SOLD: Jagged Souls MC

by Naomi West

  “I’m already a bad influence on you, aren’t I? Got you convinced that murder is okay sometimes.”

  “No, it’s not. But revenge is understandable. I don’t agree with it, but I get it. I get why you need to do it, even if I wished you’d change your mind.”

  “I can’t.”

  She let out a long breath. “I know.”

  “Does that make you want to get away from me?”

  “A little.”

  “Fair enough. Thanks for being honest about it.”

  “How will you do it? Shoot him or stab him?” Sara traced the outline of his ab muscles absently with one finger.

  “It depends on how it all goes down. Maybe stab him with the same knife that was left at the scene.”

  “Is it here? In your house?”

  “The knife? Yeah.”

  “Can I see it?”

  “Why?”

  She shrugged. “I don’t know. What if the whole gang has similar knives? Don’t they do things like that sometimes?”

  “You seem to know an awful lot about it.”

  “I don’t really. I just know that my brother mentioned something like that once. That gangs have symbols and colors. If these Cruel Crows might come after me, shouldn’t I know what the symbol on the knife is, in case they have the same symbol?”

  “You have a point. You should know what the crest looks like.”

  Saxton slid out of the bed and went to his dresser, where he kept the knife in the back of his top drawer. He brought it back over to the bed, still wrapped in the towel he kept it in. He set it down and lifted one side of the towel off, then the other, to reveal the eagle crest.

  Sara gasped loudly and reached down to pick up the knife. She turned it over, inspecting it carefully. Then she slid off the bed and backed away until she felt the wall hit her butt.

  “What?” Saxton asked. “Do you recognize it?”

  He was still on his feet and took a few steps toward her.

  “You do,” he said. “Tell me what you know.”

  Sara thought she might throw up. Or faint. Or maybe one then the other. She did recognize the knife, but it couldn’t mean what he thought it meant. There was no way.

  “Sara!” His voice was sharp and his expression took on the desperate appearance of an anxious man. “Tell me what you know. Please.”

  “I recognize it.” Her words came out in a hushed whisper. She slid to the floor and put her head on her knees. “It can’t be what you think it is. There’s some mistake.”

  “Where do you recognize it from?”

  “I know who it belongs to.”

  Saxton was on his knees in front of her, his eyes wild. “Who?”

  She shook her head. “He’s not a killer. He wouldn’t do that.”

  “Who?”

  She closed her eyes. She couldn’t stand the anguish in his eyes. She whispered, “It’s my brother’s knife.”

  Chapter Nineteen

  Saxton backed away from Sara slowly. He felt the carpet between his toes, the soft cushion on his feet.

  This couldn’t be. How could the knife belong to her brother? Her brother had killed Liam? The woman he was falling for was the blood relative of the person who murdered his second in command. His ears rung. He shook his head to clear it, but it didn’t help.

  He stumbled to the bed and leaned against it. The room needed to stop spinning.

  He was done. He’d completed his searching, and he’d found Liam’s killer. Except… Now what? He’d always planned to immediately kill whoever did it. It had been cut and dry. Find him, kill him. Except now it wasn’t so simple.

  Forget the fact that Carter was known to have power in the city. He was a big deal and high up in every organization he was a part of. He might even be the leader of the Cruel Crows. Saxton hadn’t gotten that much information yet, but he wouldn’t be surprised if Carter was the top dog. That fact would make killing him dangerous and maybe tricky, but Saxton would have risked it. For the sake of Liam’s honor, he would have found a way.

  But knowing that he was Sara’s brother? Would she ever speak to him again if he killed her brother? They didn’t seem like the closest siblings in the world, but they weren’t complete enemies, either. She still talked about him with affection at times. And even now, she was claiming he wasn’t a murderer. She saw the best in Carter. Just like she did with him. And she was wrong about him. He wasn’t good. He had no idea what she saw in him. But if she was willing to see that in him, enough to trust her son to him, then how much more would she choose to see good in her own brother, despite the evidence otherwise?

  Killing Carter might mean losing her forever. How could he have gotten himself into this mess? Into this place where he had to stop to consider any action, let alone one so important as taking down the man who’d dishonored his MC. This is why he always stuck to his motto. Fuck them and forget them. It was harsh, but it’d worked for him for so many years. Kept him out of bullshit like this. And now here he was, having feelings for this woman, and it was making him question his motives.

  He felt so much rage toward himself for letting it happen. For half a second, the thought flashed through his mind. Maybe he’d take her out, too. But with that thought came an intense pain. He wanted to defend her. He wanted her to fall for him. Against everything he ever stood for, he wanted something deeper with her. Something more meaningful.

