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The Best Science Fiction and Fantasy of the Year, Volume 7

Page 79

by Jonathan Strahan


  “And she was so angry with me!” the Boss says laughing, and they all imagine him standing there, taking the woman’s scolding as politely as he can. “You’d’ve thought I organized this thing to go after them. Or at least I must know who did. All you crazy hicks must be in on this together! She didn’t say that, but that was what she was thinking, all right.”

  Christmas came and went, all but uncelebrated among the half-finished renovations. Mum and Dad went out to a couple of dinners with friends; Vanessa stayed home—in disgrace, she felt, although “Pat says you’d be very welcome,” Mum said, pinning her hair up into its “evening” style around her tired face. “It might be better than drinking yourself into a stupor here at home.” Which is what Vanessa’s taken do doing, quietly steadily knocking herself out every evening

  New Year’s Eve crept up. There was a party; Vanessa was invited—by mistake, she suspected, or out of charity, in the hope that the crowd would diffuse her aura of shame. She dressed for the evening grimly, concentratedly. She’d lost weight—it was like dressing a skeleton—and nothing she could do would fix her eyes

  “You look nice,” Mum said when she came downstairs to the loungeroom. Mum had been at work; she was tired, it went without saying. Stocking feet tucked in beside her, glass of cask wine at her elbow, TV wittering away in front

  “I do not.” Vanessa threw down the little clutch bag, kicked off the silly shoes. “I look like a gargoyle. I don’t think I’ll go.” She lay down on the couch, closed her eyes

  Sudden silence, of Mum turning off the TV; sudden falling-silent of the voice that had been whinging inside Vanessa, But what’ll I say? How do parties go, again? How will I ever last until midnight? She didn’t cry—Nobody’s counting your tears. You can always walk away! She only lay there looking down the open throat of the year ahead

  “Ness, you need to get some kind of work,” Mum said, quite gently. “Any kind. And anywhere, but probably... I hate to say it, but probably away from this town.”

  Vanessa opened her eyes a moment, stared at Mum half-accusing, half-surprised. Saw herself understood. Hid her face again

  “You just need to break out of here,” Mum’s voice went on, even more gently, “break away. You just need to put some—” She paused as if winding up to the effort of putting the words out. “Plain old geographical distance between yourself and this thing.”

  “This thing,” Vanessa said, her voice blurry and rough. “This thing that I did.”

  Silence, because there was no denying it

  “But I can’t help, if I’m away,” Vanessa said muddily. “I can’t, you know, attend to my duties. Cook and stuff, be useful—well, try to be. I s’pose I could send money home—”

  “Don’t worry about that,” said Mum. “It’ll help enough just to know that you’re…” After another pause the phrase came out, toneless, dry, like foreign words tried for the first time: “Pursuing happiness.”

  Early hours, generator off, no engine-noise on the highway. Only this rectangle of light wavering on the wall, yellow, soft, preoccupied

  She gets up, dresses for running, lets herself out of the room. She steps lightly around everyone else’s sleep, past the dark staff quarters, the dark Boss’s house, along the crunching drive to the highway. When she gains the sealed road she sets off westward

  It’s up ahead, not on the highway but a little north of it, over the scrub. It looks like a flat mushroom cap seen side-on, with a stub of stem left underneath, glowing brightest of all. It doesn’t pulse or stretch; it moves about like something sensitive, like something apprehending every small feature and movement below it, adjusting in response

  She runs, with longer strides than usual, but at a pace she can keep up for a while. This is the best time to run—the coolness, the clarity, the star-frosted sky. It feels good to leave the roadhouse, the workplace, all those humans, feuding, griping, looking for laughs or oblivion. It’s good to just run, not think, to move like a machine through the night, across the plain, towards any possibility at all

  Mono no aware

  Ken Liu

  Besides writing and translating speculative fiction, Ken Liu [kenliu.name] also practices law and develops software for iOS and Android devices. His fiction has appeared in The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction, Asimov’s, Clarkesworld, Strange Horizons, TRSF, and Panverse 3, among other places. His story “The Paper Menagerie,” which appeared in last year’s volume, is the only work ever to receive the Hugo, Nebula, and World Fantasy awards. He lives near Boston, Massachusetts, with his wife, artist Lisa Tang Liu, and they are collaborating on their first novel.

