Complete Works of F. Scott Fitzgerald UK (Illustrated)

by F. Scott Fitzgerald

  Her phone rang and I waited restlessly during a long conversation she had with Joe Rienmund. He seemed to be trying to find out over the phone how good she was or whether she had ever written any pictures at all. And she was reputed to have been on the set the day Griffith invented the close-up! While he talked she groaned silently, writhed, made faces into the receiver, held it all in her lap so that the voice reached her faintly — and kept up a side chatter to me.

  “What is he doing — killing time between appointments?… He’s asked me every one of these questions ten times… that’s all on a memorandum I sent him….”

  And into the phone: “If this goes up to Monroe it won’t be my doing. I want to go right through to the end.”

  She shut her eyes in agony again.

  “Now he’s casting it… he’s casting the minor characters… he’s going to have Buddy Ebsen…. My God he just hasn’t anything to do… now he’s on Harry Davenport — he means Donald Crisp… he’s got a big casting directory open in his lap and I can hear him turn the pages… he’s a big important man this morning, a second Stahr, and for Christ sake I’ve got two scenes to do before lunch.”

  Rienmund quit finally or was interrupted at his end. A waiter came in from the commissary with Rose’s luncheon and a Coca-Cola for me — I wasn’t lunching that summer. Rose wrote down one sentence on her typewriter before she ate. It interested me the way she wrote. One day I was there when she and a young man had just lifted a story out of “The Saturday Evening Post” — changing the characters and all. Then they began to write it making each line answer the line before it, and of course it sounded just like people do in life when they’re straining to be anything — funny or gentle or brave. I always wanted to see that one on the screen but I missed it somehow.

  I found her as lovable as a cheap old toy. She made three thousand a week, and her husbands all drank and beat her nearly to death. But today I had an axe to grind.

  “You don’t know her name?” I persisted.

  “Oh — “ said Rose “ — that. Well, he kept calling her up afterwards and he told Katy Doolan it was the wrong name after all.”

  “I think he found her,” I said. “Do you know Martha Dodd?”

  “Hasn’t that little girl had a tough break though!” she exclaimed

  with ready theatrical sympathy.

  “Could you possibly invite her to lunch tomorrow?”

  “Oh, I think she gets enough to eat all right. There’s a Mexican — “

  I explained that my motives were not charitable. Rose agreed to

  cooperate. She called Martha Dodd.

  We had lunch next day at the Bev Brown Derby, a languid restaurant patronized for its food by clients who always look as if they’d like to lie down. There is some animation at lunch where the women put on a show for the first five minutes after they eat but we were a tepid threesome. I should have come right out with my curiosity. Martha Dodd was an agricultural girl who had never quite understood what had happened to her and had nothing to show for it except a washed out look about the eyes. She still believed that the life she had tasted was reality and this was only a long waiting.

  “I had a beautiful place in 1928,” she told us. “Thirty acres, with a miniature golf course and a pool and a gorgeous view. All spring I was up to my ass in daisies.”

  I ended by asking her to come over and meet Father. This was pure penance for having had “a mixed motive” and being ashamed of it. One doesn’t mix motives in Hollywood — it is confusing. Everybody understands, and the climate wears you down. A mixed motive is conspicuous waste.

  Rose left us at the studio gate, disgusted by my cowardice. Martha had worked up inside to a pitch about her career — not a very high pitch because of seven years of neglect but a sort of nervous acquiescence and I was going to speak strongly to Father. They never did anything for people like Martha who had made them so much money at one time. They let them slip away into misery eked out with extra work — it would have been kinder to ship them out of town. And Father was being so proud of me this summer. I had to keep him from telling everybody) just how I was brought up to produce such a perfect jewel. And Bennington — oh what an exclusive — dear God my heart. I assured him there was the usual proportion of natural born skivies and biddies tastefully concealed by throw overs from Sex, Fifth Avenue; but Father had worked himself up to practically an alumnus. “You’ve had everything,” he used to say happily. Everything included roughly the two years in Florence where I managed against heavy odds to be the only virgin in school, and the courtesy debut in Boston, Massachusetts. I was a veritable flower of the fine old cost-and-gross aristocracy.

