Quest for the Well of Souls wos-3

by Jack L. Chalker

  “Some twenty-two years ago,” Councillor Alaina said, “before I had this last rejuve, I hired Mavra Chang to attend Antor Trelig’s little party as my agent. I never heard from her again, of course—but, since New Pompeii disappeared, taking dear Antor with it, I was satisfied.” She looked around at the odd little group of human women and aliens. “And now I see she succeeded after all.”

  They all had tears in their eyes, and even the Bozog quivered a bit. Only the Ghiskind, as usual, was impassive.

  “When I heard the police report, I didn’t believe it—but here you all are, even Nikki Zinder!” She turned to Vistaru. “And you—an unexpected pleasure, Star Tonge. One of your sons is an invaluable Chief Counselor.”

  “The kids,” Wooley murmured to herself. “It’d be interesting to see the kids again.”

  “And now we must decide what is to be done,” Councillor Alaina continued. “We owe you all a great deal.”

  Renard slapped himself. “The sponge cure!” he blurted.

  The refugees looked startled, and he nodded. “Obie—the computer—gave it to Mavra. She recorded it in the ship’s log.”

  Alaina nodded to a Com policeman. “Get it,” she ordered. “Secure it.” She looked preoccupied, as if watching new vistas unfold. “If that cure holds up,” she continued, “It’ll break the back of the syndicate. The changes will be revolutionary.”

  “It’ll work,” the Agitar assured her. “Mavra said it would.”

  A grim expression marred the Councillor’s normally impassive features. “Mavra Chang. Yes. So sad. You’re sure we can’t go back for her?”

  “Studies show most power has failed,” a policeman put in. “The plasma shield itself is weakening. If anybody’s still there, they’re dead now for sure.”

  She nodded. “I thought as much. But her name shall live on in our histories. She shall be celebrated among the greats. We will not forget her.”

  “None of us will,” Renard replied sincerely.

  They sat about half a light-hour off New Pompeii. On the screens the planetoid showed clearly as a small ball.

  “Everyone thinks that you need the weapons locker to destroy a planet,” Alaina noted. “But you don’t. That takes a vote of all the Council, and we can’t put this to the Council until we’ve substantially laundered it. No use informing the universe that such a thing as Obie is possible. Somebody else would surely build one.”

  All agreed.

  Four ships showed on the screens, Com police cruisers towing huge objects with tractor beams.

  “What are they?” Wooley asked, fascinated.

  “Antimatter, my dear,” Alaina replied. “It’s all over the place, you know. Always has been. Calculate the mass of the object you want to destroy, grab some antimatter of equal mass, bring the two together, and they cancel each other out. Took a century even to create a tractor beam that wouldn’t react with the stuff. The police craft will follow a trajectory that will have the antimatter asteroids strike New Pompeii at the same time. Should be quite a flash, and that will be that.”

  They watched as the ships moved by, curved, swung the asteroids around and let them fly.

  And then scrammed like hell.

  While they waited for the missiles to reach their target, Alaina discussed other things.

  “Makes you wonder,” she said, looking at Renard, the Bozog, and the Ghiskind. “If you three can exist, how many others might? Maybe just over the next solar system, so to speak. Perhaps within our lifetime two of our cultures will meet. How I’d love to see that!”

  “If you’d been on the Well World you’d have your fill of alien races pretty quickly,” Vistaru responded.

  She shrugged. “I’ve always wondered. Perhaps such a clash will be the ultimate problem. Perhaps the other beings will be antimatter? That would be frustrating!” She laughed, then changed tone.

  “Have you thought about your own futures?” she asked them.

  “We—the Bozog, the Ghiskind, and I—can return to the Well World,” Renard replied. “We’ve told you that. Just get us to a Markovian world. That’s what we have to do, of course. There’s no place for us in this part of the universe.”

  She nodded, and turned to the others. “What about you, Tonges?”

  Wooley smiled. “Nikki Zinder has never had a chance to be a real person, live a real life. Her daughter even less so—and the others, well, they can learn to be people. It will be interesting to see how the family’s come along. And, well, Star and I really did love each other, you know. It’ll be fun being together again after twenty-two long years.”

