Nine Stories

by Jerome David Salinger

  «Teddy, did you hear me?»

  Teddy was not leaning out of the porthole quite so far or so precariously as small boys are apt to lean out of open portholes—both his feet, in fact, were flat on the surface of the Gladstone—but neither was he just conservatively well‑tipped; his face was considerably more outside than inside the cabin. Nonetheless, he was well within hearing of his father’s voice—his father’s voice, that is, most singularly. Mr. McArdle played leading roles on no fewer than three daytime radio serials when he was in New York, and he had what might be called a third‑class leading man’s speaking voice:

  narcissistically deep and resonant, functionally prepared at a moment’s notice to outmale anyone in the same room with it, if necessary even a small boy. When it was on vacation from its professional chores, it fell, as a rule, alternately in love with sheer volume and a theatrical brand of quietness‑steadiness. Right now, volume was in order.

  «Teddy. God damn it—did you hear me?»

  Teddy turned around at the waist, without changing the vigilant position of his feet on the Gladstone, and gave his father a look of inquiry, whole and pure. His eyes, which were pale brown in color, and not at all large, were slightly crossed—the left eye more than the right. They were not crossed enough to be disfiguring, or even to be necessarily noticeable at first glance. They were crossed just enough to be mentioned, and only in context with the fact that one might have thought long and seriously before wishing them straighter, or deeper, or browner, or wider set. His face, just as it was, carried the impact, however oblique and slow‑travelling, of real beauty.

  «I want you to get down off that bag, now. How many times do you want me to tell you?» Mr. McArdle said.

  «Stay exactly where you are, darling,” said Mrs. McArdle, who evidently had a little trouble with her sinuses early in the morning. Her eyes were open, but only just. «Don’t move the tiniest part of an inch.» She was lying on her right side, her face, on the pillow, turned left, toward Teddy and the porthole, her back to her husband. Her second sheet was drawn tight over her very probably nude body, enclosing her, arms and all, up to the chin. «Jump up and down,” she said, and closed her eyes. «Crush Daddy’s bag.»

  «That’s a Jesus‑brilliant thing to say,” Mr. McArdle said quietly‑steadily, addressing the back of his wife’s head. «I pay twenty‑two pounds for a bag, and I ask the boy civilly not to stand on it, and you tell him to jump up and down on it. What’s that supposed to be? Funny?»

  «If that bag can’t support a ten‑year‑old boy, who’s thirteen pounds underweight for his age, I don’t want it in my cabin,” Mrs. McArdle said, without opening her eyes.

  «You know what I’d like to do?» Mr. McArdle said. «I’d like to kick your goddam head open.»

  «Why don’t you?»

  Mr. McArdle abruptly propped himself up on one elbow and squashed out his cigarette stub on the glass top of the night table. «One of these days—» he began grimly.

  «One of these days, you’re going to have a tragic, tragic heart attack,” Mrs. McArdle said, with a minimum of energy. Without bringing her arms into the open, she drew her top sheet more tightly around and under her body. «There’ll be a small, tasteful funeral, and everybody’s going to ask who that attractive woman in the red dress is, sitting there in the first row, flirting with the organist and making a holy—»

  «You’re so goddam funny it isn’t even funny,” Mr. McArdle said, lying inertly on his back again.

  During this little exchange, Teddy had faced around and resumed looking out of the porthole. «We passed the Queen Mary at three‑thirty‑two this morning, going the other way, if anybody’s interested,” he said slowly. «Which I doubt.» His voice was oddly and beautifully rough cut, as some small boys’ voices are. Each of his phrasings was rather like a little ancient island, inundated by a miniature sea of whiskey. «That deck steward Booper despises had it on his blackboard.»

  «I’ll Queen Mary you, buddy, if you don’t get off that bag this minute,” his father said.

  He turned his head toward Teddy. «Get down from there, now. Go get yourself a haircut or something.» He looked at the back of his wife’s head again. «He looks precocious, for God’s sake.»

  «I haven’t any money,” Teddy said. He placed his hands more securely on the sill of the porthole, and lowered his chin onto the backs of his fingers. «Mother. You know that man who sits right next to us in the dining room? Not the very thin one. The other one, at the same table. Right next to where our waiter puts his tray down.»

