Until There Was You

by Stacey Harrison

  'You are not stupid and nothing is messed up, I am just nervous. I really want to ..... with you.' She whispers and blushes, she is so adorable.

  'Are you sure, we can wait if you're not 100% sure?' I swear I would wait forever if I had too. God I hope I don't though.

  'I want to.....if you want to?' She mumbles and I can't fight the smile. I had women throw themselves at me, so how none of that has turned me on like she does.

  'Of course I want to, I just can't mess this up with you. I don't want to lose you Lexi.' I whisper the last part.

  'I don't want to lose you either, you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.' she smiles and pecks me on the lips lightly.

  'You are so beautiful.'

  She pulls my lips back to hers, our tongues mating and dancing with so much fire. I need her now but I hold back, take my time. I run my hands down her body my own heart skipping a beat.

  I pull her up so she is sat up on the end of my bed and kneel between her legs my grey eyes and her blue ones. I lift the hem of my t shirt trailing my hands against her soft skin slowly, she lifts her arms to help me. Her cheeks flushing deeper the higher I go.

  I lay her back on the bed and remove my own shirt before I rest on top of her supporting my weight on my elbows as our tongues mingle again. Skin on skin, heart to heart, as my tongue plunges deeper into her mouth. I start kissing down her neck, peppering little kisses across her collar bone worshipping every inch of skin in my path. She moans in the back of her throat and it drives me wild with desire.

  I continue down the valley of her breasts, down her stomach when she wriggles letting out a soft, girly giggle. I smirk against her belly so she's ticklish. I retrace my way back up towards her breast. Her rosy nipples extended into tight points, she moans loudly as I take one in my mouth and suck gently, rolling the other between my fingers. I wonder if I could make her come this way.

  'Oh God!' She moans as I continue my sweet torture, swapping nipples biting a little and tugging the other. She is nearly there I can tell, her moaning is so loud. God she is sexy. Her head tilts back and her body trembles as she reaches her peak, I want to fist pump the air when she moans my name.

  I kiss back down her body, sliding down her sweatpants with ease, no underwear fuck that's hot. I kiss from hip bone to hip bone and she squirms, I run my hands up her thighs towards her sex. She is drenched and so hot she moans loudly when my finger pushes inside her, oh god she is so tight. She cries out when I enter the second finger.

  'Hush baby, it will help don't worry.' I say trying to pacify her, praying she doesn't make me stop. I can't wait any longer as I roll over and reach for a condom. Before I do this I need her to be completely sure.

  'Are you sure you want to do this baby?' My voice husky and thick with my arousal.

  'You can always say no.'

  'I want this......I need you.'

  'It's going to hurt at first but it will get better.' I feel the need to warn her.

  'I am not completely stupid Liam, I still want this.' She chuckles and she looks better than I ever imagined, hair spread all around her head, eyes bright in excitement and her lips red from our heated kisses. A big smile on her face making my heart melt. I need her now, I can't wait a moment more.

  I lower myself towards her entrance, looking in her eyes one last time to be sure, she nods shyly biting her lip. I kiss her frantically as I gently push into her her and she whimpers. I continue and savour her hot, wet tightness like a fist squeezing me.

  God she feels amazing, I nearly lose it then and now. I still for a second so I can compose myself and she can adjust to the unfamiliar intrusion. Kissing away the tears on her temples my heart squeezes painfully as I stroke the stray hairs off her forehead.

  'Are you ready babe, we can still stop if you want?' I ask sincerely feeling gutted it's hurting her but I really don't want to stop. She pushes her hips to meet mine and cries out as I moan. I slowly start to move and after a few times she thrusts her hips to meet my thrusts, our bodies move in sync her nails rake down my back. God its never felt this good before. We pick up speed and before long she comes apart, screaming my name and the tightening of her walls tips me over the edge. Holding her close to me I kiss her forehead, both our breathing ragged but relaxed.

  She falls asleep sprawled across my chest, her soft breaths calming me, pulling me towards sleep. Never have I ever felt this content, this at peace. I am scared by the fact I am falling hard and fast for this amazing girl and I couldn't care less.

