by Jenny White
“She’s the priestess,” Gudit responded in a haughty voice.
“In the name of Allah, what does that have to do with anything?”
When Gudit didn’t respond, Saba suddenly remembered what her mother had said about the priestess being celibate after initiation. What had been her exact words? That after her initiation, she would no longer want to have relations with her husband.
“Is this part of the initiation?” she asked, appalled at the thought.
Gudit turned her leathery face toward Saba and smiled.
It had to have been Gudit. She was the only one who knew how to do the special tattoo of ashes mixed with mother’s milk. She was the one who knew all the steps of the ritual. This squat, sour woman who had always seemed so devoted to her mother, who had taught Saba the Melisite prayers when she was a child, and under whose blue-tipped tattoo needle Saba had suffered for weeks—Saba was now seeing her with new eyes. She remembered with a chill Gudit’s attack in the hamam and the knife she had spied on the floor as she ran away.
“Did she know?” Saba asked, guessing the answer. If the ritual had allowed it, her mother would have prepared her long ago. “Of course not.” She said, answering her own question. “No one would go along with it, would they, if they knew?”
“The women of this family have been purified for hundreds of years. No one has ever complained.”
That was so ludicrous that Saba had to laugh. “That we know of. That’s not counting the ones who were killed because they refused or who died of infections afterward. Have you taken a look at her?”
“What do you mean?” Gudit stroked Balkis’s forehead. “She’s been ill for a long time. Only Allah knows when it’s her time.”
“I’m not a doctor, but I know an infection when I see one. You never said a word about it. Constantine might have been able to do something. Instead, you let it fester.”
“That man thinks opium cures everything,” Gudit grumbled, propping Balkis’s head up on a pillow. “I’ve been treating it. The old ways are best.” She got up to ladle the apple compote into a bowl and sat beside Balkis with a spoon. “Eat some of this, dear.” Gudit’s hand shook and she spilled juice on the fresh sheets.
“Begging your pardon, may I enter?” Courtidis’s voice boomed through the doorway.
“Come in, Constantine.” Saba was relieved to see him. “Thank you for coming so quickly. Mother is delirious. She has an infection. I’m very worried about her.”
He walked in and put down his leather bag. He had taken off his shoes in the entry and Saba noticed his socks had holes in them. He faltered a moment when he saw Gudit sitting by Balkis and blocking his access. “Begging your pardon, I’ll just take a look at the patient, shall I?” he said meaningfully, approaching the divan.
Gudit didn’t budge.
“Get up, Gudit.” Saba said with surprising authority.
Gudit hesitated, but obeyed. She hovered at the edge of the room, looking on sullenly.
Saba regarded Courtidis’s back as he bent over her mother, soothing her as he looked into her eyes and mouth and palpated her neck and chest through the quilt. His low, calm voice talked on and on about nothing significant, like a chant. She could imagine her mother taking hold of this rope of words and hanging on.
She walked over and put her hand on his shoulder. He stopped moving for a moment, as if paralyzed.
“Thank you, Constantine,” she said softly into his ear.
Courtidis took a deep breath and continued what he was doing. His brief smile was quickly replaced by a frown.
“She’s had a low-grade fever for a long time,” he said. “There’s probably an infection, but she wouldn’t let me examine her, so I’ve just given her powders to bring her temperature down.” He hesitated. “This is something different.”
Saba squatted by his side. “What do you mean?” She wanted to tell him about the infection, but she was paralyzed by embarrassment and fear. She tried to think what her mother would want her to do.
“I don’t know. It’s a violent attack on her body. What happened today or yesterday? Did she eat something and become sick? Did something happen to her?”
“She seemed very fatigued, more than usual. She said her muscles hurt.” Saba tried to remember. “She’d never complained about that before…” She grasped the quilt. “And there’s a…”
Gudit broke in defensively, “I gave her boiled barley and camomile and willow extract. It brought the fever right down.”
“That may be, Gudit. You’re not wrong. But this is something much more serious. She’s burning up and her breathing is labored.” He lowered his voice. “She might, I beg your pardon, Saba…she might pass away.”
