A Log Cabin Christmas Collection

by Margaret Brownley; Jane Kirkpatrick; Kelly Eileen Hake; Liz Johnson; Liz Tolsma; Michelle Ule; Debra Ullrick; Erica Vetsch Wanda E. Brunstetter

“God, give me a steady hand,” she whispered as she touched the point to the jagged opening. Blood immediately bubbled from the hole, and she gulped another breath as she pressed in deeper until metal met metal. The tip of the blade scratched and prodded at the foreign object, and the soldier cried out.

  Cora jumped at his agony but didn’t stop digging until the projectile poked out of its aperture. She snatched the minié ball away then pressed on the seeping wound with one of the strips from her petticoat.

  Papa’s knee cracked as he stood and walked toward the cabinet near the kitchen table. He pulled out a glass decanter and swiftly returned to her side. “We have to make sure it’s clean, or he’ll develop a fever.”

  She agreed, nodded, and pulled back the cloth as Papa poured the amber liquid into the injury. The muscles in the man’s back bunched and quivered, and he let out several groans, but still he did not open his eyes.

  By the time they had bandaged the wound and cleaned up after the surgery, the sun had set, and the only light in the room came from the flickering fire.

  When another coughing fit took hold of Papa, Cora put her hand under his elbow and helped him toward the bedroom. “Why don’t you go to sleep? I’ll stay up and make sure that he doesn’t take a turn for the worse.” She looked over her shoulder at the sleeping man, a pang of fear eating at her stomach.

  How could she possibly lose another man to the wounds of this battle? Already the faces of the men haunted her dreams.

  “Thank you,” Papa mumbled as he pressed a kiss to the top of her head. Despite his stooped shoulders, he still stood nearly a head taller than her. “Call me if there’s any change.”

  “I will.”

  Papa left the door to the bedroom mostly open as Cora walked past their patient to the jumbled pile of clothes on the floor. Folding them piece by piece, she cringed when she held up the long jacket, covered in blood and grime from the floor of the surrounding forest. As she folded it, a piece of paper fell from an interior pocket. She bent to pick it up, surprised that there was no envelope or address on what was clearly a letter.

  Many men carried them into battle. Letters to send to their loved ones if they didn’t make it home, but this one was simply folded in half.

  Glancing into the handsome features of the man before her, she opened the page filled with long, even pen strokes. What secrets hid beneath his long, brown lashes? Was he dreaming of the woman to whom this letter belonged?

  Her stomach clenched at the idea of reading another woman’s post, but she pressed on. How would she know where to address it if he did not survive?

  My dearest Bess,

  If you’re reading this, then you know that I won’t be coming home. I cannot express to you how sorry I am to leave you and our son on your own. But I trust that God will hold you close during these difficult days. I have loved you with my whole heart and will eagerly await the moment when we can meet again in glory.

  The closing words swam before Cora’s eyes, and she had to stuff the letter back into the jacket pocket before it made her cry any harder.

  Every letter just like it—and the reason for them—had made her sick to her stomach as she’d passed water and tea to the soldiers crowding the house and yard at Carnton. If only she could share that pain and grief with someone.

  But who could understand? Papa needed her to be strong. And the McGavock family would be consumed with caring for the wounded for months.

  The faces of those wounded men and the women who waited for them to return were memories she had to carry on her own.

  Straightening her shoulders, she brushed her fingertips over her eyelids and cleared her throat. As she set the captain’s folded uniform at the foot of his pallet, she shot him one more glance.

  But this time, something had changed.

  His stunning brown eyes stared back at her, sending her stomach to her toes.

  Chapter 2

  Jedediah Harrington’s shoulder burned like it rested in the fireplace. The pain that had almost certainly woken him also indicated that something else was amiss. As he opened his eyes, he remained still, taking in his surroundings and trying to place the room.

  It wasn’t an overly large room, but it felt as though families had grown and loved each other in this place. It looked like a home ought to, with a gentle blaze below the stone mantel at his back and a kitchen table and benches on the far side of the room. Even at the distance and with only the light from the fire, he could see that the corners of the furniture had been rounded by years of use. The only other place to sit was an equally worn wooden rocking chair.

