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Way More West

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by Edward Dorn

The sky disdains

  to be thus associated and treacherous cowboys

  who drive cars live there.

  Say the purity of blue over Houston

  that unwholesome place

  is prettier

  and the graininess over Michoacan is moodier

  and I have been to wyoming.

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  The trip back sadly as all trips

  back are

  dull

  and I did

  see the old bartender woman of florence

  this time in her restaurant part 50 yards

  away from the tavern between which

  she ran apparently with the speed

  of some sort of stout gazelle

  but not the broad with the fabulatory build.

  She that day was probably off in an office somewhere.

  Pity daytime lives.

  But everyone was tired. We had unloaded

  the furniture, early the next morning

  and before the bite of the sun quelled the bite

  of the stars we left, going the long, time consuming

  way

  south. Sober business.

  The Beauty of North Fork was there as she will be

  till she dies sometime

  (and by the way she runs a tavern)

  Thence to salmon and across the narrow bridge

  and out

  into the lemhi. I say

  if it weren’t for the distances

  and for the trees & creeks I would

  go mad, o yes, land, that one forces

  a secondary interest in, vanishes

  as a force as you drive onward.

  This is only obvious.

  This is only some of the times we spend.

  You go through it as though it were

  a planet of cotton wadding . . . and love

  its parts as you do the parts of a woman

  whose relations with earth are more established

  than your own.

  But of physical entirety

  there is no need to elaborate, one has

  one’s foot

  on the ground, which is the saying

  of all common and communicable pleasures

  and my arm around your shoulder is the proof of that.

  But I am ashamed of my country

  that, not as areal reality, but as act

  it shames me to be a citizen in

  the land where I grew up. The very air chills

  your bones, the very ungraciousness of its replies

  and the pressures of its not replying

  embarrass my presence here. God knows

  we do what we can to live.

  But the intimidations thrown at us

  in the spurious forms they have learned truth

  can take, in a time which should have been

  plenty and engaging of the best that each man,

  if he were encouraged to be even that, and

  not slapped in the face as stupid, cut off

  from all other peoples to make him hygienic of

  views not viable to this soil, which is no more

  sacred I tell you than any other the earth

  has to offer, for she in her roundness has kept

  an accord with her movements great time has not yet

  seen aberrant. Mice crawling on a moving body?

  can they, may they really offset great movement?

  The very air,

  if you are awake, can chill your bones

  and there is little enough of beauty

  finally scratched for. It is not

  the end pursuit of my countrymen

  that they be great

  in a great line of men.

  An occasional woman, won’t,

  though I wish she could,

  justify a continent. In the parliaments

  of miniscule places she is there

  and gives them substance,

  as in Florence, and North Fork

  for she was gracious as leaders

  are now not and I begin to believe after all

  these years there is an aristocracy

  of place and event and person

  and as I sit here above this valley

  I sought to involve you with

  and take you out on a trip

  that had no point, there remains Montana

  and it is nice. But not infallible.

  The sky is a hoax.

  And was meant,

  once suggested,

  to catch your eye. The eye

  can be arbitrary,

  but its subject matter cannot.

  Thus the beauty of some women.

  And from Williston

  along the grand missourian length

  of the upper plains you go, then the Milk

  to Havre

  that incredible distance once along a route

  all those clamorous men

  took . . . they now grow things there not horticultural

  only storageable, things of less importance

  than fur

  for furs then were never stockpiled, it would

  hurt the hair,

  that Astor,

  he’d never have done it.

  And yes Fort Benton is lovely

  and quiet, I would gladly give it as a gift

  to a friend, and with pride, a place of marked

  indolence, where the river closes, a gift

  of marked indifference, if it were mine.

  If the broad grass park were mine

  between the river and the town

  and to the quick rise behind.

  And then up to the median altitude of Montana

  Sugar beets and sheep and cattle.

