by Mz. Lady P
I kept looking in the rearview mirror making sure no one was following me. I just had an eerie feeling that I was being watched. Pulling up to the storefront, I noticed Thug, Malik, Sarge and some more of their crew sitting outside chilling. I also noticed all the bitches that were kicking it with them.
I didn't care about bitches being around Thug, I was very secure about my man. Plus, I would fuck him up if I even thought he was out here on some cheating shit. I pulled up and honked the horn to get his attention. Everyone stopped what they were doing and looked over at me. The fellas waved and the bitches mean mugged. I made sure I flashed them hoes this boulder sitting on my finger. Fuck outta here with them screwed up ass faces. I was out of commission for a minute, but I was back in full effect. I see I needed to make my presence felt around this muthafucka.
"What are you doing over here?" Thug asked with a slight attitude.
"I didn't know I needed permission to come see my husband and bring him lunch."
"You don't need permission, but you should have called first." I wanted to curse his ass out, but instead I handed him his food and drove off. He had me fucked up talking about call first. In case he forgot, I'm his wife and not some random female he was fucking. Since the kids were with Ta'Jay, I decided to spend a day and pamper myself. Thug had really pissed me off when all I was doing was trying to be nice to his black ass. I felt my phone vibrate and I retrieved the incoming message from Thug.
Him: Go to the crib now!!!
Me: I'm about to go and get my feet and nails did. Then I'll be there.
Him: Take your ass home now!!
I didn't even respond to his last message. I wasn’t about to stop what I was doing just because he wanted to be bothered now. He should have thought about that before he talked crazy to me.
Sitting in the massage chair felt so good. The pounding in the middle of my back from the massage chair felt like heaven at the moment. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back with my earbuds in my ear listening to my August Alsina playlist.
"What the fuck did I say?" Thug had pulled my head phones out of my ear causing me to drop my phone inside the water that my feet was soaking in.
"Why did you do that? You made me drop my damn phone in the water."
"Fuck that phone! I said go home and that's what the fuck I meant. Get your shit and let's go. You have five minutes to get your ass outside." I wanted to curse his ass out for embarrassing me like that. I knew it was better if I just did as he said. I gathered my belongings and left out of the nail shop. I jumped in my car, pulled off, and I didn't say shit to his ass. He pulled off, as well.
I made it to the house and I jumped out of the car and rushed into the house. I slammed the door right behind me and I prayed he was behind it, so the door could have hit his ass.
"Tahari, you better slow your ass down."
"Leave me alone. I'm home now. So, take your ass back on the block with them niggas and them bitches."
"Watch your mouth. I'm not going anywhere. I came home to spend time with your ass."
"I'm good. Gone head on about your business, Thug." I walked up the stairs and slammed my bedroom door behind me. Before I knew it, that nigga had kicked the damn door in and off the hinges. I damn near pissed in my pants when he came at me. I swear I was having a flashback of Nico when he was about to whoop my ass. I knew Thug would never put his hands on me, though. He would curse me out and get loud, but hitting wasn't even his M.O.
"I told you to bring your ass home because I don't want you out alone. I know you're tired of sitting in the house alone so, I decided to take the rest of the day off and spend it with you. Start listening some time and stop questioning what I tell you. If I told you once, I've told you twice; follow my lead. Now come on downstairs, I hired the girl from the nail shop to come and do your nails and feet here."
"So, why do I have to call before I come see you?"
"That's where I trap at. Anything could be going down. What if it was a damn shootout or something? Shit can pop off at any minute. My wife has no business on the block. You should be sitting back spending my money and making sure the homefront is good." Thug pulled me into his embrace and kissed me. No matter what happened I couldn’t be mad at him for long. It was those damn lips that got me every time. I melt like chocolate whenever I felt his lips on mine.
"You know you're crazy for kicking that door in like that?"
