At the door to our room, Mike slips his arm round me as he turns???? key in the lock. Then he cups my head in his hands and kisses me. Before I can engage my brain and decide what to do, he maneuvers me onto the bed and gets on top of me, tugging at my skirt and sticking his tongue down my throat. Theres just no way I can do this. I pull away and roll over onto my front.
Playing coy with me, are you, Georgie Porgie? grins Mike, undoing the zip of my skirt. Come on, you little tease, get your kit off.
So this isnt exactly an ideal situation. Im in a foreign city, sharing a room with someone who has just spent huge amounts of money on champagne for me. I am half undressed, and I dont want to sleep with him. Oh, and theres only one bed. I manage a little smile, and then with a flash of inspiration, I put my hand to my mouth.
Im sorry, I think I drank a bit too much champagne, I smile apologetically.
Mike moves back in alarm. Youre not going to puke are you?
Once, when we were going out, I got horrendously drunk (we were at a party where Mike was flirting with pretty much everyone except me, and drinking wine straight from the bottle seemed to be a pretty good idea), and on the way back I was sick on Mikes shoulder. He was absolutely furious and wouldnt talk to me for weeks.
I shrug. I dont know. Ill probably be okay . . . I say, getting up quickly and walking toward the bathroom. It does the trick. Mikes squeamishness is stronger than his sexual appetite, and he grabs a blanket and a pillow. Look, Im going to sleep here, just in case, he says quickly, pulling a camp bed out of the wardrobe.
You, um, get some sleep, okay?
Id be offended if I wasnt so relieved.
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I wake up slowly. The sun is shining on my face and is deliciously warm. As soon as I open my eyes I feel a tremor of excitement pass through me. Im in Rome! Im really here, and its sunny, and I didnt sleep with Mike, and Im going to have a lovely day walking around the city, having coffee in little roadside cafes, and visiting the Coliseum. Maybe Brian could come, too, then it really would be likeRoman Holiday . Although actually Im a lot more clued up than Audrey Hepburn was. I would have sussed Gregory Peck right away if it had been me.
I sit up quickly and discover two things. First, moving quickly is not a great idea when youve been drinking champagne all night. Second, Mikes camp bed is empty.
To be honest, Im actually a bit relieved that Mike isnt there. It means I can get up slowly and enjoy the morning. Hes probably out getting us some breakfast or something. I notice that theres a television opposite me on the desk and the remote control is on the bedside table. Within moments the comforting sounds of BBC Worldwide news are filling the room.
I lie back down, propping my throbbing head up with pillows. Its the business news, which is a shame, but still, at least its television and I can understand it. Theres another corporate scandal in the States, and theres someone talking about the investment community being betrayed, how its another Enron. I yawn, and a little box appears saying that Top Gear is going to be on in five minutes.
I get up slowly and wander into the bathroom. To my amazement, the television is as loud in the bathroom as in the bedroom. I look around, and sure enough, there are speakers in all four corners of the room. How cool is that? I turn on the shower and wash my hair as the newsreader drones on about the AMT Group propping up its revenues through multiple acquisitions and the disgraced board of directors being investigated. One of them has been arrested, and theres another one who they cant pin any blame on.
Taylor has been exonerated in this episode, but the SEC is still questioning the auditors . . . the newsreader says as I rinse out my hair. Honestly, I dont know how people like David manage to listen to this stuff and make sense of it. As soon as I hear the words and now its time for our business news I start yawning. Luckily, as I get out of the shower, my head feeling almost back to normal, the familiar Top Gear music kicks in.
But before I can sit back down on the bed to watch it, the phone rings. Its Mike.
Good sleep?
Um, yeah, great. Where are you?
Theyre test-driving four-by-fours on the television. I think of my mother and poor Jamess attempts to get her out of her antiquated Mini.
Oh, I woke up early, so I thought Id get on with a few things. Fancy going to the Vatican?
The Vatican? What a surprise! Mike is so not the sort to go sightseeing. It suddenly occurs to me that he could be Catholic. To be honest, I have no idea whether Mike is even religious or not. I dont think its ever come up in conversation. Ive never really done the whole church thing except for a couple of years during the Kensington Church Street period (I divide my life up by addresses) when I went to a Catholic boarding school because my mother thought I might get into trouble in London. I hated it at first but then got totally seduced by the structure of the day and the soft-spoken teachers who were all nuns and called sister. They looked after us amazingly wellalthough the teaching was pretty appalling. In the end I left because my mother realized Id never get my O levels if I stayed, but by then I had decided that I wanted to take my vows and join a convent. I argued fiercely with my mother and she said that if I got my O levels in a more academic private school I could go to a convent if I really wanted to, and of course, by then Id forgotten all about becoming a nun and wanted to be in a band instead.
Still, Ive always wanted to go to the Vatican. Its even on my planned list of activitiesits got the Sistine Chapel and everything! More to the point, does this mean Mike really has changed and is interested in things and people other than himself?
Give me half an hour or something, I croak.
