Be My Forever: The Complete Series Box Set

by Lauren Wood

“What is the point?”

  She was exasperating me and I finally pulled her to me as I leaned across the table and kissed her. I felt like that would give us both the answer that we wanted. I knew that I wanted her and I knew from the past that a kiss would seal it for us both. As soon as I felt her lips on mine, all of the familiarity came back and then I heard a sigh from her and a softening of her lips. It was all that I needed to know that she was mine. I wasn’t going to apologize for it. I wanted her and it didn’t matter how I got what I wanted, as long as it happened.

  A sound behind us made her pull away and she sat back down, straightening out her dress like it was rumpled from what I had just done. “That is the point Kendra. I have missed you so damn much and you are the only girl that makes me feel this way. I am rock hard and I would almost bet an insane amount of money that you are soaking wet in those little panties right now and I haven’t even touched you yet.”

  She was stunned, her lips a little red because I hadn’t been gentle. I smeared her lipstick and she didn’t even try to wipe it off. I wanted to do it for her, but it wasn’t advisable. I didn’t know how she was taking the kiss yet or my comments, even though I knew the latter was the truth. She had never been able to deny me, her body always responding to me, eve when she was so mad at me. It was something that she couldn’t help and I think I went too far with the reminder. How badly I wanted to check and see if I was right,

  “I have to go Dennis.” She got up abruptly, grabbed her purse and headed for the door.

  Kendra was fleeing and I wanted to stop her, but I knew that I should let her go. She needed some time and space to think things through and there was no rushing the process. When I told her I was leaving for college and I was going with or without her. I hadn’t seen her for three days before she told me that she wasn’t going to change her plans for mine. We talked about long-distance, but she had already had her mind made up. Now I was just going to have to wait for a verdict, seemingly the hardest part of it all.

  I watched her leave and shook my head to myself. Nothing had changed. Kendra was still the same and I was going to have to wait and see. It was the worst part of all of this.

  Chapter 9

  Kendra

  I ran out of there and I know what it looked like. It looked like Dennis had gotten to me and the truth of the matter was that he had. He always did and that was why I had refused his request to talk. I knew what road it would go down and it was road I was anxious to stay away from. I didn’t want to fall back under his spell and get my heart broken all over again. Long ago he was popular and everyone wanted him, from many schools. I always felt like he would be swept away, but now it was even worse. He was a billionaire for goodness sakes. How could I ever compete in that world? Dennis dated models, not social workers from the bad part of the city. It didn’t make sense and I was feeling good about my decision, until he kissed me.

  Then it was like all sense went out of my head and I was back to whimpering under his touch, unable to stop the sounds of pleasure that came out of me. It was embarrassing, but I couldn’t deny how much my body remembered him. It drove me a little crazy that he could show up after all of this time and pretend like nothing had happened. I didn’t want him to be able to do that because I couldn’t. What was I holding on to so tightly?

  I made it home in one piece, but I felt like a wreck. I didn’t know what to say to him or what I was supposed to do, but my phone kept beeping and I had a feeling it was messages from Dennis. I wasn’t ready to see them though, so I hid in my room in bed and left the phone on the kitchen counter. If I strained I could still hear it, but I was trying my best to ignore it altogether. I didn’t want to get wrapped up in Dennis again. It never ended well for me and I didn’t think that this time was going to be any different.

  With that thought in mind, I almost went downstairs and messaged him that very thing, but I couldn’t get my body to get up and do so. It wasn’t because I didn’t want to, I reasoned. It was because I was just too tired and it wasn’t that big of a deal. I could just fix it all up tomorrow and everything would be fine. I needed some sleep. I just hoped that I didn’t dream about him again. It was very disconcerting.

  When I woke up, my mind was still on that kiss and how it had played out so differently in my dreams. I wanted to think that it was all just that, a dream, but it didn’t feel like it. It felt like we had just been together again and my body ached for him. I was wet and horny, going to the shower to take care of it before I went off to work. I had slept almost the whole night and even that didn’t seem to help the level of exhaustion that I felt. It was just too much.

  I had to finish what had started in the dream off in the shower and I was still wishing that I hadn’t let him kiss me. Dennis had a way of worming into my mind and I just couldn’t take it, not today and not any day really. I have put Dennis Yearling in my past long ago and that was exactly where he was supposed to stay.

  ***

  Work was hectic as always and I found less patience to deal. I skipped yoga class for the last week because I didn’t want to see Mark, but I was missing the way it made me feel. Usually I got some good relaxation out of it and I was trying my best to get my mind off of the dinner date I had with Dennis. He had wreaked havoc, like I knew he would. I don’t even know why I was surprised. I shouldn’t have been. I should have just said no or better yet, never accepted his invitation at all. I knew what this would be and the more I thought about it, the madder I became. He wanted to force my hand, like always and I didn’t appreciate him making me feel all of these things, and for what? It was all for nothing as far as I was concerned. He had tilted my life up for what? Dennis came out of nowhere from forever ago and now I couldn’t get him off of my mind. It just wasn’t fair as far as I was concerned.