  But could he do it? Could he be with her and not kill Carter? Not avenge Liam, the next best thing to his own brother? After Nolan died, Liam had been there for him. Had been there through everything in his messed up life. And he’d loved him like a brother. Liam’s death was harder to take than Nolan’s in many ways. He was closer to Liam, had spent more time with him, had relied on him and loved him. They had a relationship like he’d never had with Nolan, who was content to run around on the streets by himself rather than team up with Saxton.

  He couldn’t just let it go. Liam may not technically be blood, but he was the closest thing Saxton had. And he hadn’t known Sara long enough to put her above him. He had no commitment from her and if she couldn’t understand why he had to do this, then he didn’t want one. He was better off alone, better off without her anyway.

  But if he could make her see why he had to do this, if he could get her on board, then he could keep her and still regain honor for the Jagged Souls. He’d have the best of both worlds. But was it possible?

  “Say something,” she said softly. It had been a long time since either of them had spoken.

  “I just… I can’t believe it.”

  “Me either.” She got to her feet slowly. “Saxton, he’s not a murderer. He wouldn’t do that. He wouldn’t hurt anyone like that. And he wouldn’t do something so dishonorable. It must be a mistake. Maybe his knife was stolen from him. Or maybe it got there some other way. Maybe he was there, I don’t know. But he didn’t kill Liam.”

  He stared at her, trying to decide how to react. He ground his teeth together.

  “Please believe me,” she said.

  “Sara—”

  “Please,” she pleaded. “I know you don’t know him. Trust me. Please. Let’s talk to him. Maybe he knows something. Maybe he can help us.”

  “Or he found out that you’ve been with me. And sent someone after you to kidnap you.”

  She shook her head. “He wouldn’t do that.”

  “Wasn’t he the one running the auction? Did you ever think he’d do something like that?”

  Her jaw dropped open. Her face still looked too pale. Not good. If she was so shocked, then she thought too highly of him. He’d never convince her. His heart ached at the thought of losing her, but the fresh determination was stronger. He had an answer. He had a direction. He had a name.

  “He might come after you,” he said. “And hurt you to get to me. And hurt Ian. If he thinks you’re on my side, thinks you’re friendly with my MC, who so clearly isn’t friendly with his gang, then you’re Carter’s enemy.”

 
She shook her head again. “No. No.”

  “Sara, listen to me. Liam wasn’t killed over a small dispute. He did something major to get himself killed. And something probably really major to warrant a death like that. You don’t shoot someone in the back of the head in a dark alley unless they really, really piss you off. Without knowing what it was, I don’t know how deep it goes. But if it’s serious and if it involved more than just Liam, I can guarantee that being seen with me would put you and Ian in danger. And you’ve been seen with me. Many times. There’s nothing we can do about that now. It’s too late. But I can keep you safe. I have to get to Carter first. I have to stop him from hurting you or Ian or anyone else.”

  “You can’t. You can’t kill him.”

  “Sara—”

  “Saxton! Promise me you won’t kill him!”

  “You know I can’t do that. This goes beyond us. It’s not just about you and me.”

  “There is no you and me if you kill him.”

  “I want to protect you.” He took another step closer to her. He was afraid she’d bolt out the door before he could finish what he had to say. “There’s only one way I can do that. I know you want Ian safe more than anything. So do I. And I can keep him safe. I can keep you safe.”

  “What are you saying? You’re going to kill my brother to keep us safe?”

  “I have to stop him. That’s the only way to make sure he won’t hurt anyone else.”

  “He didn’t hurt anyone,” she growled. “He did not kill Liam. He had nothing to do with the guy who almost kidnapped me.”

  “How do you know?”

  “I know my brother! He’s not like that. He does bad things, but not violent things. He doesn’t hurt people. I’ve never seen him act violently.”

  “Never?”

  “Never.” She crossed her arms and glared at him.

  “So, you’ve never seen him get into a fist fight? Punch a wall or something else? Never saw him throw something or lose his anger?”

  She gritted her teeth. “People can be mad and not be violent about it.”

  “Have you? Have you ever seen him use his fists in anger?”

  She shifted her weight and didn’t answer.

  “So, I take it that you have, then. Even the most violent men can hide it when they want to. Maybe he hid most of his violence from you. Maybe you only saw him get into a fight a few times. That doesn’t mean he’s not capable of doing horrible things. Violent things. You never thought he’d be running an auction for women to sell themselves, either, and he does. That auction goes on every month, did you know that?”

  She refused to answer again.

  “I can stop things like that from happening, too. Just tell me where he is, and I can save those women and protect you and Ian.”

  She let out a bark of a laugh. “Tell you where he is? Do you think I’m crazy?! Tell you where to find my brother so you can go kill him? You’re insane.”