Saba froze at his words. “No, that can’t be. She was fine before. It’s just a fever.” She pulled back the quilt, revealing Balkis in her thin chemise. Saba was dismayed at the unpleasant odor rising from her mother’s body again, even though she had just washed it.
Gudit ran over and pulled the quilt back over Balkis. “You can’t,” she yelled at Saba. “It’s not proper.”
Saba tried to yank the quilt out of Gudit’s hands. When she wouldn’t let go, Saba slapped her across the face.
Gudit retreated across the room. Courtidis looked on in consternation.
“There’s an infection here,” Saba folded the quilt back again and pointed. “I’m sorry, Mama.” She cradled her mother’s head.
Courtidis lifted Balkis’s chemise. “Beg your…” He stared down at the circumcision scar, then looked at Saba. He followed her eyes to Gudit standing against the wall.
“There are lots of ways to kill someone,” he said softly, his eyes never leaving Gudit’s face, “but the slow ways are the most merciless.”
He examined Balkis, then gently tucked the quilt around her.
“What is it?” Saba asked desperately. “Is that what’s making her ill?”
“Possibly, if it’s infected her blood or if there’s something wrong internally.” He startled Saba by pounding his fist on a chest of drawers. “Why didn’t you tell me about this? If I had caught it earlier…”
“I didn’t know myself until today,” Saba whispered. “Mama never told me. But if it’s an infection, surely there’s something you can do. Even now.”
“Saba, I’m sorry, but my skills fail me here. I know of no powders or techniques that can bring down such a high fever and bring order back to her heart and lungs. But I can tell you that whatever it is, it couldn’t just be the infection of her lower parts, since that appears to have happened some time ago.” He glared at Gudit. “Her condition is much worse than the last time I saw her.”
“She can’t die, Constantine,” Saba begged. “Please don’t let her die.” What else could she have done to help her? Saba asked herself. Her mother had never countenanced interference from her family. At least she had let Constantine treat her. Could he save her now? He must.
“This must have been brought on by something. Think.”
Saba struggled to focus. She went to the storage room and brought out the monstrance. “She cut herself on this.” She held up the discolored gold tine.
Courtidis took it. “Show me the wound.”
Saba pulled her mother’s arm from beneath the quilt and pushed back her sleeve, revealing the bandage. Courtidis examined and cleaned the wound, then instructed Saba on how to care for it and bind it properly. Saba was glad to follow orders as it allowed her mind to go numb.
He took the tine over to the window. “This is dirty,” he observed.
“That’s Mama’s blood.”
“No, I mean there’s older dirt underneath, see?” He pointed to the sheath of granular black material beneath the streaks of fresh blood. “Do you know what that is, Gudit?”
Gudit’s face was gray. “Her mother’s blood. She never let me clean it.”
Courtidis waved the tine in the air. “Come on, Gudit. Let’s have it all at once. Why was Balkis’s mother’s blood on here?
” Saba noticed the authority in his tone, so different from his usual shy manner.
“She scratched herself.”
“And?” Courtidis said with elaborately mimed patience. Saba could see he was sweating.
“Well, she died a day later. A red line crept up her arm and then she was gone. I never saw anything like it.” Gudit stepped back toward the door. “Do you think there’s some kind of bug on there that gets under people’s skin? It was seventeen years ago.”
“An insect? Was she stung?” Saba asked.
“Sounds like blood poisoning.” Courtidis studied the tine again. “This might have been contaminated with something. It would explain her rapid decline.”
“You mean it was on there for seventeen years and then poisoned Mama?”
“Nature has a thousand ways of betraying us. I wish I knew.”
He took a small vial from his bag. Seeing the compote, he poured a small amount of the yellow syrup into a glass, then added the contents of the vial.
Saba watched his every move, as if by sheer will she could infuse his hands with the power to heal her mother.
“I beg your pardon, but I don’t know what else I can do,” he admitted. “This will relax her.” He felt Balkis’s forehead and shook his head. Suddenly he dropped the glass.
Balkis had started to choke. Her face turned bright red and her tongue swelled, blocking her throat. Her eyes protruded with the effort to get air.