  I started to message him several times and tell him that I just wasn’t interested. If I was clear with him, I mean crystal clear. Then maybe he would leave me alone. This is what I hoped for anyways. I didn’t know if it was possible, but even with the assurance that it was, I don’t know if I could. I hadn’t yet found the fortitude or courage to do so. I was still far more worried about never seeing him again, at the same time I was trying to convince myself that it was what I wanted.

  Finally I got another message from Dennis. I almost thought he had forgotten it all because I hadn’t spoken to him since the restaurant. He had gone quiet and while it was appreciated, it wasn’t like the old Dennis. The old Dennis hounded me every time I got mad and got distant. He told me once that he wasn’t going to allow it. Now he was giving me space, but just letting me know that he hadn’t forgotten.

  I smiled at the message and then groaned inwardly. I wasn’t supposed to melt from his messages.

  “I was just thinking about you and thought I would say hi.”

  I stared at the words until they became a blur and then shut my phone. It was hard enough to get through the day without him there at the edge of all of it. But he already was, had been since he popped back up into my life.

  “What are you thinking about?”

  As soon as I sent it, I knew that I had said the wrong thing. It could be taken badly and by his reply it was. I sighed and set the phone down. He got into too much detail and I could feel a throbbing at my core. He was getting very good at that and it was most certainly not a good thing.

  “I am thinking about the time that we went out to Rush Lake and it was so cold that we couldn’t do it on the hood because you were so cold. We went into the back and I turned you into a pretzel. Damn you felt so good like that. Do you remember how your cum shot out and hit my chest. It was the first time I made you squirt. That’s what I am thinking about Kendra.”

  My mouth was suddenly dry and the scene replayed in my head. He had done it again. I was soaking wet and he hadn’t even touched me. What was I supposed to say to that?

  “I don’t think that is possible anymore. I was a whole lot more limber back then.”

  Why was I egging
it on? Why was I all of sudden thinking of doing what I had told myself I would never again? Sex and love with Dennis was unanimous. You couldn’t have one without the other. I couldn’t let him touch my body and not fall back into his spell, no matter how hard I tried to separate the two.

  “I can always just put your legs over my shoulders now. Then I can go deeper and hit that spot that makes you cum so hard. You know I haven’t found another woman to do that? You were one of a kind Kendra, in so many ways.”

  I shivered with the text and set the phone down. He was a vortex that I couldn’t help but get sucked into. It wasn’t doing me any good to stay away from him, not when he could just reach out and have me trembling inside with just a few words. My body was reacting like I was there again, in the moments that he described so well.

  “What do you want Dennis? You want one more go-round for old times? Is that why you tracked me down?”

  My heart pounded in my chest as I waited for an answer. When had I decided that I was going to do this or was I really just that desperate to have his hands on me again? It couldn’t be as good as I remembered. I had probably built it up in my head. Maybe I just needed to get him out of my system, be reminded that it wasn’t as great as I imagined it to be.

  “Is that offer really on the table?”

  I laughed at his message and then got startled when my phone started to ring. I knew who it was before I clicked over.

  “Tell me you are not joking and I will be over there in ten minutes.”

  I giggled again and asked him if he knew where I was.

  “Yes, I know exactly where you are Kendra. Let me see you and then you can decide if it is a one-off thing. I just want to touch you again. It killed me not to grab you up at the restaurant the way I wanted to.”

  I sighed and knew that I had already lost the battle. Why had I said it if I didn’t want to do it? I was still holding out for the idea that I would miraculously get over him if I was in Dennis’ arms again. It seemed far less likely when I said it out loud though. I liked Dennis a lot, but there was something about the way that he touched me that I couldn’t resist. If he got his hands on me again, I would surely be lost.

  With that in mind, I told him that I was going to need longer than a few minutes to get ready. He just kind of waved me off and asked me how long I was going to need. He was practically giddy and I don’t know how I felt about that. He had me thinking that I was in for it.

  “Just makes sure it doesn’t take you a week. I don’t think I can wait patiently anymore. Not with the idea that I am going to have you in my arms again.”

  “Fine, give me an hour and then come by. Are you sure you don’t need the address?”

  “No Kendra. I will be there soon.”

  He had a sound of triumph in his voice and the truth was that he had won again. It irked me a little to think about it, but there was no reason to let myself get worked up. This is what I wanted.

  “Okay Dennis, I will see you then.”

  I hung up and let out the breath I was holding.

  “Well that escalated quickly.” What the heck had I just done?

  I didn’t have long to ponder my actions and the repercussions from it because I didn’t have long before he was going to be here. My heart was pounding and my hands were trembling. What had I just gotten myself into? My body was excited and slightly trembling, but my brain was screaming at me, telling me that I am an idiot.

  Chapter 10

  Dennis

  I don’t know what was on her mind, but when she suggested I come over, Kendra had the same tone to her voice that I had heard many times before. Years ago she would call me and tell me that she was in need. All I could hope was that this was going to be more and the same. I was ready for her and I liked to think that it was all because of that kiss we shared. I had felt bad. Worried that I had pushed too far, but now I wasn’t too worried anymore.