  Twisting slightly against wooden floorboards, he looked around until he spotted the skirts of a young woman near the foot of his bed. When his eyes made it to her face—all smooth lines, soft freckles and pink lips—she glanced up at the same moment and immediately darted to the other side of the rocking chair, holding it carefully between them.

  “My papa is in the other room.” She stretched her finger over his head, but Jed didn’t have the strength to follow her movement again. Did he look like he was a danger to her? Certainly she thought so.

  He managed a small nod, immediately regretting the way it made his head swim. Resting his ear against the thick blanket spread below him, he opened his mouth but found that he had no voice.

  The woman took a tentative step around the chair, keeping one hand on it, probably to use as a weapon if he made a wrong move. “Do you need some water?”

  Again he tried to speak. Again he met with the same outcome, so he offered an almost imperceptible nod, trying to limit the pounding behind his eyes. All but her lower half disappeared to the far side of the room, and water rang against the bottom of a tin cup.

  He tried to swallow, his tongue like a desert, so he waited until she returned.

  “Drink this,” she whispered as she knelt by his head. The tin cup she pressed to his lips tasted of metal, but the water tasted like rain in a drought. He tried to guzzle the entire contents of the cup, but she pulled it back every few swallows. “Not so fast. You’ll spill all over.”

  Finally it was empty, and she stood and took several small steps away, as though their nearness had been too intimate for two people who had never been introduced. He immediately missed the sweet scent of lavender and gentle touch of her hand.

  He cleared his throat and closed his eyes for a long moment. “My na—” His voice cracked, and he had to try again. “My name is Jedediah Harrington. Nearly everyone calls me Jed.”

  She squinted as though uncertain if she would believe him. After a long pause, she whispered, “Cora Sinclair.”

  The fractured grin he offered must have broken through at least one of her reserves, as she brought a hand to the high neckline at her throat but responded with a faint smile of her own.

  “How did I end up here? Where are we?”

  “I found you in the woods not far from here, so my grandfather and I brought you to our home. I removed a bullet from your shoulder and patched it up the best that I could.”

  Suddenly the memories crashed through his mind. “I was shot by Confederate scouts. We’re about a mile from Franklin. There was a skirmish.” She confirmed his memory only with a quick motion of her head. “I was headed to Ft. Granger when I stumbled on the troops. I was just trying to get around them, and someone shot me off my horse. They took my weapons.” But had they taken the War Department missives he had been carrying to General Schofield?

  His gaze darted around the room looking for his gear, for he knew that the leather satchel that had been hanging over his shoulder and across his chest no longer rested there.

  “Where are my things?”

  Cora glanced over her shoulder to a pile of neatly folded clothes on the floor near the door to the bedroom she had indicated earlier. “It’s all there. Your coat and vest and shirt.” She blinked long, fair eyelashes before continuing. “And your bag also.”

  The missives could be of little use to General Schofield or an
yone else at Fort Granger in the aftermath of the unexpected skirmish, but he could not afford for them to fall into enemy hands either.

  Could he trust her to keep him safe until he could return to Washington? What if she had already called rebel troops to come and get him?

  But if her intent was to turn him over, why hadn’t she left him to freeze?

  Oh, and it had been bitter there beneath that tree. He had been there for at least three nights, blacking out for long stretches of time. But he’d never forget the cold. Somehow he’d pulled branches and leaves over himself, in an attempt to retain any heat still in his body, and it must have worked.

  “Why did you bring me here?”

  Lines appeared on her forehead, and she tilted her head to the side, escaped strands of her rippling hair falling over her shoulder. “I couldn’t leave you outside to die, could I?”

  “I’m an officer in the Federal army. You’re from Tennessee.” He looked toward the ceiling, letting his gaze settle on the rough-hewn rafters. “Most would have.”

  When he looked back, her face turned gentle, her blue eyes compassionate, and she sank into the rocking chair. “This is not my war. I have no stake in it.”