"I'm crazy over you. Now, go downstairs I have a whole day planned for us." Thug smacked me on the ass and I went to get pampered. My husband was something else; he was so worried about something happening to me that he decided to bring the damn nail shop to me. That was that Boss shit right there.
I love that Thug wanted to protect me, but he couldn’t keep me in the house forever. I had to go out and live my life, but I wouldn’t say anything about it now, especially since he was kicking doors off the hinges and shit. This discussion was not over. It was imperative that we came to an agreement about this. I would not be a prisoner in my own home.
***
Once I was finished getting pampered, I ran upstairs to get in the shower. I entered the bathroom and Thug had already run the bath water for me. There were rose petals all over our bedroom leading to the bathroom and inside of the tub. I instantly got undressed and got into the hot water. I laid my head back and just enjoyed the relaxation.
"Is the water hot enough for you?"
"It's just fine. Come on get in the tub with me." Thug got undressed and the sight of his dick made my mouth salivate. He stood on the side of the tub getting ready to get in, but I couldn't control myself. His dick was just standing at attention asking to be saluted. I slowly placed it into my mouth and sucked on it like it was a Charm's sucker. As I did, he played with my nipples. That made me suck and deep throat even more. He knew that was my spot. Not long after he came in my mouth, I eagerly swallowed his seeds not wanting to let a drip of it slip out.
"Damn, Ta-Baby! You be spoiling a nigga with that million dollar mouth." Thug stepped in the tub and he positioned himself in between my legs. There was champagne on chill by the side of the tub along with two flutes. I poured both of us a glass of Moet and we sipped. I took the sponge and I squeezed water all over his chest. I placed soft kisses on his neck and shoulders. He leaned his head back and rested it on my shoulder blade.
"You know I love you right, Ta-Baby?"
"I know you do."
"I'm sorry about my behavior earlier. It's just that I can't take the chance of someone hurting you again."
"I accept your apology, but Thug you have to understand that you can't shield me from the evils of the world. I need you to know that nothing that has happened to me is your fault. Actually, I take all that shit in stride because it brought us together and made us stronger. I remember when we first met and you kept telling me about fate and I didn't believe in it. Being with you, I know that fate brought us together for a reason. Nico took my spirit from me and the day we met, you gave me a life beyond my wildest dreams.
I love you for protecting me and keeping my best interest at heart. I know you might not want to hear this, but sometimes you need someone to be there for you. That someone is me; I’m your wife, your Bonnie, and your best friend. We are a team; remember that. If they fuck with you then they fuck with me. I'm your down ass bitch and don't you forget that shit." I waved my ring in front of his face and kissed him on the lips.
"After that speech, how could I forget it?" Thug pulled me from behind him and guided me onto his dick. I swear my pussy fitted him like a glove. That surfboard wasn’t shit nice. For the rest of the night, we made love to one another as if it was our last night on Earth.
I watched my husband as he slept. I never knew I could love someone the way I loved him. I leaned over and kissed him on those big juicy lips that I fell in love with the first time I laid eyes on him. Ka'Jaire liked to be called Thug, but in my eyes he should be called King--My King.
Chapter 4-Peaches
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sp; Confessions
Being incarcerated had given me a chance to reflect back on my life. I wish that I could change some things, but I know that I couldn't. I usually didn't have regrets, however; my biggest regret was having an affair with Venom. I just couldn't help it. He was everything Snake wasn't. Sometimes when you're in a relationship with someone there were things about that person you notice, but you put it the back of your mind.
Snake gave me so many red flags that I should have known that he was a sick motherfucker. My love for the money and my fear of him put my babies in harm's way. Although they have forgiven me, I had yet to forgive myself. That's why over the years I had gone above and beyond to make it up to them. They always said that they were okay, but being molested was something that would haunt you for the rest of your life.
Lately, Venom had been on my mind heavily. Mainly because I knew that he was trying to harm my children when they had never done anything to him. He was mad at me for taking over in his absence, but it wasn’t my fault him and Cassie had to go into hiding. They were M.I.A, so I did what the fuck I had to do to make sure my children and me ate.
