by Lylah James
“She has been mourning your death, Viktor,” Ayla whispered. She reached out and placed a hand on mine, giving it a soothing squeeze before pulling away.
I missed her touch instantly.
“We couldn’t tell her the truth. It would have been too dangerous,” Phoenix explained.
Nodding, I faced Maddie. “You told her I’m back?” I questioned.
She confirmed with a nod. “Eva is already in the city. She’s dealing with a business contract for the law firm she is working at. When I called her, she said she’ll be here in thirty minutes. I explained as much as I could quickly so she doesn’t, you know, try to stab you to death.”
I took a deep breath before releasing it again. “That’s very helpful.”
She winked. “I might have given her some ideas, though.”
Fuck my life again.
These two were psychopaths.
Ayla snickered, and I caught her wink too. Annnnd…they have corrupted Angel too.
Great. Just fucking great. What an amazing family.
With multiple killers, throw in some made men, then add some crazy women who are probably psychopaths, mix it well with a walking potato…and we had one big happy family.
I wouldn’t change it for anything.
“She should be here any time now,” Maddie continued, looking toward the entrance.
My eyes followed her gaze, and speaking of the cheeky devil, there she was.
“I’m giving you a head start, Viktor. Run while you can, because I’m about to chop you to pieces, you fucking bastard!” she bellowed by the entrance before throwing her handbag on the floor.
Why? Why is it always me? my mind screamed as I stood up. I faked a shudder at her glare as she stomped forward.
I was almost scared she was going to be true to her words. Oh, the horror.
Rolling my eyes, I opened my arms for my sister. She was too cute to chop me to pieces. That job should be left for Nina, our little assassin, with a mind just as fucked up as the rest of us. And damn, she was good at her job.
Evaline ran into my arms, and both of us stumbled back before I regained my footing again. “I missed you too, little hedgehog.”
“You little shit…I am so mad right now,” she snapped seconds before busting into tears. “I am…going…to squeeze the life out of your balls and…and…murder your small dick.”
I winced at that image. Fuck, what ideas did Maddie give her?
She was a fucking savage in her attacks as she started punching my chest.
I couldn’t help but laugh as I restrained her crazy-ass movements. “Please spare my dick and balls. I need it to reproduce some Viktors in the future. Without it, we’re doomed!”
“I’m not joking!” she screamed, punching me right in the eye. Well, damn. Bullseye.
Never underestimate the power of an angry woman.
I quickly stepped back when she went for my dick. “Okay, Evaline. I think that’s enough. You don’t want me to punch your boobs.”
She gasped, her glare fiercer now. “You wouldn’t dare.”
“I would if you touch my preciousness.”
Evaline was silent for a moment before her tearwork came yet again. “You…have…no…idea what I went through,” she sobbed brokenly. “I thought…you died. I thought I lost you.”
Walking forward, I pulled her into my arms. “It’s okay. I’m fine and very much alive. I’m sorry, Eva. It was needed.”
She looked up at me, her face red from crying. I swiped her tears away while whispering, “It was important for the family.”
The seriousness in her eyes came back at my words. “And family always comes first,” she whispered back with a nod.
I smiled, my chest puffing up proudly at the fact my sister had the same beliefs. Each word had been drilled into our heads since we were little kids.
Family comes first. Always. Protect the King. Protect the Queen.
“Correct, little hedgehog.”
She nodded again as an understanding found its way into her eyes. A small smile appeared on her lips. “I am not sorry about the punch, though,” she said with a shrug.
Laughing, I gave her another hug. “I know you aren’t. Hell will freeze over before you ever apologize for this punch.”
I felt a hand on my back, and already knowing who it was, I let out a small, breathy sigh. I turned around to see Ayla standing there. But her eyes were focused on Evaline.
“Come and join us for breakfast,” she said, smiling. Evaline moved forward before wrapping Ayla in a hug.
“God, I missed you so much. Sorry for being a total bitch and leaving like that,” my sister muttered before pulling away.
Ayla shook her head. “No. It’s okay. It was understandable.”
With the little fiasco now over, we moved to the table again. The rest of breakfast went like usual.
Just like before. Like nothing had happened.
As if that one year never happened.
We were a family again.
***
I followed Alessio silently into his office. Phoenix and Nikolay followed behind me, and they closed the door.
It was late at night, and everyone was asleep. It was the perfect time to discuss business. The rest of the day had been catching up with everyone else. We had no time to talk about why I was back and what the next move was. Or if there was even a next move.
Alessio seated himself behind his desk, and he released a long breath. Now that I studied him better, he looked tired and stressed out. Something was weighing heavily on his shoulders.
Before he met Ayla, nothing mattered except becoming a richer fucking man and playing games with the less fortunate souls who thought they could cross us.
But now…he had a wife. A daughter. And another baby on the way.
And his perfect little family had just been threatened.
No wonder they said love was a weakness. It really was. Love was a twisted son of a bitch who fucked us all up. We fell into its trap without even realizing it.
