Lovecraft eZine Megapack - 2013

by Mike Davis (Editor)

  'Well, from his family. They say he is busy with family business and cannot write just now. They want you to go and meet them. Would you like that?'

  'To go to my father's home? Yes, I would!' the boy replied immediately. And so it was decided. That summer, when his school broke up for vacations, Vyvyan would fly west.

  When he returned home from his father’s familial homestead, somewhere in the Pacific North-West, he was a changed boy. He no longer wore his father’s amulet around his neck, although he did keep it with him in a small leather pouch at all times. He was rarely - if ever - dreamy, dramatic or the slightest bit fey. In fact, he had become solemn, serious and quiet. He refused to answer when his mother asked him how his holiday had been, merely remarking that he was looking forward to resuming his studies at school; a statement so uncharacteristic that his mother realised a great change had truly come over her son.

  Mr. Braganza was one of those middle-aged bachelors who have made a life out of their careers and can never be thought of except in their professional capacity, in this case as a maths teacher. Not one of those deft, new maths teachers who use coloured charts and ingenious toys to make their subject come alive, but a traditional, stodgy, fire-breathing, assignment-giving, red-pen wielding maths teacher of the nightmare variety. He was dullness personified in his heavy, much-darned brown or grey suits, his thick-framed glasses, his short-cropped and neatly combed hair, his timbre-less, droning voice and his slow, shuffling walk. The only time he showed any sign of life was when a student made a mistake and he had to administer a scolding and assign a punishment. He was free with the cane - until a new head of department cautioned him that ‘the parents won’t stand for it anymore’. Now he confined himself to hurling obscure imprecations at his students and making them stand in the corner of the class, run twenty rounds around the football field and do extra homework. None of his students liked him, but the ones who were willing to do all the work he gave them and learn according to his favoured method - which was by fear and rote and repetition - did well in their exams, and that made a difference to how parents and principals assessed him. ‘Dull, but sound.’ ‘Old-fashioned, but effective.’ ‘Strict, but thorough.’

  Dead, but dreaming.

  Worthy though he was considered to be, few of Mr Braganza’s colleagues spared any time for him socially. He tended to wander off to a corner and stand staring fixedly into space at get-togethers, or, when forced into interaction, would reply with such inane generalities that the conversation soon perished from lack of nourishment. Over the years, he had earned a reputation as a good addition to any maths department, someone who could handle the long, dreary watches of middle school while lacking the empathy and sheer stamina to teach primary school - or the mental agility and basic semblance of humanity required to be successful with high school students. He would never make head of department or play any role in the school hierarchy other than subject teacher, but he seemed to lack the ambition to do anything else. This, together with his ability to grind out results by brute force, made him a good choice for a certain kind of ambitious, lazy and insecure principal or department head to hire, so he had never wanted for work.

  Eventually, he had accepted an appointment at a boarding school in the hills, a lesser cousin to the famous colonial-era institutions that boasted prime ministers, captains of industry and Nobel Laureates among their alumni, but still: a sound school with a solid heritage and a student body derived from the children of landowners, middling industrialists and managers at equally solid and mediocre firms. His duties here were dull and dreary, his students rapidly cowed into drab submission by his stolid demeanour and stern apportioning of extra work to malefactors. His quarters, in an obscure corner of the campus, were drab but functional and, by a happy chance, isolated from the hostels and the other teachers’ accommodations. He could spend entire days without entering into a single human interaction except the delivery of his never-varying schoolroom lessons. His isolation was almost complete, and his routine so fixed that it never presented the slightest hint of the unexpected or unconventional: the two things he feared the most.

  Then the Diplomat’s twins came along, and everyone’s routines were upended and no one’s solitude was sacrosanct. Diplomat from where? No one seemed sure, but the man was suave and radiated a wolfish charm and strength. He was tall, well-muscled and exquisitely turned out in expensive fabrics. He seemed to have all the right connections, was stationed in New Delhi at short notice on a most vital deputation, and he needed to have the twins near him but not underfoot. He could have selected a more august institution, but this one had the advantage of being the nearest to the capital.

