by Pet TorreS
“Humhum, that sounds good.”
His hand touched the side of my face and he gave me a mischievous smile. I just shrugged, feeling a little shy at his presence. Sometimes Bizak’s approaches bothered me as he seemed to have some personal interest in me.
Occasionally, he looked at me in a way I'd rather he did not look at me like this. But I always ignored that his flirtatious way to preserve our friendship. Now I could only count on his benevolence as a friend.
“I came here to invite you to accompany me to a costume party at my school.”
Bizak laughed.
“Whoopee!” He rubbed his hands against each other, looking excited with this news. “When is this party?”
“Friday night.”
He stared at me with his head bent to one side.
“Right, but you will not ruin this party as you did last time and caused a terrible explosion because of Eros, will you?”
“Of course not.”
I looked to one side and I remembered that day with so much remorse.
“Eros does not deserve so much sacrifice.”
“Great!” He looked at me with a question on his pale lips. “What will be like our fancy dresses for the dance?”
I ended up facing him with a lot of intelligence, I had already thought of everything, even in our attires for the festival.
“We will go to the party the way we are in reality.”
His eyes widened in my direction. Bizak looked astonished to have the sense of hearing this from me.
“Like vampires?”
At this minute, I smiled softly and confirming his suspicion.
“Yeah, like vampires.”
During this, I nodded as well.
CHAPTER 30
Fancy dress ball party at school
The day of the Fancy dress ball had arrived. Yes, it was Friday night. I took leave to my mother before leaving home. I preferred that Bizak not fetched me home. After all, it was not normal for a vampire to grace his presence the habitation of humans and my mother was still human. It would not be cool that she started asking so many questions to Bizak.
Who was he?
Where did he come from?
What was he doing day after day?
This could only provoke suspicions since Bizak was just on the planet Earth in passing. Soon he would return to the planet Neptune and everything in his life would return to normal, but never in mine.
Because the burden of being a vampire weighed as much on my back.
Sometimes I wanted to give up everything and even my immortality.
The Fancy dress party had already started an hour earlier. The hall was packed with students from a distinct school. The hall was decorated with colorful fabrics on the ceiling. Lighting Sets illuminated the place with many colors and movements. On the walls were ornamented black masks with lots of bright, symbolizing the Fancy-dress Ball. Under the huge ceiling of the ballroom, there were thousands of decorative balls in blue, plum and purple colors.
I entered the great hall next to Bizak. I started walking like a robot. My steps did not adjust by means of so many humans around me. It seemed I had just fallen into a prison with human bars.
A food chain about to feed on a single species, my kind of vampire.
It was very strange, with all power of a vampire, I still felt so weak and so unprotected in the middle of so many people I barely knew.
Fortunately, Bizak was beside me and in some way, I just felt more comfortable with his presence. Automatically I smiled to him. Bizak smiled back to me and held my left hand. His costume was perfect for a real vampire. He was with his supernatural eyes, his pointed teeth. But no one there could suspect that. They imagined that the whole thing didn’t go over a vampire fancy dress. People stared surprised at us as they were admiring us by the couple of vampires who seemed really vampires in fact.
Bizak carried on his body black cape with bat collar in red details, red vest, black pants, long-barreled black boots, black gloves and stick with a bat head in metallic color.
He looked really perfect.
I walked more in front and soon after I parked when a couple was stopped over there. There was another vampire in the party. Put on a fancy dress with black cape, bat collar with navy blue details, navy blue vest, black pants, long-barreled black boots, navy blue gloves and he carried on his head a black hat.
So I remained motionless looking in his direction. He turned around and looked at me. That was Eros. Automatically my heart beat forceful inside me. I felt it hit against my chest. It was not fair I still feel so, so in love with the creature that recently regaled me only with dislikes and sufferings.
The music of the Seether band feat. Amy Lee called Broken began playing at that occasion, feeding, even more, all that emotion inside my no more human form.
I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I'm strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I'm strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore
His supernatural gaze paralyzed on my picture while his gray eyes did some X-rays of my posture and almost also my soul and my heart.
I was dressed as a vampire princess. Just wearing a princess style black dress, down to my ankles, black lace gloves, tiara on my head, fishnet stockings, black shoes, and satin cape in plum color with bat collar. Dark lipstick on my lips and lighted my eyes’ borders with black eyeliner, matching the dark eyeshadow above my eyes. My hair was loose and a few strands were fallen in front of my shoulders.