  The world is shaped like the kanji for umbrella, only written so poorly, like my handwriting, that all the parts are out of proportion.

  My father would be greatly ashamed at the childish way I still form my characters. Indeed, I can barely write many of them anymore. My formal schooling back in Japan ceased when I was only eight.

  Yet for present purposes, this badly drawn character will do.

  The canopy up there is the solar sail. Even that distorted kanji can only give you a hint of its vast size. A hundred times thinner than rice paper, the spinning disc fans out a thousand kilometers into space like a giant kite intent on catching every passing photon. It literally blocks out the sky.

  Beneath it dangles a long cable of carbon nanotubes a hundred kilometers long: strong, light, and flexible. At the end of the cable hangs the heart of the Hopeful, the habitat module, a five-hundred-meter-tall cylinder into which all the 1,021 inhabitants of the world are packed.

  The light from the sun pushes against the sail, propelling us on an ever widening, ever accelerating, spiraling orbit away from it. The acceleration pins all of us against the decks, gives everything weight.

  Our trajectory takes us toward a star called 61 Virginis. You can’t see it now because it is behind the canopy of the solar sail. The Hopeful will get there in about three hundred years, more or less. With luck, my great-great-great—I calculated how many “greats” I needed once, but I don’t remember now—grandchildren will see it.

  There are no windows in the habitat module, no casual view of the stars streaming past. Most people don’t care, having grown bored of seeing the stars long ago. But I like looking through the cameras mounted on the bottom of the ship so that I can gaze at this view of the receding, reddish glow of our sun, our past.

  Hiroto,” Dad said as he shook me awake. “Pack up your things. It’s time.”

  My small suitcase was ready. I just had to put my Go set into it. Dad gave this to me when I was five, and the times we played were my favorite hours of the day.

  The sun had not yet risen when Mom and Dad and I made our way outside. All the neighbors were standing outside their houses with their bags as well, and we greeted each other politely under the summer stars. As usual, I looked for the Hammer. It was easy. Ever since I could remember, the asteroid had been the brightest thing in the sky except for the moon, and every year it grew brighter.

  A truck with loudspeakers mounted on top drove slowly down the middle of the street.

  “Attention, citizens of Kurume! Please make your way in an orderly fashion to the bus stop. There will be plenty of buses to take you to the train station, where you can board the train for Kagoshima. Do not drive. You must leave the roads open for the evacuation buses and official vehicles!”

  Every family walked slowly down the sidewalk.

  “Mrs. Maeda,” Dad said to our neighbor. “Why don’t I carry your luggage for you?”

  “I’m very grateful,” the old woman said.

  After ten minutes of walking, Mrs. Maeda stopped and leaned against a lamppost.

  “It’s just a little longer, Granny,” I said. She nodded but was too out of breath to speak. I tried to cheer her. “Are you looking forward to seeing your grandson in Kagoshima? I miss Michi too. You will be able to sit with him and rest on the spaceships. They say there will be enough seats for everyone.”
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  Mom smiled at me approvingly.

  “How fortunate we are to be here,” Dad said. He gestured at the orderly rows of people moving toward the bus stop, at the young men in clean shirts and shoes looking solemn, the middle-aged women helping their elderly parents, the clean, empty streets, and the quietness—despite the crowd, no one spoke above a whisper. The very air seemed to shimmer with the dense connections between all the people—families, neighbors, friends, colleagues—as invisible and strong as threads of silk.

  I had seen on TV what was happening in other places around the world: looters screaming, dancing through the streets, soldiers and policemen shooting into the air and sometimes into crowds, burning buildings, teetering piles of dead bodies, generals shouting before frenzied crowds, vowing vengeance for ancient grievances even as the world was ending.