  “No brothers? What about your father? A beau?” A sad smile tugged at the corners of her mouth, and remorse pinched his stomach when he realized he was the cause of her sorrowed expression.

  “My father died when I was very young, and my mother also. I was their only child, and I was raised by my grandfather and grandmother—she died last year. He’s all I have now.” Her gaze jumped to the bedroom door then returned to meet Jed’s. “I haven’t lost anyone I love, and the men here aren’t fighting to preserve my way of life.”

  Her hand fluttered to the corners of the room, and he understood. She had never owned slaves, never owned a plantation or probably even concerned herself with politics. This war wasn’t her choice.

  But could she really be as harmless as she seemed? Nashville had been under Northern control for several years, but nearly twenty miles south, this battle in Franklin only served as a reminder that many pledged their allegiance to their homeland, not to those in power.

  She leaned closer. “You have nothing to fear from my grandfather or me,” she said, as though reading his mind. “You will be safe as long as you’re here.”

  An unexpected chill swept his body, and Jed cringed as the muscles in his shoulder contracted, piercing the wound with fire again. He closed his eyes against the throbbing pain, Cora’s pretty face appearing on the back of his eyelids. He wouldn’t soon forget her tenderness or compassion.

  Suddenly Cora’s cool hand rested on his cheek, her eyes studying his face.

  “You should rest,” she whispered.

  Doubts about her honesty seeped into his mind, and he wanted nothing more than to walk out of the cabin and return to his home, to Bess. If only he could push himself off the floor, put his coat back on, pick up his bag, and leave. But wishing did not give him the strength to do so, and he shivered again.

  “Let me check your wound again.” She leaned over his back and rolled back the blanket covering his shoulders. She inhaled sharply as she jumped to her feet, quickly returning with fresh bandages in hand.

  He could not refrain from flinching when an icy, wet cloth touched his bare skin.

  “I’m sorry. I should have warned you.” The cloth swiped like hot coals over his back. “You’re bleeding again.”

  “Of course.” He bit down on his bottom lip to keep from letting on how much pain even her gentle touch caused. It seemed like hours before she firmly pressed another bandage in place and secured it with a piece of cloth already wrapped around his chest.

  As she pulled the cover back over his shoulders, he asked, “May I have another blanket?”

  “Are you cold?”

  “Yes.”

  She spread another blanket over the layer already in place and then knelt beside his head, putting her palms on his cheeks and forehead. “You’re very warm. You shouldn’t feel cold.”

  “I do.” A yawn caught him unaware, making him stutter. “So very cold.” He closed his eyes, and the pressure building at his temples begged him to succumb to a long night of sleep in front of a fire and free of the outdoor temperatures he’d suffered.

  “Let me get you more water before you go to sleep.”

  She scurried across the room, but he could not even ward off slumber until her return, as he sank into the darkness of oblivion.

  Chapter 3

  How is he?”

  Cora glanced up from where she knelt by the captain as her grandfather carried in an armful of logs for the fire. “The same.” She pressed her palm to the cheek of the man on the floor. But his eyes didn’t move, and his face remained unchanged. “I made him drink more water, but he won’t eat.”

  Papa unloaded the logs onto the pile next to the hearth, tossing a few of the smaller ones onto the already-radiating fire. “How does the wound look?”

  Jed’s muscles twitched as Cora peeled back the sodden bandage. Even though she’d washed it and changed the bandage several times, the ragged flesh and pungent odor made her cringe every time.

  “Do you think it’s getting any better?” She couldn’t keep the hopeful lilt out of her voice.

  His hands on his hips and leaning clear forward, Papa shook his head. “It’s hard to tell. Truth be told, I’m more concerned about that fever.”

  “I gave him some ginger tea.” She held up a half-empty teacup. “Well, as much as he would take. But it doesn’t seem to be helping.”

  Still deep in sleep, Jed’s legs jerked. Cora shot her grandfather a helpless look and sighed.