My gaze was frozen in the vampire Eros’s image in the middle of hundreds of people. Bizak compressed my hand, trying to make me pay attention to anything except Eros.
I tried to follow his advice through his silent gesture and soon I tried to look in another direction. Eros remained still looking at us and saw us following another course in the middle of so many people. His gaze dropped down when he realized that Bizak firmly held my hand, looking like my official boyfriend.
I was not sure if it bothered him, but that image of our hands together and stuck as one had the power to make his eyes go down, fall easily. As if Eros had lost the game or something he craved so much.
At the same instant, Eros looked at his girlfriend Mirta and saw her dressed as Barbie. Her golden hair was loose as she was wearing a pink dress, round, short up to the time of her thighs. Her beautiful legs were hidden in a pantyhose in white tint, pink shoes. There was a large tail behind her hip. Mirta was also carrying a pink tiara on her head. Her makeup was pink to match her Barbie girl style.
Eros still looking into her eyes let her hand go. Mirta did not understand his sudden gesture.
“I'm going to buy our drinks.”
He affirmed, turning his back to her. Mirta got disappoint because he had not invited her to go with him. He simply left her there alone, in the middle of the great hall.
A few minutes had passed by and the cov
er band of Evanescence was still singing. They insisted on playing the music ‘Broken’ again.
I felt bad. This only stunned my mind. That song seemed to feed the huge hole in my chest.
Hole, which, had been made because of the love I still felt for the vampire Eros and fed it even without forces, even though I did not want to nourish this destructive feeling, but it always won forces inside me.
Every day, every second, every breath of my pair of lungs that was located on my back.
“I need to go to the bathroom.”
I affirmed, holding back my tears. I could not cry there. The people could see my blood tears.
How would I explain this trick to them?
I just put mercury in the corner of my eye.
No, no, this could not happen to me.
Immediately, I ran to one side, trying desperately to find the bathroom. Even from afar, Eros realized I was running away from something.
I got to the toilet and saw several sinks and half-open doors in the bathroom. I thanked God that there were no girls there, beyond me. Soon I ran up to the tap and opened it in a hurry. I began to wash my face. My makeup was easily undoing by my tears of blood.
I lifted my countenance up and looked into the mirror. My eyes were still bleeding. That mode, I looked at my own image in the mirror before me, well above the sink. At that moment, I felt unhappy.
In fact, I wanted to pull that rotten heart out of me and try to put another. Perhaps one made of iron. It could be shielded and could prevent me from suffering so much for love, just for love. ..
I bowed my head and rubbed my wet hands on my face. A girl in Red Riding Hood costume came into the bathroom and stood before another sink next to mine. She touched her hair with one of the hands and then looked to one side and saw my hands wet with water and blood.
She looked startled as her eyes widened in my direction.
“You’re wound? Did something happen?”
“No, nothing happened!”
I got nervous, thus bending my body and especially my face against the body of the white sink. I need to hide at that moment from that human girl.
“That was just ' ketchup'!”
I insisted.
“Do not worry about me. I am fine...”
I tried to disguise my voice from crying. The girl did not realize the truth and smiled with relief, by really thinking of joke at everything.
“ Ketchup! I thought it was real blood!”
At last, she shook her head with category started walking toward the bathroom door and then left the place soon after.
But I still remained in the toilet, trying to get rid of my red tears. On that occasion, I lift my head and looked into the mirror. There was a dark image standing behind me, right in the middle of the bathroom.
A bit startled, I turned around and left the water running down. I really forgot I had to close it.
“What are you doing here?”
I looked to one side, passing my forearm by my lips wet with water.
“You should not get into the ladies' toilet.”
Eros remained still at the same place. His absorbent gray gaze analyzed my countenance wet with tears of blood and a lot of water. All my makeup had undone because of it.
“Why are you crying?”
He questioned still standing with the same position. He was completely serious. My unhappiness troubled his mood.
I closed my gray eyes and looked down. My head shook while I remained mute. He did not need to know I was shedding those tears because of him. But Eros already knew everything, even without hearing my answer, in fact.
After that, he slowly moved along with his steps and stood before me. Her cold hands tried to hold my shoulders, but I opened my eyes and threw my body further back, consequently preventing him from touching me or moving closer to me.