  “I know he’s your brother and you want to think the best of him. Of course you do. You think the best of everyone. But that doesn’t change what he did. He killed Liam. Who knows how many others. He facilitates the selling of women. I’m sure he’s into drugs and weapons, too. I’ve heard that the Crows are into all sorts of things that would make you sick. And I suspect that Carter is the leader. Which means, he makes all those things happen that hurt people.”

  “And you don’t? You think you’re some saint? You do the same type of shit, Saxton, and don’t act like you don’t.”

  “I don’t do what the Cruel Crows do. My MC doesn’t do things like that.”

  “Yes, you do.”

  “No, we don’t.” He braved another step closer to her. “We don’t sell women, we don’t get violent without cause—”

  “But you do get violent.”

  “Only in defense.”

  “Or revenge. Like in Carter’s case.”

  “This is defense. This is protection. This is making the city better.”

  “Making the city better! Are you flat-out nuts?! How can you honestly believe that?”

  He had to get her calmed down. Had to get her to stop shouting and listen to him. “You’re going to wake up Ian if you don’t keep your voice down.”

  “Oh, right.” Her tone turned even more disgusted. “Because you know what’s good for my son, don’t you?”

  He held up his hands in a position of surrender. “Calm down.”

  “Don’t tell me what to do!”

  But she did lower her volume some, even if the harshness wasn’t any lessened. Time for a different angle.

  “Look at us right now. You’re accusing me of being the violent one, yet you’re the one yelling and getting angry while I’m perfectly calm.”

  “Oh, no. Don’t you try that with me. You’re calm because you’re plotting murder. I’m angry because you want to kill my brother. This isn’t some indication of personality, here. This isn’t some sign of violence or tendency toward violence. Don’t you dare pull that bullshit on me.”

  “I’m just pointing out that I can be calm. I don’t get violent unless I choose to. It’s not some uncontrollable thing. Please understand that.”

  “I don’t care!” she shrieked. “Are you going to control yourself and not kill my brother for something you think he might have done that he didn’t do?”

  “He did it. No doubt about that.”

  “You are completely delusional. You’re so set on the fact that Carter killed Liam and that you have to defend his honor or whatever bullshit, and you’ve convinced yourself that this knife is total evidence, when it’s not, and you’re just deluding yourself into thinking you’re doing some noble and good thing by committing murder. By doing the very thing you’re saying was so wrong when Carter did it. Which he didn’t. My brother is not a murderer, but you are. You’re the one who should be taken out for safety sake, not Carter.”

  “The knife isn’t the only proof,” he said sternly. She had to hear him on this. “Are you forgetting my stab wound? As soon as I got close to finding his killer, I was attacked and told to stop asking questions. That’s only because I knew too much. If I was on the wrong path, they wouldn’t have paid me any attention. But I was close, and now I know. And you were attacked, which is further proof that I’ve found it. You recognize the knife and know whose it is. That’s all the proof I need. You’re the one being delusional. You’re refusing to see it. You think you know your brother, but you’re believing his lies. You’ve fallen into his trap. I don’t blame you. Blood is like that. But please.”

  He took a step toward her and she took a step back. He needed to go deeper. He wouldn’t convince her unless she could see what he really felt. It was a big risk, and one he didn’t take lightly, but she had to know how he felt about her. That might be the only way he could keep her.

  “Sara, as much as I’ve tried to deny them, I do have feelings for you. And they keep getting stronger. I don’t want to lose you. I want to keep you and Ian safe. And I can. But I have no choice. There’s no other way. Taking care of Carter will not only set right what he did to Liam, but it will keep you and Ian safe from his retaliation. It will end a lot of horrible things that his gang does. It might even break up the gang if we’re lucky.”

  She took another step back and was just in front of the door. She didn’t look like what he said had mattered much. Or at all.

  “You know what, Saxton? Okay. You do whatever you think you need to do. If that’s what you believe, fine. Somehow, I’ll prove it. I’ll show you he’s not the murderer you think he is. But it’ll be too late. I’ll be long gone from your life by then. You’re giving up whatever it is we have or might have in the future for the sake of killing someone on a whim—”

  “I’m not—”

  She held up a hand to stop him. “I know what you think, but you’re wrong. You don’t have solid proof. You have circumstantial evidence, and I’ve seen enough crime shows to know that never holds up.”

  Was she jok
ing? “Crime shows? Give me a break. And circumstantial evidence is completely—”

  “I don’t want to hear it! It doesn’t matter. I’m not going to convince you, and you’re not going to convince me.”

  “Okay…”

  “I will tell you this.” Her voice grew flat and her eyes turned hard as stone. “I’m taking my son home. I’m getting as far away from you as possible. And if Carter turns up dead, I will go to the police and tell them everything you told me tonight. I will make sure you’re locked up and pay for killing my brother.”