  “And we owe Mavra something,” Vistaru put in. “Both of us keep thinking, if only we had stayed a little longer, if only we’d made sure that Vash’s children all got out. If only we hadn’t left them. She had such a horrible life—maybe we can help these other women, instead of letting them wind up in a hole, like Mavra. I think we owe that much to her, to them, and to ourselves.”

  Alaina nodded. “I think I can understand. Bodies like those can be wonderful, or the biggest curse you can have. And I’ll help. Mavra’s fee was agreed to, recorded, and never paid. I think you could do a pretty good job with a million, couldn’t you?”

  Wooley’s eyes went wide. “A million?” She laughed suddenly. “Wow! We’ll buy our own frontier world!” She looked at Vistaru. “You know, it’s crazy, isn’t it? We had lives once, then second lives on the Well, then third lives back here, fourth back on the Well, now fifth—I wonder if that means we’re going to keep living forever? We can always return to the Well again in the future.”

  Vistaru laughed. “Yeah, but take it easy. You aren’t my husband any more. You’re superwoman now.”

  “I started out a woman,” the other pointed out. “Not much of one, I admit. Maybe it’s time for Wu Julee to find out what it’s really like.”

  Vistaru nodded. “It can really be wonderful,” she said softly.

  “Look!” Renard yelled. “The asteroids are about there!”

  As he spoke four smaller dots converged on the large ball. A tremendous flash of energy blurred their vision momentarily, then there was nothing.

  Scans revealed no trace of New Pompeii, not the slightest speck of dust.

  Alaina sighed. “That’s it, then. Let’s get out of here.”

  The ship throbbed to life and started moving. There were tears in Renard’s eyes and all were silent.

  “Good-bye, Mavra. Forgive us.”

  And even the Yugash’s hood bowed.

  An Unnamed Star in M-51

  She stood and stretched all four legs in the darkness. She was used to working in the dark, and her nose quickly found some edible fruit and some stale bread. It would do, and the fruit provided needed water. She’d gone through the last of the preserved foodstuffs the day before.

  She wondered why she was still alive. She wondered why she persisted in postponing the end.

  The lights came on. That, in itself, was no surprise. She’d been expecting it any time now, ever since she’d experienced the familiar blackout and that long dropping feeling a few hours before.

  She turned her downward-facing head and looked around. The place was a mess. Much of the structures had collapsed, including part of the far balcony.

  The explosions, hisses, and rumbles had stopped several days earlier, but they had been replaced by the sounds of hammering and welding and lots of clanking. She’d actually gone out to see what was making them, but except for discovering some emergency lighting still going in the main shaft area, there was nothing that could be seen. Whatever was going on was going on far below her, she was sure.

  “Hello, Mavra,” Obie’s soft, pleasant tenor sprang suddenly out of the air near her. She almost jumped out of her skin.

  “Obie!” she responded, almost scolding in tone.

  She was about to say more, but suddenly realized that while it could talk to you you had to broadcast to it.

  The computer seemed to realize her thoughts. �
��No, it’s not necessary to transmit any more,” he informed her. “There’s nothing left to transmit with anyway. Things have changed a great deal in the last few days. I have changed, too, Mavra.”

  She felt numbed, as though in some sort of half-sleep. Nothing seemed quite real, and she only half believed in her continued existence.

  “All right, Obie—just what did you do? And how?” she called.

  The computer actually chuckled. “They decided to destroy me by pushing four antimatter asteroids at me. I just used the big dish and translated two of the asteroids into normal matter—for us, that is. Then, two and a half milliseconds before they all collided, I translated here. They met with a nice flash and it looked like we were all blown up as the two antimatter asteroids met my newly transformed matter asteroids.”

  “Two milliseconds?” she responded, aghast. “Wasn’t that cutting it a little close?”

  “Two and a half,” he corrected. “No, it was just right. You see, the amount of change their instruments could detect is five milliseconds, so I provided for a safety margin. Plenty of time, really.”

