SCREAMIN' in Pain

by Cynthia Pegram

  He takes my hand looking me in the eye, “what is going on with you and Vanessa?”

  I shake my head in absolute disgust, “she slept with, my husband. Even though he had a wife! No big deal. She was one of many.”

  I feel him tense up next to me, “would you like me to fire her? I totally will if that would please you, Kristy.”

  “That’s not necessary but thanks for the offer.” I lean in kissing him again.

  “Can I come see you after work?”

  “Of course, Giovanni. I would like that.”

  He leads me out of his office while holding my hand. We walk up front where Vanessa is. She is batting her eyes at him.

  “Thread lightly Vanessa, I seriously won’t put up with your shit.”

  I am so surprised that he said that to her. I almost laughed aloud! Turning to me, Giovanni gives me a kiss goodbye.

  “See you tonight, Baby.” He tells me in a serious sexual voice.

  I turn and leave feeling so good. I have not felt like that forever! I really mean forever!

  CHAPTER 14

  I drive home having mixed emotions. What am I doing? I do not want a relationship although I feel like I am having one with Giovanni. He makes me feel so good though. I do not know what to do.

  I walk into my room changing my clothes. After I am done with that, I head to the kitchen needing a beer. Jacob is there putting away groceries.

  “Hi, Kristy. Sorry, I had to get some meat. I can’t live off salad alone.” I give a lighthearted laugh.

  He stops to look over at me, “how was your day?”

  I give an ear-to-ear grin, “exhausting! How was yours?”

  He continues to put the groceries away, “got all of my paperwork filled out and everything else I had to do. I am going to start work tomorrow. Are you hungry, Kristy? I am going to make some lunch.”

  Looking over at the clock on the stove, I see it is only two in the afternoon. I have not eaten yet and I had worked up an appetite!

  “Yes I am thank you.”

  Jacob makes some salmon burgers. I eat because it is good and I am starving. When we are done, I load the dishwasher. Jacob goes into his room.

  When I finish with the dishes, I go to the living room. I turn on the TV except I must have fallen asleep. I wake at five pm to a knock on the door.

  When Giovanni enters the living room, he grabs me and kisses the hell out of me. I take his hand, turning off the TV to go into my room.

  He lays back on the bed. I go over to join him. He pulls me in his arms as I lay my head against his chest. We stay there for a while, not saying anything. Man, he smells so good; I keep sniffing him, drinking in his scent.

  He lifts my head up with his finger so I am looking him in the eyes, “Kristy, I know you are afraid of a relationship. I know you think Hugh is consuming you. I get it! He is all around you. You feel like you have to break free. I don’t blame you for feeling that way.”

  Giovanni looks away from me getting very quiet. I know he has something to say. I wish he would just spit it out already. I give him a little nudge in the side.

  He turns to me again, “from the time I met you, I knew I really wanted to be with you. I also know you are sexually sheltered. I am sure you do not want to jump the gun on a relationship. I know you don’t want to end up with the first person you meet.”

  I quickly sit up to look down at him. Is he reading my mind or what? I really do feel that way! Although, I feel like I want to be with him. He saying this aloud scares me a bit. I am not sure why but it does. Giovanni is busy running his hand through his hair.

  “Giovanni, just where are you headed with this? You are right, that is how I feel! I just don’t know where you are taking this.”

  I start to think that maybe I should not ask him that. I might not like the answer he gives me.

  “I did a lot of thinking today about us. I think you are afraid of a relationship because you have not lived yet. I believe you need to live. You need to have some fun. You need to experiment.”

  I sit there looking at him in disbelief. What does he mean by experiment? Where is he going with this? I sit Indian style next to him. My whole body turns in his direction. He has my full attention. Giovanni follows suit, so we are facing each other.

  “Could you elaborate, please?” I have to ask him.

  “Kristy, I only want to be with you! I have had a fair amount of women throughout my life. You have only had Hugh and me! I think it would be good for you to experiment.”

