by J. L. Beck
“It’s just… I don’t want today to end. It was so fun.” As she spoke the words my entire world flipped upside down. Mia had to work, it was just the way it was, but because of that, Lola was stuck home at lot.
Not anymore.
“We can do something fun every day…” I said trying to cheer her up. Her blue eyes widened.
“Really? We can do something every day together. I would love that!” Lola shoved from the table and came to my side wrapping her two small arms around me like I had just saved the day or something. I lifted my own arm, wrapping it around her small body, relishing in the feeling of our first hug.
“Me too Lola, me too.” And just as much as she didn’t want the day to end I too didn’t want the day to end, because it showed me more and more how much I needed to fix things between her Momma and me.
“Momma’s going to be so happy when I tell her about my day…” Lola whispered into my side before pulling away and going back to her food. I smiled behind the straw of my milkshake.
Lola had no clue how angry her Momma was going to be, and she never would because I was going to make everything between all of us better again.
Chapter Nine
Mia
I mixed the dough for the blueberry muffins I was making a little longer than needed, my thoughts slipping to Jake.
“Damnit!” I growled to no one but myself. I had been at the bakery for the last seven hours, and as the hours dwindled down so did my boiling anger towards him, though in its place anxiety bloomed.
“What’s a matter Kitten?” I could’ve thrown a measuring cup at his face, hell I should’ve. I swiveled around on my tennis shoes hating how much control he had over my body. All he was doing was looking at me and yet I could feel my cheeks heating and need pooling between my thighs.
Keep it together girl.
“Nothing is a matter. Life is grand. Perfect.” Sarcasm dripped from my lips. Jake must’ve found something amusing in what I said because a huge grin pulled at his perfectly shaped lips.
“Is it now? Because last I spoke to you, you were ready to throw down…” He raised and eyebrow as if to question if I still wanted too.
“Still am…I’m not exactly happy with you…” I nibbled at the inside of my cheek. My body begged me to go to him, to let him touch me, and awaken the need I had for him deep inside my chest.
“Well, I’m happy with you. Hell, I haven’t been this happen in God knows how long.” He licked his lips, and it was strange how badly I wanted his tongue to be touching me right at that moment.
“Well…” I couldn’t find the words I wanted to say so I stumbled for a second, giving him the chance to catch me off guard.
“Well, what?” He asked, his breath against my cheek as he spoke. How had he managed to get so close to me in such a short amount of time?
Remember why you’re mad at him.
“We aren’t happening. You’re more than welcome to be a part of Lola’s life but I can’t go through the heart ache again.” I felt so vulnerable pouring my heart out to a man that not only owned my heart but my soul as well.
“I told you we were going to talk, that this conversation was happening and I’m not changing my mind. I’m not changing my mind about us, or our daughter…” Tears welled in my eyes. He claimed Lola as his he called my daughter, our daughter.
“I told you, that you could be apart of her life, what more do you want?” I was hurting, my heart rubbed raw from the pain that it had endured. One would think the love of their life coming back after such a long time would evoke any other emotion aside from anger and betrayal but when I looked at Jake all I could see was the tears on my pillow and a woman with a swollen belly doing it all on her own.
“You! I want you!” He yelled his voice matching my anger. The truth was I wanted Jake. Hell I loved him, and I had never stopped, but I didn’t want it all to be for nothing again. I didn’t trust him and where there was no trust, there was no relationship.
“Well, you can’t have me.” I huffed, feeling his body get closer to mine. With my back pressed against the marble counter, I had nowhere to run.
I was in a trance, captivated by a man that had the power to ruin me again, and again. His head dipped and before I could turn away his lips pressed against mine. His lips were soft against mine, and he kissed me as if I was a fragile piece of glass on the verge of breaking.
“I fucked up. I hurt you. I ended us and for that, I’m indebted to you for the rest of my life, but I want this Mia. I need this. I can’t have my daughter live a life like I did. You know why I went into the Military. You know why I left this God forsaken town and it wasn’t because of you…” He spoke, cupping my face in his hands. Tears formed in his eyes making them darken.
I wanted this. I wanted it so badly, so why didn’t I just give in and say yes?
“You hurt me. You broke me, Jake….” I placed my hands on his shoulders squeezing his tight muscles.
“I know I did but I can piece you back together again. I can fix this between us.” He pleaded. There was desperation in his words that made me want to be the one to heal his bleeding heart.
I shook my head, feeling the tears slip from my eyes, and down my cheeks.
“Let me prove it to you, Mia. Give me one chance. One single chance and I promise you it’ll be the best choice you ever made. I swear it, on Lola’s life.” I couldn’t breathe it was all too much for me. Jake wanting Lola, me, all of this. I never suspected in my wildest dreams that he would come back and want Lola. I loved Jake, and he loved me but he never told me he wanted kids.
“Get out of that pretty little head of yours and stop thinking about the bad. I want this. I want you….” I could tell he meant every word he said, and even though my mind was telling me not to give in my heart was aching, and reaching out to him.
I wanted this.
“I’m scared. Terrified actually. “ I confessed not caring how much I was putting out on the line. If I was going to be saying yes, I was already half way to my grave. If he broke my heart again there would be serious repercussions.