  “Hiroto, I want you to remember this,” Dad said. He looked around, overcome by emotion. “It is in the face of disasters that we show our strength as a people. Understand that we are not defined by our individual loneliness, but by the web of relationships in which we’re enmeshed. A person must rise above his selfish needs so that all of us can live in harmony. The individual is small and powerless, but bound tightly together, as a whole, the Japanese nation is invincible.”

  Mr. Shimizu,” eight-year-old Bobby says, “I don’t like this game.”

  The school is located in the very center of the cylindrical habitat module, where it can have the benefit of the most shielding from radiation. In front of the classroom hangs a large American flag to which the children say their pledge every morning. To the sides of the American flag are two rows of smaller flags belonging to other nations with survivors on the Hopeful. At the very end of the left side is a child’s rendition of the Hinomaru, the corners of the white paper now curled and the once bright red rising sun faded to the orange of sunset. I drew it the day I came aboard the Hopeful.

  I pull up a chair next to the table where Bobby and his friend, Eric, are sitting. “Why don’t you like it?”

  Between the two boys is a nineteen-by-nineteen grid of straight lines. A handful of black and white stones have been placed on the intersections.

  Once every two weeks, I have the day off from my regular duties monitoring the status of the solar sail and come here to teach the children a little bit about Japan. I feel silly doing it sometimes. How can I be their teacher when I have only a boy’s hazy memories of Japan?

  But there is no other choice. All the non-American technicians like me feel it is our duty to participate in the cultural-enrichment program at the school and pass on what we can.

  “All the stones look the same,” Bobby says, “and they don’t move. They’re boring.”

  “What game do you like?” I ask.

  “Asteroid Defender!” Eric says. “Now that is a good game. You get to save the world.”

  “I mean a game you do not play on the computer.”

  Bobby shrugs. “Chess, I guess. I like the queen. She’s powerful and different from everyone else. She’s a hero.”

  “Chess is a game of skirmishes,” I say. “The perspective of Go is bigger. It encompasses entire battles.”

  “There are no heroes in Go,” Bobby says, stubbornly.

  I don’t know how to answer him.

  “There was no place to stay in Kagoshima, so everyone slept outside along the road to the spaceport. On the horizon we could see the great silver escape ships gleaming in the sun.

  Dad had explained to me that fragments that had broken off of the Hammer were headed for Mars and the Moon, so the ships would have to take us further, into deep space, to be safe.

  “I would like a window seat,” I said, imagining the stars steaming by.

  “You should yield the window seat to those younger than you,” Dad said. “Remember, we must all make sacrifices to live together.”

  We piled our suitcases into walls and draped sheets over them to form shelters from the wind and the sun. Every day inspectors from the government came by to distribute supplies and to make sure everything was all right.

  “Be patient!” the government inspectors said. “We know things are moving slowly, but we’re doing everything we can. There will be seats for everyone.”

  We were patient. Some of the mothers organized lessons for the children during the day, and the fathers set up a priority system so that families with aged parents and babies could board first when the ships were finally ready.

  After four days of waiting, the reassurances from the government inspectors did not sound quite as reassuring. Rumors spread through the crowd.

  “It’s the ships. Something’s wrong with them.”

  “The builders lied to the government and said they were ready when they weren’t, and now the Prime Minister is too embarrassed to admit the truth.”

  “I hear that there’s only one ship, and only a few hundred of the most important people will have seats. The other ships are only hollow shells, for show.”

  “They’re hoping that the Americans will change their mind and build more ships for allies like us.”

  Mom came to Dad and whispered in his ear.

  Dad shook his head and stopped her. “Do not repeat such things.”

  “But for Hiroto’s sake—”

  “No!” I’d never heard Dad sound so angry. He paused, swallowed. “We must trust each other, trust the Prime Minister and the Self-Defense Forces.”