It looks lovely and sunny outside, so I put on a skirt and a T-shirt and slap on some sun cream just in case. I notice that Mikes holdall has disappeared and make a mental note to quiz him about it later.
By the time I get downstairs, I am absolutely starving. We had a few bar snacks last night, but no proper meal. Maybe this is how celebrities stay so thin; they just drink champagne all the time and dont have time to eat. Mike is on his mobile by the reception desk. He waves hello, then turns his back on me, continuing his conversation.
He looks irritated when he comes off the phone.
Shall we go? he says abruptly. Not even a how are you.
Why dont we get some breakfast first? I suggest. I havent eaten since yesterday lunchtime.
Oh, I grabbed something to eat when I got up, says Mike. Look, you can buy a croissant on the way, cant you?
I spose, I say doubtfully. I was hoping for a long leisurely breakfast with lots of coffee and orange juice. Still, I should be able to grab something near the Vatican. Its so nice to be going somewhere cultural with Mike. He used to be so scathing of my attempts to get him to go to art galleries. Hed go if it was cool and the right people were going to be therea Damien Hirst private view, or somethingbut anything else was out of the question. And even if we did go to a gallery, wed never actually look at the paintings; Mike would always head straight to the bar and end up flirting with everyone.
But now, well, we are in Rome and I am finally going to fulfill my fantasies of walking round arm in arm, looking at beautiful works of art, and eating delicious ice cream. Okay, so the ice cream bit hasnt featured in my fantasies before, but Im really starving.
Actually we dont walk; we take a cab. Its not far, but Mike doesnt do walking. He doesnt believe in it, he always says. Ive never established whether he doesnt believe that walking is actually possible, or whether its just the benefits of walking that he doesnt believe in. Not that it matters, taxis are absolutely fine by me.
As we pull up outside St. Peters Square, I come over all o
verawed and amazed. Its absolutely huge, a massive courtyard surrounded by statues and engravings and pillars. We stand outside St. Peters Basilica for about ten minutes, marveling. Then we stand outside for another ten minutes, kind of looking around.
Do we need to buy tickets? I ask.
Mike has shown no inclination to move from our current spot, next to a large fountain. Tourists are milling around everywhere. As he was in such a hurry to get here, I cant really work out why he doesnt seem too keen to go into the basilica.
He looks up absentmindedly. Tickets? What for?
To get in.
In?
Inside. The basilica. The Sistine Chapel. You know. I gesture at the buildings behind us.
You want to go in?
Of course! Dont you?
Cant, meeting someone in five. But go ahead. Ill see you back at the hotel later, okay?
I cant quite believe what Im hearing.
Meeting who?
Just business stuff, it wont take long.
Business stuff? Oh, bloody marvelous. Ill just be your personal assistant, shall I?
How could I have been so stupid? We are not actually going into the Vatican. No, were just meeting some stupid contact of Mikes. Were not spending the day together at all. I feel so stupid. And now Ive got tears in my eyes. Dammit. Why am I so upset? Its not like the pope is actually here or anything.
I turn away from Mike so he cant see how upset I am, but I neednt have bothered; hes already whipped out his mobile and is making another call.
I cant believe Ive come all the way to Rome and lied to David, and Mike just expects me to fit in with his bloody meetings. And he doesnt even care that Im hungry. If Im not careful, the prickling around my eyes is going to turn into full-fledged crying, which would be incredibly uncool, particularly since Im not wearing waterproof mascara.
I turn around and blink furiously. Mike is not worth crying over. I tell myself it doesnt matter, that I dont really care if he is meeting someone or not. But actually it does matter. Not just that were not going to go into the Vatican when were right outside, but that Im never going to have my Roman Holiday. And the worst thing is, I knew it would be like this. At least, I should have known. This was what it was like when I was Mikes girlfriend. I was always just kind of tagging along. I never felt I was the focal point for Mike; I was an appendage, and if I disappeared, well, I was never entirely sure Mike would even have noticed.
Not for the first time I begin to wish I was here with David. David would come into the basilica with me and let me read out all the information in my guidebook, even though hed have the same guide in his hand. David would take me somewhere lovely for breakfast as soon as I even hinted I was hungry, and would hold my hand when we walked down the street.
I take a deep breath and remind myself that David isnt perfect eitherI mean, he wouldnt even have made it to Rome in the first place because hed never manage to leave his beloved work behind.
No, if I want a Roman Holiday, Im better off on my own.
Mike wanders over and I feel his arms wrap round me. I stiffen slightlya hug from him is the last thing I want.
Youre not pissed off, are you, gorgeous? he says into my ear. Im sorry, I didnt know you were interested in religious stuff. But we can look round later if you want? I just have to see this guy, okay? It wont take long. You have a wander around and then we can grab some lunch. What do you say?
He turns me around and kisses me on the nose, then smiles at me hopefully. I relax slightly. I mean, Im here with Mike, so I may as well make the best of it, even if he is a selfish guy. Its only two days, after all. And if hes got a business meeting, well, thats not so bad. To be honest, itll be nice to have a bit of time on my own.
