"What the hell are you talking about?" She pulled away from me, forcing my hands to frame her face. The look she gave said it all, said I was crazy for ending this, for not letting it even start, for not letting her in. She didn't have the faintest idea of what I could do to her. My faith was broken.
I let my eyes meet hers, letting the inevitable connection happen. I owed her that much.
The rain started to fall harder, but I didn't care; I was caught up in all that was her, and for once I wanted something, I wanted this, and I wanted her. My eyes were drawn to her mouth; those wicked fucking lips were surely made to torture. I was ready for her punishment. I brought my lips slowly to hers, a small faint breath exhaled from her parted lips, the cool air keeping her sweet breath suspended. Just before our lips met, she sighed. I could almost taste her, but that small sound brought me to my senses. I pulled away, denying myself that connection, and she started to cry harder.
"You fucking break me, and I can't… I can't do this with you… I need to go." My voice sounded foreign like I wasn't really controlling it — robotic, cold. This was who I was, and this was all I knew.
PLAYLIST
"Habits" Tove Lo
"Say Something" A Great Big World
"Waiting Room" Fugazi
"Losing Skin" Seaweed
"Rivers and Roads" The Head and the Heart
"Stolen" Dashboard Confessional
"Stay" Thirty Seconds to Mars
"All I Do Is Win" DJ Khaled
"King and Lionheart" Of Monsters and Men
"Mother and Father" Broods
"Believe" The Bravery
"Waiting Game" Banks
"Already Gone" Kelly Clarkson
"Wrecking Ball" Boyce Ave
"Medicine" Broods
"Nothing left to Lose" Kari Kimmel
"Battlefield" Lea Michele
"Unkiss Me" Maroon Five
"The Scientist" Tyler Ward
"Fix You" Boyce Ave
"Breakeven" The Script
"Pardon Me" Incubus
"With Me" Sum 41
"Fall at Your Feet" Saint Raymond
"Here Comes Your Man" Pixies
"Hypnotic" Zella Day
"Better Than Love" Griffin House
"Heartbeats" Jose Gonzales
"No One's Gonna Love You" Band of Horses
"Slow it Down" The Lumineers
"Bleeding Out" Imagine Dragons
"Stay With Me" Angus & Julia Stone
"Winter" Tori Amod
"All I Want" Kodaline
"Seven" Sunny Day Real Estate
"Someone like You" Ice Nine Kills
"Breathe Me" Sia
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BY J.M. CHALKER
Bound
BY ELISE FABER
Phoenix Rising
Dark Phoenix
From Ashes
BY STEPHANIE FOURNET
Butterfly Ginger
BY JENNIFER RAE GRAVELY
Drown
Rivers
BY E.L. IRWIN
Out of the Blue
BY J.F. JENKINS
The Dark Hour
BY AM JOHNSON
Still Life
Still Water
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Nothing Ventured
BY KELLY MARTIN
Betraying Ever After
The Beast of Ravenston
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An Unlikely Duchess
Seeking Scandal
The Mysterious Miss Channing
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Chasing Rainbows
Finding Forever
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Dreamweavers
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Beautifully Damaged
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The Second Life of Magnolia Mae
Jade
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Hourglass
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Hourglass Cubed
BY MEGAN C. SMITH
Expired Regrets
Secret Regrets
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Hooked
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Upon a Midnight Dream
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The Wolf's Pursuit
When Ash Falls
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An Unlikely Alliance
The Redemption of Lord Rawlings
The Devil Duke Takes a Bride
Savage Winter
Every Girl Does It
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To Refuse a Rake
Surviving Scotland
Living London
Redeeming the Deception of Grace
Knight of the Highlander
The Only Reason for the London Season
What the Duke Wants
To Tempt an Earl
The Forsaken Love of a Lord
A Tempting Ruin
BY JOE WALKER
Blood Bonds
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Her Sweetest Downfall
BY C. MERCEDES WILSON
Hawthorne Cole
Secret Dreams
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Unwilling
Unloved
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Table of Contents
PROLOGUE
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
CHAPTER SIX
CHAPTER SEVEN
CHAPTER EIGHT
CHAPTER NINE
CHAPTER TEN
CHAPTER ELEVEN
CHAPTER TWELVE
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
CHAPTER NINETEEN
CHAPTER TWENTY
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
CHAPTER THIRTY
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
CHAPTER THIRTY- THREE
CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
CHAPTER FORTY
CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
CHAPTER FIFTY
CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
EPILOGUE
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Still Surviving
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