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by USMC Best Friend


  “No you’re not you’ve dealt with more crap than most in the past 3 months since Justin did what he did?” Jack sat next to me “And you’ve done a lot of it with out your Marines”

  “I know” I nodded “I’m now scared about talking to Ryne trying to tell him in pregnant”

  “Ryder’s taking Ana out for Lunch to tell her” Brit chewed the inside of her cheek my eyes got wide

  “But… what …”

  “Look she’s worried about you she sees her brothers girlfriend struggling to survive and deal with stuff going on… and come on don’t you think Ryne’s going to call you before he’ll call his sister” she waved her hand “Yes he’ll want to talk to her but you can give him hot assed phone sex” Jack and I looked at her “Sorry is that just Marek and Me”

  “Ignore her” Jack groaned “But she’s right Ana wants to know what’s wrong with you as much as we do”

  “My head’s spinning” I rubbed my temples.

  “What’s the doctor said about the baby?” Brit asked after a while.

  “I haven’t seen him today the nurse said he’s sorting out an ultrasound for me and I should also be getting out of here as well”

  “You want to come stay with us?” Jack got up and pushed his hands in his pockets “Your Mom and Dad are in the middle of moving into a new house”

  “I don’t know” I shrugged “the last thing I need to do is bring you guys down”

  “Okay now do I get to kick your ass” Jack groaned tipping his head back “We’re here to help we’re here to look out for you like we’ve always done” the door to the room opened and Mom and Dad walked in with the doctor.

  “Well looks like your never left alone” The doctor chuckled

  “No that’s what our Family does” Brit grinned

  “I can tell” the doctor handed me a slip of paper “You have an ultra sound in a week and they should be able to tell you how far along you are” I looked at him

  “They can tell that?”

  ‘Within a few days yes” he nodded “And I understand the situation that you’re in” he looked at Mom and Dad

  “Can I go home” I asked folding the appointment note “I’m really done with being here right now”

  “Yes you can go home the stitches in your neck need to come out in 5 days time”

  “Thanks” I walked over to where I’d already got my bag packed.

  “Can I have a few minutes with Aly” Dad looked at the others as the doctor walked out.

  “Sure” Mom walked out with Jack and Brit

  “Are you going to yell at me now?’ I asked sitting down on the bed

  “No honey” he sat facing me “I wanted to tell you that we’re not disappointed in you we’re just happy that you’re safe and in one piece… the fact you’re having a baby is a shock but it’s not the end of the world”

  “Dad I’ve only spoken to Ryne once in the 8 weeks he’s been gone I haven’t gotten a single letter that he’s written and I could be knocked up by the guy that raped me”

  “Alyssa I… well we… Well”

  “Dad”

  “You know we’re moving house right” I nodded “Well we want you to stay with your cousins for now till we get sorted” he fidgeted about “and then we… well your Great Grandpa… well”

  “Dad”

  “Okay Your Mom and your Cousins are taking your things to their place you’re coming with me for some lunch”

  ‘Dad” I groaned again “I’m not hungry and you avoiding something… hang on you did kill Justin didn’t you I mean he’s not back from the dead or something like that” I got off the bed and paced the floor “Because if he is then…”

  “Baby girl you need to stop” Dad chuckled “Come on Lets have take your daughter to work day”

  “you’re taking me to the range”

  “I have to go pick up some papers and then if you like we can go shoot”

  “Yeah” I smiled “I think I need to let off so steam” Dad broke out into a huge grin

  ‘Good come on” He put his arm round me “And we love you”

  “I know… will you and Mom come with me when I go to the Ultrasound”

  “Yes” he nodded “We’ll be there”

  Chapter 91

  Good shot, broken heart?

  It was good to be out of the hospital I waited in the truck while Dad went into the offices to do something, the warm breeze wafted through the window. My mind was lost I didn’t even notice dad get back in the truck till the engine started.

  “Ready to try to out shoot this old Sniper?” he chuckled

  “I’ll try my best” I nodded “Wow… you’re going to be a Grandpa” I pulled a face and looked at him

  “Oh God” he groaned “Your Uncles are going to give me hell over that” he shook his head and then took a sideways glance at me “You scared?”

  “You know I am” I nodded “I’m scared I’m going to have to do this on my own and be a single Mom” I fought back the tears I was done with crying I’d done way too much of it over the past three days.

  “You’ll never be alone come on this family never lets anyone alone do they?” he chuckled as we pulled up at the range. “Single Mom or not you have a family that will help you and stand by you”

  “I need to suck it up don’t I” I sighed opening the door of the truck “Suck it up and get on with it even if it’s Justin’s Baby it’s not the baby’s fault” Dad got out and walked round to me and hugged me

  “Lets wait and see what the Doctor says next week okay before we think like that” he dropped a kiss on my head “Come on lets see if you’ve lost your touch yet”

  It felt good to take Dad on between using his sidearm and then his rifle we’d gathered an audience, and they we’re even taking bets on us.

