Dean Koontz - Seize The Night

by Seize The Night(Lit)

  Psychological block. We argued our way right through the truth, until the truth was behind us and we didn't have to see it anymore. I deluded myself, like all the rest, but I don't delude myself anymore." He settled into silence. A gurgle and splash indicated that he was pouring something out of a bottle into a glass.

  He took a drink of it.

  In silence, Bobby and I sucked at our beers.

  I wondered if you could get beer in this world of the red sky and the fleshy black trees. Although I like a beer occasionally, I would have no difficulty living without it. Now, however, this bottle of Corona in my hand was the avatar of all the countless humble pleasures of daily life, of all that could be lost through human arrogance, and I held fast to it as though it were more precious than diamonds, which in one sense it was.

  Delacroix began to speak in that incomprehensible tongue again, and this time he murmured the same few words over and over, as though chanting in a whisper. As before, though I couldn't understand one word, there was a familiarity in these syllables and in the cadence of his speech that sent a corkscrew chill through the hollows of my spine.

  "He's drunk or kooking out, " Bobby said. "Maybe both." When I began to worry that Delacroix would not continue with his revelations, he switched to English.

  "Should never have sent a manned expedition across. Wasn't on the schedule. Not for years, maybe not ever. But there was another project at Wyvern, one of many others, where something went wrong I don't know what. Something big Most of the projects, I think ... they're just money burning machines. But something went too right in this one.

  The top brass were scared shitless. Lot of pressure came down on us, pressure for the Mystery Train to speed up. They wanted a good look at the future. To see whether there was any future. They didn't quite put it that way, but everyone involved with the train thought that was their motivation. To see whether this screw up on the other project was going to have major consequences. So against everyone's better judgment, or almost everyone's, we put together the first expedition."

  Another silence.

  Then more rhythmic, whispery chanting. , Bobby said, "There's your mom, bro. The other project, the one that !

  got the top brass scared about the future."

  "So she wasn't part of the Mystery Train."

  "The train was just ... reconnaissance. Or that's all it was meant to be. But something went way wrong there, too. In fact, maybe what went wrong with the train was the worse of the two." I said, "What do you think was on that videotape? The flying thing, I mean."

  "I'm hoping the man is gonna tell us." The whispering continued for a minute or more, and in the middle of it, Delacroix hit the stop button.

  When he resumed recording, he was in a new location. The sound quality wasn't as good as before, and there was a steady background noise.

  "Car engine, " Bobby said.

  Engine noise, a faint whistle of wind, and the hum of tires racing over pavement, Delacroix was on the move.

  His driver's license had given an address in Monterey, a couple hours up the coast. He must have left his family's bodies there.

  A whispering arose. Delacroix was talking to himself in such a low voice that we could barely discern he was speaking in the unknown language.

  Gradually, the muttering faded away.

  After a silence, when he began to speak louder and in English, his voice wasn't as clear as we would have liked. The microphone wasn't as close to his mouth as it should have been. The recorder was either on the seat beside him or, more likely, balanced on the dashboard.

  His depression had given way to fear again. He spoke faster, and his voice frequently cracked with anxiety.

  "I'm on Highway 1, driving south. I sort of remember getting in the car but not ... not driving this far. I poured gasoline over them.

  Set them on fire. I half remember doing it. Don't know why I didn't .

  ..

  why I didn't kill myself Took the rings off her finger. Brought some pictures from the album. It didn't want me to. I took the time .

  ..

  anyway. And the recorder. It didn't want me to. I guess I know where I'm going I guess I know, all right." Delacroix wept.

  Bobby said, "He's losing control."

  "But not the way you mean."

  "Huh? "

  "He's not losing his mind. He's losing control to ... something else." As we listened to Delacroix weep, Bobby said, "You mean losing control to ... ? "

  "Yeah."

  "To whatever was fluttering."

  "Yeah."

  "Every one died. Every one on the first expedition. Three men, one woman.

  Blake, Jackson, Chang, and Hodgson. And only one came back.

  Only Hodgson came back. Except it wasn't Bill Hodgson in the suit."

  Delacroix cried out with sudden pain, as if he'd been stabbed.

  The tortured cry was followed by an astonishing spell of violent cursing, every obscenity I had ever heard or read, plus others that either weren't part of my education or were invented by Delacroix, a vile torrent of rapid-fire vulgarities and blasphemies. This stream of raw filth was venomously ejected, snarled and shouted with a fury so blazing that I felt seared even when exposed to only the recording of it.

  Evidently, Delacroix's vocal outburst was accompanied by erratic driving. His cursing was punctuated by the blaring horns of passing cars and trucks.

  The cursing sputtered to a stop. The last of the horns faded.