It was a simple rule. Don’t fall in love.
Isaak and Lyov were right. This was the moment I wished we had listened to them.
I looked at Alessio again and noticed where his eyes were staring. A picture of Ayla on his desk. She was laughing while staring at the camera. In the background, I could see the creek.
She was happy.
And I knew, when Alessio took that picture, he was at his happiest.
The thing that Ayla taught all of us was that love could be a weakness and multiple shades of fucked up, but it was still someone’s strength.
She taught Alessio that.
She taught me that.
“He’s going to pay. For whatever he has done, he is going to pay ten times worse. He will pay for even thinking about hurting Ayla,” Alessio muttered, breaking the silence.
His voice was rough and held the edge of anger. When his eyes met mine, I saw the killer there. I knew his fingers were itching to end Solonik’s life. But not now.
Not before we knew his real plan, or whatever Valentin was planning behind closed doors.
He might have thought of me as his heir, but he never trusted me fully. There were things I still didn’t know. And to know them, I had to become the Devil. I had to become part of his little puppets and play along.
“What’s the plan now?” I asked, moving forward.
Alessio looked away from the photo, his eyes meeting mine. He leaned back against the chair before crossing his right ankle over his knees.
“Go back there. And tell him I sent you to spy on him.”
My eyebrows furrowed in confusion, and I heard Phoenix swear under his breath.
“Here’s the thing. We need to play his game. He thinks you’re coming here to gain our trust again. It’s simple. I hate you and want you to show your loyalty. Tell Solonik that I have given you a way to gain my trust again. All you have to do is spy on him and give me information. Of course, he’s going to think
that you’re still on his side. Two birds with one stone. This way you can stay with him and figure out what he’s planning. In the meantime, he’s going to think that you’re playing me and giving me false information. He’ll think I have grown weaker. Except it’s just the opposite,” Alessio explained masterfully.
“That makes sense. It could work if you play it well and make it all believable,” Nikolay pointed out.
“After all, he needs you on his side. He’s desperate for it. Without you, Solonik can’t move forward with any plans,” Phoenix added.
I had done this shit for a year, and I knew I could do it again. I just had to fuck Solonik’s head up a little and kaboom.
“For how long?” I simply asked.
“Just keep playing, Viktor. A game never stops until there’s a winner,” Alessio replied, leaning forward. His elbows rested on the table, his chin on his entwined fingers.
The furious look on his face could make anyone whimper. “And this game won’t end until one of us is dead.”
Alessio stared at me straight in the eyes before continuing, his voice low. “In the end, only one person will be standing and left breathing. And there are only two choices. Me or Solonik.”
I heard the silent, unsaid words. The true meaning behind what he said.
In the end, only one person would be standing and left breathing. And there were only two choices. Alessio or Solonik. My King or my enemy.
And everything depended on how well I played this little fucked-up game.
Chapter 9
Her
I felt his groan against my skin as he pushed inside of me again. My body wasn’t my own as he used me as his toy.
For a brief moment, I fantasized. I replaced the image of Valentin with someone else. Someone who actually cared about me.
Instead of taking me against my will, he was making love to me. I thought of a man who loved me.
Closing my eyes, I imagined someone younger than my husband. I imagined someone handsome. Strong. Beautiful. Someone worthy of my love.
Instead of leaving scars, the man was filling me with hope.
The fingers that were touching me caressed my skin softly.
The lips touching my neck were whispering sweet words.
Each thrust into my body, he was making sweet love to me.
I imagined a future where instead of getting raped, I was being loved. Instead of living in fear, I was carefree and smiling. I imagined it all.
And in my dreams, the handsome man looked very much like the man behind the doors that separated us.
A small glimpse. One look. Our gazes connected and it felt like the world had stilled for a moment.
Then it was gone. The moment broken when I remembered the rules.
But those eyes stayed with me longer. The look he gave me, one which was very different from what I was used to, it stayed with me even after he was gone.
But just like the doors that separated us, we were two worlds apart. Just a far away look that haunted me since then, but a look I had to forget.
Fingers bit into my hips, causing me to hiss in pain. My eyes snapped open to see Valentin glaring down at me. His anger caused my insides to tremble, knowing whatever pain was coming next would be ten times worse.
“When I am fucking you, I want your eyes on me,” he growled, thrusting harder. “Remember who owns you, little girl.”
I will never forget. Not when you remind me every day.
No words. No sounds were made from me. He craved my pain, my tears, he wanted my voice—to hear me scream. But he took that away from me long ago.
He took everything…until I had nothing left. Yet it was never enough for him.
I was owned. Never an equal.
A payment to a debt that couldn’t be repaid.
A sacrifice from my part—I just didn’t realize that this sacrifice would cost me everything. Until it was too late.
Now, I just had to stay alive and bear the pain. I just had to survive. Just breathe. As long as I was breathing, they were safe.
I was just unwilling collateral in this game of war and revenge. A battle I wanted no part of. Just like they said, everything is fair in love and war.
