it like glass but now I stood huddled on the step still warm from bed and felt the cold on my bare face and through the soles of my slippers, penetrating and pushing away the sleep.

  'Don't stand out there, Anna, you will catch your death.' The ineradicable pattern of German in my mother's voice. 'Run on in and get dressed.'

  Cold, waking me up. A Monday in January during the Cold War. A sting in the air that touched closer than the kiss she gave me, which was no more than a brush of breath and powdered cheek, and a pursing of new red lips just so far from the skin as to leave no mark, and I stood in my slippers on the doorstep and had already as a memory or a dream the waxy scented smell of her as she started up the car and ran it awhile with the exhaust puffing while she scraped windscreen and windows, and then got in and closed the door and seemed to wave, though the scraped patch was small and it was hard to see, and drove away. Her lights were gone, into the cold.

  What I did next was done with the deliberateness of a child suddenly responsible for herself. I went back in as I had been told, pushing the big bolt across the bottom of the front door that I must not open to strangers. I finished a bowl of Rice Krispies that had grown soggy and then went upstairs and again I did as I had been told. I put on a warm vest and long socks and jeans. There was a green mohair jumper that I kept after that for years, until it was too small and worn through in places and dangled broken threads that caught in things, but I would not let it go. I put it on that morning because of the cold. Later I would wear it in almost any weather. I folded my pyjamas and put them under the pillow, tidied the bed and pulled up the bed-spread, arranged my animals upon it. From downstairs came the clumsy sound of Margaret doing the cleaning, moving things round as she dusted the sitting room. (Useless girl, my mother would say, stroking the top of some table and inspecting the dust that collected on her fingertips. Has she no eyes with which to see?)I slipped by, slipped down past the open door to the room, where Margaret had her back turned and was unwinding the cord of the Hoover. I found my satchel in the kitchen, took my coat from its hook in the hall and let myself out at the back, pulling out the mittens and hat that were stuffed in the pockets and shoving them on soon as the cold hit. I walked to Susan's, walked fast in spite of the fog, head down, scarcely needing to see the way as I walked it so often, around the side of the house, down the stone path and along the road, and then through the gate into her front garden, and the fog was thick and the ice was thin, scrunching into mud underfoot, and Mrs Lacey let me in as she always did and a little later we drove to school. Mrs Lacey drove slowly, rubbing the windscreen and leaning forward over the steering wheel as if those few inches made all the difference to what she could see. And all day the fog held. It was there like a milky breath beyond the classroom windows, at break, at lunch, when Mrs Lacey took us back at the end of the day, the headlamps lighting it before the car. Even when it got dark and the fire was lit and the curtains were drawn, I knew that the fog was there.

  The Times, Monday 9 Januay 1961. Price sixpence. (Going back now, going over these things, I read the newspapers for that day.) The front page is given over to the Classifieds. How faceless it was then, the front page of The Times, a full broadsheet page of solid type, small-type lists cramped across seven tight columns: Births, Marriages, Deaths, Personal (and yet how impersonal), Motor Cars Etc., Shipping, Agriculture.

  PALMER on 7 Januay 1961, peacefully, after an accident, HILDA BEATRICE, widow of Lieut. Col. C. H. PALMER . . .

  Notice of a ship of the Blue Star Line disembarking London via Lisbon for Brazil, Uruguay and Argentina, exclusively first-class.

  The news does not begin to appear until page six. Two Climbers Found Dead. Union Plan for Car Industry. Child Drowns in Roadwork Trench. The Portland story is slipped in amongst the rest. Victoy Assured for President de Gaulle. Five People on Semets A
ct Charge. General McKeown in Leopoldville. It runs to a few standard phrases, no more. The reporting is quaintly dated: the plain headlines, the conventional formulations, the formality with which people are named, the images which are pinched and small, head-and-shoulders photographs mainly of the Prime Minister and dignitaries and people with titles. All of it is respectful, restrained, clipped like the BBC voices of the time, drilled in objectivity. Suspects charged under the Official Secrets Act, held at Bow Street Police Station . . .

