Until We Are Free

by Shirin Ebadi

  Copyright © 2016 by Shirin Ebadi

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  Published in the United States by Random House, an imprint and division of Penguin Random House LLC, New York.

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  Grateful acknowledgment is made to Sara Khalili for permission to reprint an extract from the poem “My Country, I Shall Build You Again” by Simin Behbahani, translated by Sara Khalili. Translation © Sara Khalili. Reprinted by permission of Sara Khalili.

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  Names: ʻIbādī, Shīrīn., author.

  Title: Until we are free : my fight for human rights in Iran / Shirin Ebadi.

  Description: New York : Random House, 2016.

  Identifiers: LCCN 2015027147 | ISBN 9780812998870 (hardback : acid-free paper) | ISBN 9780812998887 (ebook)

  Subjects: LCSH: ʻIbādī, Shīrīn. | Women lawyers—Iran—Biography. | Lawyers—Iran—Biography. | Women human rights workers—Iran—Biography. | Women judges—Iran—Biography. | Women Nobel Prize winners—Iran—Biography. | BISAC: BIOGRAPHY & AUTOBIOGRAPHY / Personal Memoirs. | POLITICAL SCIENCE / Political Freedom & Security / General.

  Classification: LCC KMH110.I23 A3 2016 | DDC 323.092—dc23 LC record available at http://lccn.loc.gov/​2015027147

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  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Epigraph

  Prologue

  Chapter 1: Intimidation

  Chapter 2: A Wedding

  Chapter 3: The Man Who Wanted to Buy a Centrifuge

  Chapter 4: A Midnight Visit

  Chapter 5: In the Shadow of Ahmadinejad

  Chapter 6: The Women Who Dared to Rise Up

  Chapter 7: Spies on the Doorstep

  Chapter 8: A Fatwa to Defend

  Chapter 9: Besieged

  Chapter 10: A Mother’s Test

  Chapter 11: The Farewell

  Chapter 12: The Stolen Election

  Chapter 13: Alone in the World

  Chapter 14: Betrayal

  Chapter 15: Life Without a Home

  Chapter 16: The Forged Passport

  Chapter 17: Dispossession

  Chapter 18: The Spring That Led to Winter

  Chapter 19: Bloodbath as Lesson

  Chapter 20: The Suspicious Neighbor

  Epilogue

  Author’s Note

  Acknowledgments

  By Shirin Ebadi

  About the Author

  And the wrongdoers will soon know to what place of return they shall return.

  —The Holy Koran 26:227

  I know how men in exile feed on dreams.

  —Aeschylus

  I was restless. The evening was like any other, dinner at my brother’s house, but I felt an anxiety I could not identify. The room was stuffy, the lamps too bright, the children louder than usual. I stepped onto the balcony for some fresh air and watched clouds darken the sky. There was a loud crack; then the rain Tehran so badly needed began to wash the toxic smog out of the air. Though it was April, and the wind should have cleared the winter pollution, I had been having a hard time breathing outside. A government official had recently said that living in a city with such poisonous air was akin to “mass suicide.”

  For weeks now, I had been working on a report about the government’s executions of children. Every other nation on earth had stopped routinely executing minors, but Iran regularly imposed the death penalty on children for a range of crimes, from murder to manslaughter in self-defense. In 2004, the authorities sentenced a sixteen-year-old girl to death for premarital sex, or “crimes against chastity.” The judge himself reputedly acted as executioner, leading the schoolgirl to the noose, blindfolding her, and motioning for the crane to hoist her from the ground. Her body hung from the crane for nearly an hour, her black chador swaying in the breeze. The state didn’t want any attention brought to these executions, especially internationally, but my colleagues and I had worked hard to show a pattern of such sentencing. It was perhaps the boldest report we had ever produced, and we were due to share it with the United Nations, where we knew the Islamic Republic would face condemnation. It was that, I told myself, that was making me uneasy. If I could be back at home with a cup of tea, the report in my hand, reviewing the language and checking the details, my mind would settle.

  I decided to head home early, and said goodbye to my brother and his family. The streets were mostly empty and the air smelled of exhaust and rotten leaves and rainwater as I climbed into my car. Pulling away from the curb, I noticed a mural on the side of a building, shining under a streetlamp, baiting America and the West: “Sanction us; we’ll cope.”

  The roads were silent except for the rain under my tires. I turned onto my street, a quiet lane. No one was out in the downpour, and the sidewalk felt even more isolated than usual. My husband, Javad, was not at home, and our windows were dark. I thought about the report waiting inside, on my desk, and its horrible depictions of children hanging from cranes. I fingered the keys in my pocket anxiously. Minding the puddles, and looking nervously over my shoulder, I didn’t see the note until it was directly before me. There, thumbtacked to my front door, was a message on white paper from someone who had been watching me:

  If you go on as you are now, we will be forced to end your life. If you value it, stop slandering the Islamic Republic. Stop all this noise you are making outside the country. Killing you is the easiest thing we could do.