  Where the normal spaces

  are the stretches of Wyoming

  and north Dakota, Idaho

  is cut

  by an elbow

  of mountain that swings

  down, thus she is

  cut off by geologies she says

  I’m sure

  are natural

  but it is truly the West

  as no other place,

  ruined by an ambition and religion

  cut, by a cowboy use of her nearly virgin self

  unannealed

  by a real placement

  this,

  this

  is the birthplace

  of Mr. Pound

  and Hemingway in his own mouth

  chose to put a shotgun.

  Song

  This afternoon was unholy, the sky

  bright mixed with cloud wrath, I read Yeats,

  then black, and their land of heart’s desire

  where beauty has no ebb

  decay no flood

  but joy is wisdom, time

  an endless song

  I kiss you

  and the world begins to fade

  I kiss you not, the world is not.

  I would not give my soul to you yet

  the desire inside me burns.

  November. The eighteenth was the coldest

  this season, encumbered with routine errands

  out past the factory

  black sulphur

  and in the dense checks

  of its burdensome smoke the intense yellow tanks,

  hooded, there sat a smell of weak death

  and we pass these days of our isolation

  in our rigidly assigned shelters

  heads bent in occupation

  a couple of pointless daydreamers

  smiles lit and thrown into the breeze,

  how artful can love

  suffer in the cross streets of this town

  marked simply by the clicking railroad

  and scratch of the janitor’s broom.

  Song

  Christ of the sparrows Help me!

  the soot falls

  along the street

  into the alleys.

  december.

  and sometimes<
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  its rain falls

  along pocatello’s streets

  into its alleys

  along its black diesel thruways

  There is no far away place

  could satisfy

  there is no forlorn bird

  could outdistance my desire.

  When the vacation

  of my heart is that complete

  the pain of this

  particular moment

  is unbearable. The sun

  strikes my book laden table

  my room is my skull

  I could have you tell me

  this pain behind my eyes will soon be gone

  I could listen, I could die

  seized by a foolishly contrived misunderstanding

  or listlessly watch

  the two single

  figures bent

  and in the rags of careful hesitation

  feel their way along the sidewalk

  past my window

  old men

  leave a city already made lonely

  by the outcast words of pointless conversation

  go,

  along the intolerably windy highway west of here.

  And mind us

  there were no marks of the bruise of friends

  there aren’t any traces of that turmoil, you stay

  as you were, there were

  a few headlong pitches onto the ground

  a torn shoulder to remember

  a few unhappy nights.

  drunk with the high necessity to talk

  fast and loud in crowded bars

  And then, in the street

  to spit silently out

  the cheap guilt

  and all the casual half meant and self aware

  inward chastisement

  a petty reward for myself, like saving a nickel

  and insisting even with a smile

  it was my life I lived

  the suspicious terror I’d turned around

  too many times to keep track

  I said you said I said You said I said.

  The Smug Never Silent Guns of the Enemy

  Their muzzles are at the door.

  Did you see them, did he

  see them, minutemen

  rising out of the silos

  A winter wonderland of

  the white busy north.

  The smug guns, trained on

  The whites of their eyes

  are grey

  and disputations

  of more guns come

  into the ear:

  The manipulated price of sugar

  The death of great ladies

  “I’ll shoot my second if you’ll shoot yours”

  Concentrated insecticides

  (flow like milk in the river

  You will be greeted

  on the outskirts of town

  with a vegetable brush

  and tips on good living

  An interview with a turkey farmer

  (gobbling in the background

  the news that Bertrand Russell

  is a sick old fool

  The seminar ends when the squat madeyed colonel

  announces the way to peace thru war and shoots the moderator

  And more corrupted reports follow you out

  the door, they implore you to think young

  and you do

  it is such a pleasure in the sagebrush

  in the open saturated air

  zipping up your pants

  having made more of the latest news

  on the new snow.

  Mourning Letter, March 29, 1963

  No hesitation

  would stay me

  from weeping this morning

  for the miners of Hazard Kentucky.