  So I knew he would do something for Martha Dodd and as we went into his office I had great dreams of doing something for Johnny Swanson the cowboy too and Evelyn Brent and all sorts of discarded flowers. Father was a charming and sympathetic man — except for that time I had seen him unexpectedly in New York — and there was something touching about his being my father. After all he was my father — he would do anything in the world for me.

  Only Rosemary Schmiel was in the outer office and she was on Birdy Peters’ phone. She waved for me to sit down but I was full of my plans and telling Martha to take it easy I pressed the clicker under Rosemary’s desk and went toward the opened door.

  “Your father’s in conference,” Rosemary called. “Not in conference but I ought to — “

  By this time I was through the door and a little vestibule and another door and caught Father in his shirt sleeves, very sweaty and trying to open a window. It was a hot day but I hadn’t realized it was that hot and thought he was ill.

  “No, I’m all right,” he said. “What is it?”

  I told him. I told him the whole theory of people like Martha Dodd, walking up and down his office. How he could use them and guarantee them regular employment. He seemed to take me up excitedly and kept nodding and agreeing, and I felt closer to him than I had for a long time. I came close and kissed him on his cheek. He was trembling and his shirt was soaked through.

  “You’re not well,” I said. “Or you’re in some sort of stew.”

  “No, I’m not at all.”

  “What is it?”

  “Oh it’s Monroe,” he said. “That God damn little Vine Street Jesus! He’s in my hair night and day!”

  “What’s happened?” I asked, very much cooler.

  “Oh, he sits like a little God damn priest or rabbi and says what he’ll do and he won’t do. I can’t tell you now — I’m half crazy. Why don’t you go along.”

  “I won’t have you like this.”

  “Go along I tell you!” I sniffed but he never drank.

  “Go and brush your hair,” I said. “I want you to see Martha Dodd.”

  “In here! I’d never get rid of her.”

  “Out there then. Go wash up first. Put on another shirt.”

  With an exaggerated gesture of despair he went into the little bathroom adjoining. It was hot in the office as if it had been closed for hours and maybe that was making him sick so I opened two more windows.

  “You go along,” Father called from behind the closed door of the bathroom. “I’ll be there presently.”

  “Be awfully nice to her,” I said. “No charity.”

  As if it were Martha speaking for herself a long low moan came from somewhere in the room. I was startled — then transfixed as it came again not from the bathroom where Father was, not from outside but from a closet in the wall across from me. How I was brave enough I don’t know but I ran across to it and opened it and Father’s secretary Birdy Peters tumbled out stark naked — just like a corpse in the movies. With her came a gust of stifling, stuffy air. She flopped sideways on the floor with the one hand still clutching some clothes and lay on the floor bathed in sweat — just as Father came in from the bathroom. I could feel him standing behind me and without turning I knew exactly how he looked, for I had surprised him before.

  “Cover her up,
” I said, covering her up myself with a rug from the couch. “Cover her up!”

  I left the office. Rosemary Schmiel saw my face as I came out and responded with a terrified expression. I never saw her again or Birdy Peters either. As Martha and I went out Martha asked “What’s the matter dear?” — and when I didn’t say anything, “You did your best. Probably it was the wrong time. I’ll tell you what I’ll do. I’ll take you to see a very nice English girl. Did you see the girl that Stahr danced with at our table the other night?”

  So at the price of a little immersion in the family drains I had what I wanted.

  I don’t remember much about our call. She wasn’t at home was one reason. The screen door of her house was unlocked and Martha went in calling “Kathleen” with bright familiarity. The room we saw was bare and formal as a hotel; there were flowers about but they did not look like sent flowers. Also Martha found a note on the table which said, “Leave the dress. Have gone looking for a job. Will drop by tomorrow.”