  The story of Iran is the story of my life. Sometimes I wonder why I am so attached to my country, why the outline of Tehran’s Alborz Mountains is as intimate and precious to me as the curve of my daughter’s face, and why I feel a duty to my nation that overwhelms everything else. I remember when so many of my friends and relatives began leaving the country in the 1980s, disheartened by the bombs raining down from the war with Iraq and by the morality police checkpoints set up by the still new Islamic government. While I did not judge anyone for wanting to leave, I could not fathom the impulse. Did one leave the city where one’s children had been born? Did one walk away from the trees in the garden one planted each year, even before they bore pomegranates and walnuts and scented apples?

  For me, this was unthinkable. When I walked into the country’s highest court and the new revolutionary authorities told me that women could no longer be judges, I stayed. I stayed when the authorities demoted me to clerk in the same court I had presided over as a judge. I shut my ears when the revolutionaries who had taken over the justice system talked in my presence about how women were fickle and indecisive and unfit to mete out justice, which would now be the work of men. I stayed as the Iraqi warplanes bombed houses on our street to rubble. I stayed when the new authorities said Islam demanded violent justice, that Islam allowed for young men and women to be executed on rooftops and hung from cranes for their political beliefs, their bodies dumped in mass graves.

  In the same way that I did not leave Iran, I did not leave Islam, either. If we all packed our suitcases and boarded planes, what would be left of our country? If we bowed our heads and stayed quietly at home, permitting them to say that Islam allowed the assassination of writers and the execution of teenagers, what would be left of our faith?

  I wrote long letters to friends who had emigrated, on the thin, diaphanous paper we used for airmail in those days, and told them that I was still managing to live. In the mid-1980s, I stopped working altogether and turne
d inward, disconnected from the brutal politics of the new regime. Despite the bombs and the morality checkpoints, my husband and I raised our two girls, who went to school in pigtails and learned how to read. We had dinner together every night. My husband, Javad, continued with his work as an engineer, and I raised the girls, contemplating how I could reinvent myself, now that the judiciary had become the realm of men.

  In the early 1990s, after the war had ended, the girls were older and didn’t need me as much. I briefly tried practicing family law, but I saw quickly that the courts under the Islamic Republic operated very differently than they had under the shah. The authorities permitted women to work as lawyers, but the system and all its new procedures were so dysfunctional that it was impossible to take a case forward. On several occasions, I had trouble simply trying to review a file at the courthouse. The clerk, upon realizing that I wasn’t going to “tip” him for retrieving the file (corrupt countries have endless euphemisms for bribery), would say, “Sorry, the file is missing. Come back tomorrow.” I would go back the next day, and he would say, “Sorry, I haven’t had a chance to search for your file.” On the third or fourth day, knowing that I would keep coming back, he would finally produce the file. But because I wasn’t prepared to pay a bribe, I had lost two or three days of work.

  It was much worse in the courts. There, the person who was willing to pay more was in the right; justice was bought, not fought for or deliberated. To protest, I eventually hung a big sign in front of my law office: “Due to the current inhospitable circumstance of the courts, I will no longer be accepting clients and can only offer legal advice.” This did not feel, at the time, like a particularly risky thing to do. I was simply being honest about the country’s legal climate, rather than consciously trying to defy the state. But I see now, and learned with time, how peaceful disobedience can be a powerful act of defiance. After a while, people who could not afford to hire a lawyer—often defendants who had been accused of political crimes—found their way to me.

  The state of criminal law was especially grave after the 1979 revolution. The Islamic Republic had replaced the secular criminal code Iran had followed under the shah with a system of Islamic law based on seventh-century readings of sharia, Islamic law. I still vividly remember the case that revealed to me the full extent of the system’s dysfunction and cruelty.

  My friend Shahla Sherkat, the country’s foremost feminist editor and publisher, called to ask if I could offer any advice to the family of an eleven-year-old girl named Leila. One day, as Leila was picking wildflowers in the hills outside her village, three men snuck up and attacked her. The men raped her, struck her repeatedly on the head, and then threw her to her death over a nearby cliff. The local police arrested the men. One mysteriously hung himself in prison, and the court found the other two guilty of rape and murder. Because the laws at the time valued the life of a man convicted of murder more than that of a girl raped and tossed off a cliff, Leila’s family was held responsible for paying for their executions. The family was unable to come up with the money, and the men were released. The Islamic Republic claimed that these laws were based on the principles of blood money in Islamic sharia, but I believed that not only were they unjust, they were a distortion of true Islamic legal principles.

  In the course of seeking justice through the courts, Leila’s family became destitute. Her mother had taken to sitting outside the courthouse each day in a white shroud, silently holding up a placard that described what had happened to her daughter. As I recounted more fully in Iran Awakening, I took on their case, and while I did not manage to secure anything like justice, their ordeal shaped the sort of legal response that became my second career. Though the judge in Leila’s case accused me of contravening Islam in my arguments, I drew on Islamic law and principles to challenge him. I discovered that many judges in the Islamic Republic had little or no understanding of Islamic legal tenets, and also that many Iranian women had no idea of how egregiously the law discriminated against them. It was only when life dragged them to some dark crossroads—divorce, the death of a child, a fight over inheritance—that they realized how little status they had before the law.