  “Okay… Honey you need the perfect head shot and heart shot” Dad patted me on the back

  “Okay” I grinned “just remember you were the one that taught me how to do this”

  “Col you’re daughter rocks” One of the Marines called out

  “I know that Marine” Dad nodded “But remember she’s almost as good as me at this shit and she has the temper of her damn Mother”

  “I’ll tell Mom” I said shaking my head and reloading the gun before taking aim. Right now I had the chance to forget everything that had happened and be me again me from 5 months ago before Justin before Ryne before the baby. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. “two perfect shots”

  “Yep” Dad chuckled from behind me “you do that and then I’ll give you a treat”

  “I’m not two Dad”

  ‘I know but it’s not saying you’ll make the…” I didn’t give him the chance to finish be for I pulled of two shots in quick succession there was a round of whistling and cheering from behind me I lowered the gun Dad stood next to me “Okay the heart shot is about ½ and inch to the left” he chuckled “and the head shot was right between the eyes not in the middle of the forehead”

  “Col you have to be kidding she’d out shot most Marines” someone laughed

  “She out shoots me” Dad took the gun from my hand as two hands wrapped round me “But I love her” Ryne breathed in my ear, My stomach and heart leapt into my throat. I couldn’t move fear gripped me. Half of me wanted to turn round and throw myself into his arms and the other half wanted to run and hide. I took a deep breath and fought back the tears Ryne turned me round his lips pressed to mine.

  ‘Okay so not fair she’s hot, can shot and taken” I heard someone grumble. Ryne pulled back and held my face in his hands tears filling his eyes as he touched the dressing on the side of my neck he rested his forehead against mine.

  “I’m sorry” he murmured “I’m sorry I didn’t take him out when I had the chance” he closed his eyes ‘I’m sorry I went away and left him still breathing” I kissed him wanting to stop him from apologizing. Wanting to try not to think about what was growing inside of me right now.

  “Hey
Guys” Dad out his hand on my back and Ryne’s “I’ll get a ride home you take the truck and go talk” he was talking more to me than to Ryne. The fear in my eyes all to obvious “I’m a call away baby girl that’s all a call away” He kissed the top of my head and handed Ryne the keys to his truck “take her back to yours and let her talk Marine”

  “Yes Sir” Ryne nodded looking a little worried and concerned. The walk to the truck was awkward. Ryne held my hand, nothing was said between us as we rode to his apartment, I took the chance to look at him as he drove there was a weeks worth of stubble on his face and dark rings under his eyes, his knuckles were scraped looked at little swollen. My Marine was home. I should be happy, but I had a fear that I was going to break his heart in the next hour.

  Chapter 92

  Dread and fear

  Ryne pulled me into his arms as soon as the door of the apartment was closed behind us the windows were open and the sea breeze was blowing in making me shiver a little even in the heat.

  “Oh you wouldn’t believe how much I’ve missed you” he moaned as he kissed me I put my hands against his chest

  “Ryne we need to talk” I managed to get out the words feeling like razors in my throat “I mean we really need to talk” the stitches on the side of my neck pulled making me think of the knife held to my throat

  “Baby, you’re scaring me” he stroked the side of my face I backed away from him and walked over to the couch “Aly?”

  “Oh I thought this was going to be hard over the phone but wow the last thing I expected was to see you face to face” I ran my hand through my hair. Ryne walked slowly over and sat on the table in front of me.

  “If you were going to tell me about him getting into your room you Dad filled me in” he reached for my hands “Damn your freezing” he got up and closed the windows and pulled the blanket from the back of the couch and wrapped it round em “I know he was trying to… trying”

  “He was trying to rape me again” I finished the sentence for him “He broke in and he got in bed with me” I couldn’t look at Ryne “He was on top of me and he was naked and trying to get my things off and when I fought against him he pulled a knife” Ryne’s breathing was harsh and heavy as he fought to control his temper “I didn’t let him Ryne I swear I didn’t’ let him this time all I wanted was you there to stop him.

  “And I wasn’t but thank god your Dad was” I could tell he was trying to sooth me but it came out flat and hard as he said it through his teeth. “Thank god your Dad is more of a Marine than I am and he blew his fucking head off”

  “Ryne You can’t blame yourself for not taking Justin out” I looked up and saw the sheer anger in his eyes and it scared me if he was this mad right now how mad was he going to get when I told him about the baby I looked away from him

  “I can I had the gun against his damn head Alyssa I had the shot and I didn’t take it and look” He got up and paced the floor “I promised to look after you and not let anyone hurt you and he came back and almost killed you” He turned to look at me “Fuck me Aly I hurt knowing what he did in the first place before I met you… it kills me that he did that to you” He came back over “Now this I’m so scared I’m losing you and I know for a fact I can’t handle that again” He rubbed my arms “I can’t handle my heart breaking again” I shook my head

