Love Survives (Love Suicide #2)

by Jennifer Foor

  I reached for her hand, hoping, pleading, that she wouldn’t pull away. “I will never stop loving you, Kat. For as long as I am breathing I will love you with everything I have in me, not because I hope someday to have you, but because nothing could ever make me stop, even you marrying my brother.”

  “You know, you have everyone fooled. They all think you’re the son that they could never count on. It turns out that you’re the most beautiful soul they’ve ever known.”

  We sat there looking at each other for couple seconds, not saying anything.

  I expected her to tell to me leave, but it hadn’t happened so far. “Don’t go calling me a saint just yet. I’ve been reconsidering that kiss since I let you walk away earlier.”

  Each word that came out of my mouth was like a test. I wanted her to push me away; to tell me that us being alone was all wrong. It was important that I keep my guard up. At any time someone could walk out and find us in this compromising situation. They’d see the truth immediately because it was written on both of our faces.

  “Please don’t hate me for saying this. I’m probably already going to Hell anyway. The thing is, I’m not married to your brother, not yet at least. If I had one wish in the world, besides seeing my parents one more time, I know what it would be.”

  I smiled, but only because she was insane if she thought it was a good idea. “We can’t, Kat.”

  I hated seeing her react like she was disappointed. I understood how mixed feelings and distance had made our time together so intense, but I wasn’t sure if I was willing to let myself fall, not here, not now. “We shouldn’t,” she whispered as she inched toward me.

  “It’s wrong on so many levels.” This was impossible to resist. I needed this to happen as much as I needed air to breathe.

  “We should probably call it a night then.” Her lips were right there. I could feel her words as they came out of her mouth. This was going to happen, and I wasn’t going to be able to stop things once it did.

  I inched closer until I felt her soft skin grazing over mine. “Yeah, we should.” I couldn’t back away, or stop myself. I wasn’t going to restrain, because not only did I need this to happen, but I’d wished for this my whole life.

  “It’s just one kiss, Brooks,” she whispered against my mouth.

  The insatiable desire I had for her was overwhelming. I’d been with other women, but just a kiss from Kat opened up senses I never knew how to control. She consumed me, so much that I craved more. This wasn’t going to end well, and I was done caring. As our tongues played together, the vicious truth was apparent. I needed to make her mine even if we had to drive away from the hotel and never look back again.

  It was impossible to stop once we’d gotten started. I didn’t have an urge to continue; it was a necessity. The fact that she wasn’t pushing me away was enough incentive to press on. This woman, who I’d clearly loved my whole life, was finally letting me in. I realize at this point we were only making out, but something told me it wasn’t going to end there.

  I nuzzled my nose on the inside of her neck, savoring the way her soft skin smelled. My tongue drug over it, lapping up the salty flavor while the vibration of her first moans sent me into a frenzy.

  I picked her up and made sure she was then on my lap, where I could be more in control. The way I was touching her, the feel of her body against my palms, there was no way ever to be able to describe it as being anything other than perfect.

  Kat’s lip were meant for me to kiss, and as she matched my movements I started thinking about the next step. Our first line of business was to get off the roof. I needed her to be warm, so that I could remove her clothes. I knew just how to heat up her chilled body.

  My hands traveled over her ass, and explored other areas of her body, while I took my time, respecting that she could stop this at any moment. She ran her hands up my shirt, kissing me again. “We should stop.”

  With ease my shirt was removed. I didn’t even mind the brutal temperature. “Five more minutes.” Our tongues raced to a combined tempo again.

  I shoved her dress up over each hip, tracing her panties with my fingertips. When I slide them over to the side I felt the smoothest pussy beckoning me to keep exploring. This was all too much. I wanted her naked, immediately.

  I got so caught up that I had to peer down and watch what I was doing because every other time I’d touched her had been in the dark. This was a pivotal moment for me, like a teenager learning the female anatomy for the first time.