  «Mm‑hmm,” Mrs. McArdle said. «Teddy. Darling. Let Mother sleep just five minutes more, like a sweet boy.»

  «Wait just a second. This is quite interesting,” Teddy said, without raising his chin from its resting place and without taking his eyes off the ocean. «He was in the gym a little while ago, while Sven was weighing me. He came up and started talking to me. He heard that last tape I made. Not the one in April. The one in May. He was at a party in Boston just before he went to Europe, and somebody at the party knew somebody in the Leidekker examining group—he didn’t say who—and they borrowed that last tape I made and played it at the party. He seems very interested in it. He’s a friend of Professor Babcock’s. Apparently he’s a teacher himself. He said he was at Trinity College in Dublin, all summer.»

  «Oh?» said Mrs. McArdle. «At a party they played it?» She lay gazing sleepily at the backs of Teddy’s legs.

  «I guess so,” Teddy said. «He told Sven quite a bit about me, right while I was standing there. It was rather embarrassing.»

  «Why should it be embarrassing?»

  Teddy hesitated. «I said `rather’ embarrassing. I qualified it.»

  «I’ll qualify you, buddy, if you don’t get the hell off that bag,” Mr. McArdle said. He had just lit a fresh cigarette. «I’m going to count three. One, God damn it… Two…»

  «What time is it?» Mrs. McArdle suddenly asked the backs of Teddy’s legs. «Don’t you and Booper have a swimming lesson at ten‑thirty?»

  «We have time,” Teddy said. ” —Vloom!» He suddenly thrust his whole head out of the porthole, kept it there a few seconds, then brought it in just long enough to report, «Someone just dumped a whole garbage can of orange peels out the window.»

  «Out the window. Out the window,” Mr. McArdle said sarcastically, flicking his ashes.

  «Out the porthole, buddy, out the porthole.» He glanced over at his wife. «Call Boston.

  Quick, get the Leidekker examining group on the phone.»

  «Oh, you’re such a brilliant wit,” Mrs. McArdle said. «Why do you try?»

  Teddy took in most of his head. «They float very nicely,” he said without turning around. «That’s interesting.»

  «Teddy. For the last time. I’m going to count three, and then I’m-»

  «I don’t mean it’s interesting that they float,” Teddy said. «It’s interesting that I know about them being there. If I hadn’t seen them, then I wouldn’t know they were there, and if I didn’t know they were there, I wouldn’t be able to say that they even exist.

  That’s a very nice, perfect example of the way—»

  «Teddy,” Mrs. McArdle interrupted, without visibly stirring under her top sheet. «Go find Booper for me. Where is she? I don’t want her lolling around in that sun again today, with that bum.»

  «She’s adequately covered. I made her wear her dungarees,” Teddy said. «Some of them are starting to sink now. In a few minutes, the only place they’ll still be floating will be inside my mind. That’s quite interesting, because if you look at it a certain way, that’s where they started floating in the first place. If I’d never been standing here at all, or if somebody’d come along and sort of chopped my head off right while I was—»

  «Where is she now?» Mrs. McArdle asked. «Look at Mother a minute, Teddy.»

  Teddy turned and looked at his mother. «What?» he said.

  «Where’s Booper now? I don’t want her meandering all ar
ound the deck chairs again, bothering people. If that awful man—»

  «She’s all right. I gave her the camera.»

  Mr. McArdle lurched up on one arm. «You gave her the cameral» he said. «What the hell’s the idea? My goddam Leica! I’m not going to have a six‑year‑old child gallivanting all over—»

  «I showed her how to hold it so she won’t drop it,” Teddy said. «And I took the film out, naturally.»

  «I want that camera, Teddy. You hear me? I want you to get down off that bag this minute, and I want that camera back in this room in five minutes—or there’s going to be one little genius among the missing. Is that clear?»

  Teddy turned his feet around on the Gladstone, and stepped down. He bent over and tied the lace of his left sneaker while his father, still raised up on one elbow, watched him like a monitor.