  The mine owners’

  extortionary skulls

  whose eyes are diamonds don’t float

  down the rivers, as they should,

  of the flood

  The miners, cold

  starved, driven from work, in

  their homes float though and float

  on the ribbed ships of their frail

  bodies,

  Oh, go letter,

  keep my own misery close to theirs

  associate me with no other honor.

  Song: Venceremos

  (for latin america

  (for préman sotomayor

  And there will be fresh children once more

  in planalto and matto grosso

  green mansions for their houses

  along the orinoco

  take away the oil

  it is not to anoint their heads

  take away the cannon

  and the saber from the paunch belly

  overlaid with crossed colors

  those quaint waddling men

  are the leaden dead toys

  only their

  own

  children

  caress

  while the great eyed children

  far away in the mountains, out of Quito

  pass thru the crisp evening streets

  of earth towns, where they caress

  the earth, a substance of majority

  including the lead of established

  forces,

  who can do nothing

  but give us the measures of pain

  which now define us

  Take away the boats from the bananas

  they are there for the double purpose

  to quell insurrection first

  and next to make of an equatorial food

  a clanging and numerical register in chicago

  this is not industrial comment,

  it is not Sandburg’s chicago

  not how ugly a city you did make

  but whitman’s fine generosity I want

  a specific measure of respect returned for the hand

  and the back that bears away the stalk

  as a boy, in illinois

  peeled away, in amazement, the yellow, brown lined case

  thicker place

  when the arced phenomenon

  was first put in his hand

  a suggestion and a food, combustion!

  keep your fingers from the coffee bush.

  Nor,

  on the meseta Basáltica, or back in town

  in Paso de Indios

  can the people be permitted

  the luxurious image of Peron

  and his duly wedded saint

  they can be taught to deny

  the dictator and his call girl

  in the sports car

  hide themselves in some corrupt

  rooming house country

  with a blue coast

  and damned clergy

  “memory, mind, and will

  :politics

  “there are men with ideas

  who effect”

  Force those men.

  be keen to pass beyond all known use

  use the grain on a common mountain

  for those who are hungry

  treat hunger

  as a ceremony

  be quick to pass by condition

  and the persuasion of mere number

  teach the parrot, who rises

  in the sunset

  a cloud

  to sing,

  destroy

  all talking parrots

  I ask you

  make for the

  altar

  of your imaginations

  some sign Keep

  the small clerks of God from your precinct

  be not a world, and therefore halt

  before the incursions of general infection

  from a stronger world,

  dance,

  and in your side stepping

  the spirit

  will tell where.

  Song: Europa

  Red wine will flow

  sadly past your lips, and leave

  with fullness their parting

 
october is orange

  with desolation

  the mountains are abandoned

  each winter sunset

  to those cruel marks of red

  or whole lines of remote ranges

  lit of desire for you as they recede

  toward oregon

  Nothing will happen.

  The brutality of your frankness

  has come to me

  inches at a time,

  and so slowly the pain marches

  through the veins of my soul

  with the heavy step of a migrating herd

  tramping out the vintage

  Evening is

  that closing part

  of you I sometimes hum as a song to myself

  looking down the street through my fingers

  through the wreath of myrtle

  with which you have embellished

  my horns

  I call

  with the thick weight

  in my throat

  over your terrain

  O she is a small settlement, there

  she is an atmosphere

  and we are above it all

  under her white gown

  and against my bare shoulder

  snow flakes fall

  a slight scent of ginger

  fresh in the wind

  of our trip to Knossos

  For the New Union Dead in Alabama

  The Rose of Sharon

  I lost in the tortured night

  of this banished place

  the phrase

  and the rose

  from wandering

  away, down the lanes

  in all their abstract directions

  a worry about the peninsula

  of the east,

  and the grim territories

  of the west

  here in the raw greed

  of the frontier my soul can find

  no well of clear water

  it is pressed

  as a layer

  between unreadable concerns,

  a true sandwich, a true

  grave, like a performance

  in an utterly removed theater

  is a grave, the unreachable action makes

  a crypt

  of distance,

  a rose of immense beauty

 

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