There was a time when I was in love with Venom and the thing I missed the most was him making love to me. No matter how many men I had been with sexually, none of them had taken me to the heights of pleasure like Venom. Good dick was a powerful thing. It would have you doing shit you said you never would.
It would have you betraying the people closest to you and that was exactly what I did. Cassie was my best friend. She was always there for me when I needed her the most and I betrayed her in the worst way. The affair between Venom and me started on one of my many drugs run to meet him. Cassie was in Mexico picking up a new shipment. I traveled to Miami to their home to drop off money and cop more heroin.
On this particular run, there was a hurricane getting ready to touch down in Miami, so all flights in and out had to be cancelled. I had no choice, but to stay at his home. We sat in the living room sipping Hennessy and just shooting the breeze. He moved closer to me on the couch and started to run his fingers through my hair. I felt slightly uncomfortable.
On the other hand, his touch made me horny instantly. The next thing he did would change our lives drastically. He placed his hands in between my legs and rubbed my clit until I came all over his fingers. He kissed me so passionately and I invited his tongue in. I couldn't help myself I just started ripping his clothes off of him and he did the same to me.
He lifted my skirt up over my ass and roughly bent me over the couch. He started fucking the shit out of me. He lifted me up and carried me up to the bedroom that him and Cassie shared. We made love to one another all night and all morning. It was like no one else in the world existed, but us. We were jolted back to reality when Cassie came in and caught us in the act. Venom's head was in between my legs and my eyes were rolled in the back of my head as he made love to me with his tongue.
"What the fuck is going on?" Cassie stood in the doorway with tears falling from her eyes. I immediately started to scramble trying to unhook my legs from being wrapped up in his massive ass arms.
"I'm so sorry, Cassie." I jumped up from the bed and started to get dressed.
"You motherfucker!" Cassie charged towards Venom and was trying to claw his eyes out. He slapped her with so much force that she flipped over the bed.
"Bitch, you have lost your mind putting your fucking hands on me. Don't ever question what the fuck I do. I can fuck whoever the fuck I want to. If you don't like it, get your shit and go back to your broke ass momma’s house. As a matter of fact, get your ass over here and suck my dick!" Venom was standing over Cassie with all eleven inches of him standing at attention. I watched as Cassie got on her knees and started giving him head. Tears were falling down her face. I tried to gather my things, but Venom stopped me.
"Come here, Peaches." I knew I should have left, but I didn't. I walked over to him and he started to kiss me. It was crazy because I never stopped him. The next thing I knew we were all in bed together and he was fucking both of us. Cassie and me never touched each other sexually. He just took turns making love to the both of us.
Venom was that powerful that he had us in a trance with the dick. What we were doing was dead ass wrong, but Venom made that shit feel so right. Not long after, Cassie and I found out we were pregnant and due around the same time. Venom had gotten us both pregnant. He knew he was the father of Ta'Jay and we knew that we couldn't tell anyone that, so we agreed to let Snake think that she was his.
Venom kept Cassie and me away from each other the whole nine months. I gave birth to Ta'Jay and Cassie said that she had miscarried months prior to our due dates. Now we knew that was a lie; Tahari was very much alive and Ta'Jay was her sister. Venom and me continued an affair up until the time him and Cassie disappeared. Call me what you want, but I still get goose bumps each and every time I thought of him.
***
Today Ta'Jay was coming for a visit. I was so happy. All we did was talk on the phone, but this would be in first in person visit. It will be good to see my babygirl. I have decided to confess and tell her about Venom being her father. I know that Thug or Tahari had never mentioned what I told them. I just couldn't keep this from her; she deserved to know who her father was. I knew that I was risking my relationship with her. It was a sacrifice that I would take in order to get right with my family and God. They called me down for my visit and I was so nervous.
"Hey Mommy, I missed you so much." Ta'Jay jumped in my arms and held me so tight. It felt good to hold my babygirl.