  «Tell Booper I want her,” Mrs. McArdle said. «And give Mother a kiss.»

  Finished tying his sneaker lace, Teddy perfunctorily gave his mother a kiss on the cheek. She in turn brought her left arm out from under the sheet, as if bent on encircling Teddy’s waist with it, but by the time she had got it out from under, Teddy had moved on. He had come around the other side and entered the space between the two beds. He stooped, and stood up with his father’s pillow under his left arm and the glass ashtray that belonged on the night table in his right hand. Switching the ashtray over to his left hand, he went up to the night table and, with the edge of his right hand, swept his father’s cigarette stubs and ashes into the ashtray. Then, before putting the ashtray back where it belonged, he used the under side of his forearm to wipe off the filmy wake of ashes from the glass top of the table. He wiped off his forearm on his seersucker shorts. Then he placed the ashtray on the glass top, with a world of care, as if he believed an ashtray should be dead‑centered on the surface of a night table or not placed at all. At that point, his father, who had been watching him, abruptly gave up watching him. «Don’t you want your pillow?» Teddy asked him.

  «I want that camera, young man.»

  «You can’t be very comfortable in that position. It isn’t possible,” Teddy said. «I’ll leave it right here.» He placed the pillow on the foot of the bed, clear of his father’s feet. He started out of the cabin.

  «Teddy,” his mother said, without turning over. «Tell Booper I want to see her before her swimming lesson.»

  «Why don’t you leave the kid alone?» Mr. McArdle asked. «You seem to resent her having a few lousy minutes’ freedom. You know how you treat her? I’ll tell you exactly how you treat her. You treat her like a bloomin’ criminal.»

  «Bloomin’! Oh, that’s cute! You’re getting so English, lover.»

  Teddy lingered for a moment at the door, reflectively experimenting with the door handle, turning it slowly left and right. «After I go out this door, I may only exist in the minds of all my acquaintances,” he said. «I may be an orange peel.»

  «What, darling?» Mrs. McArdle asked from across the cabin, still lying on her right side.

  «Let’s get on the ball, buddy. Let’s get that Leica down here.»

  «Come give Mother a kiss. A nice, big one.»

  «Not right now,” Teddy said absently. «I’m tired.» He closed the door behind him.

  The ship’s daily newspaper lay just outside the doorsill. It was a single sheet of glossy paper, with printing on just one side. Teddy picked it up and began to read it as he started slowly aft down the long passageway. From the opposite end, a huge, blond woman in a starched white uniform was coming toward him, carrying a vase of longstemmed, red roses. As she passed Teddy, she put out her left hand and grazed the top of his head with it, saying, «Somebody needs a haircut!» Teddy passively looked up from his newspaper, but the woman had passed, and he didn’t look back. He went on reading. At the end of the passageway, before an enormous mural of Saint George and the Dragon over the staircase landing, he folded the ship’s newspaper into quarters and put it into his left hip pocket. He then climbed the broad, shallow, carpeted steps up to Main Deck, one flight up. He took two steps at a time, but slowly, holding on to the banister, putting his whole body into it, as if the act of climbing a flight of stairs was for him, as it is for many children, a moderately pleasurable end in itself. At the Main Deck landing, he went directly over to the Purser’s desk, where a good‑looking girl in naval uniform was presiding at the moment. She was stapling some mimeographed sheets of paper together.

  «Can you tell me what time that game starts today, please?» Teddy asked her.

  «I beg your pardon?»

  «Can you tell me what time that game starts today?» The girl gave him a lipsticky smile. «What game, honey?» she asked.

  «You know. That word game they had yesterday and the day before, where you’re supposed to supply the missing words. It’s mostly that you have to put everything in context.»

  The girl held off fitting three sheets of paper between the planes of her stapler. «Oh,”

  she said. «Not till late afternoon, I believe. I believe it’s around four o’clock. Isn’t that a little over your head, dear?»

  «No, it isn’t… Thank you,” Teddy said, and started to leave.

  «Wait a minute, honey! What’s your name?»

  «Theodore McArdle,” Teddy said. «What’s yours?»

