Darcy and Fitzwilliam: A Tale of a Gentleman and an Officer

by Karen Wasylowski

  ***

  He stomped back into the house and made his noisy way up the stairs and into his own dressing room. Enough is enough, he fumed. I’ve been far too complacent with her temper tantrums and her stubborn pride. I’ve spoiled her—just plain spoiled her. “You are spoiled, young woman, spoiled! I have been far too indulgent with you!” he yelled. He grabbed his greatcoat and gloves and began loudly clomping back down the stairs, challenging her to voice a complaint, casting dire glances toward Elizabeth’s dressing-room door. I will be a doormat for her no longer. “I will be a doormat for you no longer, madam!!” he bellowed, nodding his head, completely in agreement with himself.

  Since her door was wide open, she had to have heard the commotion of this dramatic departure and reentrance, let alone his defiant proclamation, and yet she never appeared. He hesitated at the bottom of the stairs, his breathing labored and his heart pounding. Damn it! Maybe she’s made herself ill. He could not contain his worries; they had been his constant companion for months. She’s been so quiet lately, and tired. This fit of temper must have been a shock to her system.

  He took a few more hesitant steps toward the front door, slapping his gloves across his palm and then stopping again to gnaw on his lip. I suppose I could just quietly go up and have a look in at her. She’s losing her balance so often—what if she’s fallen again? He continued standing there, unable to leave and unable to go back up.

  He could have just as well had “Kick me” painted on his back. Suddenly an object flew down, hitting him sharply on the back of his head. “Don’t leave without your stupid hat, Mr. Darcy. It has become chilled outside, and I should not wish to be accused of being the cause of your fever.” Elizabeth haughtily spun around and slammed her door shut.

  The momentary stillness was followed by the sound of a latch.

  Months and months of anxious, heart-stopping apprehension finally broke within him. Impudent little mongrel! “Inputil Mingol!” he bellowed absurdly. I really must get control of myself. His mind spun like a top, he was so incensed. He was so infuriated. He was angrier and more upset than ever before in his life, let alone in their three-year marriage. How dare she throw my hat at me!! This is a new hat! Finally getting his rage controlled enough to form coherent words, he yelled up to her, “Locked doors between us are not permitted in this house, Elizabeth!” He stood at the foot of the stairs and bellowed the clincher, “I forbid them, as you well know!” That told her!

  He could contain himself no longer. He charged back up the stairs, two at a time, ending outside her door in a mind-rending and furious temper. “Mrs. Darcy, open this door!” Nothing—not a sound. He tried the handle once and then again. “Mrs. Darcy, this is still my house. You are still, if only momentarily, my wife, and I insist you open this door immediately!” He banged furiously for several moments and then stopped to listen.

  Alarm began to take precedence over anger when no sound came back to him. The whole house seemed deadly quiet.

  “Elizabeth, are you all right? Elizabeth?! Are you hurt? Damnation, Lizzy, answer me!” He waited a few moments more and then, taking a step back, raised his heel and bashed in the door with his boot. His eyes darted quickly around the room, finding her off to the side by the windows, sitting at her dressing table.

  Tears streaming down her face, Elizabeth jumped up before retreating two steps. “How dare you force your way into my rooms, breaking in my door! I was right about you. You are no gentleman!”

  Darcy’s expression became horribly mottled as his eyes twitched and blinked. He quickly closed the distance to where she stood. “Are you suddenly deaf, woman?! Haven’t you heard me yelling for you to open that damn, bloody door?!” The rafters shook as he roared.

  Elizabeth drew herself up to meet him face to face, figuratively speaking. She was in actuality short of his height by about ten or twelve inches. They stood chin to chest, glaring in each other’s general vicinity, breathing hard as if both had just arrived at the finish line of a very long and debilitating race. “Of course I heard you, you great ape! I simply chose to ignore you!”

  He slammed the exquisite, if slightly dented, beaver hat on his head and bellowed, “Lis is bast strew…!” Annoyingly, he was screaming in tongues again and took a moment to compose himself, taking long, deep breaths. Finally calmed, he could continue. “This is the last straw, Mrs. Darcy! I can abide your disrespect, your viper tongue, your bad temper no longer. I am leaving you, and may you have joy of the evening.”