  I practiced a pattern on her tantalizing clit while gradually working my finger inside of her. She was so warm and welcoming, giving off a vibe that this was just the beginning. I was hot for her, steaming with the thrill of what we were doing. I didn’t care who found us, or what was going to happen next. We were living in the moment, taking everything else in our lives for granted.

  Kat reached down and started unfastening the buttons to my pants. “We need to stop,” I announced abruptly.

  She leaned in for a chaste kiss. “Don’t you want me?”

  If she only knew how much. “I’ve got two fingers inside of you while on the roof of a building. My dick is going to rip out of my pants, and you’re asking me if I want you.” Our next kiss was ravenous, giving her more proof of what was going to happen if we didn’t stop. “You’re all I’ve ever wanted.” In that moment the button to my trousers popped open. I felt her chilled fingers sliding down under my boxers. In that moment her hand took ahold of my cock and immediately got to stroking it. I sucked in a deep breath, trying so hard not to lose control.

  Before I knew what was happening, I grabbed her arm. “How far are we going to take this, Kat?”

  Kat let go of me, only to remove her panties and fling them away. “That was the only thing standing between you being inside of me. You can sit there and think of a million reasons why we shouldn’t be together, or you can take me in that stairwell and fuck me like we both know you want to.”

  A jolt awakened my cock. I’d never been so turned on, not by any other woman in my life. She was my kryptonite, and I was desperate. I wanted to shout out to the world that I loved her more than life itself. Perhaps she already knew it, but I’d held it in for so long that it felt trivial to not say constantly.

  Kat had told me what she wanted me to do, but I wasn’t about to waste it in a dirty stairwell. I stood up, quickly putting my shirt back on. “I’m not fucking you in that hallway.”

  I took her hand and started leading her back inside. “You’re coming back to my room and I’m making love to you, and this time, you’re going to know it’s me you’re in bed with.”

  I peeked out of the door to make sure nobody was around before we made a mad dash to my room. Once inside, we both leaned against the door and started laughing. This was so bad, but I almost like the naughty side of her; a part I knew she’d probably never revealed to anyone else before.

  This was it. Nothing could stop us, because I wasn’t opening the door until she knew, without a doubt, that we were supposed to be together all along. Our clothes began to come off quickly with one intention on our minds. When her nipple became exposed I lowered my mouth and lapped it up, then sucked on it hard. I shoved her against the door. Our lips were almost touching. I kissed her softly and then pulled away just enough to speak. “Are you sure?”

  She nodded. “Are you?”

  “Baby, I’ve never been more sure about anything.”

  While carrying her to my bed my thoughts were of how I was going to be able to keep her, because now that I had her, I knew I’d never let go.

  Chapter 14

  Our hunger to be together was constricting our ability to understand what we were doing and how all of this would change our lives. I knew there would be no going back, but I was too scared that I’d lose her again if I brought it up. This was something I had to be selfish about. She’d never be able to understand that being alone with her on that roof had altered my decision to keep the peace. I was don
e sitting back and letting her get away from me. After my brother’s actions, it was obvious that she’d made a huge mistake. Branch would never be able to give her the life that I knew I could. I’d love her through good, bad, and even the ugly. I’d make sure she was never taken for granted, and if we had to flee the country to keep me from being court marshaled, I’d do it. All she had to do was say she wanted to be with me forever, and I’d drop everything in my life to make it happen.

  Clearly we had a ton to discuss, but for right now, we needed to take it one moment at a time.

  While she lay naked next to me, I traced over her exposed skin around her mouth, and then down the rest of her body. I moved slow, making sure to watch every inch that I was exploring. This was all new for me. Before, I never had time to spare on little details. I wasn’t letting any of her out of my sight until I’d seen every single square inch. This wasn’t just a spontaneous decision between two people. I’d had years to imagine what it would be like if we could be together.

