Rodeo Rancher

by Lauren Wood

  Picking him up after not seeing him for two days, the first thing I wanted to do was give him a kiss. But he wasn’t worried about romance right now. That in and of itself was enough for me to question everything and wonder what was going on. He was always ready to do a quickie wherever we could find a place. It was always exciting and that was what I was looking for. I wanted him, badly and I started to pout when he pulled away from the kiss. It had been two days and I was going to lose myself if he didn’t give me what I wanted. Didn’t he know how badly I was missing him?

  “What’s up?”

  “I had to go out and get Thunder.”

  Thunder was my favorite horse and I wanted to know why. He had a concern on his face that I didn’t like to see. He was never the nervous type and that meant that it was something serious, because Dante was looking rather serious at the moment.

  “Because Laura wasn’t there like she was supposed to be and the renter hit him several times from what I hear. I got a call from someone working in the stables that I know. He actually has a couple of marks. I don’t know what to do right now. It is one of your old boyfriend’s rodeo buddies. If he would have been there, I would most likely be telling you this from a jail cell. I was worried about this happening and I want to know what you think we should do about it.”

  That was where it all fell apart and I didn’t know what to say. It was something he had brought up multiple times, but after hiring two people to go out with the horses on the first couple of visits, I thought that it wouldn’t be a problem. Laura was a bright young girl that I thought had a future with us. This seemed to be something else that I was apparently wrong about.

  “Fire Laura.”

  He smiled at me and finally kissed me. “Good, I was hoping you would say that because I already did. I can’t have people like her working for me, well for you.”

  “No, that is your deal. I will back up whatever decision that you make.”

  “About what?”

  “Staff. Why?”

  “I think you need to drop the rodeo clowns and go with the other clients. They are more trouble than they are worth.”

  “And you hate working with Cliff.” I thought I would mention that, even though as soon as I said it, I knew I was going to grow to regret saying it.

  “I am not going to deny it.”

  “So you want to get rid of that whole area of business? That is a lot of it right now.” I was worried about Thunder and I was already ready to go see him, but I was still stuck on why he was trying to get rid of all of that business. It was a lot and with everything going on, it would be helpful to have.

  “Yes, I do. They are nothing but trouble and I know that it was a mistake to work with him. Men like Cliff are bad news.”

  I sighed and leaned back a little in the seat. I didn’t want to argue with him. In my fantasies, we were already making love in the airport parking lot, but that wasn’t meant to be. How did I tell him that I appreciated his input, but that this was still my ranch and my decision? I didn’t want him to take it the wrong way, but I don’t think that there is really a right way to say something like that.

  “Why don’t we get you home and then we can see what is what?”

  “So that means you are just going to blow me off?”

  “No, it’s not like that at all.”

  It was exactly like that until I could figure out how I was going to feel about all of it. I still wasn’t sure what I was going to do and the last thing that I needed was to have this conversation right now. I wanted to get home, check on Thunder and make sure that everything is okay. Dante had been gone for a time, trying to open another avenue of business, meeting with some people for me and I knew that I was going to have to settle him down first. If he would just drop it and let me think…

  “It is like that Cece. I know it from the way you said it. I won’t argue with you because I am tired, but I will tell you now that I am not going to be able to hold my temper with that idiot any longer.”

  “I will handle Cliff, Dante. It doesn’t have to be a problem.”

  “You are most certainly not going to do anything of the sort. Have you lost your mind? Do you really think that I am going to let you meet with him, with your past together?”

  Now he was just being rude and I didn’t appreciate the tone he had with me. I was his boss after all. Sure I had promoting him and he ran part of it now, but at the end of the day it was my last name on the sign. I didn’t like the stance he was taking. Everything was getting out of control all of a sudden and I wasn’t sure how to reel it back into reality.

  “I really don’t want to talk about this right now Dante. Let’s get you home and then we can talk about this. I know you are tired.”

  “I am tired, but I am not going to let this stand. This isn’t my ranch, or my business, but you are mine Cece and I don’t want you anywhere around him anymore. You are not just going to handle Cliff.”

  He was not helping anything and the more he said, the more chauvinistic he sounded. While I wasn’t happy that Thunder had been hit or had marks, it wasn’t enough to ruin it all. Then I found out that it is deep down just jealousy and I don’t like the idea of that either. I didn’t like any of it and I wasn’t going to change everything to assuage his battered ego.

  “I don’t want to talk about this Dante. I am tired too. So let’s get back to the ranch and then we can have it out if that is what you want to do.”

  “I don’t want to fight. I don’t see why you still work with him. It was bad enough that you gave him a piece of the action and an opinion. You must feel something for him or why would you?”

  My head was starting to hurt and I was quickly losing hope for the meet and greet that I had fantasized about in my head while I was waiting for him. All I wanted was for him to kiss me, say he missed me and then make me his. That was it. I didn’t think that it was too much for me to ask for, but I was starting to see that maybe it was.