  “That’s the best gift of the season. In actuality, it is the only gift of the season!” She hissed directly into his waistcoat buttons, spraying saliva everywhere and sounding much more defiant than she felt. “Just see that you don’t return!!”

  His eyes narrowed dangerously, and for the first time in their short marriage, Elizabeth thought that perhaps she might have gone a little too far. As he raised his arm, she jumped back, covering her head as if to protect herself from an imminent blow. He was only attempting to wipe his buttons.

  “How dare you!” Now he had gone past mere anger into an unknown realm of fury. He turned into a stranger before her very eyes. “How dare you insinuate that I would strike a woman! You really don’t know me at all, do you? You never really did.”

  He turned on his heel and stormed from the room, slamming the door behind him. It banged open again and then closed with a thud. Elizabeth could hear his heavy footsteps going down the stairs and heard him wrench open the foyer door, storming out into the night. She struggled to resist the impulse to run to the window to call him back, so she sat down at her dressing table very quietly, holding onto the edge of the seat cushion. Her heart was pounding furiously. Maybe he’ll turn around and come back. All couples have their little ups and downs, don’t they? If he would come up here and take me in his arms, why, that is all I really want, some assurance that he still loves me.

  But what if he meant it? What if he never does come back?

  Her blood ran cold. Although not normally one to give in to tears, they ran freely down her cheeks now. When will this nightmare ever end? She tenderly patted her huge stomach and shifted restlessly on the dresser chair, thinking nothing of the tremendous pressure increasing on her bottom and her back. She rose awkwardly and waddled to the window in hopes of seeing him turning in the street, to see him walking back to her, but all was deathly quiet. He was gone already.

  ***

  It had been a brief hour before this unpleasant encounter with her husband that Lizzy had received the note along with the return of her long-lost locket. Up until then, it had been an idyllic day with all the concern over Fitzwilliam’s whereabouts behind them and then the joy of his happy news. She had actually even forgotten about the locket.

  Darcy had made his annual appearance at the Boxing Day breakfast for the staff, passing out their Christmas bonuses—hefty bonuses to compensate for his increasingly irrational behavior. Then the couple exchanged their own special gifts in private and spent the afternoon quietly and happily alone, laughing and talking together.

  She was confused at first but overjoyed that the precious item, the only thing she had ever received from her mother, was returned. Wherever did this come from? It had taken her several minutes to understand what was being implied. At first she thought the note was from Jane, but that made little sense. How did Jane get my locket? Her brows beetled in confusion. No, it wasn’t Jane’s stationery, but it was on Bingley stationery.

  “Miss Bennet,” the note began.

  Miss Bennet? There is only one person so ignorant and pig-headed enough to still call me Miss Bennet. She began to read again,

  Miss Bennet,

  It appears our darling Darcy misplaced your trinket several months ago when he stayed with me at Netherfield for our private visit, a visit we thoroughly enjoyed alone at my home. It must have fallen from his coat when he removed it, the locket being discovered upstairs in my bedroom. I had intended to return this during my visit with you at Lady Catherin
e de Bourgh’s home, but I was mysteriously misrepresented to her and had to leave before I could accomplish my mission.

  I hope this hasn’t caused you any alarm. I had thought to discard it, but then realized it may have sentimental attachments for you. It obviously has no other value.

  Please give Darcy my love and relate to him, for me, how I dearly I look forward to his next visit.

  Regards,

  Caroline Bingley

  Lizzy sat very still, her mind so paralyzed that it was unable to wrap itself around this tidbit of news. Darcy was at her house? No. Fitzwilliam Darcy? Her Fitzwilliam Darcy? When could he have visited? She and Darcy had been in each other’s pockets for months now. The only time he was away from her was when he assisted her father in returning home, and when he went away to assist Charles at Netherfield…

  Elizabeth was still clutching one bit of the shredded letter when Darcy entered her dressing room, arrogantly proclaiming that since there remained no footmen at home to carry her downstairs, he would, like his mud hut–dwelling forbearers, provide primitivelike sustenance for his woman—peach tarts, plover’s eggs with mint jelly, fresh fruit, cheese, and toast tips. All that she needed to tell him was how.