“Me too. I’ve never had a kid, but I spent the entire day with Lola and it was like it was meant to be….” I blinked realizing what it was he had just said.
“You… you spent the entire day with Lola?” To say I was flabbergasted was a bit of an understatement.
Jake’s cheeks seemed to redden a bit and for the first time in a long time, I saw a slight uneasiness fill his features.
“Yes. I don’t want you to be mad because it was my idea. I asked your Mom if I could take her to the park for a bit. I never told her she was mine or anything like that. I just wanted to spend some time with her, get to know her, that’s all.” He was fumbling with his words, worry creasing his forehead.
“I’m… I’m not mad, just shocked.” And I was. Jake wasn’t the type to step out of his comfort zone and Lola was definitely out of his comfort zone.
“Really?” Jake stared at me with amazement.
“I’m… I’m actually glad that you decided to do that. What did you guys do?” It felt good to be talking like normal people instead of fighting and the second he said something I wanted to know it all. What did they do? Where did they go? Did they have fun? The center of my world was Lola, and I was more than positive that he knew that.
“I took her to Shultz Park and then we had Ice Cream. We talked about you, and then she told me she was happy I took her to the park today. Then I took her back to your Mom’s so that I could come here and talk to you.” Jake smiled tucking a strand of hair behind my ear examining my face for a reaction I was sure.
I couldn’t help but be overwhelmed with emotion. I had dreamt of the day that Jake would be here to do these things with Lola and here it was happening right before my eyes.
“Don’t cry, baby…” Jake voice was soft, as he wiped away a stray tear from my cheek.
“What if you get involved and it turns out to be too much for you? Then what?” I
questioned, looking up at him with terrified eyes.
“It will never be too much for me Mia. You and Lola will always come first until the very last day of my life I will strive to be the man you both deserve.” I bit the inside of my cheek wanting to believe him but also knowing even the inevitable could happen.
“You say that now, but you never…” Jake’s lips covered mine instantly, and a warmth like I never felt before radiated through my core and all the way down to the tips of my toes.
“Just let me have this moment with you. Nothing else matters but us, and our family, nothing…” He whispered against my lips, making my body feel all kinds of crazy things. In one swift movement, he had my ass on the edge of the counter, well he pressed a knee between my legs spreading me eagle.
“We can’t do this here…” I fumbled trying to get the words out as his lips slipped over my cheek and down the side of my throat and onto my bare collarbone, almost making me forget that the store was open and that a customer could walk in at any point and time.
“I guess you’ll have to be real quiet then won’t you?” He pulled away wiggling his eyebrows as he gripped the top of my yoga pants and pulled them down my legs, turning them inside out leaving me in nothing but a thong against the cold marble.
“Jake…” I pleaded though I wasn’t sure if it was for him to stop or for him to keep going.
“Just one taste....” He held up one finger, licking his lips, and dropping to his knees on the floor. I leaned back on my elbows knowing that the battle had been lost and that I was in for a pleasurable ride through orgasm city.
Hot breath fanned against my entrance as he blew softly against my clit, pulling the flimsy fabric of my thong away from my body.
“I’ve missed the taste of your pussy Mia…” His moan of pleasure turned me on further.
“Have you now?” My chest heaved, as butterflies exploded inside my belly. We could be caught any second, not to mention we were breaking every health code violation known to mankind.
“Don’t blame me Mia, or I’ll be forced to sit between these creamy thighs of yours feasting until you’re fucking raw…” An uncontrollable shiver made its way through me. He was so primal and full of need.
“Show me how much…” The words were barely out of my mouth and he was on me, his mouth honing in on my clit, sucking like he had never sucked before. My legs shook as he pulled my ass nearly off the counter and settled my pussy right onto his face.
“Fuck!” I cried out, my nails scraping against the marble. Jake didn’t let up either, he continued to suck and lick my clit proving to me just how much he missed the taste of my pussy on his tongue.
“You believe me now, baby?” He mumbled his tongue pushing into my tight entrance. I could feel the rolling of his tongue as he slipped it in and out, repeatedly making stars show before my eyes.
“Yes!” Breath caught in my throat as I spoke the pleasure of his tongue against my pussy nearly pushing me over the edge.
“Fuck my fingers, Mia,” Jake ordered, slipping two thick digits inside my tight pussy. I could feel him stretching me ever so slowly. My orgasm slammed into me, forcing all the air from my lungs.
Stars formed before my eyes as my lids fluttered closed, my body floating for a few seconds before coming back down to Earth.
And still then Jake stayed between my legs, licking and sucking up every single ounce of my release refusing to leave even a single drop behind.
“Your pussy is mine. Your body mine. Your fucking hearts mine. And all of me…” He stood from between my legs, while reaching out and wrapping a hand behind my head and into my hair forcing my face to his. “Is yours…” He whispered kissing me so passionately and deeply it seared a hole straight through me.
I nodded my head against his lips, kissing him back with the same soul-searing need, and love that he had for me. I was doing this. We were doing this.
And for the first time, in a long time, I felt like maybe I had found my happily ever after.