“Please, leave me alone ...”
I pleaded, looking in his pale face. A thin tear of blood slid down a side of my face. The index finger of Eros interrupted it at the same instant. He ended up touching my countenance without my permission.
“Valkyrie, understand ... that love is destructive to both of us.”
Eros paused.
“See you state now.” he looked me in the eye. “I know you're crying because of me.”
He looked to one side, looking confused at my situation. His gray eyes narrowed hard and he confessed.
“It's strange when I look at you and I see a chalice of blood and someone on his knees.”
He shook his head when a flash from that image passed through his mind and soon everything came back to get dark in his mind.
“I don’t understand why I always have this thought when I see you.”
His hand touched his own chest and he went on to say.
“This thought hurts me here as if someone had ended up pushing a stake against my chest, making me bleed to death.”
During this, I raised my head and looked at his face. My heart was asking for me to fall into his arms and demand that he dragged me away from there.
“You never told me that before.”
He shrugged gently.
“I thought it was never necessary. These were only my hallucinations that should be kept only with me. But seeing you now, in this state, I felt like revealing you it.”
I lowered my head.
“I have also had this vision one time, in my father's castle.”
“Yes ...” his palm stroked my shoulder during this. “I remember that.”
I looked to the other side.
“You even fainted in my arms.”
Listing to this, I stared him in the eye again.
“Why this mirage haunts you?”
Eros shook his head and looked at me superficially.
“I do not know...”
His eyes dropped and he pulled away from me. His words slipped out of his mouth with full trusts.
“Whether it is ... this has caused us both only damages ...”
After that, his body turned into smoke and Eros disappeared from the bathroom. But, I stood looking around, in the hope he could return to the site and could spend a little more of his time at my side.
CHAPTER 31
I left the bathroom when my tears finally stopped going down and my face ceased to express part of my sadness and frustration. Now I felt a bit more animated and ready to return that ball still clogged with young people put on their fancy dress.
Before I could see Bizak, he saw me first and came walking hurriedly towards me as he looked desperate with my sudden disappearance.
“Valkyrie? Where were you?” He stopped in front of me and looked at me patiently. “I looked for you all over the dance hall.”
“Excuse. I had a little problem with my makeup.”
Bizak looked at my face and saw it without the gloss paint and also the lipstick. My face was White.
“What happened to your face? It seems you've been crying for hours!”
He murmured staring at my swollen eyelids. I lowered my head.
“It's your impression.”
I looked away and saw Eros in Mirta’s company. He was standing at the end of a wall. He also seemed to avoid the humans. Mirta danced to a song, but Eros did not pay attention on her movements. He looked over the crowd and after that, his eyes stopped on our way. The vampire looked suspicious with our conversation. Perhaps he also wanted to be part of it.
A more lively music started playing (Lies - Evanescence Band) and Bizak grabbed my arm, pulling me to the center of the ballroom.
Bound at every limb
By my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again
You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above
They'll never see, I'll never be
I struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree
Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I've lived and I died for you
Abide in me and I'll vow to you
I will never forsake you
They'll never see, I'll never be
I struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
They'll never see, I'll never be
I struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
Rest in me, I'll comfort you
I have lived, I died for you
Abide in me, I'll vow to you
I will never forsake you
They'll never see, I'll never be
I struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
“We have to dance to this song! I follow you to this fancy dress ball and you owe me a dance.”
He stopped in front of me, holding my hand carefully. I smiled a little shy and smoothed my hair with my hands.
“I do not know to dance correctly.”
Bizak insisted and rolled me to one side while the cheerful song remained to infect the big hall.
“I do not mind about it!” He affirmed. “I also do not know how to dance to this song! It is not from my time!”
I started laughing and not perceiving that my body began to move smoothly. I held the skirt of my black long dress and turned around Bizak. He followed me with his eyes and raised his hands up and shook his hips from side to side, quite euphoric with the music. Bizak danced in a weird way and everyone there looked at him.
But it was funny. I continued spinning round, like a rope doll. I had forgotten that there were hundreds of people around us and some of them still watched us. That was the most enjoyable part of the ball. Bizak did well in inviting me to dance. At that moment, I had rewarded part of my tears shed in the toilet, but not all of them.