Courtidis lifted her head and turned it to open her airway while a frightened Saba held on to her mother’s shoulders. Finally, in desperation, he pushed his finger into her mouth to depress her tongue, but nothing helped. Saba watched in anguish as her mother’s body bucked beneath her hands.
Finally, the violent writhing ceased and Balkis’s arms fell away. Saba kept her arms around her mother as if the connection through her own body could somehow fool death. She felt an intense bitterness toward the midwife, blaming her for keeping her mother’s condition secret for so long, for putting her mother’s life in danger. Gudit had killed her mother. Saba turned her head, but there was no one in the room besides Courtidis.
“Mama,” she said in a thick voice, “don’t go. I need to talk to you.” She began to sob.
Courtidis put his arm around her. They sat like that for a long time. When Saba finally stood, she had made a decision about Courtidis. She needed him now, for many reasons.
She went to find Amida.
34
IT WAS DARK and had begun to rain heavily by the time Kamil arrived at the Imperial Museum, a dull, leaden rain that insinuated itself into the collar of his waterproof cloak.
The museum was housed in a two-story structure built into the west slope of the hill above the Golden Horn. Hamdi Bey had already arrived, having received Kamil’s message, and had lit the lamps. The light glanced brilliantly off the turquoise and dark blue mosaic tiles that covered the walls. The tiles were partially hidden by glass-fronted cabinets, within which Greek, Roman, early Christian, and Byzantine objects were neatly laid out, categorized, and labeled.
Hamdi Bey led him to the room he used as his office. Despite being roused from his home at a moment’s notice, he looked dapper in a neat wool suit and pressed fez. His gray-streaked beard and mustache were freshly trimmed. He peered at Kamil through his spectacles.
“Hang your cloak over there. I apologize for not offering you tea. There’s no staff here at this time of night except the guards. I’ve tasted their tea, and I’m not sure I can recommend it to ordinary mortals.”
“I just wanted to make sure this is in a safe place,” Kamil said and took out a bundle wrapped in oiled cloth. He unwrapped it and placed the silver box on Hamdi Bey’s desk.
“Ah, Theodore Metochites’s reliquary.” Hamdi Bey examined it carefully. He found the latch and opened it. “Let’s see if the lid fits the kettle.”
He disappeared for several minutes. Kamil heard voices and a key turning, then heavy footsteps. Finally, the door opened and Hamdi Bey returned.
“Wait here.” A lean uniformed guard with alert eyes and a rifle stood to attention outside the office door. “We take no chances,” Hamdi Bey explained as he placed the lead container on his desk beside the reliquary.
“They’re about the same size,” Kamil noted, standing over the boxes.
“I have no doubt they were made to fit each other,” Hamdi Bey said as he slid the Proof of God into the reliquary, “like a hand in a glove.”
He clicked the reliquary shut. They stood for a moment, regarding the miracle of this convergence.
“This is an extraordinarily important object,” Hamdi Bey said solemnly. “It’s rare that a document of this importance is found intact, and of course for humanity its value is beyond price. Imagine,” he said with mounting excitement, “this could solve all dispute between religions.” He looked chagrined. “I know what you’re thinking, Kamil, but I’m not one of those devout believers. I try to live a moral life but I don’t have much time for the trappings of religion. I delegate that to Ismail Hodja.” He smiled at Kamil. “I suspect we’re much the same in that regard.”
Kamil returned his smile. “I’m afraid so. This Proof of God is an odd thing, isn’t it, regardless of whether it proves anything or not. Do you think it really was dictated by Jesus and never seen by the Prophet Muhammad?”
“Ismail Hodja is convinced of its authenticity. There is no higher authority, to my poor mind.”
“He’d never make a judgment like that if he wasn’t entirely sure.”
“And just the fact that people believe in the truth of it, which apparently has been the case for centuries, means it’s an enormously powerful force for good and for evil.” He laid his hand reverently on the reliquary. “Perhaps with this document, we can bring some peace to this world.”
Kamil thought about the difficulties he had preventing people from harming each other on his small patch of turf in Istanbul, and thought it unlikely that any document, however special, would be able to bring about that miracle, but he didn’t wish to undermine Hamdi Bey’s extraordinary dream. People like Hamdi Bey had a special way with dreams and could somehow make them become reality. Like the Imperial Museum and the Academy of Fine Arts. In the meantime, they had to keep the Proof of God safe.