Chapter Ten
Jake
There was nothing like waking up and falling asleep next to the woman you loved. It had been exactly seven days since Mia agreed to be a couple again, and though I knew she had her own fears I personally thought she was doing great managing them.
“When should we tell your parents?” I questioned over breakfast. I wanted everyone to know that Lola was mine now that Mia and I had fixed our problems. The problem was getting Mia to agree to tell everyone. She had done so much on her own, schooling, opening a bakery, raising Lola she was a super woman in my eyes and I wanted her to decide when the time was right.
“Let’s give it a few more days and then we can get everyone together and tell them all at once.” Mia beamed joyfully.
“Sounds fine with me.” I took a sip of my coffee admiring the two beauties before me. The one I would spend the rest of my life loving, until the day that God took her from me, and the other was made from the love her mother and I shared. A love that I hoped she would carry on with in her life.
“Can you take me to the park today?” Lola piped up, her cute little face all scrunched up as she looked up at me over her bowl of cereal. This was the life I wanted to be living.
“Not today sweetheart…” A pout formed in place of that sweet smile that had just crested her lips. “But I promise tomorrow. I’ve got some work I need to take care of in town today and I don’t want to say yes, just in case I’m not back early enough to get you.”
Lola continued to stare at me with big huge blue puppy dog eyes. How the hell did Mia not give in to her every command?
“That’s enough baby girl. You’ll just have to come into the bakery with Mommy today and help me mix up some homemade cookies.” Mia swooped in right at the perfect time, saving the day, and taking the heat off Dad.
“Ooooh, homemade cookies?” This time it was me who was pouting, though I could imagine doing a whole lot more than just licking the batter off the spoon.
“Not so fast Mr. you’ve got stuff to do, today…” Mia smirked, knowing all to well that the only thing I really wanted to be doing, was her.
“Well as soon as I’m finished with my tasks, I’ll drop by for lunch… sound good?” Mia and Lola looked at each other and then back to me nodding their heads at the same time in agreement.
I got up shoving away from the table and placing my coffee cup in the kitchen sink. I needed to get Mia out of this little ass house, and into something that was going to support a growing family.
“Don’t stay inside that pretty little head of yours too long…” Mia’s voice resonated through my thoughts, her tiny arms wrapping around my mid-section as she spoke.
“I wasn’t thinking anything bad. Just that I can’t wait to fill your belly with more babies, and that this damn house is too small for all of us and our soon to be growing family.” I twisted around right then to see the look on her face. It was a mixture of happiness, laced with a smidge of fear.
“You want… more kids?” Her voice wobbled a bit, causing me to laugh.
“I want tons of kids. I want an entire family with you. I want a legacy to leave behind when we die of old age together.” My eyes dropped to her perfectly pouty pink lips. I wanted to kiss them.
“But we haven’t even told Lola yet…” Mia’s voice was low and the worry that filtered through her words clung to me. Was she afraid Lola would react badly?
“We will…” I started trying to defuse a bad situation from taking place. Mia was anxious about damn near anything nowadays and I wasn’t going to let something so small cause an argument. She was fragile as glass and I was the bubble wrap she needed to be secure.
“I hope she understands…” Worry creases formed against her forehead.
“Stop worrying. We will cross that bridge when we get to it, baby. For now, take some deep breaths, and relax. I’m going to go into town and talk to my ole’ man…” I all but growled the last part.
My parents weren’t peopl
e I cared to interact with for more than one reason, still, my father made me part owner of the local hardware store in town so being back meant I had to keep up my end of the bargain up even if I truly wanted to beat the living shit out of him.
“If he starts something with you, you know you can come by earlier. We can hire a lawyer, maybe find a way out?” There was an urgency to Mia’s words that I understood all too well. She wanted the best for me, but I had made my bed and now I had to sleep in it. Signing that contract, and taking over half of my father’s business was once a dream of mine. Until I discovered what he had been doing to my mother behind my back. Now the business agreement was nothing more than a trap, a way to keep in contact with my mother and me.
“It’s fine baby. I’m fine. Everything is perfect. I love you. I love Lola. It’s going to be fine. Now get that perfect ass of yours to the bakery and bake me up some cookies. I want something delicious to devour when I come by at lunch…” I winked, placing a kiss against her temple wishing so badly that I could take her back to our bedroom and make good on the promise of putting more babies deep inside her belly. This woman owned me. There was no doubt about that.
***
Hate wasn’t a strong enough word for the way I was feeling right at this moment. My father was thrilled to see that I had survived two tours in Iraq with all my limbs still attached what he didn’t know was how close to losing one of his he was. I ran a hand down my face in frustration.
“You know I meant no harm son.” Here he was once again, lingering, speaking about the past that I didn’t care to relive. When he cheated on my mom with one of the high school girls that would come by and clean the house every weekend everything went to shit. My mom always said there was no saving a marriage where love no longer existed.
“No harm is doing something on accident. Your dick didn’t just land inside her. You fucked her plain and simple. Own up to it, and move on with your life. God knows everyone else already has….” I huffed out a breath and squeezed my eyes shut daydreaming of Mia and Lola and the future that was paved before us.