  It was the first time that I had managed to give her space, even though I didn’t want to. It had worked out to my advantage and I got ready with a lighter heart than I had had in a long time. It wasn’t going to be an hour before I was there. An hour was too long. She could change her mind by then and then what was I going to do? I wouldn’t be able to deal, so I decided that I wasn’t going to give her the option. This was happening and nothing was going to stand in my way from having her again, not even Kendra herself.

  I got there almost a half an hour early. I sat outside in the car, twiddling my thumbs and making a few calls on my phone before I shut it off for the night. It wasn’t something that I did all of the time, but I simply didn’t want anyone or anything to interrupt us. I don’t care what or who, I wasn’t going to let anything stand in our ways, I just refused.

  So finally I got up the nerve at a quarter till to go and see if she was ready. I didn’t know what to expect, but it wasn’t the nothing like what I got because I was getting nothing. After a few more times knocking, I was worried she was trying to blow me off again. Moving to the door handle, it was unlocked, so I turned the knob and pushed in the door.

  “Kendra, are you in here?”

  I waited for an answer and only when I was silent did I hear the water running in the shower. She was still in there and there was a big part of me that wanted to join her. It would have been what I would have done before, but now everything was different. I had all of the old feelings of familiarity, but I didn’t have any of the rights that I had before. That was the worst part of it all. I still felt like she was mine, at the same time though, I knew that she wasn’t. It was a hard line for me and it was one that I wanted to cross every second that she was in front of me.

  Knowing that she was in the shower was hard enough to deal with. Knowing that I couldn’t just get in with her and wrap my arms around her was something that I didn’t like to think about. I wanted it back to the way things were long ago. When I saw her at the restaurant, I felt all of the same feelings and wanted to return to that place we were once at. It was a good place and I wanted to go back there so badly. I knew that the first step of that was going to be here.

  I took a seat on the couch and waited for her to get out. The television was on the news, so I tuned in, the whole time listening for the shower to turn off. I wanted to know what she was doing in there and I wanted the view that would tell me how much of her, if anything had changed when her clothes were off.

  The shower went off and I was on the edge of my seat. I didn’t want to seem too obvious, but I changed my position enough that I could see down the hall she was about to come down. I just wanted to see her. I felt like a kid that couldn’t wait to get the candy he could see in the window. I could see it and taste it already in my mouth. This is how I felt in this moment.

  She was humming when she got out of the bathroom and she had a toweled wrapped tightly around her. Kendra’s hair was up and it was sticking out with wet pieces in some places. She was a sight for sore eyes and I sighed loud enough that she heard me and swung around.

  “What are you doing in here?’

  “I knocked several times and then when I saw the door was locked, I just came in. You really shouldn’t leave your door unlocked like that Kendra, especially not alone in the shower. Any kind of bad man could have gotten in here.”

  “Yet you are the one that broke in.”

  “I didn’t break in. It wasn’t locked.”

  She smiled at me and melted me into a puddle on the couch. She wasn’t ready for me to go to her yet, I could see it on her face, but that didn’t mean that I didn’t want to. I was just going to have to wait a little while longer.

  “Do you have anything to drink? I will make us something while you get ready.”

  Kendra waved me off and instead of hiding in her bedroom and getting dressed she went into the kitchen and pulled a bottle down from one of the cabinets. She didn’t have a lick of makeup on and her hair was all over the place, but I think I liked her best this way. Now she had a grin on her face and she was relaxe
d. She also looked younger without all of the face paint on. I had never been a big fan of it, but I had always been a fan of the fact that Kendra didn’t feel like she needed it. I liked the fresh-faced look, though it was hard to come by in the city.

  “Are you going to get dressed?”

  My eyes were taking in the wet skin that was available to me and while I didn’t want her to get dressed, it was going to be harder than ever to hold a conversation. I hadn’t been with another woman since I decided that I wanted Kendra back in my life. My body was dying for it and I was already rock hard with the sight of her. It was going to be long and torturous if I didn’t have her soon. Seeing her like that was hard on my senses.

  “No, I don’t think so.” Kendra giggled and I asked her what she was laughing at. “I don’t think I have ever heard you suggest that I put clothes on before. It just threw me off a little bit, that’s all. Maybe you have changed Dennis.”

  It was true. I didn’t think that I had ever said such a thing to any woman, let alone Kendra. If I would have had it my way, she would always be naked. Every time we were together before, nothing but skin on skin would do. “I just thought it would be easier to talk if you aren’t like that. It’s hard to concentrate when you look like that. You have to know what you are doing to me baby. You have always had a certain effect on me.”

  Kendra looked down to where I was suggesting my trouble lie and smiled. She took a sip of the drink that she had just poured for herself and I could tell our minds were on the same thing. “Is that what you are here for Dennis, to talk? If I remember right, you never were too fond of words when we were together alone.”

  “Well, not really, but I will do whatever you want.”

  She smiled at my answer and I wasn’t sure how much I liked how easy the answer came to me. “Everything but leave me alone, huh?”

  I frowned and I didn’t like where this was going. “Do you really want me to leave you alone Kendra? You say that, but I don’t know if I should believe you or not. Your mouth says no, but your eyes tell me yes. The fact that you are still in that towel and not dressed makes me think that you want me as much as I want you.”