  “I am really not getting into this. What I do is still none of your business. We are sleeping with each other and even if we were married or something like that, I would still make my own decisions.”

  “Married?”

  I stopped, not even sure why I said it. I knew that I was thinking about it. For me it was a natural progression to what I wanted, but for him it looked like it was something that he had never thought about before. I don’t know why I had said it. Now I just wanted to kind of hide, but there was nowhere to go but back to the ranch. This was a ride that I was dreading even more than before. There was no way that I wanted to sit there and argue with him, especially about something that didn’t really matter to me. What mattered was the fact that I was able to still look at him after all of that. I was angry with him and the more I thought about it and how he was acting, the angrier I became.

  “You’re right. I know that it is not an option with us Dante, but I wanted you to know that under no circumstances was I going to let you tell me what to do. Cliff is getting a very small fee that is none of your business. Everyone is benefitting from it. Everyone is making a better check at the end of the week, so I don’t get the problem.”

  “Yeah, but what is the cost?”

  I stopped myself from asking him when he had gotten so emotional and dramatic, but I had a feeling that it wasn’t going to do me any good to say anything else. It was better for me to just look ahead and ignore Dante. I wasn’t used to someone talking to me like this. I had been the boss for a very long time and it was strange to have anyone question me. I can’t say that I liked it too much.

  “So you really aren’t going to talk to me?”

  The anger had dissipated from his voice, but I felt like I was only getting started. Didn’t he see how upset I was or did he just not care? I didn’t know how to feel about all of it, but I knew that I wasn’t really all that ready to have this kind of discussion.

  “I don’t think there is anything to say Dante. You have your own opinions and I have mine.”
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br />   “So you want to just let it all go?”

  I didn’t know what that meant, but I let it fill the air for a while before I said anything else.

  “Dante, you are taking this too personally. I just meant that as far as the business is concerned, I have the final say. If you want to get rid of Laura or anyone else that works for you, that is on you, but the business is on me. I will make the best decisions that I can and not let my emotions get in the middle of it. I just can’t.”

  “So where does that leave us?”

  I had a sinking feeling in my stomach because for the first time since we got together, I really wasn’t sure. I knew that I wanted there to be an ‘us’ but he was acting like this was a make or break situation and I wasn’t sure how I felt about that.

  When I was younger, my parents would give me ultimatums and I almost never took the right route. I was a ‘cut my nose off to spite my face’ kind of person sometimes and I could feel the rebellion welling up inside of me. If he didn’t change his direction and I didn’t change my stance, this was quickly going to get out of hand. Like a train wreck I could only watch the collision, unable to hold my tongue or my pride long enough to help anything.

  Chapter 15

  Dante

  A horse being struck had changed everything and I wasn’t sure how the hell we got to this. When we got back to the ranch, Cece wasn’t even talking to me. She got out of the truck quickly and went into the ranch and up to her room. I should have followed her, but she had made it clear the agonizing ride back that she needed some space. It had all tail-spun out of control and the more I thought about it, the more confused I was.

  In the end, it wasn’t really the horse that had ruined it all. Working with Cliff had been eating at me for some time, but I felt like I couldn’t say anything about it because I had to work with Casey many days. We had the same past that I was worried about with Cece and Cliff, but it was different because I knew that no matter how much Casey tried, I was never going to go back to her. I was worried that maybe under the right scenario Cece would go back to Cliff. I think it all came down to me being worried about her straying. It wasn’t something that I really thought about, until I had to be around Cliff. I wanted Cece to tell me that I had nothing to worry about, not to volunteer to deal with him herself.

  I went back to my room and realized that I hadn’t stayed here for almost a month and the few times that I had, Cece was with me. Now it was smaller, colder and just a bit dreary.

  I tried to shake it off. Why the hell was I worried about any of this? Here I was all worried about everything and she didn’t even care. It aggravated to me to no end and pushed me to make the decision that I was most likely going to regret later. I felt like the old me was sadly not being represented enough. The old me wouldn’t have dealt with this kind of drama. I should just go to the bar and have a few drinks, think this all through. I had a feeling that it would make me feel better or at least give me a good enough buzz that I didn’t have to care anymore.

  Getting a shower and then getting dressed, I went back outside and got in my truck. It was still a little early to start bar hopping, but I was in need of a drink, more than I was anything else. I looked up at the lit up window on the second floor of the ranch house and saw that her shades were drawn. She didn’t even care and apparently, I cared way too damn much.

  I got in the truck and tried my best not to let my anger affect my speed. I didn’t want to race out of there and let her know I was mad. She knew and all it was going to do was make me regret showing that kind of emotion. If she didn’t care, neither was I.