  I lay back on the bed with my arm over my face. I did have Dewayne also, but he does not need to know about that.

  I am so embarrassed. I do not want him to look at me. I feel like I could have died! What is wrong with this dude? Please do not end up being like Hugh.

  “All I am saying is I want you to do the things you always dreamt of. Go out and fuck whom you want to. Do the things you want to. I want you to experiment with other men. I want you to see I am the only one you will want in the end. It’s that simple!”

  My head gets cloudy. I am so confused. I cannot believe I am having this conversation with him. All I want is a drink! I start thinking; he has open this door let us see what it entails.

  “Giovanni, what will you be doing while I do this? Are you going to be fucking other women? Will we see each other while we do this?”

  He takes my arm away from my face. He pulls me up so I am facing him again. He reaches over smoothing the hair away from my face.

  “I will be with you. Not there watching but I am not going anywhere. I will not be fucking anyone except you. I do not need to fuck other women. I happen to like how you make me feel very much. We will definitely see each other as often as you like. The more the better.”

  I lay back down giving myself a headache from thinking so much. I stand up to leave the room in pure frustration!

  “Where are you going?”

  “Giovanni, I don’t know about you, but I certainly could use a drink.”

  I leave the bedroom going to the kitchen. When I get to the living room, Jacob is watching TV.

  “Hey, Jacob. Are you watching anything good?” I am only being polite. I really do not give a shit!

  “Not really. There is not much on TV tonight. Do you have company?”

  “Yes,” I answer him as I walk to the kitchen. I take two glasses out of the cabinet. I put ice and whiskey in them. I take the fifth with me. I am thinking I might need a refill.

  When I get back to my room, Giovanni is lying on my bed in a pair of boxers.

  “Comfy?” I ask him smiling.

  He takes the glass patting the bed next to him. I take a drink sitting on the edge of the bed. I look up to him as he sits up.

  “Now, I have something else I want to tell you.”

  There seems to be no stopping him tonight he is on a roll!

  “Kristy, I want you to know that I own a business in San Diego. It is not far from where you will live. It is in entertainment. My parents gave it to a friend and me when they moved back to, Italy. I was not going to tell you although Randy thought I should. He didn’t want you to think I was stalking you.”

  I look up at him and wonder if Heather had said something to him about me moving there, keeping an eye on me. I guess it really does not matter. It is not as if I would have to see him all the time anyway.

  “If you would have just shown up I would have thought you were stalking me! That would have totally crept me out. Thanks for telling me, Giovanni.”

  I down my drink in one swallow. He takes my glass then pulls me next to him. He takes off my pants and shirt. We just lay there holding each other for a while. I cannot stop thinking about what he said.

  He turns to look at me again being serious, “tell me, Kristy, are you sexually sheltered?” I feel my face go red again. Will he ever quit?

  “I am really not comfortable talking about this.” I really do not want to talk about it at all!

  He gently grabs and squeezes the insi
de of my thigh, “Kristy, I want you to feel like you can tell me anything and everything.”

  I make myself another drink. I hope the buzz will make it easier to talk to him about this. I feel seriously uncomfortable.

  “Hugh . . . was my only lover! We had only one position, he was on top I was on the bottom. Whenever he felt like making love to me, I always wished I had been somewhere else or with someone else! Sometimes he would climax leaving me hanging. When he gone done getting off, he did not think he needed to finish me off. I would finish myself after he left the room. I have only put a man’s cock in my mouth when Hugh forced me. I hated it when I had to do that. Although I love it when I do it to you!”

  I cannot help but to think how Hugh had controlled me in every part of my life. He had a great sex life with everyone except for his wife. How sad!

  “Kristy, you will never have to worry about that with me. I would never ask you to do anything you did not want to do. I will always make sure I please you.”

  He slowly rolls me over so I am lying on my back. Spreading my legs open, he slides his fingers into me. “First, you will cum this way!” He moves his fingers around. Putting them in and out of me. Yes . . . I did cum that way.