  I lie there holding her in my arms, taking in everything that has happened and I can't help but be thankful that fate gave me this beautiful girl to protect, even maybe love. With thoughts of what the future holds for us I drift off into a deep, peaceful much needed sleep.

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  Chapter Nine

  Lexi

  I wake up because I feel warm, too warm. I feel a weight pinning me to the bed, holding me down and I freak out. Panic rises when I realize I can't move, I take a second to gather my bearings and think logically before I react.

  'Good Morning Sunshine.' A husky voice mumbles sleepily and I immediately relax into him. Liam, the weight moves from my body. I roll over to face him tensing at the ache between my legs. He looks so young and carefree when he has just wakes up, hair sticking up in different directions. I realize I don't actually know his age, or much else for that matter.

  'Good Morning.' I reply shyly. I go to get out of the bed, the pressing urge to pee taking over but he grabs my waist and pulls me under him.

  'Are you OK Lex?' His face all serious, eyes searching my face for any sign of dishonesty.

  'I am good, a bit sore but it was worth it.' I smile and he relaxes smiling a dazzling panty dropping, boy next door smile that makes me swoon and my knees weaken. Man I love that smile.

  'Thanks, I love your smile too.' He chuckles and I realize I said that out loud. I am a moron. I run to the bathroom to hide my blush, God I am so embarrassed and he's making it worse by laughing loudly at me.

  As I re-enter the bedroom I am greeted by an empty bed, I take a moment to think about how amazing last night was. He was so sweet and caring , I was surprised he fit. Even though it was painful at first it turned into immense pleasure. I was lost in the thought of his hands and lips and how they felt on my body that I don't hear him come behind me, jumping out of my skin when two arms wraps around my waist and his head nuzzles my neck.

  'Do you regret it?' He whispers in my ear, the uncertainty in his voice surprises me.

  'No never, do you?' I reply truthfully, even if this never went any further and I never saw him again I would never regret that he was my first time. It was everything I could of dreamed of.

  'No way, it was the best night of my life.' His voice raw. He clears his throat and kisses my cheek sweetly as I melt into him.

  'I made coffee but... I don't know how you take it.' He seems embarrassed which makes me chuckle.

  'Milky, three sugars.' I tell him and he shakes his head.

  'What I like it sweet.'

  'So do I babe, so do I.' He says and my heart melts. I turn around and peck him on the lips.

  'We really don't know much about each other do we?' I mutter into his chest.

  We sit at the breakfast bar drinking our coffees, ready to play 20 questions. His bright idea. Not mine.

  'How old are you?' I ask and he tenses, this can't be good.

  'I am 24.' He gulps 'Does that bother you?'

  'Should it?' I raise an eyebrow and shrug.

  'Well ahh.....it doesn't bother me, we are both adults but that doesn't mean you have to be okay with it.' He mutters and I can't help but think he looks cute, so I let him sweat a while longer.

  'It doesn't matter to me either.' I chirp happily.

  'Good.' he smiles. 'So whats your full name?'

  'Alexis Anne Cross'

  'Pretty.' he chuckles

 
; 'You?'

  'Liam Landon Coltan.'

  'Pretty' I snicker playfully and he laughs.

  'Birthday?' he smiles.

  '4th July.' I smile back 'Your?'

  '7th May.' He grins 'Favourite food?'

  'Pizza, ham and pineapple. You?'

  'Any red meat with all the trimmings.' He licks his lips.

  'Favourite music?' I ask..

  'Dance, Pop, Indie anything really.' He shrugs.

  'Me too.'

  We soon get tired of the game and my belly hurts from laughing so much.

  'So what do you want to do today?' He muses.

  'I need to go home..' I don't get to finish my sentence before he cuts me off and boy does he look pissed.

  'What? Your not serious? Over my dead body are you going back there! How can you even want to? I thought you enjoyed last night, hell you even said our age doesn't matter not half an hour ago and now you want to leave me? Why Alexis?' He snarls and god does he look scary, I don't even recognize the man before me.