  While tears fell down her cheeks I wasn’t afraid she was changing her mind. It was obvious that us finally being together was making her over-emotional. I, myself, had the same feelings. I’d just been trained to hold them in better.

  Our kisses were slow, managed and full of intent. Each time her tongue brushed over mine it reminded me that the best was yet to come.

  I couldn’t be so close to her and not want more. Without breaking our embrace, I let my hand slide down between her legs. As soon as my palm slid over her pussy I was losing control. While keeping my eyes closed, my lips traveled down her neck, then further to her breasts. I teased her nipples with my breath and chin, noticing how excited she seemed to get from it. Right away I could feel how turned on she was, making it even harder to take my time.

  When I’d gotten low enough to kiss her thigh, I was fully aware what was in store next. I then traced my tongue around her hip, becoming more aroused when her body reacted to being touched there. While her prize beckoned me to proceed, I took in the moment, realizing that I had to take my time, making sure it was everything we’d both ever dreamed it to be.

  It was very obvious that Kat was enjoying this. As I looked up I saw her eyes gazing down at me. Even without words I could tell she wasn’t going to get up and leave me alone in the room. This was her finally giving in to what was always there between us. She had to know that I’d tortured myself for so long because I wanted something I thought I’d never have. In this moment, I’d become inundated with sentiment. I wanted her more than any man had ever desired. She was my heaven, my light at the end of a dark, gloomy tunnel.

  My finger skimmed over her pussy while my mouth watered. There was no need to haste. I craved a taste, yearned to have it stuck in my memory, reminding me of where I’d finally been.

  The second my lips grazed over her smooth skin, I watched Kat’s head fall back on a pillow. A tiny moan escaped her when I used my chin hair to tickle her clit. She was already wet, letting me know that foreplay wasn’t needed to heighten the mood. This act was my pleasure and as much as it was hers. This was something I refused to skip. She needed to have all of me, and I was prepared to give it to her.

  The taste of her musky arousal filled my inner senses, causing a chain reaction straight to my engorged erection. Being with her like this, bringing her such a personal jubilation, left me wide-open to experience every bit of ecstasy that I was providing her with. We shared in the elation as I licked her to no end, savoring her flavor, while striving for the highest of praise. I didn’t only want to be the best so far, it was important to be the best she’d ever have. I needed to make sure she’d never desire another man again. Kat lost control, not just once, but several times due to the skills of my maneuvering tongue. By the time I brought my lips up to kiss her, we were both famished, ready to seal the deal once and for all, finally together. This wasn’t going to be one-sided. She knew it was me bringing her pleasure, and with that came a sense of security, because she was fully aware that I had no plans to stop.

  Kat took control of the situation. She began rocking her body against mine, torturing me until I broke down and entered her. Being a man, it was hard to find something that could break me. I’d like to think I was tough, although I knew my weakness far too well. The moment I slid inside of those tight walls I could sense my body becoming vulnerable. She was giving off vibes, divulging on her own rapture, while I fought to stay composed. With every touch, each kiss, and all of our movements, we were discovering each other, perhaps for the first time in many ways. What I couldn’t understand was how in sync we were. This wasn’t like feeling someone out for their special spots. Both Kat and I knew exactly where to touch, tease, and pleasure. In this moment we were simultaneously reaching euphoria.

  Then I lost myself, utterly and completely. My teeth clamped onto her shoulder as I climaxed. I couldn’t move, breathe, or rationalize with what was happening to me, while I was overcome by waves of gratifying pleasure.

  Sweaty, panting for air, and never wanting to move, I looked into her eyes, finally accepting that she was mine. There was so much we’d need to talk about, but in this instance it was just us.

  “Don’t stop, Brooks.” It was the first words she’d spoken since this started and hearing them caused me to get carried away again. I did my best to oblige, taking her to the highest peaks.

  As we both began to come down from our perpetual bliss, I press my lips against hers, pulling away to express my gratitude. “I love you so much.”

