by Jenny White
Saba finally understood the root of Gudit’s power over her mother—she had mutilated more than Balkis’s body. She had weakened her spirit as well, and then turned herself into her mother’s only friend. Gudit’s attack in the hamam now made more sense. She needed to impress herself into the flesh and spirit of the next priestess. Saba pressed her face into her pillow and rocked back and forth under the quilt until she dozed off again.
It must be near morning, Saba thought, startled awake by the renewed flapping of the bird. She froze. There it was again. A creak. Her floors didn’t creak and her door was locked. She willed herself to pull the quilt slowly from her face and set her ears to listening. There it was again, from the direction of the wardrobe. Had a cat crept in during the day and nested in her folded robes? She raised her head. As her eyes adjusted to the darkness, she saw movement, a shadowy shape approaching her bed. Saba’s heart hammered and her limbs felt paralyzed.
She ran through the contents of her room quickly in her mind, but could think of no object that might serve as a weapon. She thought of using the quilt as a net to trap the person’s head. That might give her enough time to run to the door and unlock it. The key was old and unwieldy. Could she get out in time? If she screamed loudly, the servants in the quarters at the back of the house would surely hear, but they might be too late.
As the figure approached, Saba recognized the smell of bitter herbs that always accompanied Gudit.
“How dare you come in here,” she shouted. “Get out. Get out.”
She threw off the covers and tried to get up from the bed, but found herself pinned by the midwife’s powerful grip. Gudit tied Saba’s hands above her head to the wrought-iron headboard with a thin strip of cloth, stuffed a wad of cotton in her mouth, then slit her nightdress down the front with a knife.
The deep chill of fear settled in Saba’s spine. Remembering the knife, she ceased to struggle, afraid to move, but also afraid not to move. She fought her panic and willed herself to think. What did Gudit want? Was this how the ritual cutting was carried out, with force and stealth in the night? Was this why her mother had refused to talk about her initiation, because it was violent and humiliating? The thought of her mother at the mercy of this madwoman enraged Saba. Remembering that the wrought-iron edges of the headboard were sharp where the repeat design ended, she moved her bound wrists up and down, focused on finding one of the sharp edges.
Gudit lit a lamp and balanced it on the bed by Saba’s feet. Then she took hold of Saba’s left ankle and pulled it roughly aside. Her face was illuminated in patches as it disappeared between Saba’s legs. Saba felt her flesh being pinched together and then pulled painfully like dough. Shadows flew across the room like enormous winged creatures.
Saba kicked her free leg upward and connected with Gudit’s face. The knife bit into her thigh and she felt something wet flowing down her leg. Gudit’s grip on Saba’s ankle weakened for just a moment and Saba took the opportunity to twist her lower body away, her hands still bound to the headboard. She heard a rending sound as the strip of cloth tore on the rough iron edges.
But Gudit had regained her balance and, kneeling over Saba, pressed the knife to her breast. “Slut,” she hissed. “Just like your mother.”
With one free hand Saba reached for the quilt and with the other pushed hard at Gudit, knocking her backward. She pulled the quilt over herself to guard against the blade and rolled backward, trying to get away from Gudit.
A moment later, the midwife had pinned the quilt around Saba, trapping her against the wall.
“What are you doing, Gudit? Is this how the priestess is initiated?” Saba was surprised at how calm her voice sounded.
“You’ll find out.”
“Why do it like this? Why not properly, in the prayer hall?”
“Of course that would be better, but as you can see, I don’t have assistants anymore, not like in your grandmother’s day. Everyone respected me then. I am the left hand of the Melisites.”
“You could train assistants,” Saba suggested, squirming inside the cocoon, looking for a way out. “You have important skills. People want to learn from you.”
Gudit knelt on the bed holding the quilt shut with both hands, the knife resting on the mattress beside her.
“You’d never have been chosen to be priestess in the old days. People obeyed the rules then. It was a partnership. I was the left hand, the priestess was the right hand.”
“It can still be like that,” Saba said, putting as much feeling into her voice as she could muster.
Gudit lifted one hand from the quilt and stroked Saba’s tangled hair back from her forehead. “Maybe. But first you must become pure.”
Pushing her feet against the wall for momentum, Saba launched herself toward Gudit and rolled on top of the knife. She freed her arms and tried to throw the quilt over Gudit’s head, but Gudit had found the knife again and sliced the quilt in half, emerging from it like a snake hatching from its egg. She lunged for Saba’s legs and gripped her ankle once more. With her free leg, Saba kicked the lamp hard. It fell to the ground, the light went out, and the acrid smell of oil filled the air.
Blinded, Gudit paused, and at that moment Saba pushed her backward off the bed. She saw the gleam of the blade as it fell onto the carpet and lunged for it. Gudit grabbed her wrist, but Saba refused to let go of the knife. They struggled on the floor in the dark, each pushing the blade close to the other, the midwife’s powerful grip trying but unable to force Saba’s wrist backward.
“Kill me and you’ll have no priestess at all,” Saba whispered hoarsely. “All you’ll have is Amida.”