  'I just wanted my clothes.' I whisper afraid what he will do next.

  'Oh Shit, I thought you meant.....Hell Lexi, I am sorry......I panicked your not safe there and I couldn't.......I thought... Fuck! Lexi I am so, so sorry.' He pleads, his face guilt ridden but I just want to run and hide.

  'Lexi.' He breaths out.

  'It's fine.' I try to hold back my tears and stop my whole body trembling but just give up and run to the bathroom. I lock the door as tears stream down my face, I can't get my head round the fact one minute he was laughing and the next he was screaming in my face. He didn't even let me explain, I only wanted my clothes. I understand I can never go back there, if that creep didn't tell me that, I am completely stupid.

  'Lexi.' There is a soft knock at the door, he sounds so broken and awful but I am just not ready to face him yet.

  I am scared.

  "Lexi, Baby.... Please. I'm sorry..."

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  Chapter Ten

  Liam

  God what have I done? I am such a dickhead! When she said she wanted to go home my mind jumped to the conclusion she wanted to leave me, to go back to him and I flipped. Fuck I didn't even let her explain, she looked so scared of me, she must know I would never hurt her. I mean I understand we haven't known each other long but for fucks sake, we made love a few hours ago.

  I have to talk to her, apologize. Hell I will beg if I need to, I can't believe I have screwed up already. It's like I can never get it right with her.

  'Lexi' I say as I tap on the bathroom door. I can hear her crying through the door and I have never hated myself as much as I do now.

  "Lexi, Baby. Please...I'm sorry..." Still nothing but soft whimpers from the other side.

  'Lexi please, come out so I can explain.' Yeah like you let her my mind sneers at me. I was about to knock again when my Mothers voice shatters my ear drums. I do not need this right now!

  'Liam Landon Coltan I need to speak with you now!' Oh great my full name this can't be good. What have I done now?

  'Now is not a good time Mother.' The irritation clear in my tone.

  'Boy I am your Mother, what on gods green earth could be more important?' She snaps arms folded all 5 foot 1 of her trying to appear intimidating. It works, normally nobody can manage to unnerve me. However the formidable Rose Coltan manages every time. However right now Lexi is slipping through my fingers and that thought was more scary.

  'Mother please, whatever it is it can wait right now.' I respond praying that she will just leave, but I should of known better. It's like poking a bear.

  'I had poor Mellissa on the phone crying her heart out, telling me how my only son cheated on her and had the damn cheek to bad mouth the woman who gave him life.' Her voice rising at the end.

  'Firstly, its not cheating if your single. Secondly, nothing happened with Alexis before she came barging into MY house. Thirdly, did you or did you not tell 'poor' Mellissa I wanted to marry her?' I yell back 'Somebody is a liar here, and it isn't me!'

  'I thought you would come to your senses by now and realize what a beautiful, well mannered, bright young woman she is. You could do a lot worse and it is about time you act your age and settle down Liam.' She states not even fazed as I stare back in horror.

  'For your information I am settling down Mother.' I say before I can stop myself, she looks at me in shock then her eyes narrow in suspicion.

  'Please don't tell me its that tramp Mellissa caught you with yesterday.' She scoffs then when I don't answer she glares at me.

  'Liam so help me god I will not accept you marrying some money grabbing whore and ruining this families good name for crying out loud. How can you be so stupid? Think about my image here. How would it look on me.....and your family?' She pleads.

  I just stand there my mouth opening and closing as words fail me. She can't be serious but one look at her face tells me she most certainly is. I can't decide if I am more angry or insulted. How dare she call Lexi them dreadful things, she has never even met her I fume silently not wanting to get into it with her, I need to get back to Lexi.

  'Leave.' I order coldly, pointing to the door to emphasize my point.

  'Excuse me?' She looks so hurt but I can't seem to care about my Mother's dramatics at this moment in time.

  'You heard me, leave now. I will not have you stand there and slate the most amazing girl I have ever met, when you haven't had the opportunity to yourself yet you still judge her.'