  “Keep pouring the tea down, but make sure it’s not too warm.” Papa sat on one of the benches along the table, his eyebrows drawn tight and usual smile a distant memory. “I don’t know that there’s anything else we can do for him.”

  Cora’s stomach lurched, and she knew it to be true. The captain had suffered a fitful sleep for nearly two days, never fully waking up. She had done everything she knew to do. He needed a doctor. And she knew exactly where one could be found.

  Certainly there were still surgeons tending to the wounded at Carnton. If the thick, black smoke rising over the tree line was any indication, all of the fires there burned day and night, for boiling water and cleaning surgical instruments. For the men. Those wounded soldiers.

  They were in so much pain, and the chloroform administered by the doctors only numbed the injured. But the fires hadn’t blocked out the metallic smell of artillery fire still lingering in the air mixed with the sharp odor of unwashed bodies.

  Her stomach jumped again, bile rising in the back of her throat as the memories of the injured men leaped to mind.

  She didn’t want to go back there. Ever.

  She didn’t want to see those men still recovering. Or have to again cross the field where so many soldiers had marched toward the Union line in Franklin.

  “It’s getting late.” Papa dragged her from her thoughts. “Will you sleep in your bed tonight? You need to get some rest. I can stay by him. “

  Cora’s gaze shifted to the single doorway on the far side of the room then back to her patient. “No. I’ll stay up with him. If there’s a change, I want to be here.” She dipped a clean rag in a basin of cool water, using it to bathe Captain Harrington’s face. Above his dark eyebrows, past his ear, and under his broad chin. My, but he is handsome. “Just in case.”

  “All right. Good night then.” Papa walked past her and bent down to kiss the top of her head before disappearing into the dark bedroom. She heard him unsnap his suspenders and the rustle of cotton as he hung up his shirt. With the door all the way open, his rhythmic snoring soon echoed through the cabin as it did every night.

  After cleaning and rebandaging the wound on the captain’s back one last time, Cora crawled to her rocking chair. Fighting sleep and the haunting dreams that waited just behind closed eyes, she picked up her mending
, one ear always listening for a sound from the mat at her feet. Her eyelids drooped as she pushed the floor with her toe, the crackling of the fire and squeaking of the chair her only companions as her mending dropped to her lap.

  The clock on the mantel chimed twice, jerking Cora from unwelcome images dancing through her dream. Wrapping her arms around her stomach, she curled as tightly as she could, trying to erase the faces of the men at Carnton who would never return to their loved loves. Uninvited tears leaked down her cheeks, and she swiped her knuckles across them, her heart broken for the families who’d lost their husbands and fathers, brothers and sons.

  She shivered despite the heat from the smoldering embers.

  Tossing another log on the fire before kneeling next to the captain, she brushed his hair from his forehead. Heat radiated off him stronger than ever before, while barely discernible chills made his teeth click together.

  She pressed her hands to Jed’s cheeks. She barely knew him, yet she was responsible for him. Even though she’d never met the other woman, Cora owed it to Bess to make sure Jed returned home.

  He needed a doctor and medication, but taking him to Carnton could meana fate worse than the one he faced on her floor. The Confederate troops at the main house wouldn’t look kindly on a Yankee. Even if he was an injured officer. If taken captive, the captain could spend the rest of the war—possibly the rest of his life—behind bars.

  “I wouldn’t wish that on anyone,” she whispered to the shadowed face. “What if you were sent to a prison, and I had no way of finding Bess to tell her what happened? Oh, Captain. You have to wake up.” A single tear slipped down Cora’s cheek, as she sent up a silent prayer for his healing.

  The air smelled of frying ham, the meat sizzling not far from where Jed lay, still on the floor. For the first time in days his stomach rumbled, a not-altogether-unpleasant sensation for a man who had thought his life was coming to a slow and painful end.

  When he twitched his shoulders, pain eased through his back, rolling through the muscles like gentle waves on the beach. Heaving a sigh of relief that it no longer burned like an unquenchable fire, he ventured to open an eye and lifted his hand to wipe the beads of sweat from his forehead.