Lelic, Simon - The Child Who

by The Child Who (mobi)

  He paced. Sitting was out of the question. He felt like a nervous father – or a father soon to be. Although that was probably down to the surroundings: the off-the-peg void of the public-institution canteen. There was nothing to distract him, that was the problem. No one either, not even behind the counter. If Leo had not been alone, he would have busied himself with at least a pretence of looking busy. As it was he simply paced, his shuttling between cutlery and condiments interrupted only by a glance, every ten steps or so, towards the door.

  He would have liked to prepare her. He had briefed her on the telephone barely twenty-four hours ago but a dozen things had occurred to him since that she would, he was sure, have found useful. Things, more to the point, that might prove useful to their case – and that Karen, without forewarning, might overlook. It would be Leo’s fault: if an insight were by-passed that should have been signposted; if the answers that Daniel gave were to the wrong questions – or if the boy, at the last, failed to answer at all. Karen, though, had been insist-ent. That’s fine, Leo. That’s all I need to know. She had made her own way here and would have been making her way straight home again, had Leo not pleaded for a first-impressions debrief before she left.

  But it was taking an age. Seven more minutes and he could start to reckon in hours. Daniel gets restless, he should have said. Don’t push him or you’ll push him away. And he’s only twelve. Just remember he’s only twelve. Even the police kept their sessions to less than an hour and most of those were thirty minutes too long. He’s not used to sustained conversa-tion. He’s not used to conversation, full stop.

  Not that Karen would have needed telling. She was a professional, after all. And that it was taking so long was probably a good sign. Wasn’t it? Unless it was taking this long because they had barely started. It was entirely possible, given Daniel’s record with such things. The police, the boy’s parents, the social worker, even Leo: they could all testify to that.

  ‘Not talking to yourself are you, Leo?’

  The voice was at Leo’s shoulder. ‘Karen.’

  ‘It’s one of the things we look for, you know. That and hairy palms.’ Karen tilted her head to get a view of Leo’s hands.

  Leo looked too, then offered one for Karen to shake. ‘How did it go? Was Daniel okay? Did he speak to you? What did he say?’

  ‘I need coffee. Is there coffee?’

  ‘What? Oh.’ Leo peered towards the counter. ‘Probably. I don’t know.’ ‘Want one?’ Karen aimed herself towards the coffee machine in the corner. The pot on

  the hot plate was empty so she started filling it. Leo followed and loitered by her side. ‘No,’ he said. ‘Thanks.’ Then, again, ‘How did it go?’ Karen peered at him across the frames of her glasses. She rolled her eyes and resumed

  her search for an on switch. She found it, flicked it, then stood upright and began with a sigh.

  ‘He needs help, Leo. Counselling at the very least. What he’s been through, what he’s going through: it’s clear he isn’t coping.’

  ‘Not coping? What do you mean? I thought he seemed okay. Given the circumstances.’ ‘He’s twelve, Leo. He’s doing his best to act tough but tough is only ever a shell. It’s

  what lies beneath that concerns me.’

  The coffee machine gurgled and started to dribble. Karen reached for a cup. She bran-dished a second at Leo. ‘You sure?’

  Leo waved away the offer. ‘So . . . what? He wouldn’t speak to you, is that what you’re saying?’

  ‘He spoke to me.’ Karen filled her mug and raised it level with her chin. The steam from the coffee misted her glasses and she blew.

  She was making him wait. They had not spoken to each other in years and now Leo had finally got in touch, it was only because there was something from her that he needed. So she was punishing him. This is what you get, she was telling him. This is what you get when you assume that friendship doesn’t deflate when you neglect to fill it once in a while with a little air.

  ‘We should get a drink,’ Leo said. ‘Or I’ll buy you lunch. Because I know it’s been a while and I know we haven’t even caught up but really, Karen, this is important. I called you because I knew I could trust you and because I didn’t think you would mind if—’

  ‘Leo,’ Karen said. ‘Calm yourself. I’m thinking, that’s all. I’m digesting. I didn’t even stop on my way from seeing Daniel to visit the ladies’. I didn’t dare.’

  Leo made as though to answer.

  ‘Ordinarily, you know, we wouldn’t even be talking. Not yet, anyway. I don’t work like this, Leo. I don’t like to work like this.’