  She reached one hand up and ran it through my hair. I couldn’t stop. My body rocked over hers again while we watched each other breaking free of all our fears. Our high took us to new places while we remained connected. Never in my life had I ever climaxed twice, but as I filled her with pent up years of heartache, I knew it was possible. This was the utmost perfect moment of my entire life. We both lay there, connected and trembling. I held her tightly, stroking her hair, and remaining high on life. It was as if nothing could take this moment away from me. I had everything I wanted in life, I just needed to make sure I could keep it.

  We stayed up until the sun started to rise, making love, and satiating our desires, until there was nothing left but exhaustion. I felt whole, and with that came a sense of worry. I was concerned how we’d escape together, and more so how it would all play out once our secret was revealed.

  Kat abruptly began crying, and it broke my heart. I knew she had a lot on her plate, but I longed for her to share in this happiness for as long as possible. I wanted to distract her so she didn’t have to be concerned, not yet.

  I wiped away her tears on either side of her face. “Please don’t do that.”

  “I can’t help it,” she sobbed. “It was a mistake. It was all a mistake.”

  I quickly sat up and looked at her like she’d driven a dagger through my heart. “Us? This?”

  “No. Branch. Being with him was a mistake and if I’d just admitted that a long time ago, I wouldn’t have to say goodbye to you.”

  My eyes began to burn. She wasn’t going to let him go. “What are you saying, Kat? Are you still marrying my brother today?”

  “No. I can’t marry Branch. I couldn’t live with myself and how I feel about you. He deserves to be with someone that isn’t hiding the fact that they’re in love with someone else. I know it doesn’t make what we did any better, but he should have known this would happen, eventually. I mean, did he really think this would never happen? Is this why he kept us apart? Did he do this to us, Brooks?”

  I straightened my grimace and bit my tongue. In all honesty I wanted to explode with frustration. This wasn’t how I saw this all playing out. “I’m sorry, but all I heard from that was you saying we couldn’t be together.”

  “You know it isn’t possible. What we did will destroy the family.”

  “Last night was the best night of my life. I won’t regret it, and I won’t let you walk away from this. I’m tired of letting him have you. He doesn’t d
eserve you. I deserve you, Kat. You’ve always been mine and you know it. How could you lay there saying you can’t be with me?” The brutal truth was tearing me apart, piece by piece.

  Kat shook her head and cried harder as if she knew what this was doing to me. “I’m sorry. I can’t look at your parents knowing what I’ve done. All these people are here to see me marry your brother and I’m in bed with you.”

  “I don’t give a fuck who’s here.” Wasn’t it obvious?

  “Brooks, please don’t get angry.”

  It was entirely too late for that. I was livid, beyond being able to rationalize. I stood and started walking around the room, desperate to find a solution. “Do you know how long I’ve waited for this to happen? Kat, wake up! I want you. How people feel about it doesn’t matter to me. I don’t give a shit about anyone else. You’re all that matters.”

  Just as she opened her mouth to respond we heard someone knocking on the door. I had a terrible feeling in the pit of stomach, but said nothing as I pulled on a pair of boxers and headed to answer it. I was prepared to face whoever was on the other side, so long as when they left, she’d still be in my bed, waiting for me to help her figure everything out.

  Chapter 15

  “Where is she?” It was Branch, and he wasn’t happy. Before I was able to prevent it, he came ambling into the room, discovering exactly what he was looking for.

  I didn’t know how he’d react. I mean, I knew he was destroyed, and probably irrational, but I couldn’t predict how he’d treat her. “Branch, don’t hurt her. It was my idea. I made her do it,” I lied. I wanted Kat to be safe. I’d say or do anything for that reason.

  While I stood behind him, Branch peered down at Kat. His eyes were glossed over, and it was obvious he was about to explode with animosity. She wouldn’t be able to rationalize with him because he was beyond the point of being able to accept the truth. “The night before our wedding, Katy? How could you do this to me?”