  The boys had all the charm of their father, but there was something more fawn-like, yet also indefinably reptilian about them, in place of their father’s vulpine swagger. They were fey and frolicsome, good at art, music, even geometry, but uninterested in history, scornful of physics. They were forever stealing out into the school grounds and finding secluded places to construct strange altars out of twigs, branches, leaves, flowers and vines. Mr. Braganza loathed them - the first sign of any powerful emotion he had shown in decades - but they seemed to favour him above all their other teachers, pushing themselves to do well for him and forever leaving strange, colourful offerings of paintings, sculptures, garlands and bouquets at his quarters. These tributes were not appreciated by their recipient; in fact, he went so far as to crumple, tear, smash and destroy every single one of them. He could often be seen strolling the grounds alone at nights, muttering to himself and clutching something in a worn leather pouch.

  He was wrestling with his memories. Memories of the sun rising above those twin peaks, like the wings of some crouched raptor. That strange valley within, with statues that wept and sang, and people like none he had met before or since. Their strange laughter, their uncanny, tuneful voices, their wayward, widdershins tricks of thought...it should all have been like a homecoming for the boy he had been.

  But little Vyvyan had been overwhelmed. It was too much, it was all the things he had been seeing in his dreams and waking trances, all arrayed before him in a dazzling profusion. He had had to subsist on whatever magic and strangeness a little boy could conjure up. Now, the cornucopia was held out to him, and he balked at its plenitude.

  But the most disturbing encounter was with his father. Metamorphosis, after all, was the business of Vyvyan’s specific family among the clans in that storied valley. His uncle Angelus had taken him to a place in the woods where he could meet his father. It was a bright, moonlit night, and nightbirds could be seen winging their way through the woods, some recognisably owls - others psychopomps, with their birdlike bodies and pale, human faces. Creatures occasionally ran past, and Vyvyan was hard-pressed to identify hunter or prey; he had impressions of hoofed feet and horned brows, of flowing, gleaming hair and thick, matted fur, of clawed paws and long-fingered hands brushing past.

  ‘Is it much further?’ he asked, his voice small and querulous, terribly human and vulnerable in this mystical place.

  ‘Just a little bit, Vyvyan,’ said Angelus, his voice a honeyed growl, low and deep in his throat. Vyvyan envied the rooted solidity of that voice and wondered if he would someday grow to have one similar. Then, they stepped into a clearing and all wondering was banished by sheer shock. In the centre of the clearing, moonlight catching tangles of his silvery fur, picking out silver highlights in his eyes, was a creature that was somehow a wolf - a large, looming thing of many worlds - and his father, all at once. Vyvyan’s eyes hurt as he tried to focus on this shimmering chimera. He had often dreamed that his father was some powerful, arcane potentate, but this went beyond his imaginings. He was of their blood - but he was also a boy from a small town, raised amongst followers of faiths that admit knowledge of fewer worlds than were present in this moonlit clearing.

  The thing had seen him. It uttered a vocalisation that was at once a roar, a strange ululating keening, and an articulate, human gree
ting. A single word: ‘Son’.

  Vyvyan turned and fled. He ran through that eldritch wood, strange birds wheeling above, strange creatures crouching in strange undergrowth; he ran past stones that seemed ready to spring into life and statues that seemed like petrified people; he ran back to the house of his aunt and uncle.

  It was a place that preserved some semblance of normality with its slouching porch, its cozy, cluttered front parlour with the old transistor radio on the mantelpiece. He ran into that parlour, stretched himself across the couch with its embroidered cushions, pressed his face into the soft, feathery grasp of one of those very domestic cushions and wept. He would not stop weeping until, many hours later, his uncle and aunt had agreed to put him on the next flight to India.