Only difference, this was just war. No love. No emotions. Just bloodshed and pain along the way, until one person was sitting on the mighty throne.
My head snapped to the side, my mind freezing and thoughts scattering as the slap brought me back to the present. I tasted blood on my tongue, and the corner of my lips stung, proof enough that he had hurt me, made me bleed.
His hand wrapped around my neck, his strength undeniable even in his old age. My eyes widened as his fingers tightened around my throat, blocking my air passage. I struggled for air, my vision blurred from the lack of oxygen.
I clawed at his hand, desperate to break free.
I can’t breathe! I screamed in my head.
Seconds passed as he continued to thrust into my body, scarring me inside and out. The hold around my neck only became worse with each hard thrust as he picked up his pace. His release was close and he used me as his toy.
The last thing I saw was his face tightening, his head thrown back in pleasure as he came inside my unwilling body. My vision faded into nothingness.
A black void pit as I fell deeper and deeper into the darkness before hitting the bottom, my body in shambles, broken and bleeding.
A sacrifice. Every day was a sacrifice. I accepted death so they could live.
The next time my eyes opened, my mind felt numb. My body was hurting, sore in all places, and I knew it was marked with my husband’s sadistic pleasure. Just the way he loved it.
I blinked against the sun, showing me that it was morning already. Another daylight in the darkness of my world.
I tried to move, but my throat closed up as pain racked my body, and I trembled, feeling both cold and too hot. One second it felt like I was burning from the inside and then it felt like I had been dumped into freezing water.
I gritted my teeth against the pain and forced myself to move. My naked body pressed against the mattress, and I bit on my lips, holding back my cries.
The tears were silent on my bruised cheeks, and I swiped them away.
No tears, honey. They won’t get you anywhere. They make you weak.
The voice rung through my ears like the words were being spoken to me right in this moment. Except they were the words by my mother—from the very last time I saw her.
She had held me in her arms and cried while telling me to never shed tears.
Don’t cry. Be strong. Promise me you will be strong.
Stupid words that held no meaning. How could I be strong when I was not even my own anymore?
She had forced me to walk away with my head held high, like I was a Queen, not someone meant for sacrifice.
After struggling out of bed, I didn’t bother to clothe my naked body. Instead, I limped into the bathroom, my body ravaged in the worst way possible. I knew when I looked into the mirror, I would see the damaged girl with no dreams or hopes left.
A pretty face with an empty soul. Eyes with no life, just staring, just observing, just living.
The door closed behind me, and I locked it, safe in my sanctuary. At least here, he wouldn’t follow me. It was a place where I could hide and try to clean my body the only way I could. Wash away my shame as I cried silent tears. Bathe myself while hoping I could bathe away the pain.
My eyes met my reflection in the mirror, and I smiled.
Just like I predicted. My reflection told the real story. My reality.
I walked closer, my fingers softly touching my face where my husband had bruised me. The touch moved to my swollen lips where he had hit me. The blood had dried, but it was still aching.
My gaze followed down the length of my neck, the red marks now slowly turning a deep shade of green and red. I touched the skin but winced at how sore and sensitive it felt.
He tried to strangle me for disobeying him.
/> When I am fucking you, I want your eyes on me.
I wished I was blind; at least then I didn’t have to look at his face and relive my nightmare every time. At least then, I could just stare into the darkness and act like this was just a bad dream.
I huffed a small laugh from my chest and then flinched. Giving myself a final look, I walked into the shower and turned on the water.
It cascaded around me, falling like beautiful waterfall. I reveled in the freshness and soothing rhythm, closing my eyes and just enjoying this slight touch of happiness.
I didn’t care how long I stood there, but by the time I walked out, my skin was red from the hot water and I was no longer cold. Instead, I felt warm, like I was almost floating.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
Another smile touched my face. Valentin could try however much he wanted, but he would never own my soul.
I might have felt like an empty shell inside, but I was still living.
He could break me every day, but the fact that I was still breathing proved I was strong. He would break me and then I would stand up again.
He would rape me but I would clean my body of his filth.
At the end of the day, I was winning this game. His game was to break me. He did break me. Every day. But because my will power—my will to protect them was stronger than his will to break me. I was still alive because of it.
I will live. And I will protect. I was born to protect. I was born for this. And I will die only when I have fulfilled my duties.
After drying my body, I wore another black dress—clothes he had custom made for me. To hide my body for any other eyes. After all, I was only his.
I looked into the mirror and laughed silently. How stupid. How foolish. His own actions contradicted him.
He clothed me so that nobody could see me, yet he would take me in front of his friends. A prize he won so he would celebrate to show his victory.
I combed my hair, watching the silky strands flow behind my back after I was done. The marks he left me were now hidden.
We were back to being the perfect couple. Perfect wife. Perfect husband. Perfect life.
Only problem—the mirror showed our reality. I had the sudden urge to break it into pieces. An act of rebellion, just for a moment I wanted to show my anger. I wanted to take it out. I wanted to see the scattered pieces on the floor—just like the scattered pieces of my life.