  Leo looked to the floor. This was Karen, he recalled. This was why, when they had had their fling at university, they had reverted to friendship after barely a week. Not because they did not enjoy each other’s company but because they were configured to function at a different RPM: Leo at forty-five, Karen a more considered thirty-three.

  Again Karen sighed. The sigh, Leo thought, was new. Probably it was one of the things she had acquired in qualifying for her profession. That and her oversize jewellery.

  ‘You’re right,’ he said. ‘I’m sorry. I should give you some time.’ He considered the room. ‘I’ll wait over there. You finish your coffee.’

  Karen gave a gee-thanks snort. She winced through another sip then gestured for Leo to tag behind as she made her way towards the seats. ‘It’s fine,’ she said, taking one. Leo slid into the chair opposite and propped his elbows on the table, his chin on his interlinked hands. ‘Just so long as this conversation is about what we agreed it would be: first impres-sions, nothing more. Okay?’

  ‘Absolutely,’ said Leo. ‘First impressions.’

  Karen, briefly, tightened her gaze. ‘Daniel,’ she began and she paused. ‘Daniel is suffer-ing from post-traumatic stress disorder.’ She met Leo’s eye. ‘And that’s not a first impres-sion, Leo. That’s a diagnosis. He’s not sleeping. He’s eating but only because he’s bingeing. He has nightmares, flashbacks, repressed memories that are refusing to stay that way. And he’s enuretic. Did you know that?’

  Leo recalled the boy’s rubber sheets. ‘I had an idea.’ ‘Not that it means anything necessarily. He may well have been so before. The point is,

  he needs help. Skilled therapeutic input. Something he is categorically not receiving here.’ Leo frowned and Karen rattled a hand.

  ‘It’s not their fault,’ she said. ‘The staff here – and Bobby, is it? The bloke in charge? – they seem competent enough, caring enough. I’m certain, if they were permitted to, they would ensure Daniel got all the help he needs. But they’re not permitted to. Are they, Leo?’ It was not a question; it was an accusation. As though Leo, facing her, were representing the entire legal system. Which in a way, he supposed, he was.

  ‘He’ll get treatment, Karen. Once the trial is over, there’ll be no end of doctors through his door.’

  Karen drew her chin towards her collarbone. ‘Right. Once the trial is over. Although by then, of course, he could be permanently damaged. But what the hell. He stands accused so his rights hardly matter. Forget about the presumption of innocence – it’s the evidence against him we need to protect.’

  ‘Look, Karen, I—’

  Karen held up a hand. Her jewellery jangled. ‘I know, I know. Im sorry. But you asked me for first impressions and that’s the issue that made an impression first. If you wanted to avoid an earful, you should at least have let me finish my coffee.’

  Leo smiled, looked down.

  Karen, after a moment, smiled too. ‘But your case. You want to talk about your case.’ ‘We need something, Karen. He did it; he said he did it. We’re not trying to get away

  from that. But you’ve met him now. You’ve seen him. He’s just a kid.’ Karen, slowly, nodded. ‘He is that. But he killed. He . .’ She shifted. ‘He did more than

  kill. If you’re asking me to find something that will excuse it . . .’ ‘Not excuse it. Explain it. He’s twelve, Karen. He has fifty, si
xty, seventy years of life

  ahead of him.’

  ‘There you are then. He’s twelve. That’s an argument. Isn’t it?’ ‘It’s an argument,’ Leo said. ‘It’s not a defence. It would have been, a year or so ago,

  but the law, now, is definitive. You only need to be ten. If you’re ten, you know right from wrong. That’s the line.’

  ‘The line. As in, the point of no return. If you weren’t yet ready to cross it, you shouldn’t have been reckless enough to celebrate another birthday.’

  ‘Something like that.’ Leo stared at the table, drummed with his fingertips. He looked up. ‘What about that, though? He’s twelve but could we argue, say, that his mental age was lower?’

  ‘Three years lower?’

  ‘It would have to be.’

  Karen puffed. With a look, she showed her answer. ‘I’ve only met him once, Leo. And I’m on your side. But he’s bright, he’s emotionally developed. You should test his IQ but it will be there or thereabouts. He’s of his age. There’s not a psychiatrist I know who would go on record disputing that. None I respect, rather.’

  ‘You mean you wouldn’t?’