  That night, the boys had outdone themselves; Mr. Braganza’s quarters were decked in copious streamers of some strange vine with long, curling leaves. Twigs and feathers were inserted in the vines to form abstruse patterns that both caught and repelled the eye. The little flowerbed had been dug up and a towering, twisted creature of mud and twigs and rocks reared in its place. Looking at the damage, he felt very old and tired. He took off his spectacles and wiped them. Standing there in the pale moonlight, he suddenly looked much younger than he had in decades, and even strangely beautiful. The moon caught a silvery-grey glint in his eyes and he looked like an older, partly withered but still recognisable version of his vexing students - or a stunted version of their father. He decided to clear the mess in the morning, and retired to his bedchamber where he was soon fast asleep, impossibly weary and mysteriously bereft.

  You have come to a crossroads, Mr. Vyvyan Braganza.

  ‘Who’s that? Who’s speaking?’

  It is no one, Vyvyan. I am no one. I am only the voice that whispers to you out of the darkness at the crossroads.

  ‘Cedric? Cyril? If it’s you, boys, I swear your father’s diplomatic immunity won’t help you this time - ‘

  It is neither Cedric nor Cyril. It is neither a boy nor their father. LISTEN, Vyvyan. Be still and listen.

  ‘...’

  That is better. You have come to a crossroads, Mr.Vyvyan Braganza. You have come to a parting of ways, a joining of paths. You have come here for the second time in your lifetime. It is a privilege not vouchsafed to many. But your father wills it so...

  ‘My … father?’

  Yes. He still waits for you. He has a place for you by his side, he has a need for you and you - you, Vyvyan have a need for him, if you ever wish to make more of yourself than this dry husk of what used to be a human being… a human being and something else as well.

  ‘I won’t do it. I won’t go back.’

  You may say so, but some choices have already been taken from you. Look outside the window, Vyvyan.

  The frightened man obeyed the voice. Outside, the groomed lawns and winding walkways of the school grounds had vanished, replaced by a mystical, unsettling woodland vista. There was only one place in the world that felt like this. Only one place where those strange things flew overhead, where those other strange things fleeted underfoot. Crying now, the man tried to bolt his window, but a wind slammed it open.

  This can only end in one of two ways, Vyvyan. You can lose your mind or you can lose your father. But you can no longer live the life you have lived.

  ‘Why not? I was content, I harmed no one...’

  Those are both lies, Vyvyan. You were deeply unhappy and you were harming yourself, destroying the wolfroghead magic that you carried, and not just in the form of an amulet within an old leather pouch. You were destroying yourself.

  He was beyond words now. There was only the swirling confusion within and the terrible choice outside. There was only Vyvyan, and his father. Suspended in space and time for this immemorial moment, waiting for a sign, any sign.

  A man who calls himself Viv, or Vyv, came to live in this town some years back. He is a very old man, tall and gaunt but glowing with some uncanny vitality that has nothing to do with modern medicine. He has captivating features, a little lean and handsome, a little thick and froggy. He has a shock of wild, white hair and the most amazing eyes, like grey clouds with their own silver linings. He is said to have lived in this town as a little boy, uncountable years in the past. He has taken over an old abandoned restaurant and turned it into a haven for travellers who are particularly strange, even for Goa. He laughs often and wears an amulet that seems to bear his own likeness. Sometimes, late in the nights when his customers are asleep or deep in their cups, he can be seen wandering along the beach, talking. Beside him can sometimes be seen a thing of more worlds than are spoken of in our mundane faiths. A thing that is part wolf, part man, and part something else altogether. Sometimes they raise voices in shared song.

  Vyvyan is always at home now, wherever he goes.

  Jayaprakash Satyamurthy lives in Bangalore with his wife, more books than he will be able to read in this lifetime, and an ever-growing horde of cats and dogs. He plays the bass guitar for a doom metal band called Djinn And Miskatonic and that's about it. His blog is: http://aaahfooey.blogspot.com

  Story illustration by Dominic Black

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  The Winds of Sesqua Valley

  by Ann K. Schwader

  The winds of Sesqua Valley sigh tonight

  Among the leaves of cemetery trees,

  Whose roots reclaim each wanderer by right

  Of that dark heartbeat pulsing like a sea

  Beneath the shadow-spell of Selta’s glance

  As trueborn children gather for the dance.