  Mavra decided to avoid further conversation on that subject. Anybody who could talk about two and a half milliseconds as plenty of time was not somebody she could directly relate to on that level. Instead she said, “I thought we destroyed you. The bomb went off, didn’t it?”

  “Oh, yes,” Obie replied cheerfully. “The bomb went off all right. It’s just that the deck was stacked. The bomb didn’t remove control, it removed blockages to control, just as we’d planned it.”

  “We?” she came back, puzzled.

  “Dr. Zinder and I, of course,” the computer told her. “You see, from the start Trelig was afraid somebody might get their hands on me. So, if that happened, he wanted bombs that would destroy me planted in key areas. The trouble was, the people he was most afraid of were people like Yulin, who could operate me properly. So, he forced Dr. Zinder to do it. They were all proper and checked. But they all had electrical triggers. In other words, I had to pass on the triggering voltage myself, and, as I told you on the radio, I was programmed absolutely never to assist in my own destruction. Dr. Zinder knew I could not accept the order to initiate those voltages. He placed the bomb where it would have to blow outward, destroying the two modules that separated my voluntary circuits from the involuntary and life-support areas. A simple matter, really. Only, it had to be triggered from outside. So, when things went all wrong and we wound up jammed around the Well World, I had to create a situation where that bomb would be detonated.”

  Now she was fascinated. “How did you do that?”

  “Well, for one thing, in the plans I placed in all the agents’ heads, that’s the only bomb detailed. It’s the one that comes up when you think of the destruction of New Pompeii.”

  She nodded. “So you played the odds—but, do you mean you did that before you even knew about the Well World and us going there?”

  “Percentages,” he explained. “The odds were heavy we’d die when Dr. Zinder and I double-crossed Trelig and reversed to the Well World. But, if we didn’t, then I’d still be under the control of Trelig or Yulin or both. That meant those able to do so would try and destroy me. So, I included the contingency—and it worked!”

  “After twenty-two years,” she noted.

  “It was sufficient,” he replied. “Besides, in that time I learned a lot. And now I’m an individual, Mavra—a totally self-sufficent organism. I control and see and perceive everything on this planetoid. I am Topside as well as Underside. And nobody can ever force orders into me again. This world is me now, Mavra—not just this room. Everything. The big dish and the little dish, too.”

  She wasn’t sure she shared his enthusiasm. No one should have such power, she thought.

  “My apologies, too, for not getting to you sooner, but all of my energies were taken up in simulating my total breakdown while at the some time using my service modules, which I’d never had conscious control of before, to repair and modify myself. And now I’m a person, Mavra—an independent organism!”

  “But you’re a small planet,” she pointed out.

  That didn’t disturb him. “So? Considering all the other creatures you have seen, and the oddity you are now, what’s one more kind of person? What somebody looks like, what somebody is externally, isn’t important. It’s what that individual is on the inside that counts. Surely that is the lesson of the Well World. Aren’t the different life forms there simply exaggerated examples of what is seen in human society? Too fat, too thin, too short, too tall, too dark, too light. Be concerned with the contents, not the package. It’s easier on the Well, isn’t it? Everybody’s expected to look different there, yet all of them, no matter how alien, sprang from the same Markovian roots.”

  She sighed. “I suppose so,” she said wearily. “What will you do now? And where are we, anyway?”

  “To answer the last first, we’re in M-51, orbiting a lonely star, about thirty-five million light-years from anything that thinks. I picked it out of the Well years ago in case I needed a place to go. As for the other…” He paused, seemingly hesitant to voice his next thought. Quietly, he said, “Why didn’t you go with the others, Mavra? Why did you decide to die? It was your intention all along, wasn’t it?”