  He kisses me with passion, “now, you will cum this way.” He put his tongue deep inside of me. Licking then nibbling. He plays slow then gets faster and harder. Oh yes . . . I did cum that way also.

  “Now, you are going to do it this way.” He lies on top of me put himself inside. I love the way this man feels in me! He rams me repeatedly. Getting deeper in me, I run my fingernails across his back. I surprise him when I do that. He gives out a yell, ramming me hard. Yes, again - I did cum that way.

  We fall asleep for a while. I hold him so close to me. I believe I could get use to this!

  When I wake, Giovanni is sucking on my breasts. He caresses my nipples pulling on them. I give a moan. That feels so good. He slides his fingers in again. Moving them in and out. He slides a finger in my asshole. Circling it around. I flinch in surprise although it feels so good.

  When Hugh and Dewayne raped me, it did not feel good. They were out to hurt me, which they did. I cannot think of that night ever again. I am trying to move on. I am trying to forget. I do not want to fuck myself up mentally!

  “How’s that feel? Are you okay?”

  I am moaning loudly now, “Oh yes! I want more in my ass, please.”

  He put two fingers in my ass pulling them in and out. Aww man, he can do that to me all night long. He replaces his fingers in my pussy with his big dick. He continues to play in my ass.

  “Harder, faster, deeper!” I am screaming at him so loudly.

  He is so deep it hurts yet it feels so good. He is ramming me so hard. We are dancing together. Deeper it comes. I think if he goes any deeper, his dick will poke out of my mouth. We cum together. I am absolutely in heaven! We fall to sleep in each other’s arms.

  We wake up early the next morning. I get ready for my day. He gets ready for work.

  “Kristy, I want all of you guys to come to dinner tonight.”

  I know Heather and Randy will be on board with that. They have wanted to take me to Giovanni’s place for quite some time.

  “Sure, Giovanni, that would be nice. What time should we be there?”

  “How about six?” We agree to that.

  I take his hand to walk him to the door. We get into the living room and I see find Jacob in the kitchen.

  I take Giovanni in there, “Giovanni, this is Jacob, my roommate until I leave. He is new to Ocean Shores. Jacob, this is Giovanni, the guy I am dating.”

  Giovanni is checking him out, looking him up and down, “hi, Jacob. Do I know you? You look so familiar.”

  “No Giovanni, I don’t think so.”

  They shake each other’s hands, sizing each other up. Silly boys, I think.

  “Kristy and her best friends are coming into my restaurant for dinner tonight. Would you like to join us?”

  “Sure Giovanni that will be nice. Thank you for inviting me.”

  They smile at each other than Giovanni leaves.

  We get to the restaurant that night and Giovanni had reserved a private room for us. The bar is mahogany with a beautiful shine. There are plants in the corners of the room. There is one long table in the center of the room. I love the way it looks!

  Giovanni meets us in the room. He comes over to me and gives me a big kiss. I can hear Heather giggling behind me.

  A bubbly woman enters the room, “good evening, Mr. Tuscany.”

  “Good evening, Pam. This is my girlfriend, Kristy, and very good friends Heather, Randy, and Jacob.” I thought that was nice of him to say that about Jacob.

  She smiles at me from ear to ear “hi, Kristy. It’s nice to meet you.”

  I look over to Heather and see she is giving me the thumbs up like a little kid.

  “What would you guys like to have?” Giovanni ask us all as he slides his hand under the table grabbing my thigh. His touch sends chills straight to my pussy.

  “This is your restaurant, why don’t you order for us, Giovanni?” Jacob suggested.

  Giovanni orders us spaghetti, meat sauce, salad, and garlic bread. He also gets three bottles of red wine. Throughout dinner, all we do is laugh and talk. It really is the best Italian food I have ever had!

  When dinner is done with, Heather and Randy go home. Giovanni, Jacob, and I head to my house. Once inside Giovanni and I walk to my room. We leave Jacob in the living room watching a movie.

  “You know, Kristy, you could start your fun with Jacob. He is a good-looking dude. He seems to like you as well. It is only a suggestion!” he gives me a big smile.