The balance shifted for just a moment and Saba’s hand jolted forward. Gudit uttered a piercing cry and scrambled to her feet. Saba could hear her harsh sobbing, then it was gone. Entirely gone.
She tried to stand, but her legs were shaking too hard. Saba realized she still held the knife. Her hand was wet and sticky.
Finally, she managed to get to her feet. Footsteps sounded outside. The servants.
Someone knocked and tried the door. “Is everything alright?”
“Just a moment,” she croaked.
She lit the lamp again and almost dropped it. Her hands and the knife were covered with blood. The room was empty.
“A nightmare,” she called through the door. “I’m fine now. Go back to sleep.”
Saba followed the trail of blood across the carpet. Bloody palm prints were strewn across the wall like roses on English wallpaper. Saba pressed her hands between the prints, adding the pattern of her own smaller ones. The wall gave and a panel tilted inward. Beyond she saw ancient stone stairs descending into the ground. She knew where they would lead.
Putting her shoulder to the heavy wardrobe, she pushed it in front of the panel, surprised at her own strength. Then she stripped off the remnants of her nightdress. Her inner thighs were streaked with blood. The cuts weren’t deep, but they hurt. She reached into the wardrobe, put on a fresh nightdress, then sank to the floor, her arms around her knees, her back to the wardrobe. A gray light washed the room.
After a few minutes, she got up, wrapped herself in a robe, and unlocked the door. She told the shocked servants to clean the blood from her room. She didn’t care what they thought. She was the priestess now.
36
“OWEN IS STILL in the city,” Omar pronounced. “I can feel it in my bones.”
They sat on stools in the small square behind the Fatih police station, enjoying the dusty autumn light filtering through the yellow leaves. It was a warm morning. Steam from the previous night’s rain misted the air so everything looked, Kamil thought, like an Impressionist painting. He unbuttoned his jacket and took another sip of tea.
First thing that morning, he had presented the icon to the Greek Orthodox Patriarch and watched with satisfaction as it was reinstalled in the church before a weeping congregation. Then he had ridden to the Fatih Mosque and convinced its reluctant imam that the diamond-studded chalic
e and other Christian artifacts he had recovered were better off being displayed in the Imperial Museum than locked away in his storage room.
Kamil had one more day before he had to face Nizam Pasha, but he no longer cared about that. So much else had happened in the past few days that Nizam Pasha’s demands seemed as distant as the chirp of a sparrow in the shrubbery. Kamil wanted Owen brought down before he infected anyone else with his rabid insouciance, inspiring atrocious acts in his name, then branding them with his initial as if they were works of art. Ottoman law wouldn’t allow Kamil to arrest him, but he would like to make sure he was put in the hands of the British police and punished.
“He’s not going anywhere until he gets his hands on the Proof of God,” Omar went on. “He’s like a wolf that’s smelled blood. He thinks Amida’s a sheep and he’s got one claw through his hind leg. So we set the bloody sheep out, pinch it to make it squeal, and wait for the wolf to come for its meal.”
“Omar, you should have been either a butcher or a zookeeper.”
“Not a farmer?”
“Farmers don’t risk their sheep to catch a wolf.”
“Point taken. What do you think?”
“You mean we let Owen think Amida actually has the Proof of God?”
“Exactly. The problem is he knows someone tried to arrest him when he met with Amida, so he’s not going to trust him to set up another meeting. He’ll come to Amida, just as he said. At his home. Tonight.”
“Owen must know we’re on to him.” They still had no clues as to his whereabouts.
“Of course someone will have squealed that the great Magistrate Kamil came looking for him and discovered he was smuggling stuff through the diplomatic post. That kind of news spreads like wildfire. Even the embassy kitchen maid will know, and if she knows, everyone knows. That he killed Malik, Ali, and the boy in Fatih, those cards are still in our hands. We have him for smuggling. He doesn’t know we have him for murder too.”
“There’s no proof that Owen killed anyone himself,” Kamil reminded him. “You weren’t able to extract a confession from Remzi, even with your modern methods.”
“What about the murder weapon, that cross thing, right in his living room?”
Kamil shook his head. “The Tarla Bashou apartment was rented under another name and the descriptions we got of the owner are too vague to prove that it was him.”
“Remzi couldn’t have killed Malik alone. He couldn’t have walked two steps after the special treatment we gave him. He would’ve had to be carried out of jail. I bet Kubalou was there that night.”
Kamil considered this. “You’re probably right.”
He wondered about the buyer Amida said Owen had lined up in England for the Proof of God. Could it be one of the sects Ismail Hodja had warned him about? Arresting Owen wouldn’t be the end of the story and he worried about Hamdi Bey. Did the gentle old man realize how dangerous possession of the Proof of God could be? It would make the museum a lightning rod for unscrupulous people like Owen and fanatics willing to stop at nothing to get their hands on the treasure. He hadn’t shared this with Omar, who was still unaware of the contents of the Proof. Omar knew only that it had been placed in the museum with the other antiquities.
“Kubalou has no idea where the Proof of God is and Amida made a pretty good show of knowing where it was the other night, so let him think you still have it. That way he still believes he can lay his hands on it.”
“By attacking me or Elif Hanoum again.”
“So now you’re fainting at the first sign of danger?”