  Martha read it twice but it didn’t seem to be for Stahr, and we waited five minutes. People’s houses are very still when they are gone. Not that I expect them to be jumping around but I leave the observation for what it’s worth. Very still. Prim almost with just a fly holding down the place and paying no attention to you, and the corner of a curtain blowing.

  “I wonder what kind of a job,” said Martha. “Last Sunday she went somewhere with Stahr.”

  But I was no longer interested. It seemed awful to be here — producer’s blood, I thought in horror. And in quick panic I pulled her out into the placid sunshine. It was no use — I felt just black and awful. I had always been proud of my body — I had a way of thinking of it as geometric which made everything it did seem all right and there was probably not any kind of place, including churches and offices and shrines, where people had not embraced — but no one had ever stuffed me naked into a hole in the wall in the middle of a business day.

  Episode 16

  “If you were in a drug store,” said Stahr “ — having a prescription filled — “

  “You mean a chemist?” Boxley asked.

  “If you were in a chemist’s,” conceded Stahr, “and you were getting a prescription for some member of your family who was very sick — “

  “ — Very ill?” queried Boxley.

  “Very ill. Then whatever caught your attention through the window, whatever distracted you and held you would probably be material for pictures.”

  “A murder outside the window, you mean.”

  “There you go,” said Stahr smiling. “It might be a spider working on the pane.”

  “Of course — I see.”

  “I’m afraid you don’t, Mr. Boxley. You see it for your medium but not for ours. You keep the spiders for yourself and you try to pin the murders on us.”

  “I might as well leave,” said Boxley. “I’m no good to you. I’ve been here three weeks and I’ve accomplished nothing. I make suggestions but no one writes them down.”

  “I want you to stay. Something in you doesn’t like pictures, doesn’t like telling a story this way — “

  “It’s such a damned bother,” exploded Boxley. “You can’t let yourself go — “

  He checked himself. He knew that Stahr, the helmsman, was finding time for him in the middle of a constant stiff blow — that they were talking in the always creaking rigging of a ship sailing in great awkward tacks along an open sea. Or else — it seemed at times — they were in a huge quarry where even the newly cut marble bore the tracery of old pediments, half obliterated inscriptions of the past.

  “I keep wishing you could start over,” Boxley said. “It’s this mass production.”

  “That’s the condition,” said Stahr. “There’s always some lousy condition. We’re making a life of Rubens — suppose I asked you to do portraits of rich dopes like Pat Brady and me and Gary Cooper and Marcus when you wanted to paint Jesus Christ! Wouldn’t you feel you had a condition? Our condition is that we have to take people’s own favorite folklore and dress it up and give it back to them. Anything beyond that is sugar. So won’t you give us some sugar, Mr. Boxley?”

  Boxley knew he could sit with Wylie White tonight at the Troc raging at Stahr, but he had been reading Lord Charnwood and he recognized that Stahr like Lincoln was a leader carrying on a long war on many fronts; almost single — handed he had moved pictures sharply forward through a decade, to a point where the content of the “A productions” was wider and richer than that of the stage. Stahr was an artist only as Mr. Lincoln was a general, perforce and as a layman.

  “Come down to La Borwits’ office with me,” said Stahr. “They sure need some sugar there.”

  In La Borwits’ office two writers, a shorthand secretary and a supervisor sat in a tense smokey stalemate where Stahr had left them three hours before. He looked at the faces one after another and found nothing. La Borwits spoke with awed reverence for his defeat.

  “We’ve just got too many characters, Monroe.” Stahr snorted affably. “That’s the principal idea of the picture.” He took some change out of his pocket, looked up at the suspended light and tossed up half a dollar which clanked into the bowl. He looked at the coins in his hands and selected a quarter.

  La Borwits watched miserably; he knew this was a favorite idea of Stahr’s and he saw the sands running out. At the moment everyone’s back was toward him. Suddenly he brought up his hands from their placid position under the desk and threw them high in the air, so high that they seemed to leave his wrists — and then he caught them neatly as they were descending. After that he felt better. He was in control.