  The same news must have been on the radio that morning. It is possible that my mother heard it in the kitchen before she left, but she was early and in a rush, so it is more likely that she would have heard it in the car as she drove. There is nowhere lonelier than a car in a thick fog. She would have had the radio on for company, driving so slowly that every turn in the known road seemed alien to her, delayed, out of place, the lights of oncoming cars looming weirdly towards her, the road surface revealing itself too late, having of necessity to be trusted. She would have heard the voices in the background as she concentrated on where she was going, looking for some movement in the air, hoping that the fog would lift on the hilltops or across the next valley or when the hills were passed.

  The Times' forecast has the fog in the west of England dense but clearing slowly; the roads icy at first; the wind light, variable. I remember no wind, and the fog did not clear. In Gloucestershire where I spent that day the air remained entirely still, as if it was a day that didn't happen.

  If someone had told me that it was a day that I must remember always, I would of course have made it different. I was old enough to know the conventions of these things. If for example my mother had been a soldier and there had been a proper war, then I would have stood at the door and marked it all. (And if she had not been who she was, and if she was on the right side.) I would have marked the shine in her eyes, the braveness of her smile, the set of her shoulders in the big tweed coat. I would have stood that extra moment gazing into the fog after the car's red lights had melted into it; made a picture for my memory of a tall pale girl in a dressing gown, pink slippers and a warm bed behind her but no one else in the house.

  And after, I would have not have gone to school but stayed at home. Just myself, alone. No Margaret there to flatten the atmosphere. There was something so mundane about Margaret - mundane was a new word, one that I had heard Mrs Lacey say in her high, ringing voice, and I had held it though I was not quite sure of its meaning and applied it to Margaret, Margaret with her heaviness and her thick legs and her acne. To be eight years old, just a few days over eight and alone in the house would have been much finer.

  I would have done something solitary. I would have taken out some cards and sat down on the carpet in the sitting room and played patience. Mrs Lacey had taught us to play a game of patience that she called Chinaman. She said that in Singapore there was a Chinaman who sat on the street and invited you to play the game, and you paid him money and he gave you the pack of cards, and if you got more than thirteen cards out he gave you the money back and you kept the cards as well, and you had won. That didn't sound so many, thirteen, but it was hard to get. Mrs Lacey said that it was to do with odds. The Chinaman was good at sums and could work out the odds. He wouldn't sit out on the street and play the game if he did not know that he would mostly win. And yet every now and then the odds fell in the player's favour, and that made you feel good. So I would lay out the cards, seven along with the first upturned, six the next line, and so on, and play the game through, and when I had worked down the pack once - just once, the Chinaman was strict about that and to go on would be cheating - I would gather the cards up and shuffle and deal once more.

  Again and again, until the game came out, I would lay the lines of cards against the pattern of the Persian rug before the fire, and the fire would be burning (some invisible hand must have been there to light it for me) and there would be the glow of the fire and the circle of light from the lamp, or perhaps, as the day passed, clearing slowly, a low beam of winter sun breaking through the grey beyond the window.

  I'd deal the cards and they'd go down crisp. I'd gather them up and deal again. All the time I would have known that at any moment the policeman might come, or the postman, some man in uniform with the news in him, holding the words back like he held his bicycle, like you'd hold back a young dog from a stranger; and the fair-haired girl who stood at the door (a heroine to myself, having a quality of calm and self-possession beyond given age) would have known at once what words they were by the look in his face.

  If she had been a soldier, it would have been black-and-white; black-and-white like the postman's telegram, be-cause this after all was 1961, because I was eight, because war was the confrontation of good and evil and the soldiers on our side were heroes, because I watched television, because we did not have colour then. Clear-cut, not the muddle it became: the hanging around at the Laceys' house long after school, the staying for tea - though that in itself was nothing strange, I was often there for tea - the being there even after Mr Lacey came home and poured his gin and tonic and turned on the News while the phone rang, then having a bed made up in Susan's room and staying the night. Your parents won't be back till late, they want you to stay here with us. And all that evening beneath the surface, the knowledge of something big unspoken, of the falseness of smiles and the coding of words.