Kamil didn’t rise to Omar’s jab. Omar would understand he was concerned about Elif, not himself. “Let’s talk to Amida again.”
“Like I said, send a thief to catch a thief. One nail drives out another.”
IT TOOK SEVERAL hours to track down Amida. He had spent the night in an apartment in Balat. A boy with a harelip answered the door and told them Amida had already left, but then they found him hiding behind a wall in the back garden. They brought him to the Fatih police station.
The ruse was simple. They made a deal with Amida. He would let Omar know if Kubalou contacted him again about the Proof of God, or they would throw him in jail for theft and murder.
“What do I tell him if he asks me?” Amida looked nervously at the window. “I don’t have it.”
Kamil smiled pleasantly. “Arrange a meeting where you promise to hand it over, then tell Chief Omar about the meeting. Didn’t Kubalou say he was going to be visiting you this evening?”
Amida gulped and nodded. “How do I tell you he’s there?”
“Send someone to the station with this.” Kamil handed him Malik’s sketch of a fox. Avi would also be watching and report back if the Frank appeared.
“If Kubalou finds out I’m lying, he’ll kill me.”
“Not as long as he thinks you know where the Proof is.”
“The minute you tell him you don’t, smart-ass, you’re a dead man,” Omar added. “And don’t think we’re blind. You won’t see us, but we’ll be watching you.”
Amida didn’t move. “What if there’s more than one guy. What about Remzi? And Kubalou has another man, named Ben. If you arrest one, the other one might still kill me.”
“We can lock you up,” Omar offered. “You’ll be safe here.”
“No thanks.” Amida buttoned his jacket and waited uncertainly.
“Go home.” Omar gestured toward the door.
Kamil and Omar stood at the window and watched him walk away.
“Do you think we should have told him about his mother?” Omar asked.
“No.” Kamil thought of how great Saba’s sorrow must be and wished he could comfort her. She was his sister, after all. And he was the better brother.
Amida hesitated in the square and looked around, then hurried down Kemer Altou Street. Behind him strode a tall man in a cloak and turban. A beggar boy ran up and tugged on his robe, asking for alms, but the man brushed him away.
37
SABA SAW AMIDA stride into the compound. She also caught sight of a turbaned stranger behind him in the lane before he turned and disappeared. She walked stiffly across the courtyard, her bandaged legs rubbing against each other beneath her robe. She followed the oleanders to Amida’s cottage and, finding the door ajar, pushed it open and went in.
“Amida,” she called.
Amida came to the door, unbuttoning his jacket. “Hello, little sister,” he said, regarding her grim face. “Has something happened?”
“Mama is dead.”
“What?” Amida sank against the door frame. “What happened? Did someone…?”
Saba wondered what he suspected. Whatever it was, she was sure, was nowhere near as bizarre as the truth.
“Constantine thinks she was poisoned by something on that monstrance above the divan. It fell and she cut herself on it.”
“Poisoned?” Amida repeated in a disbelieving voice. “But she was strong and healthy.”
“She was ill, Amida. Very ill, even before the poisoning.” She paused. “We just didn’t see it.”
Amida sank shakily onto the sofa. He sat unmoving, head in his hands.
Saba sat beside him and waited.
“I should have known there was something wrong,” Amida admitted finally, lifting his head. “When Kamil Pasha brought the cross back, I thought maybe the shock had done that to her. I wish…” He choked down a sob.
Saba sat closer and put a tentative hand on his shoulder. When he didn’t react, she left it there.
“I wish I had a chance to explain things before she passed away. I can’t bear the thought that she died thinking I was responsible for Malik’s murder.”
Saba said nothing. He was responsible, she thought, but her anger had leached away under the onslaught of sorrow. There was room only for one measure in every cup, she mused, and hers was filled with grief. There would be no room for anger until she had drunk this cup dry.
She went into the kitchen, po
ured a glass of water, and gave it to him. He stared at the glass in his hand, but didn’t drink. His shoulders heaved. She took the glass from him and laid a hand on his arm. There would be time for recriminations later.
38
OMAR JUMPED UP from sleep, fully alert. Avi was pulling at his arm. “Chief, Chief. The Frank is at the village. He followed Amida from the jail and then he left and came back again with two men.”
Omar was immensely relieved to see Avi. “Alright. Calm down and tell me what you saw.”
Mimoza had been asleep on a mattress in the corner. She sat up and asked drowsily, “Where’s the fire, husband?”
“Right here,” Omar retorted. “Where else would it be? Don’t worry, I’m not going to see my mistress. She’s still asleep. Like you should be.”
“Avi.” She blushed to see that the boy had overheard. “What are you doing up so late? It must be midnight.” When she saw Omar and Avi turn to leave, she jumped up and tried to block their way. “He’s a child, Omar. Not a policeman.”
“Worry about me. I’m the policeman.” Omar kissed her on the cheek and pushed past.
A carriage waited in the lane. Omar leaned down and asked Avi, “How did you get the driver to bring a beggar boy across Fatih in the middle of the night?”
Avi pulled out his sack of coins, which had shrunk considerably. “I went to the station first, but they said you had gone home.”