  One of the writers had taken out some coins also and presently rules were defined. “You have to toss your coin through the chains without hitting them. Whatever falls into the light is the kitty.”

  They played for half an hour — all except Boxley who sat aside and dug into the script, and the secretary who kept tally. She calculated the cost of the four men’s time, arriving at a figure of sixteen hundred dollars. At the end La Borwits was winner by $5.50 and a janitor brought in a step-ladder to take the money out of the light.

  Boxley spoke up suddenly.

  “You have the stuffings of a tuhkey here,” he said.

  “What!”

  “It’s not pictures.”

  They looked at him in astonishment. Stahr concealed a smile.

  “So we’ve got a real picture man here!” exclaimed La Borwits.

  “A lot of beautiful speeches,” said Boxley boldly. “But no situations. After all, you know, it’s not going to be a novel: and it’s too long. I can’t exactly describe how I feel but it’s not quite right. And it leaves me cold.”

  He was giving them back what had been handed him for three weeks. Stahr turned away, watching the others out of he corner of his eye.

  “We don’t need less characters,” said Boxley. “We need more. As I see it that’s the idea.”

  “That’s the idea,” said the writers.

  “Yes — that’s the idea,” said La Borwits.

  Boxley was inspired by the attention he had created.

  “Let each character see himself in the other’s place,” he said. “The policeman is about to arrest the thief when he sees that the thief actually has his face. I mean show it that way. You could almost call the thing ‘Put Yourself in My Place.’”

  Suddenly they were at work again — taking up this new theme in turn like hepcats in a swing band and going to town with it. They might throw it out again tomorrow but life had come back for a moment. Pitching the coins had done it as much as Boxley. Stahr had recreated the proper atmosphere — never consenting to be a driver of the driven, but feeling like and acting like and sometimes even looking like a small boy getting up a show.

  He left them, touching Boxley on the shoulder in passing — a deliberate accolade — he didn’t want them to gang up on him and break his spirit in an hour.

  Doctor Baer was waiting in his inner office
. With him was a colored man with a portable cardiograph like a huge suitcase. Stahr called it the lie detector. He stripped to the waist and the weekly examination began.

  “How’ve you been feeling?”

  “Oh — the usual,” said Stahr.

  “Been hard at it? Getting any sleep?”

  “No — about five hours. If I go to bed early I just lie there.”

  “Take the sleeping pills.”

  “The yellow one gives me a hangover.”

  “Take two red ones then.”

  “That’s a nightmare.”

  “Take one of each — the yellow first.”

  “All right — I’ll try. How’ve you been?”

  “Say — I take care of myself, Monroe. I save myself.”

  “The hell you do — you’re up all night sometimes.”

  “Then I sleep all next day.”

  After ten minutes Baer said:

  “Seems O. K. The blood pressure’s up five points.”

  “Good,” said Stahr. “That’s good isn’t it?”

  “That’s good. I’ll develop the cardiograms tonight. When are you coming away with me?”

  “Oh, some time,” said Stahr lightly. “In about six weeks things’ll ease up.”

  Baer looked at him with a genuine looking that had grown over three years.

  “You got better in thirty-three when you laid up,” he said. “Even for three weeks.”

  “I will again.”

  No he wouldn’t, Baer thought. With Minna’s help he had enforced a few short rests years ago and lately he had hinted around trying to find who Stahr considered his closest friends. Who could take him away and keep him away. It would almost surely be useless. He was due to die very soon now. Within six months one could say definitely. What was the use of developing the cardiograms? You couldn’t persuade a man like Stahr to stop and lie down and look at the sky for six months. He would much rather die. He said differently but what it added up to was the definite urge toward total exhaustion that he had run into before. Fatigue was a drug as well as a poison and Stahr apparently derived some rare almost physical pleasure from working lightheaded with weariness. It was a perversion of the life force he had seen before but he had almost stopped trying to interfere with it. He had cured a man or so — a hollow triumph of killing and preserving the shell.