  ‘I couldn’t. How could I? I’m not going to lie for you, Leo. I mean, I hope that’s not why you asked me here because, really, you should know—’

  ‘Karen. Please. That’s not what I meant. I’m just . . .’ ‘Thinking aloud?’

  ‘Exactly.’

  There was a silence.

  ‘What about this . . .’ Leo rolled his hand. ‘This post-traumatic stress thing. Is there any chance he could have been suffering from that at the time of the attack?’

  Karen was already shaking her head. ‘None.’

  ‘Why not?’

  ‘The clue is in the question, Leo.’

  ‘Yes, no, I realise that but could he not have been suffering from something else first? Something that led to whatever he has now?’

  ‘He killed a girl. That’s why he has post-traumatic stress disorder. You don’t just kill someone and not suffer some emotional backlash. Not unless you’re a psychopath.’

  Leo raised his head.

  ‘Bloody hell, Leo. Don’t look so hopeful. He’s not a psychopath. You surely don’t need a shrink to tell you that.’

  ‘No.’ Leo slumped. ‘No, of course not.’ He slid his hands across his face. He exhaled again, audibly.

  ‘What about you, Leo?’

  Leo blinked.

  ‘How are you ? I mean, you look tired and I’m sure you are but apart from that. How are things?’ Karen’s mug was in front of her and she turned it. ‘I heard about your father,’ she added, tentatively. ‘It must have been hard for you.’

  Leo felt the weight of her stare. ‘I’m fine,’ he said. ‘Honestly. I mean – ’ he laughed; he had to force it ‘ – is business that bad? Because even if you’re offering me mates’ rates, I’m not sure I could afford you.’ He laughed again, grinned – and felt a burn building in his jaw.

  Karen, for a moment, made him suffer it. ‘You can’t fool me,’ she said. And then she smiled. ‘A celebrity lawyer like you?’ She gestured. ‘That tie,’ she said. ‘That suit. They’re just a disguise to throw off all the gold-diggers. Right?’

  Leo looked down at what he was wearing.

  ‘What about Megan, though,’ Karen persisted. ‘And Eleanor. This whole thing must be quite a strain for you all.’

  ‘A strain?’ Leo, involuntarily, thought of the note. It was a prank, he had decided. Who-ever wrote it: a crank. Which was the reason he had not yet mentioned it to his wife. ‘Why do you say that?’

  ‘Come on, Leo. Don’t be disingenuous. This isn’t exactly a drunk and disorderly you’re dealing with here.’

  No. Exactly. Karen, if no one else, understood. ‘That’s the thing, though,’ said Leo. ‘It was always going to be outside our comfort zone. We expected that from the start.’

  ‘We?’

  Now Leo, in spite of himself, bridled. ‘It’s important, Karen. Daniel needs my help. I’m not going to forsake him just because everyone else seems to think he should be left to rot.’ ‘No. Of course not. I understand that completely. I just . .’ Karen seemed to contemplate saying something more. ‘I didn’t mean to pry,’ she said instead. ‘You looked tired, that’s

  all.’ She smiled until Leo mirrored it.

  ‘I’m fine,’ he said. ‘Meg, Ellie: we’re all fine.’

  ‘Good. I’m glad to hear it.’ Karen slid her mug to the centre of the table. She smiled once more and she stood.

  ‘Wait,’ Leo said, standing too. ‘You’re not going? What about Daniel?’ ‘We agreed, Leo: first impressions, that’s all.’

  ‘I know but there must be something. Mustn’t there?’ ‘Something? You mean some reason why a boy of twelve murders a girl he barely

  knows?’ Karen, all of a sudden, looked weary. She sighed once more and her strength, with her breath, seemed to leave her. She propped herself against the table. ‘There’s always a reason, Leo. Sometimes there are a thousand reasons.’

  ‘I just need one. Just to start with. Diminished responsibility, Karen: it’s the only chance Daniel’s got.’

  Karen made a face. ‘You’re looking at this backwards. Aren’t you? I thought the idea was to consider the evidence and then decide your plea.’

  ‘Maybe. Sometimes. But you said it yourself: there’s always a reason. Right?’ Karen regarded him. She stood straighter and buttoned her coat. ‘Daniel’s family,’ she said. ‘Is there any way I could meet with them?’ ‘Maybe.’ Leo looked up. ‘Why? What did he say about them?’ Karen came close and kissed Leo’s cheek. ‘Take care of yourself, Leo. Try and catch up

  on some sleep.’