“Where do you keep it?” he asked.
“In a locked room in the basement under continual armed guard. At least two men are on duty at all times—one guards the perimeter of the building, the other stays right by the door to the basement. The walls of the room are solid stone with an iron door and another at the top of the stairs. I hate to think what that room was designed for when this place was built. We’ve ordered a safe, but it’ll take at least ten more days to deliver.”
Hamdi Bey called the guard into his office, then picked up the reliquary and its contents and took it back outside, followed closely by the alert-looking guard. Kamil heard the same sequence of sounds as before, but in reverse. After a few minutes, Hamdi Bey returned without the guard.
As they walked through the museum toward the front door, Hamdi Bey told Kamil its history. In 1472 Sultan Mehmet II had built it as a pavilion for his new palace, a platform from which his pages could watch games of jirit on the field below. He had built his first palace on the ruins of the Great Palace of Byzantium, already decayed beyond repair when he took the city in 1453, but before too long he moved to this acropolis above Topkapi Gate. He laid out his second palace like a nomadic encampment, one jewel-like pavilion after another set within magnificent gardens.
Outside the front door of the museum, Hamdi Bey pointed to a cluster of ancient columns and capitals in the courtyard. “We found those when we restored the building. They say when Sultan Mehmet the Conqueror walked through the ruined halls of the Great Palace, he became so sad he recited a distich by the Persian poet Saadi: ‘The spider is the curtain-holder in the Palace of the Caesars. / The owl hoots its night call on the Towers of Aphrasiab.’”
Kamil took his
leave and, after Hamdi Bey shut the door, stood for a while in the entrance alcove, pondering the calligraphy above the door. It was in the old Cufic style and he couldn’t decipher it. Behind him, the rain pattered forlornly on the paving stones. Kamil found that he couldn’t face going home to his orchids and the Gardener’s Chronicle; to an empty house. He wished Elif were waiting for him there, ready to lean her head against his chest. A small, intimate surrender.
Kamil shivered and peered out through the rain. On the hill above the museum loomed the walls of Topkapi Palace. He could just make out the tightly shut Gate of the Watchmen of the Girls, a reminder that beyond these high walls was now a city of women—the widows, sisters, and daughters of deceased sultans. Like the Byzantine palaces, Topkapi too was slowly crumbling, along with the lives of its melancholy inhabitants. Later generations of rulers and their families had built spacious new palaces and villas strung along the Bosphorus like pearls. The old came to Topkapi to die.
A bleak urgency seized Kamil. He clutched his rain cape around him, mounted his horse, and turned toward home.
35
ANIGHT BIRD CALLED outside her window. Saba drifted in and out of dreams. In one, from the waist down, she had become the lion from the doorway. From the waist up, she was a woman with wings instead of arms, naked and ashamed. Without hands, she couldn’t cover herself. She felt increasingly frustrated and angry at her predicament and opened her mouth, only to find that instead of speech, what issued was a roar. People ran from her. She tossed under the quilt and threw it off, then awoke. She pulled the quilt back over her body and tried to settle. Her stomach had been restless all evening. Gudit and some of the servants had brought her mother’s body into the prayer house. She would be buried today in the little cemetery behind the Kariye Mosque.
Saba had had no appetite for dinner, so Gudit had brought her a dish of quince stewed in pomegranate juice. Even the clotted cream hadn’t cut the tartness of the pomegranate, however, and the quince had had an odd medicinal undertone. When Gudit wasn’t looking, Saba emptied her bowl back into the serving dish. She realized then for the first time that she was alone. It was a devastating moment. No one cared what she did now. All the people she had relied on were gone—Uncle Malik, her mother. Her brother was out and hadn’t returned, unaware that his mother was dead. Courtidis had been called to tend to the victims of an accident at a tannery outside the city walls and wouldn’t be back until the following day. After the shock of her mother’s revelations and Kamil’s rejection of them, she no longer felt she could call on him, even though she supposed she now had some claim on him as her brother. No, there was only Gudit.