  He stopped when he saw her furious stare. “Lizzy, whatever is wrong? You look like you’ve fought a ghost!”

  It was a terrible argument. Tensions that had been repressed but building were exploding everywhere with horrible accusations and threats, most of which, thankfully, were shrieked in words that were unintelligible. When he finally stormed out, she sat at her dressing table, staring at a gaping hole where there had once been a door handle and lock. Now, like her marriage, the lock and handle lay in shattered pieces upon the floor. She was numb. She clutched her poor little locket to her heart and felt physically ill. She never thought for a moment that he would become so angry that he would actually kick in her door.

  Oh my God Oh my God Oh my God! Could he really be having an affair with Caroline? No, this I cannot believe. I will not believe—he is the best of men. I’ll kill him. Oh dear Jesu, maybe he has the right of it, though, the way I treat him, and I look like a sea cow anyway. Who can blame him for finding comfort with another? I wish the baby would come, that it was all finally over. Caressing her stomach, she began to sob, not really noticing that the persistent back pain and occasional kicking, her daily companions for so many months, had finally ceased.

  ***

  It was a half hour after Darcy’s dramatic exit that those horrible pains returned with a vengeance, the pain her doctor had been dismissing out of hand for the past week, worse now by far. There was also a queer pressure on her bottom, distracting her from her wallowing in abject misery. Moaning, she wiped away tears with a knuckle and quickly sat down, loudly blowing her nose with her delicate Belgian lace handkerchief. It never occurred to her to call for the doctor or even to have mentioned those earlier discomforts to her husband. Of course, now there is no husband to tell. It was the sort of whiney type of reflection that caused her to abruptly renew her wails.

  At that moment, the only room in her thoughts were for Darcy and Caroline Bingley. Could they have deceived her for so long? If so, how long had the two of them been communicating with each other? Laughing at her? Caroline was beautiful, the little weasel, as well as an extremely skilled flirt and always desperately grasping for a husband, any husband. But why my husband? Let her get her own life and husband and leave mine to me! Elizabeth trembled with anger and humiliation. How could he walk out on me now, like this? How could he leave me for that hussy? When she then looked at herself in the mirror, she gasped—blotchy face, red-rimmed eyes, hair jutting out at bizarrely odd angles, a belly that looked like she had swallowed a hedge. Reinvigorated by her inventory of personal faults, she began again to yowl, her tears increasing in volume and running down her cheeks in miserable rivers.

  ***

  Eventually, though, even a cast-off blob of a wife needed food, and so she clumsily stood, bracing herself against her dressing table then waddled the few steps to her now-cold afternoon tea tray. The pressure on her bottom intensified, followed by an odd sensation of water running down her legs. She was aghast at seeing the liquid stain begin to spread on her beloved Turkish carpet. “Oh no!” she cried in distress. “Why must everything happen to me?” She was furious. She stomped her tiny bare foot in her rage and did what all devoted wives do—she blamed her husband. “Well, thank you very much, Mr. Darcy! This is just typical, isn’t it? This rug is one of a kind and very expensive, William, brand new, not even four months old!”

  That was the exact moment the enormity of what was happening finally struck her… and just seconds before the first real labor pain hit. She gripped her belly and felt her knees begin to vibrate.

  “Uh-oh.”

  She snatched wildly at the back of a chair. “No, this cannot be.” After a moment, she calmed her breathing then attempted the trip from the chair back to the table, thinking to make her way slowly toward the door.

  Another, stronger pain in her back knocked her to her knees.

  “Cara,” she gasped out to her maid. “Cara!” She tried to call louder, but she had no volume, no strength, and the house remained so quiet. All Elizabeth could hear was the clock on the mantel.

  Where in heaven’s name is Cara? Why is it so quiet? Now on her hands and knees and utterly helpless, she pulled open her broken door and peered to the left, down the long, empty corridor and then to the right. Sweet Jesus, this cannot be labor, she tried to reassure herself. It must be something that I ate, perhaps merely indigestion. I have four weeks left—they owe me four weeks! I am not ready for this, besides which the doctor said first babies are always late… always. That dim-witted, bloody imbecile promised me! Yes, and then Jane will be here, my father will be here, Kitty and Mary will be here. No, this just cannot happen now. I forbid it.