  Meanwhile, one exiled spirit lost among

  The echoes of a world grown too mundane

  To hear beyond itself awaits -- in vain --

  His summons home. A summoning unsung

  By all but dying stars above that tower

  Where Sesqua’s hierophant sequesters power.

  The winds of Sesqua Valley cry tonight

  From Selta’s summit . . . or some outer place

  Untouched & uncorrupted by the light

  Of our raw spark. Swept round by this embrace,

  Each dancer’s steps delineate a Sign

  In equal parts infernal & divine.

  Against a void grown leprous with the glow

  Of mortal lives, an exile lifts his hand

  In answer -- though the last who understand

  Departed from this wasteland long ago,

  To dwell instead beneath primeval skies,

  Adoring Khroyd’hon with their argent eyes.

  The winds of Sesqua Valley die tonight,

  Dismissing those who wove their threnody

  With foot & flute to speed the failing might

  Of all mankind has been, or hopes to be.

  Elsewhere, a dreamer exiled from their ways

  Takes up his pen of ebony, & plays.

  Ann K. Schwader’s most recent collection of dark verse is Twisted in Dream (Hippocampus Press 2011). She is a 2010 Bram Stoker Award Finalist. Her dark SF /cosmic horror tale “When the Stars Run Away” was recently published in Dark Fusions, edited by Lois H. Gresh (PS Publishing 2013). Ann lives & writes in suburban Colorado.

  Website: http://home.earthlink.net/~schwader/

  Story illustration by Lee Copeland

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  Jar of Mist

  by Jeffrey Thomas

  He was the one who had to identify his daughter’s body in the morgue. He was all she had. She had been all he had. His wife, her mother, had hung herself eleven years ago when Aliza had been ten. Oskar had had to identify her body, too.

  The sheet covered her to the waist, so he couldn’t see the wounds she had opened high in each inner thigh to sever the femoral arteries. Oskar didn’t ask to see them, didn’t know if they would be stitched up now or still yawning wide open from the elastic pull of her skin, anomalous deep canyons of raw red tissue in a landscape of smooth whiteness. He doubted seeing those new wounds would sh
ock him any more than the old wounds he could plainly see on both her bared forearms. He drew in his breath sharply when he saw them, and that was when the tears fell, and when he realized he had neglected his daughter for too long.

  Both of Aliza’s slim forearms were a mass of uncountable, overlapping raised lines; scar tissue so thick it was like a weave of armor…not to prevent blood from getting out, of course, but perhaps to prevent other things from getting in.

  “It’s her.” Oskar wept, cupping her cold cheek in his palm. He said it as though that hadn’t already been established. He said it as though he had recognized her not by her unmarred youthful face, but by these scars he’d never seen until now. What made him weep so openly was that he did recognize the scars, had known they were there all along, though not in the physical sense.

  The morgue attendant nodded, and drew the sheet up over her face again, like the edge of an advancing tide that would suck his daughter away to unknown and infinite depths.

  Aliza had been living in the town of North Bend, which in itself had mystified Oskar. Previously, she had seemed so in love with Seattle, its music scene, its artistic vibe. It was Oskar’s understanding that she had relocated there to live with a young man she’d met at an art show in Seattle. Oskar couldn’t even remember the boy’s name now, though Aliza had mentioned him to her father in their infrequent, brief, and uncomfortable phone conversations.

  Oskar had never visited her in North Bend, though she’d lived there eighteen months. Too absorbed in his work, and in his own relationship: a sordid affair with a much younger married coworker that had recently ended messily. Today was his first visit to Aliza’s apartment. The landlord had let him in.