  For a while Delacroix's raggedly drawn breaths were the loudest sounds on the tape. Then, "Kevin, maybe you remember, you once told me that science alone couldn't give us meaningful lives. You said science would actually make life unlivable if it ever explained everything to us and robbed the universe of mystery. We desperately need our mystery, you said. In the mystery is the hope. That's what you believe. Well, what I saw over on the other side.

  Kevin, what I saw over there is more mystery than a million years of scientists can explain. The universe is stranger than we ever conceived ... and yet, at the same time, it's eerily like our most primitive concepts of it." He drove in silence for a minute or so and then began to murmur to himself in that cryptic language.

  Bobby said, "Who's Kevin? "

  "His brother? Earlier, he referred to him as big brother. I think Kevin might be a reporter somewhere." Still speaking what was gibberish to us, Delacroix shut off the recorder.

  I was afraid this was the last piece of an incomplete testament, but then he returned.

  "Pumped cyanide gas into the translation capsule. That didn't kill Hodgson, or what had come back in Hodgson's place."

  "Translation capsule, " Bobby said.

  "The egg room, " I guessed.

  "We pumped all the atmosphere out. The capsule was a giant vacuum tube.

  Hodgson was still alive. Because this isn't life ... not as we think of life. This is anti-life. We kept the capsule operative, powered it to a new cycle, and Hodgson, or whatever it was, went back where it came from." He switched off the recorder. Only four entries remained in his testament, and each was spoken in a more confused, fearful voice. I sensed that these were Delacroix's few fitful moments of coherence.

  "Eight of us on the second expedition. Four came back alive. Me among them. Not infected. The doctors declared us free of all infection.

  But now ..." Followed by, " ... infected or possessed? Wrus?

  Parasite? Or something more profound ? Am I just a carrier ... or a doorway? Is something in me ..

  . or coming through me? Am I ... being unlocked ... opened ... opened like a door? " Then, with decreasing coherence, " ... never went forward ... went sideways. Didn't even realize there was a sideways.

  Because we all long ago ... we stopped thinking about .

  .

  . stopped believing in a sideways ..." Finally, " ... will have to abandon the car ... walk in ... but not where it wants me to go. Not to the translation capsule. Not if I can help it.

  The
house. To the house. Did I tell you they all died? The first expedition?

  When I pull the trigger ... will I be closing the door ... or opening it to them?

  Did I tell you what I saw? Did I tell you who I saw? Did I tell you about their suffering? Do you know what flies and crawls? Under that red sky? Did I tell you? How did I get ... here? Here? " The last words on the tape were not in English.

  I raised the bottle of Corona to my mouth and discovered that I had already emptied it. [ Bobby said, "So this place with the red sky, the black treesis it your mom's future, bro? "

  "Sideways, Delacroix said."

  "But what does that mean? "

  "I don't know."

  "Did they know? "

  "Doesn't sound like they did, " I said, pressing the rewind button on the remote.

  "I'm having some quashingly funky thoughts."

  "The cocoons, " I guessed.

  I "Whatever spun the cocoons did they come out of Delacroix? "

  "Or through him, like he said. Like he was a doorway."

  "Whatever that means. And either way, does it matter? Out of or through, it's the same to us."

  "I think if his body hadn't been there, the cocoons wouldn't be there, either, " I said.

  "Gotta get some angry villagers together and march up to the castle with torches, " he said, his tone of voice more serious than the words he had chosen to express himself.

  As the tape rewound and clicked to a stop, I said, "Should we take the responsibility on this one? We don't know enough. Maybe we should tell someone about the cocoons."

  "You mean like authority types? "

  "Like."

  "You know what they'll do? "

  "Screw up, " I said. "But at least it won't be us screwing up."

  "They won't burn em all. They'll want samples for study."

  "I'm sure they'll take precautions." Bobby laughed.

  I laughed, too, with as much bitterness as amusement. "Okay, sign me up for the march on the castle. But Orson and the kids come first.

  Because once we light that fire, we won't be as free to move around Wyvern." I inserted a blank cassette into the second deck.

  Bobby said, "Making a dupe? "

  "Can't hurt." When the machines started working, I turned to him.

  "Something you said earlier."

  "You expect me to remember all the crap I say? "

  "In that bungalow kitchen, with Delacroix's body."

  "I can smell it vividly."

  "You heard something. Looked up at the cocoons."

  "Told you. Must've been in my head."

  "Right. But when I asked you what you heard, you said, Me.

  What'd you mean by that? " Bobby still had some beer. He drained the remaining contents of his bottle "You were putting the cassette in your pocket. We were ready to leave I thought I heard somebody say stay."