  Mom looked unhappy. I reached out and held her hand. “I’m not afraid,” I said.

  “That’s right,” Dad said, relief in his voice. “There’s nothing to be afraid of.”

  He picked me up in his arms—I was slightly embarrassed for he had not done such a thing since I was very little—and pointed at the densely packed crowd of thousands and thousands spread around us as far as the eye could see.

  “Look at how many of us there are: grandmothers, young fathers, big sisters, little brothers. For anyone to panic and begin to spread rumors in such a crowd would be selfish and wrong, and many people could be hurt. We must keep to our places and always remember the bigger picture.”

  “Mindy and I make love slowly. I like to breathe in the smell of her dark curly hair, lush, warm, tickling the nose like the sea, like fresh salt.

  Afterwards we lie next to each other, gazing up at my ceiling monitor.

  I keep looping on it a view of the receding star field. Mindy works in navigation, and she records the high-resolution cockpit video feed for me.

  I like to pretend that it’s a big skylight, and we’re lying under the stars. I know some others like to keep their monitors showing photographs and videos of old Earth, but that makes me too sad.

  “How do you say ‘star’ in Japanese?” Mindy asks.

  “Hoshi,” I tell her.

  “And how do you say ‘guest’?”

  “Okyakusan.”

  “So we are hoshi okyakusan? Star guests?”

  “It doesn’t work like that,” I say. Mindy is a singer, and she likes the sound of languages other than English. “It’s hard to hear the music behind the words when their meanings get in the way,” she told me once.

  Spanish is Mindy’s first language, but she remembers even less of it than I do of Japanese. Often, she asks me for Japanese words and weaves them into her songs.

  I try to phrase it poetically for her, but I’m not sure if I’m successful. “Wareware ha, hoshi no aida ni kyaku ni kite.” We have come to be guests among the stars.

  “There are a thousand ways of phrasing everything,” Dad used to say, “each appropriate to an occasion.” He taught me that our language is full of nuances and supple grace, each sentence a poem. The language folds in on itself, the unspoken words as meaningful as the spoken, context within context, layer upon layer, like the steel in samurai swords.

  I wish Dad were around so that I could ask him: How do you say “I miss you” in a way that is appropriate to the occasion of your twenty-fifth birthday, as the last survivor
of your race?

  “My sister was really into Japanese picture books. Manga.”

  Like me, Mindy is an orphan. It’s part of what draws us together.

  “Do you remember much about her?”

  “Not really. I was only five or so when I came onboard the ship. Before that, I only remember a lot of guns firing and all of us hiding in the dark and running and crying and stealing food. She was always there to keep me quiet by reading from the manga books. And then…”

  I had watched the video only once. From our high orbit, the blue-and-white marble that was Earth seemed to wobble for a moment as the asteroid struck, and then, the silent, roiling waves of spreading destruction that slowly engulfed the globe.

  I pull her to me and kiss her forehead, lightly, a kiss of comfort. “Let us not speak of sad things.”

  She wraps her arms around me tightly, as though she will never let go.

  “The manga, do you remember anything about them?” I ask.

  “I remember they were full of giant robots. I thought: Japan is so powerful.”

  I try to imagine it: heroic giant robots all over Japan, working desperately to save the people.

  “The Prime Minister’s apology was broadcast through the loudspeakers. Some also watched it on their phones.

  I remember very little of it except that his voice was thin and he looked very frail and old. He looked genuinely sorry. “I’ve let the people down.”

  The rumors turned out to be true. The shipbuilders had taken the money from the government but did not build ships that were strong enough or capable of what they promised. They kept up the charade until the very end. We found out the truth only when it was too late.

  Japan was not the only nation that failed her people. The other nations of the world had squabbled over who should contribute how much to a joint evacuation effort when the Hammer was first discovered on its collision course with Earth. And then, when that plan had collapsed, most decided that it was better to gamble that the Hammer would miss and spend the money and lives on fighting with each other instead.

 

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