"Hey you. Where is my grandson? I thought you were going to bring to him with you."
"He's not feeling too good. I think he's teething. Sarge is at home with him."
"How is everything going with y'all?"
"It's okay I guess."
I looked at her and I knew that she was holding back. I wasn't about to pry or ask questions. She made it perfectly clear that she loved him and it was none of our business. So, I was going to leave that alone. She would tell me what was going on when she was ready.
"So, how is everybody doing?"
"Tahari and Thug are doing good. I just wished he would let her out more. He so damn overprotective it's annoying. Ka'Jaire and Ka'Jairea are now living with Thug permanently. Barbie and Malik are doing really good. They haven't been fighting at all. "
"I guess he got the picture when she fucked up them clothes." We both laughed. It felt good to laugh with my daughter. It was time for me to tell her this secret. I just prayed in the end, she would forgive me.
"Ta'Jay, there is something I need to tell you. Please try not to be mad at me. I had no choice but to keep it a secret all these years."
"Oh, Lord. Spill the beans."
"Snake is not your father, Venom is."
"Wait a minute. How is that possible? He is Tahari's father. So, this means that she is my sister."
"Yes. I'm sorry baby. I had no idea he was her father until she came and visited me."
"Does Tahari and Thug know about him being my father?"
"Yes. I told them not to tell you because I wanted to do that. Are you mad at me?"
"I don't even know how I feel. My sister is married to my brother. The man who I thought was my father is not. The man who is supposed to be my uncle is really my father. Forgive me Momma, but I'm just all fucked up in the head right now. I'm not mad at you. I'm just disappointed that's all." For the rest of our visit I put everything out there. I didn't hold anything back. I was glad I got all of it off my chest and my heart. Confessions had a way of cleansing the soul. I just hoped my confessions didn't end up hurting the ones that I love.
Chapter 5- Ta'Jay
Love Hurts
The entire drive back to the city I thought about everything my mother told me. I couldn't be mad at her if I wanted to. Over the years, I learned that there was a method to Peaches and her madness. I loved her so much and she meant the world to me. I couldn't ask for a better mother. Thug a
nd Tahari have done a good job at keeping this secret. Now that I thought about it, Tahari and I do favor one another. Our eyes were exactly the same. It was crazy because our birthdays were two weeks apart. She was older than me. It was freaky as hell.
I was so happy that I had a real sister. She had already been the best towards me. I was just glad it was official and I'm also glad that Snake was not my father. Vomit rose up in my throat as I thought about the nasty, vile things he did to me.
I wanted to call Tahari and Thug, but decided to wait until after I told Sarge. I walked into house and Sarge and Sar'Jay were asleep on the couch. I had to get a picture of it because they looked like twins. Sar'Jay was on his chest with his thumb in his mouth. I took the picture and uploaded it to Facebook via Instagram. I wanted to wake them up, but they looked so peaceful. I went into the kitchen and I noticed Sarge's phone was on the table. As I prepared dinner, it constantly kept going off. It was getting on my nerves, so I just answered it without even looking at the screen.
"Hello."
"Who is this?" the person on the other end asked.
"This is Ta'Jay. Can I help you?"
"As a matter of fact you can, tell Sarge he needs to call his wife.”
"I don't know who the fuck this is, but bitch please stop playing with me. Sarge is not married. Go find you another happy home to break up. We all good over here you miserable ass bitch!"
"Little girl you're funny as hell. Just tell Sarge that Kenyetta called. His ass better come and see me or my next step will be knocking on your door."
"Oh, yeah, knock on my door and I'm going to knock your shit back."
I hung the phone up and sat down at the table in disbelief. I didn't want to believe this bitch that just called. How did she even get his number? I wanted to snap the fuck out. I had to remain calm in order to get to the bottom of the situation. As soon as I sat his phone down, he entered the kitchen. I got up and hurriedly wiped the tears from my eyes before he could see me crying.