  Two days earlier, the previous Saturday, 7 January 1961, twenty minutes past three in the afternoon. T Two people come through a ticket barrier at Waterloo Station. The man who is watching notes them soon as they get out of the train, though there is nothing particular about this pair to set them apart from other men and women on platform fourteen. Perhaps he, like the eight others on the train itself and in the street who have been set to watch them on this and past days, recognises them from photographs. Perhaps he has observed the same couple before. Of course he has been trained how to look: to identify what distinguishes an individual's appearance, to register hair colour, eyes, build, pattern of movement, to estimate height and weight and put together a precise and communicable description. To anyone else what is most apparent about this couple is their ordinariness, the ordinariness of so many of the passengers beneath the platform lamps and the late daylight that seeps through the dirty glass roof of the station, drab men and women with winter overcoats and brown hats and tired London faces.

  There are other papers besides The Times. I have ordered the Guardian, the Telegraph and the Daily Mail for the same dates. The Times is available digitally; the others only on microfiche. The film comes on old-fashioned spools, a bore to load and to crank through, and then to position and focus. Here and there one of the papers has a picture, small by today's standards, poorly rendered on paper and worse on the screen: a man or woman, just a face, the subjects grouped in some old snapshot, an item of evidence, the scene of the arrest. Enlarge the image and it disintegrates into no more than a series of formations, concentrations, of grey dots. The library where I work is stuffy, windowless. A dozen strangers breathe the same air in dim booths, yawn above the soporific tap of keyboards.

  The watchers, the watched, the passers-by.

  One form merging into the next, heads passing, shoulder brushing against shoulder, gloved hands holding bags, hands in pockets, dark shoes treading an intricate and abstract intersecting pattern across the station floor. Nothing to indicate who is who; no sign of the veiled concentration in the eyes of MI5 agents, the alertness that must surely run like an adrenaline current behind the bland faces of the spies, the anxieties, hopes, intentions of any of the travellers around.

  Where the crowd funnels at the exit on to the Waterloo Road, the watchers hasten suddenly, looking about them, keeping track in the confusion, to relax only as the couple separate from the rest and become a distinct pair walking south. And the watchers slow again, hands back in pockets, sauntering now some way behind, unseen by their subjects, never seen but only watching as the police cars swerve in.


  'The hunt is over. Scotland Yard for you!' says Superintendent 'Moonraker' Smith, spycatcher extraordinay .

  Did a policeman ever really speak like that?

  The newspapers bring back that time not only by their meaning but by their style: the clichds of the popular press, the restraint of the broadsheets. In this I hear the talk of my father and those around him, the generation who grew up in the war and composed themselves so carefully after-wards and put it behind them; who established about them what they saw as the civilised rhythm of post-war life, which was perhaps a shadow of life before: a drink at six, dressing for dinner (being who they were, being the class that they were, reassuring themselves of its changelessness even then on the cusp of change), the Nine O'clock News, Sunday lunch. The newspaper advertisements represent the time as effectively as the stories. There are advertisements for Manikin Cigars, Mappin & Webb, Land Rover, 'Good old Johnnie Walker', illustrated with line drawings and photographs that appear now to have a parochial naivety; advertisements for British things conjuring a peculiarly British reality: familiar, named, secure, where everything and everyone, child and adult, had their place, and what did not fit was not acknowledged to exist.

  The booth next to mine was empty when I came. I chose this position because of that, and because it was at the end of the line. It has been so long since I have done research like this, not since I was a student. Easier not to be observed fumbling with the spools; nice anyway to have space about me. Now a young Indian woman in jeans and a turquoise tunic has taken the spot, placed file and notebook on the desk and is taking out the first of a small stack of films. She looks as awkward at it as I was earlier, reading the instructions taped to the side of the booth, threading, unthreading, setting the whole clanking thing into motion and winding the first film back so far that it winds right off the spool.