  Leo tracked her progress towards the door. ‘Karen?’ She turned.

  ‘What did he say about them?’

  Karen twitched a shoulder. ‘Nothing,’ she said. ‘Nothing at all.’ It had not worked. It always worked. Think of an outcome: the worst thing that could hap-pen or the most unlikely or even, sometimes, the thing you most wanted to take place – and it would not. That was the rule. So sometimes it worked to spite you and sometimes it worked as a ward but it always, one way or another, worked.

  Except it had not.

  The envelope had been tucked amid the pile of letters. Leo had been late after spending most of the day out of the office, so he had carried the pile into the meeting room. He had shuffled and shuffled again and as he had backed himself blindly into his seat, there it was. Just where he had expected it to be and just, therefore, where it should not have been.

  ‘Leonard?’

  ‘Mm.’

  ‘Leonard.’

  Leo looked up. ‘What? Yes. Sorry, I . . .’

  Howard smiled his concern.

  ‘Sorry,’ said Leo, more decisively. He slid the pile of mail below the table and into his lap, his thumbs pinning the topmost envelope in place. Beneath them, and beneath its outer skin, the note seared.

  ‘So what do you think?’

  Leo could not resist peeking. The question, though, registered and he glanced up to see who would answer. Alan, John, Terry, Howard; even Jenny, seated between Leo and their boss and jotting minutes on a notepad: everyone present had their gaze fixed on him.

  ‘Me?’

  There was laughter, not all of it kind.

  ‘You are fairly central to the proposal, Leonard. But if you feel it would make you un-comfortable . . .’

  ‘What? No. Of course not. Um. If what would make me uncomfortable?’ Terry turned and muttered. Howard spoke over him. ‘The feature, Leonard. The interview.’

  The words resonated. On their way into the room, someone had been talking about an art-icle. For a newspaper – or a magazine? The Lawyer was it? The Law Society Gazette ?

  ‘Well,’ Leo said, as though considering. ‘What would be the focus, exactly?’ Jenny looked down at her notes. Howard simply stared. ‘Honestly, Leo,’ said Terry. ‘I hope you pay closer attention in meetings with clien
ts.’ More laughter. A ‘quite’. Leo felt himself flush. ‘Let’s recap,’ said Howard. ‘Shall we? It’s exciting news so I’m not exactly loath to re-

  peat it.’ He turned to Leo. ‘Although I do hope once more will be enough.’ Leo, in spite of himself, was slinking another glance at the envelope. He pressed it flat

  with his palms, tweaked his frown and aimed it at his boss. ‘The Gazette , Leo, has approached us with a suggestion for a feature. Small firm, big

  case: that sort of thing. They won’t mention anything too specific, of course, but they’ll want to talk to you. They’ll want to photograph you. As well as the rest of us, naturally. We wouldn’t want you stealing all the glory.’ Howard twinkled and Jenny tittered. Terry, from his expression, seemed not to appreciate the joke.

  ‘Well,’ said Leo. ‘I see.’

  Howard extended a finger. ‘It’s only the Gazette , I realise, but you know how these things tend to get picked up. It would be an excellent opportunity for this firm, Leonard. And for yourself, of course. A clipping for the curriculum vitae.’

  Terry did not miss a beat. ‘Watch out, Leo. It’s not a good sign when your boss starts mentioning your CV.’

  There was laughter. Leo ignored it. ‘It sounds great, Howard. It really does. Although I think perhaps I should check with Meg. It’s only the Gazette , as you say, but this case . . . It’s . . .Well . . . There have been certain . . . pressures.’

  ‘Check with Megan,’ said Howard. ‘By all means. But it would be a shame to pass up the opportunity.’ His boss, suddenly, looked like a child denied Christmas.

  ‘No, of course. I mean, I’m not saying she’ll have a problem with it. Not at all. Quite the opposite, probably.’

  ‘Well then,’ said Howard, once again displaying his ivory. ‘That’s settled then. Is it? Pro-visionally, shall we say.’

  ‘Provisionally. Yes. Okay.’

  ‘They’ll be here a week on Thursday,’ said Howard. ‘At ten o’clock.’ And he flipped to the next page of the agenda.