  ***

  I sat outside the bar for several minutes, trying to decide what the hell I was doing there. I knew it was a mistake, how could it not be? But the idea of Cece refusing to drop Cliff out of her life spurred me forward. I got out and moved towards the loud music that was blaring out of the building. It felt strange to be here after so long. Usually when I came, I would have one main thing on my mind, but not tonight. I certainly didn’t want to mess up what I had with Cece because I was convinced that she would come around. I was also convinced that she was the one for me, no matter how mad I was at the moment.

  With that thought in mind, the atmosphere felt different to me. It was smoky and loud, with everyone chattering to each other. My eyes scanned the room and I saw a few lovelies that I had had before. I bypassed that area by the bar and decided that my time was going to be better spent with a drink in my hand. I needed to get inspired and think about what I was going to do with Cece. I wasn’t ready to throw in the towel over Cliff or anything else for that matter.

  It left me in a weird position as several women started to hit on me. It was usually me that was the aggressor. I always zeroed in on whatever it was that I wanted and I made sure I had it, but now I was far more worried about consequences that I had never really thought about before. It was a new feeling and I found it easier than I thought I would have.

  That is, until I heard a certain voice that I knew well.

  “What are you doing around here Dante? I thought you were blissfully happy with your new girlfriend? Didn’t think I would see you here again.”

  I turned to look at Casey. The young blonde was dressed up in clothes that would make any man’s heart race a little more and I was not the exception. The fact of the matter was that I hadn’t had any in a couple of days and while I had hoped for some lovemaking with Cece, it just hadn’t worked out that way and now my body was answering a call that it shouldn’t.

  “Just getting a drink Casey, that’s all.”

  She scoffed and sat down, even though she hadn’t been invited. There was a tawdry look in her eyes that I knew well, but that wasn’t why I was here. I had to keep telling myself that. Casey had always been so eager to please and I was sure by the expression on her face that she hadn’t changed a bit.

  “Hmm, I don’t think you have ever come here for just a beer before. Are you really not looking for anything?”

  I was the one agitated. “You still haven’t learned your lesson yet, have you?”

  “What?”

  “You already cheated with the boss’ boyfriend once before and I can’t believe you are going to try to do it again. You make no sense. You are lucky she didn’t fire you before. I would have.”

  Casey made a fake pouty face. “You would really fire me? Even though we had all of those good times together?”

  I didn’t remember much with her that didn’t involve the bedroom and even then it never extended after the act was actually finished. I pushed her out the door as soon as we were done and there was nothing else that I wanted to do now. All I could think about was Cece and Casey was just another distraction that I just didn’t need.

  “Yes I would have fired you. It isn’t up to me though. Cece has too big of a heart.”

  “No, I think it’s just because she can’t keep anyone there at the ranch. The way people talk about her, it is no surprise. The town is small and her antics get around.”

  Again I had to temper my response. I knew that she was baiting me, but that didn’t seem to help anything when it came to my knee-jerk reaction. I didn’t care why she was pissing me off, I just knew that she was and she would look at me with this self-satisfied smile that really did me in.

  “Why are you so hateful Casey? You didn’t used to be this way.”

  “I want you back Dante. You are making a mistake with her and I don’t understand why you can’t see it. You have lost your way and I am just trying to help you remember who you are.”

  I didn’t believe a thing she said. She wanted something more and maybe it was about sex, but I had a feeling that there was more to it. She would be acting this way for nothing. I just couldn’t see that.

  “I know who I am Casey. People change. You were the one that cheating on me with that meat head, so I am not going to feel bad about this. You made your choice. Now you are going to have to live with it. Did you really think that he was going to t
ake you with him?”

  Now I was the one that was being rude and I tried not to, but it was hard, really hard. I knew that kicking the hornet’s nest was not a good idea. But I was never a smart man when it came to women. The woman sitting next to me was a silent testament to that.

  “No, I didn’t, but I didn’t think he would drop me like I meant nothing. You guys just don’t really get what you do to women. You should. It would be easier for you.”

  “I have learned a long time ago that nothing is ever easy with women.”

  “Has Cecelia got you down? I don’t think I have ever seen you like this.”

  It bothered me that she acted like she knew me. She was a fuck. That was it. I got her a job and I regretted it many times over since then. I wish I would have never met Casey, here at the bar, most likely the exact same spot that I am sitting in now.

  “I am fine Casey. I just came here to get a drink. What are you doing here?”

  She had a Cheshire cat grin on her face. “I am on the prowl.”

  I should have known that it would be her answer. She was on the prowl when she found me and I felt sorry for any sap that wanted her. They would pay for it, more than they realized and I was sure that I wasn’t the only one that regretted meeting the petite blonde. She was beautiful, but still a disaster all the same.

  “Well there are a lot of men that are looking at you Casey. You are wasting your time with me.”

  “What if I want you though? Are you really going to tell me no Dante?”

  I shook my head that I was, even though I wasn’t too sure about it. There as a part of me that wanted to take her to the bathroom and bang her brains out on the side of the stall for one of the bathrooms, but instead I just agreed with her. I could tell her no. I was a man and I could be stronger than many thought I was.