  I climb into my bed giving him a nasty look, “thanks, although I don’t think so!”

  Giovanni gives me a big, laugh. Except, I am being serious. Although I am sure, he is being serious also.

  “I have to leave for New York tomorrow morning. I have business to tend. I will be gone the weekend.” Giovanni tells me as he climbs into bed.

  “Okay, that’s cool. I will probably hang out with Heather this weekend.”

  He pulls me into his chest. Kisses my head while he is stroking my back. He is so attentive to me, always touching me.

  Hugh hardly ever gave me any affection. Especially toward the end of our marriage. At least I am getting some now!

  CHAPTER 15

  “I really want you to do this, Kristy. You seriously need to get with a few more men. I want you to see how it feels to act free.”

  Wow, is he pushing me into being a slut. That is what it feels like to me at least. I feel like he is getting pushy about this!

  “It doesn’t make you a slut to have some fun.” He tells me as if he is reading my mind.

  I roll over on my side so he can spoon me. He is hard to figure out. I do not say anything I just fall to sleep.

  The next morning I wake up to his hand fondling me and caressing my breasts.

  “Good morning.” I give him a big smile.

  His hand is getting deeper into my pussy, “Good morning, to you.”

  He takes his hand out replacing it with his dick. Oh, how I love the way he makes me feel. I can say that repeatedly because it is true!

  He slowing starts moving in and out. I give out a long moan arching my back wanting more of him in me. He goes faster and harder. We work it so well together. I am pulling him deeper into me as he is pushing deeper. I let out a cry and cum!

  He is not done yet so I slid down onto his stomach. I place his dick in my mouth. I am sucking hard and deep on him. I want him to cum because I did. I love to hear him when he cums!

  “I love it when you do that, Kristy!”

  I give him one long hard suck, a few nibbles, and then he cums all over the place.

  He sits up looking down on me with a big smile, “damn, you don’t even think about it. You do not gag or choke. You drink me in like it is milk!”

  I smile and give him a big kiss. He goes to
the bathroom to get ready to leave. I stay in my bed under the covers. When he enters the room, I watch, as he gets dressed. He comes over to the bed giving me a huge kiss.

  “I will call you later tonight, Kristy. Have a good weekend.” I kiss him long. I know I am going to miss him.

  “Have a safe trip, Giovanni.” He turns and walks out the door. I get ready to go to the gym.

  Once there I get on the treadmill. I slip into deep thought while running. How can Giovanni be so certain I want a relationship with him? Yes, the sex is amazing. I am starting to open up to him. I am not exactly sure what I want though. I am feeling so baffled. I do not know what to do.

  What if I end up in a relationship with him then he becomes controlling or becomes violent. I know I never want to get in another relationship like that again. Maybe I should live my life for a while as he suggested. Experiment but hopefully he will not thing I am sexually used. What if I do live my life and find out I like living that way? However, we might live happier ever after.

  Quit I tell myself tired of thinking! I look down seeing I have run five miles. I get off the tread heading upstairs to lift some weights. I tell myself not to worry about it. Whatever happens will happen. I leave the gym-feeling refresh.

  I pull in my driveway as Heather is calling, “Kristy, what are you doing today?”

  “Nothing that I can think of.”

  I worked out hard at the gym. I really want to do nothing but take a nap.

  “Come over, let’s do lunch.”

  “Okay. I am going to shower. I will be over in a while, Heather.”

  When I enter the house, I do not see Jacob. I get ready. I make the bed smelling the pillow Giovanni used to sleep on. I am afraid I am getting attached to him already. I know it is early in our relationship but I do not know how to slow it down. I do not know if I want to slow it down.

  When I pull into Heather’s house, she is out back with salads and beers for lunch. We hug, sitting down to eat.

  She keeps smiling at me, “How are things with Giovanni? You know how nosey I am!”

  I think about that for a minute, not sure what to say. She always has some opinion about my life. I had better be careful what I tell her.