Well, I am pissed off, I say pointedly, but youve got time to make it up to me. You have your meeting. Ill see you back at the hotel, shall I?
Youre one in a million. Have fun? Mike grins and ruffles my hair.
You too.
I walk over to the entrance to St. Peters Basilica. There are hordes of people outside, shouting and screaming in every language possible. Mike turns away and makes another call. I join the queue. Already Im feeling better, and actually, looking at art and architecture and stuff is better when youre on your own anywayyou can really think about what youre looking at and interpret it without being influenced. Plus, you dont get people asking you what you think. I once went to the National Gallery in London with this art student bloke I quite fancied, and every time I said something like Oh, I like that, hed start asking me why, and what I thought the artist was trying to say and stuff, when all I meant was that the colors were nice or I liked the look of the house/person in the painting. Looking at art can be hard work when you have to actually talk about it.
An English couple in front of me are arguing. Evidently the woman is less than keen on going into the Vatican and wants to go shopping instead.
We always go bloody shopping, her husband says in a weary tone. Were in Rome; lets do something we cant do at home. Weve come all this way; lets at least go inside, shall we?
But you hate churches! I hate churches! For Gods sake, Alan, you dont want to be here, I dont want to be here. Lets just go.
I dont want to go shopping.
We dont have to go shoppingthat was just one idea. We could go and drink coffee in a cafe. Or we could go back to bed. For one weekend we dont have the kids, and I dont want to be walking round a sodding church.
Apparently Alan doesnt want to either. He immediately agrees to the go back to bed option and they leave arm in arm. I watch them as they pass Mike, who is still on his mobile waiting for his elusive business partner to show up. I notice that hes getting really deep lines on his foreheadmaybe running his own business is really getting to him.
I realize Ive been so taken in by Mikes good looks and charm that Ive never really looked much deeper. I never really noticed how troubled he looks, how worried he seems. Maybe the problem is that Ive never really stood up to him. I mean, if I didnt just accept the fact that he had a business meeting and got really mad instead, maybe he would cancel it for me. He looks so distant, even though hes only forty feet away. Could it be that he just needs someone to talk to?
I leave the queue and wander back over to Mike.
No good? he asks me. He looks stressed.
If the person youre meeting isnt showing, why dont we just bugger off? I say, and tentatively put my arm through his. We could explore Rome and
Before I can finish my sentence the mobile is ringing again. Ive lost my chance, and hes already shouting down the phone and walking away from me.
Look, what is this? You think Im lying? Is that it? I take you on, you start doing well, and now I have to put up with your shit just because you think youre too good now. Is that where we are? Because if it is, you can stick your fucking record deal. . . . Fine, well, thats okay. Look mate, youll get the money, okay? These things can just take some time. Fine, now put Bill on the phone . . .
I give up. If Mikes going to act like hes still in London, Im certainly not going to. I wander off to buy myself a coffee and something to eat. Theres a cafe by the side of Via Republica, the road leading back into the town center. If he needs me, Mike will be able to see me from here. I order a latte and a croissant, sit back and let the spring sun warm my face.
When I open my eyes again I see Mike talking to someone. The guy looks pretty smartly dressed, considering its Saturday; hes wearing a suit and carrying a briefcase. Maybe its an Italian thinghe probably thinks the English are a really scruffy lot, because Mikes wearing jeans and a pretty old T-shirt. They walk off quickly before Ive got time to shout and let them know where I am. To be honest, I really couldnt
care less. Right now, I just want to sit here and enjoy Rome.
I pull out my guidebook and marvel at the photographs of the frescos in the Sistine Chapel. I read all about how Michelangelo painted the ceiling (he delegated a lot by the looks of it), and by the time Ive finished I almost feel like Ive actually seen them for myself.
Having paid for my coffee I wander off down the road. A group of Italian men look me up and down appraisingly and murmurbellisima! as I walk past. I smile and get a warm glow inside. Personally Ive never understood people who dont like being whistled at in the street. I mean, you wouldnt get upset if someone stopped you and said politely that the dress youre wearing really flatters you, would you? And thats all a wolf whistle is, just punctuated.
I weave in and out of the cobbled streets looking in shop windows and enjoying the warmth on my skin. If only England were warmer, Im sure wed all be a lot happier. I mean, its really hard to be depressed when the suns shining, isnt it?
Im just trying to decide whether to wander round the shops or do something more cultural like go to the Coliseum when I see something and freeze. Down an alleyway to my right I see David. This time I know Im not mistaken. Its definitely him. I cant believe hes here! When he said he was going to Geneva!
I step back so he cant see me. I need to think this through. So he was at the airport yesterday! But what on earth is he doing here? My mind flits between feeling angry at David lying to me and worrying about how to explain my being here, too. At least Mike isnt with me. Maybe I could tell him I needed to get away and Rome seemed the perfect place. Oh God, this is too much of a coincidence . . . I mean, who expects to bump into their boyfriend nine hundred miles away in a foreign city when hes meant to be eight hundred miles away somewhere completely different?
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