  “Ryne I swear I’d never do anything to you to do that” I hung my head “I could never hurt you on purpose… Never”

  “I know” He sighed sounding broken this time

  “Ryne thers something else?” He lifted his head

  “When they took me to the hospital they ran test” He nodded “They ran a lot of tests”

  ‘Yeah” he narrowed his eyes

  ‘Ryne there’s no easy way to say this” I was trying to control my voice “I’m pregnant” Whatever color that was left in Ryne’s face drained in a heartbeat as the tears fell from my face. “I’m sorry Ryne I’m sorry” I sobbed “I can’t remember the last time I had my period and…” I broke down as the realization started to hit him “I don’t’ know if it’s yours or his” I choked out “I’m sorry” Ryne got up from the table shakily and walked over to the window. The silence was deafening till the sound of breaking glass shattered the air.

  Chapter 93

  A thinking Marine

  The Mirror that hung between the two large windows was broken, the pieces like silver flecks on the floor Ryne’s Fist still balled in the middle of the now empty frame, a trickle of blood making little splashing sounds as it hit the wooden floor, his head was bowed low his shoulders shaking either from anger or from heart break. I got up dropping the blanket that was round me. I grabbed the kitchen towel from the counter between the living room and the kitchen and walked over to him. The sound of the glass cracking under my feel, I nervously reached out and put my hand on his shoulder. Ryne didn’t move.

  “Let me see your hand?” My Voice was quiet and edged with fear Ryne looked at me slowly turning his head without taking his hand away from the mirror. “Ryne let me see your hand… Please” I stepped back the glass cracking again. I moved my hand from his shoulder to the wrist of his right hand that was against the mirror. He moved as if in a dream pulling his hand away from the remains of the glass letting it drop to the ground there was a piece sticking up from between his knuckles as blood oozed from the other gashes on his hand I held the towel under his hand and pulled the shared from his hand. My fingers trembling, I couldn’t bring my eyes to meet his. “We need to clean it and get you to the ER” I swallowed hard.

  “It’s fine” He took his hand away from me and wrapped the towel round it.

  ‘Ryne its’ not fine you’re bleeding” I snapped. I never do well when someone I love is hurting Ryne walked over to the kitchen sink and pulled off the towel and ran the water wincing a little as he held his hand under it checking it out for himself. “I bet you wish you were still deployed” I leant against the counter.

  “Don’t be stupid” he shook his head “This is like a bad dream… I get pulled from a warzone and plunged into hell” his words stung “I swear I must be a bad person or god hates my sorry Marine ass because if he thinks this shit is funny he’s more like Satan”.

  “You want me to leave” I felt faint from just saying the words that could take me out of his life “Say if you can’t handle it and I’ll leave and…” Ryne was in front of me his hands on the counter each side of me his face inches from mine.

  “If you want to leave then I can’t stop you… but no I don’t want you to go” I was literally shaking with nerves “You’re really pregnant” I nodded He took his hand now wrapped in a clean towel and put it against my stomach and closed his eyes I watched the tears fall through his long lashes.

  “I’m sorry Ryne… I can’t tell you what you want to hear about the baby” I sniffed.

  “Are you getting rid of it?” He opened his eyes and looked at me “Are you?” he pushed his hand still resting lightly. I closed my eyes again and shook my head “Even if it’s his?” he almost spat the words.

  “No” I whispered “I couldn’t do that… it’s not the babies fault… I’m sorry”

  “Stop saying sorry Alyssa” he bit a little.

  “But I am Ryne I am sorry for ever going after that cowboy, ever showing an interest in him” My eyes opened and looked into the blue pools of his eyes “I’m sorry for not being strong enough to stop him from having sex with me, I’m sorry being stupid and not realizing I hadn’t been on my period” I tried to move past Ryne but I would have had better luck trying to get past a brick wall he pinned me to the counter.

  “Stop Aly” He moved his hand from my stomach to my arms “I love you and I can’t stop loving you… I want you and I want to touch you… It’s not your fault he did this… But the baby will be a constant reminder”

  “Ryne if you can’t handle it then I’ll leave” I was crying yet again harder that I think I ever had “I will not get rid of a baby because of a mistake I m
ade… I have an ultrasound appointment for a weeks time they will give me a date”

  “For what?”

  “For how far along it is” I wanted to hit the floor now I was so drained for this from the pain this was causing to both of us “They can tell within a few days how far along it is

  “It could be my baby though right?” I nodded “Work it out baby” he lifted my face in his hands “If it was his you’d be showing surely by now it’s been what four months almost five since he did it to you” he moved a hand and stroked my stomach “We only started 3 months ago” the tears streaked his cheeks “It has to be our baby Aly it has to be” he was trying to convince both of us “We’ll go find another doctor and try to get and ultrasound before next week” I blinked at him “Do you love me?”

 

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