  I made a showcase out of Leila’s case, writing articles and speaking out publicly, and extensive coverage in the Iranian press soon led to a public outcry. In one article I described how the criminal code around blood money holds that if a man suffers an injury that damages his testicles, he receives compensation equal to a woman’s life. I posed the question this way: If a woman with a PhD is run over by a car and dies, and an illiterate thug gets his testicle hurt in a fight, the value of that woman’s life and that thug’s testicle are equal. Is this, I wrote, how the Islamic Republic regards its women?

  For the first time since the revolution, the question of women’s equality before the law came into the national spotlight. I saw then how sympathetic Iranian society was to such injustice and how powerful public outrage could be; more than anything else, it made the authorities pay attention. It was then that I started on the course that I follow to this day, seeking justice in the law through upholding the rights of those most vulnerable—women, children, dissidents, and minorities—and pushing for legal change on the battlefield of public sentiment.

  The Islamic Republic has a myriad of shortcomings. It vests absolute power in an unelected supreme leader, harasses independent-minded clerics who challenge the religious basis of its severe Islamic rule, and pursues policies that are ideologically radical and detached from the national interests of the Iranian people. But like any regime committed to perpetuating its own power, it has on some occasions shown sensitivity to the condemnation of the international community and the brewing discontent of its own citizens. It is the system we have in place, and especially in those years, the 1990s and early 2000s, it made several reluctant adjustments to some of its most inhumane laws and policies, in response to the activism I and many colleagues in the field of human rights and the women’s movement pursued. This course seemed the only path possible to follow, bar packing up and leaving. Although, in this era, Iranians began emigrating by the thousands, both those who left and those who stayed behind remained fiercely proud of Iran the nation. We had been ruled by autocrats, kings, and now clerics; our history reached back thousands of years, all the way to Cyrus the Great, the Persian king who inscribed civilization’s first human rights charter on a clay cylinder. I viewed myself as an inheritor of this history, of the great tradition of epic Persian poetry that I had read to my girls every night before bedtime. Like most Iranians, I was bitterly disappointed in Iran’s present precisely because of the love and admiration I had for its past.

  —

  I received the Nobel Peace Prize in October 2003 for my efforts for democracy and human rights, and though you would think that this would have propelled my work in Iran and won me some grudging respect, it put me under even more pressure and scrutiny by the government. The Iranian state did everything it could to suppress the news of my award, forbidding the state radio and TV stations to so much as mention it and putting me under an even more severe news embargo. When a reporter asked President Mohammad Khatami, a reformist who was in power at the time, why he had not congratulated me, he responded, “This isn’t such an important prize. It’s only the Nobel in literature that really matters.”

  But as is always the case with Iran, there are ways to get around official censorship. News that matters finds its way to those who need to hear about it. I invited a Kurdish music group to perform at the Nobel awards ceremony. The Iranian regime has discriminated against its Kurdish minority for years, denying them the right to study in their own language and to maintain their Kurdish identity in public life. Iranian Kurds across the country watched this Kurdish group performing on satellite television and wept with pride at their inclusion. It was a small act, but symbolic, and the rumor spread among Iranian Kurds that I must be of Kurdish background. While the Iranian government sought to ignore my Nobel Prize—which ult
imately recognized the work of human rights defenders trying to peacefully moderate the country from within—we had reached an age when satellite television and digital media meant it was no longer possible to keep a nation in the dark.

  —

  Others took notice of the prize as well, particularly the women of Iran, who had long been working for equal rights and recognition; they saw in the Nobel committee’s decision a global support and awareness of their struggle. The chancellor of the all-female Alzahra University, Zahra Rahnavard, invited me to give a public lecture on women’s legal status. Rahnavard, the first woman to head a university since the Islamic Revolution, was a distinguished scholar and activist. The world would come to know her in 2009, when she appeared on the front pages of newspapers as the wife of Mir Hossein Mousavi, the Green Movement opposition leader. That day in 2003, Rahnavard greeted me at the campus lecture theater, a tall building of yellow brick surrounded by wide lawns dotted with young women reading under sycamore trees. Hundreds of students were lining up outside for seats, though the room was already filled to capacity and buzzing with voices. We were discussing where to put the lectern when the doors at the back of the auditorium flew open and a mob of about thirty women, their heads covered by black chadors, poured in, shouting angrily.

  “If Ebadi lectures here today, then tomorrow you’re going to ask for George Bush!” they yelled, pushing toward the stage, which Rahnavard and I were standing in front of. They were clearly not students; they were vigilantes supported by the state. “This lecture is canceled!” they shouted. The students in the front rose and moved toward me, forming a protective ring. Rahnavard walked forward a few paces, her face etched with fury.