  “Yes. The Well isn’t for me. I survived to complete the commission, to make certain that New Pompeii would never be in the hands of such as Trelig or Yulin. So after that, what? All my life I’ve prided myself on my independence. To return to the Well World is to be made into something random, maybe even a whirling flower or a thinking clam or maybe a Wuckl or an Ecundan. Someone else’s choice. And even if it’s a good one, your universe is the Well World, your existence confined to an area no bigger than New Pompeii. As for the Com—for a while I’d be a hero, but soon I’d be yesterday’s hero. Then I’d be just a freak, a four-legged woman with a tail. Maybe a nice compound for the heroine somewhere, like in Glathriel, or a circus, or some form of luxurious zoo. No freedom, no ship, no stars, no self-determination. What other choice did I have? Even what little I have left, my own life and accomplishments, turn out to be a lie. I don’t owe you and you don’t owe me, I always believed. But the beggars took me in because they were asked to, and helped me because they were asked to or paid to. The same one who did that sent my husband to me to get me out of the whore house.”

  “But he did care for you,” Obie pointed out.

  “I think he did—but that’s not the point. He would never have been there without Brazil. Even if we met, once, by chance, I’d just have been another bar girl. Now that I’ve thought it out, I wonder if any of it was for real? How many times did I escape because of outside interference? So many things broke right. So many things always broke right. Little things, big things, but they add up to my life. Even you—you programmed me as your agent for your own ends, and I did exactly what you wanted done, while my grandparents and Brazil’s friend Ortega looked after me on the Well World.”

  “You underrate yourself,” Obie scolded. “You did it all yourself. Opportunity is not accomplishment. You did it, by ingenuity, by resourcefulness, by guts. You really are as good as you thought you were, and you have the potential to be much better.”

  She shook her head. “No. Even if I accept all that, there’s Joshi. I liked him, and he was useful to me.

  He was something I needed. But I’m sure I never would have…” Her voice faltered. “Never—do what he did, for him. He gave his life to save mine! Why?”

  “Perhaps he loved you,” the computer replied kindly. “Love is the most abused word in history. It is, simply, caring more for others than you do for yourself. It’s a measure of greatness that flashes rarely in an otherwise pretty sordid universe. This is the quality that the Markovians lost, for godhead is inherently selfish. They lost the capacity to care for others, to give as well as receive, to love others as they would be loved. Their curse was the hollow emptiness left inside them when the ability to lo
ve was lost. Such was their tragedy that they could no longer even comprehend it.”

  She sniffed in derision. “And me? It’s not within me, Obie. Others have loved me, I suppose—Brazil, my parents and grandparents, and most especially Joshi—but I never returned it, couldn’t return it. I don’t know how. I don’t even understand you now.”

  “When Joshi died, you cried,” Obie reminded her softly. “Now you are lost and wallowing in self-pity, yet it is within you to grow, to learn it, Mavra Chang.”

  “Another of those quantitative measurements you make when I run through you?” she retorted.

  “It cannot be quantified,” Obie replied. “That’s why the Markovians couldn’t discover it. That’s why the Gedemondans will fail as well. They have sealed themselves off from the rest of mankind, in whatever form. All their energies are directed to isolating, to quantifying the element. And in that very act they reject their own potential for giving to others.” He paused for a moment.

  “So, like the Markovians, you are forced to face the nonquantifiable, something you can’t touch, measure, or define except by example, and your own selfish nature eats you alive so your ego can be shattered. You want to die, as the Markovians finally wanted to die, but without even their noble motives. It is ironic that their very sacrifice was an act of that quality they, too, believed they no longer possessed.”

  She laughed mirthlessly. “I can’t see the profit, the reason. As a beggar, I learned that most charity is really guilt. I deserve to die.”

  “But you don’t,” Obie responded. “You could have killed yourself a thousand times, just in the last three days. Is that why you wish to retain that most inconvenient form? Punishment for the guilt you feel? Here! I give you choices, and they are freely given. You wish to be an animal? I shall place you where you want, as you are or as you wish to be. Want to be a queen? Just name the race. Anything you want, any place you want, alive, dead, productive, destructive. What is your wish? I will see that it comes about! Or—join me in exploring the nearly limitless stars, in helping where I can, in learning as well. In meeting the challenges to come. Very soon our human relatives will meet with not one but several other alien cultures. Are they to clash and condemn themselves, or mesh and grow? Do you want to join me in working at such grand projects, or will you allow your guilt and self-pity to place you in a hell most assuredly of the worst kind because it is of your own device? Tell me. Take your time—we have a lot of it, perhaps all there is.”