  'You will regret this Son, you just wait. I don't need to meet her I have met all your other 'girlfriends' and I can guess she won't be any different. Good in the sack, bad on the bank balance.' With them words she storms out before I can respond.

  I know Lexi heard all of that now she is defiantly going to leave me but the truth is she nothing like my other girlfriends. Polar opposites in fact.

  'You can come out now, she's gone.' I call out, hoping she wants to, hell i know i wouldn't.

  The bathroom door opens and she stands there tear stained face, wringing her fingers.

  'I'm sorry.' She mumbles.

  'Please don't apologize Lex, I should be it was my fault I was an arse. I didn't let you finish...' I huff. 'I am sorry can you forgive me?'

  She hugs me and I hold her in my arms grateful she is there and not running scared from me, or my crazy Mother.

  'Do you want to talk about it? I want to explain.' She nods and I lead her to the sofa. Deep breaths Liam, deep breaths.

  'What my Mother said, don't pay no mind. She is just angry at me over Melissa.' I explain.

  'I don't want your money Liam, I mean I know you must have a lot because of this place and the £500.' She swallows 'But I didn't realize you were really rich or anything. You are though arn't you?' She looks down like it's a bad thing.

  'I know you don't Lexi, that's what makes me like you more....having said that yes I am really, really rich but that doesn't change anything between us.'

  'I don't know Liam, I just don't know. Everybody is going to think of me like your Mother does, poor little whore girl that's got her claws into the nice, handsome rich man.'

  'You were never a whore.' I growl, angered she can even consider herself that way.

  'Thats not the point, the fact is you paid for me......I can never repay you, even if I gave you everything I own it wouldn't even make a dent in that. Don't you see I will just embarrass you and cost you more money.' She says sadly.

  'I don't care about the damn money Lexi, it was the best £500 I ever spent to have you in my life, I would pay every penny I have to keep you. I don't want a penny from you, I wouldn't take it from you if you offered. I just want you. I know its stupid, we haven't known each other long and I don't even understand this myself but I feel something for you I have never felt for anyone. Please all I am asking for is a chance, I can make you happy Lexi. I promise.' I pour my heart out praying its worth it, I don't want her to
shut me down.

  'I don't understand what you mean, why me? Why not Mellissa? She is beautiful and smart plus your Mother already loves her....'

  'How else can I make you see it Alexis, I. WANT. YOU. I even told my Mother its you I want, if that doesn't say it clearly I don't know what will. You make me laugh, except now of course.' I smile at her. 'You are beautiful yet you can't see it and you are honest, you have the biggest heart I have ever known. You are far better for me than Melissa will ever be.' I am pulling at my hair in stress, god why won't she except me!

  She kisses me hard on the mouth and I melt into her, god she is so perfect but I need to hear her say it. I stop and look down at her expectant, praying she doesn't rip my heart out.

  'I want you too Liam, I have never felt as safe and happy as I do when I am with you. What you make me feel scares me, it's wrong so soon. I want to be with you for as long as you want me.' She smiles and my heart jumps. She wants to be with me. I kiss her again intent on taking her to my bedroom and showing her how much I want her, need only her.

  My phone vibrates in my pocket and she squeals in surprise, breaking our kiss. Whoever it is better have a good reason for interrupting me and my girl. Dad, three guesses as to what this is about.

  'It's my Dad.' I kiss her forehead. 'If I don't answer he will just keep ringing.' I kiss her lips and can't stop myself from deepening the kiss as the phone stops ringing, maybe this time he will give up I think as we get more heated and a rest my hands on her arse. Then it starts again and we both laugh.

  'Answer it already.' She chuckles and moves away from me.

  'You don't have to leave the room.' I tell her as I answer and we sit on the sofa my arm around her and her legs on my lap.

  'Dad, to what do I owe the pleasure?' I can't help but be happy with Lexi cuddled up to me.

  'Boy what the hell have you done to your Mother?! He sounds livid so I release Lexi and sit forward.

  'What exactly has she said I have done? Has she told you about Melissa or what about her surprise visit?' I run my free hand though my messy hair in frustration.