  "Somebody? "

  "Several somebodies. Voices. All speaking at once, all saying stay, stay, stay."

  "Maurice Williams and the Zodiacs."

  "So you're studying to be a jock at KBAY. The thing is ... then I realized the voices were all my voice."

  "All your voice? "

  "Hard to explain, bro."

  "Evidently."

  "For eight, ten seconds I could hear them. But even later ..

  . I felt they were still talking, just at lower volume."

  "Subliminal?"

  "Maybe. Something way creepy."

  "Voices in your head."

  "Well, they weren't telling me to sacrifice a virgin to Satan or assassinate the pope."

  "Just stay, stay, stay, " I said. "Like a thought loop."

  "No, these were like real voices on a radio. At first I thought they were coming ... from somewhere in the bungalow."

  "You panned your flashlight over the ceiling, " I reminded him.

  "The cocoons." The faint glow from the audio equipment was reflected in his eyes.

  He didn't look away from me, but he didn't say anything.

  I took a deep breath. "Because I've been wondering. After I called you from Dead Town, I started to feel vulnerable out in the open. So before I called Sasha, I decide to go into a bungalow, where I wouldn't be so exposed."

  "Out of all those houses, why did you pick that one?

  With Delacroix's body in the kitchen. With the cocoons."

  "That's what I've been wondering, " I said.

  "You hear voices, too? Saying, Come in, Chris, come in, sit down, come in, be neighborly, we'll be hatching soon, come in, join the fun."

  "No voices, " I said. "At least not any I was aware of. But maybe it wasn't by chance I chose that house. Maybe I was drawn to that place instead of the one next door."

  "Psychic hoodoo? "

  "Like the songs that sea nymphs sing to lure unwary sailors to destruction."

  "These aren't sea nymphs. These are bugs in cocoons."

  "We don't know they're bugs, " I said.

  "I'm way sure they aren't puppy dogs."

  "I think maybe we got out of that bungalow just in time." After a silence, he said, "It's crap like this that takes all the fun out of the end of the world."

  "Yeah, I'm starting to feel like a piece of chum in a school of hammerheads.

  " The tape was duped. I took the copy to the composition table and, picking up a felt-tip pen, said, "What's a good neo-Buffett song title?"

  "Neo-Buffett? "

  "It's what Sasha's writing these days. Jimmy Buffett. Tropical bounce, parrot head worldview, fun in the sun but with a darker edge, a concession to reality."

  " Tequila Kidneys, " he suggested.

  "Good enough." I printed that title on the label and inserted the cassette into an empty slot in the rack where Sasha stored her compositions. There were scores of cassettes that looked just like it.

  "Bro, " Bobby said, "if it ever comes to that, you would blow my head off, wouldn't you? "

  "Anytime."

  "Wait for me to ask."

  "Sure. And you me? "

  "Ask, and you're dead."

  "The only fluttering I feel is in my stomach, " I said.

  "I figure that's normal right now." I heard a hard snap and a series of clicks, followed by the same sounds again then the unmistakable creak of the back door opening.

  Bobby blinked at me. "Sasha? " I went into the candle lit kitchen, saw Manuel Ramirez in his uniform, and knew the sounds I'd heard had been from a police lock-release gun.

  He was standing at the kitchen table, staring down at my 9-millimeter Glock, to which he had gone directly, in spite of the dim light.

  I had put the pistol on the table when Bobby's news about Wendy Dulcinea's kidnapping had left me shaky.

  "That door was locked, " I said to Manuel, as Bobby entered the kitchen behind me.

  "Yeah, " Manuel said. He indicated the Glock. "You buy this legally?"

  "My dad did."

  "Your dad taught poetry."

  "It's a dangerous profession."

  "Where'd he buy this? " Manuel asked, picking up the pistol.

  "Thor's Gun Shop."

  "You have a receipt? "

  "I'll get it."

  "Never mind." The door between the kitchen and the downstairs hall swung inward.

  Frank Feeney, one of Manuel's deputies, hesitated on the threshold.

  For an instant, in his eyes, I thought I saw a veil of yellow light billow like curtains at a pair of windows, but it was gone before I could be sure that it had been real. "Found a shotgun and a . 38 in Halloway's Jeep, " Feeney said.

  "You boys belong to a right-wing militia or something? " Manuel asked.

  "We're going to sign up for a poetry class, " Bobby said. "You have a search warrant? "

  "Tear a paper towel off that roll, " the chief said.

  "I'll write one out for you." I Behind Feeney, at the far end of the hall, in the foyer, backlit by the stained-glass windows, was a second deputy. I couldn't see him well enough to know who he was.


  "How'd you get in here? " I asked.