  She grabbed onto the leg of a hall chair and, dragging it toward herself, managed somehow to sit. She looked like Buddha with her legs spread to accommodate her low-hanging belly and her hands resting on her knees. Sweat had begun pooling up under her arms and between her breasts. Moisture thickened at the roots of her fringe of bangs. “Mrs. Winter!” It was no use. Her voice sounded like a frog croak.

  Not a sound returned to her.

  “Could they all be down at supper?” she asked upon hearing her mantel clock strike seven-thirty. “Oh, no! Elizabeth, did you forget it is Boxing Day? The staff is off enjoying their holiday.” She spoke aloud in this manner with the belief that the sound of a voice would calm her.

  It did not.

  Oh dear. She gulped and pressed her hand across her forehead. I must remain calm, must remember to breathe. I am in the middle of London, at Yuletide, surely someone is about—somewhere. Where is Georgiana? Georgiana will help me. Dear sweet, gentle, little Georgiana. What a truly wonderful sister she has been to me. She’ll make such a good aunt. I do so adore her. She began to call out her beloved sister-in-law’s name but remembered that sweet, gentle, little Georgiana had run from the house that morning, unable to stand the tension any longer. She had fled to some holiday party with Emily and two other young girls. Scrawny little ingrate, leaving me to wallow here like a beached whale, alone and helpless.

  Another pain caused Elizabeth to double over and scream.

  ***

  Amanda Fitzwilliam was making her first steps into her new life, and to liberty, the American Revolution’s motto of Don’t Tread On Me her silent mantra—very silent. It was early evening, and her mother-in-law, finally recuperated enough to enjoy the holidays, had taken Emily and Georgiana to another one of the interminable holiday house parties that the upper classes apparently thrived upon. She would be gone for three glorious days. The timing for their escape could not have been more perfect.

  When Amanda was certain that the old woman had departed and that the servants had left or were distracted with celebrations for the evening, she bundled up Harry and waited for her hus
band’s arrival. She waited as long as she could before her nerves just snapped. Grabbing a small bag that she had prepared with a few clothes for them both, she quietly slipped down the stairs.

  Without her husband to accompany her through the streets, necessity developed a new plan. She spoke with one of the maids that had befriended her, telling her to get together a bag, that they would be going away visiting for a few days for the holidays. That girl was now sitting on the back stairs, nervously waiting and chewing away at her bottom lip. “Come along, Mary. Have you packed a bag for yourself? Good. This will be great fun, you’ll see.”

  Setting her bag down for a moment, Amanda picked up the sleepy Harry, reclaimed her small valise, and then began leading the way down the stairs, out the back door, and across the avenue, racing against the quickly fading daylight. “Hurry though, Mary. We must hurry. Night is falling. It is only a few blocks.”

  Since the elder Lady Penrod’s instruction to Mary had been to feign friendship with the American while secretly reporting back regarding Amanda’s activities, Mary reluctantly agreed to accompany her. “I don’t know, ma’am,” she squeaked out. “Won’t ’er ladyship be that mad at me for this?”

  “Nonsense, Mary, it is but for a few days at most, a little holiday just for ourselves with some friends.” Amanda craved sweets at the moment and thought that would be a certain allurement. “There will be lots of chocolate and cake.” She stopped then for a moment to resettle her child more comfortably on her hip. She hadn’t realized how much Harry had grown and how heavy he had become, but it was much quicker to carry him than to coax the tired child along.

  Lord, but the boy was heavy.

  ***

  It was a strange little procession that scurried through fashionable Mayfair and on toward St. James Street, attracting not a slight amount of attention from the few souls brave enough to face the frigid evening temperatures. Amanda forced herself to slow her pace, trying to avoid the curious glances of passersby, plus, she was quickly tiring with the added weight of Harry in her arms. “Only a few blocks more,” she called out loudly to reassure Mary. Darkness had already settled in among the tree boughs heavy with white sparkling powder.