  «My name?» said the girl, smiling. «My name’s Ensign Mathewson.»

  Teddy watched her press down on her stapler. «I knew you were an ensign,” he said.

  «I’m not sure, but I believe when somebody asks your name you’re supposed to say your whole name. Jane Mathewson, or Phyllis Mathewson, or whatever the case may be.»

  «Oh, really?»

  «As I say, I think so,” Teddy said. «I’m not sure, though. It may be different if you’re in uniform. Anyway, thank you for the information. Goodbye!» He turned and took the stairs up to the Promenade Deck, again two at a time, but this time as if in rather a hurry.

  He found Booper, after some extensive looking, high up on the Sports Deck. She was in a sunny clearing—a glade, almost—between two deck‑tennis courts that were not in use. In a squatting position, with the sun at her back and a light breeze riffling her silky, blond hair, she was busily piling twelve or fourteen shuffleboard discs into two tangent stacks, one for the black discs, one for the red. A very small boy, in a cotton sun suit, was standing close by, on her right, purely in an observer’s capacity. «Look!»

  Booper said commandingly to her brother as he approached. She sprawled forward and surrounded the two stacks of shuffleboard discs with her arms to show off her accomplishment, to isolate it from whatever else was aboard ship. «Myron,” she said hostilely, addressing her companion, «you’re making it all shadowy, so my brother can’t see. Move your carcass.» She shut her eyes and waited, with a cross‑bearing grimace, till Myron moved.

  Teddy stood over the two stacks of discs and looked down appraisingly at them.

  «That’s very nice,” he said. «Very symmetrical.»

  «This guy,” Booper said, indicating Myron, «never even heard of backgammon. They don’t even have one.»

  Teddy glanced briefly, objectively, at Myron. «Listen,” he said to Booper. «Where’s the camera? Daddy wants it right away.»

  «He doesn’t even live in New York,” Booper informed Teddy. «And his father’s dead. He was killed in Korea.» She turned to Myron. «Wasn’t he?» she demanded, but without waiting for a response. «Now if his mother dies, he’ll be an orphan. He didn’t even know that.» She looked at Myron. «Did you?»

  Myron, non‑committal, folded his arms.

  «You’re the stupidest person I ever met,” Booper said to him. «You’re the stupidest person in this ocean. Did you know that?»

  «He is not,” Teddy said. «You are not, Myron.» He addressed his sister: «Give me your attention a second. Where’s the camera? I have to have it immediately. Where is it?»

  «Over there,” Booper said, indicating no direction at all. She drew her two sta
cks of shuffleboard discs in closer to her. «All I need now is two giants,” she said. «They could play backgammon till they got all tired and then they could climb up on that smokestack and throw these at everybody and kill them.» She looked at Myron. «They could kill your parents,” she said to him knowledgeably. «And if that didn’t kill them, you know what you could do? You could put some poison on some marshmellows and make them eat it.»

  The Leica was about ten feet away, next to the white railing that surrounded the Sports Deck. It lay in the drain gully, on its side. Teddy went over and picked it up by its strap and hung it around his neck. Then, immediately, he took it off. He took it over to Booper. «Booper, do me a favor. You take it down, please,” he said. «It’s ten o’clock. I have to write in my diary.»

  «I’m busy.»

  «Mother wants to see you right away, anyway,” Teddy said.

  «You’re a liar.»

  «I’m not a liar. She does,” Teddy said. «So please take this down with you when you go … C’mon, Booper.»

  «What’s she want to see me for?» Booper demanded. «I don’t want to see her.» She suddenly struck Myron’s hand, which was in the act of picking off the top shuffleboard disc from the red stack. «Hands off,” she said.

  Teddy hung the strap attached to the Leica around her neck. «I’m serious, now. Take this down to Daddy right away, and then I’ll see you at the pool later on,” he said. «I’ll meet you right at the pool at ten‑thirty. Or right outside that place where you change your clothes. Be on time, now. It’s way down on E Deck, don’t forget, so leave yourself plenty of time.» He turned, and left.

  «I hate you! I hate everybody in this ocean!» Booper called after him.